WELCOME TO CHRIS'S HOME PAGE Read carefully and try to understand. You might learn something about yourself. This page last updated February 28, 2005 "Before you come to any conclusions, try walking in my shoes. You'll stumble in my footsteps." Depeche Mode "Two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference." Robert Frost These days, they go by so fast. I have tried for the last 8 years to slow them down without success. If life is a race against time, then we will all lose. If life is anything else, why do these days go by so fast? MOVIE QUOTES THE LORD OF THE RINGS I am old, Gandalf. I know I don't look it, but I'm beginning to feel it in my heart. I feel thin. Sort of stretched. Like butter scraped over too much bread. I need a holiday. A very long holiday. And I don't expect I shall return. In fact, I mean not to. It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to. Recommendations Starting 2005, for each movie mentioned on this page, I will list its ranking on the Chris's Scale of Movie Goodness (CSMG). It is a personal, subjective rating based primarily on plot, story, casting, acting, and enjoyment. Can I watch this movie over and over and feel as though I am NOT wasting my time? Does the movie get better and more enjoyable each time I watch it? The Village - Everything you would expect from the master of surprise endings, and more. 8 out of 10 on the Chris's Scale of Movie Goodness (CSMG). I, Robot - Will Smith in July, possible destruction of mankind by a seemingly unstoppable force numbering in the millions - You know how well this works out Strong 9 on the CSMG! Harry Potter 3 - Every bit as good as the first two. Ready for The Goblet Of Fire? 8 CSMG. The Lord of the Rings Trilogy - The Return of the King has grossed $377 million at the domestic Box Office making it the number 7 movie of all time! This gives the trilogy a total of $1.030B in domestic Box Office gross. It is the 2nd most successful trilogy in history following the original Star Wars Trilogy (Episodes 4-6) which grossed $1.060B. 8 CSMG. New Releases - MUST SEE Shrek 2 - May 21. Shrek 2 has hit $437 million in the box office. It has now passed E.T. to become the number 3 movie of all time! 8 CSMG. The Day After Tomorrow (Written and Directed by Roland Emmerich - Independence Day & Godzilla) - May 28. $186 million. 7 CSMG. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban - June 4. $248 million. 8 CSMG. Spider-Man 2 - June 30. SP2 has grossed $368 million in 9 weeks in the theaters. It is already the number 9 movie ever and will hopefully pass the jesus christ movie and take over the number 8 spot in a few weeks. 7 CSMG. I, Robot - July 16. $141 million. 9 CSMG. The Bourne Supremacy - July 23. $158 million. 7 CSMG. The Village (Written and Directed by M. Night Shyamalan) - July 30. $110 million. 8 CSMG. X-Men 3 - May 5, 2006. Chris's Music Quote of the Month: MARCH 2005 I stood in this sunsheltered place 'Til I could see the face behind the face All that had gone before had left no trace Down by the railway siding In our secret world, we were colliding All the places we were hiding love What was it we were thinking of? So I watch you wash your hair Underwater, unaware And the plane flies through the air Did you think you didn't have to choose it That I alone could win or lose it In all the places we were hiding love What was it we were thinking of? In this house of make believe Divided in two, like Adam and Eve You put out and I recieve Down by the railway siding In our secret world, we were colliding In all the places we were hiding love What was it we were thinking of? Oh the wheel is turning spinning round and round And the house is crubling but the stairways stand With no guilt and no shame, no sorrow or blame Whatever it is, we are all the same Making it up in our secret world Making it up in our secret world Making it up in our secret world Shaking it up Breaking it up Making it up in our secret world Seeing things that were not there On a wing on a prayer In this state of disrepair Down by the railway siding In our secret world, we were colliding In all the places we were hiding love What was it we were thinking of? Shh, listen... Peter Gabriel - Secret World The Joshua Tree AUGUST 15, 2001 Rest In Peace Eldorado Edgar Allen Poe Gaily bedight A gallant knight In sunshine and in shadow Had journeyed long Singing a song In search of Eldorado But he grew old This knight so bold And o'er his heart a shadow Fell as he found No spot of ground That looked like Eldorado And as his strength Failed him at length He met a pilgrim shadow "Shadow", said he "Where can it be This land of Eldorado?" "Over the mountains Of the moon Down the valley of the shadow Ride, boldly, ride" The shade replied, "If you seek for Eldorado" The quest to obtain a goal is more important than the goal itself. CHRIS QUOTES: I feel as though I will spend my entire life searching for what will make me truly happy. And, in the end, I will find it. Only then will I realize that I did not have to spend my entire life searching .......... You were with me from the beginning. True fear is imagined, not experienced. 2-28-05 A person is smart. People are ignorant. 10-3-04 Damn wankers 5-1-04 In this great search for happiness, if anyone finds mine, can they please return it to me? 4-6-04 How can we ever have time if we do not take time to make time? 12-30-03 We all have wings. Come fly with me. If we really do learn from our mistakes, then I am the wisest person on Earth. Distance is a horrible thief of what is precious, because it only reminds us of how precious it is. Never let go of your dreams. Live and let live. How can you ever be sure you are right, unless you also consider that you may be wrong? If time travel were possible, would we not already know about it? Does it feel like TV shows have become the filler between commercials? Do not cry because it is over; smile because it happened. We should forget about what ifs and think about what is. Rumors are just ignorant people believing ignorant people. Just because I do not agree does not mean I do not understand. Are you a leader, or a follower? I am good at everything I do, but I am great at nothing. Small minds discuss people. Mediocre minds discuss events. Great minds discuss ideas. I would rather die standing than live on my knees. You cannot expect to tell others the truth when you keep lying to yourself. The only thing shorter than a weekend is a vacation. The more things change, the more they stay the same. What you see depends mainly on what you look for. You are only as old as you feel. Ignorance is ignorance. If you hide so much from others, you will end up hiding you from yourself. A chain is only as strong as its weakest link. Sometimes, I feel like a piece of meat that has been eaten, shit in a toilet, then flushed. Twice. It is not fair to make your friends pay for others' mistakes. Oh the pain of wanting something that is not perfect. We rarely consider certain situations because we think they will never happen to us. Most humans are on the world, not in it. I would rather be a smartass than a dumbass. It is hard to want something that you already have. SAVE THE PLANET ...... KILL THE HUMANS. What we do is not as important as why we do it. PISS ON THAT! Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. How is this possible when you bury your dead in a box? You will only find what you are looking for after you stop looking. Never trust AOL because it is a pile of shit. How can you stay mad at someone who has "done you wrong", when you have learned so much from them? Time and self are the best teachers, but we must first understand how they interact before we can learn from them. All one ever needs, in times of despair, is to remember what is left in the box. It is true that time heals all wounds, but it is kind enough to leave a scar. All the wrong things happen for all the right reasons. We humans could learn a lot if we only had the courage and the wisdom to ask the right questions. People worry about crossing lines while I ask, "Why are there lines?" In order to understand and love someone, you must first understand and love yourself. A good friend is hard to find and even harder to lose. Happiness is the key to life. Who made who? Why do humans fear and try to control what they fail to understand? The alpha and the omega are irrelevant without the substance in between. Why is Homo sapiens the only species that has sex for fun? Heresy is opposed only by the closed-minded. In order to understand the answer, you must be wise enough to ask the question. Is it not arrogant for humans to believe that they are the only "intelligent" life in the universe? You always come back to your one true love. From Cheers Why are humans the only life form that kills for sport? Dreams are your subconscious interpretation of and reaction to recent events and thoughts. You may never find what you are looking for, but you will live because you are looking. You never know what you have until it is gone. Do unto others as others have done unto you. It does not matter what you say, only what you show. You can never win an argument with an ignorant person. Why me? When I die, Nature will lose its greatest ally. I do not care what you believe in, as long as you believe in it 100%. You must play with the hand which you are dealt. I try. If god exists, why don't I know it? That would be... copacetic. You cannot fully appreciate anything until you have lived with and without it. Why are humans so eager to assume the role of a god and judge others? Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for I am the craziest son of a bitch in the valley. If a human kills others because it thinks it has to, is it really wrong? Why do humans feel they need to put lines between groups of people (stereotype)? OTHER QUOTES: Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds. Albert Einstein For the love of money is the root of all evil. Unknown "In the end, our society will be defined not only by what we create, but by what we refuse to destroy." John Sawhill "Still there exist secrets which should remain secret." X-Files "I want to believe." X-Files "The truth is out there." X-Files Throughout history, the search for faith has led man to look to the stars and the heavens for answers, but only by looking into ourselves may we truly find it. The Outer Limits Quotes For Friends and Family: ALL Humans: I laugh at our ignorance, our vanity, our hypocrisy, and our arrogance. Why would a god so perfect ever create a creature so horrid? Abby: Would you prefer it if you had the knife on your side of the car? Amanda: I will always be here for you and Ashley. Annie: "Who's gonna drive you home tonight?" "We've had our share of hard times, but that's they price we paid. And through it all we kept the promise that we made. I swear you'll never be lonely." Ashley: You are the first person to teach me that I am mortal. But, every time I see you, I feel like I will live forever. Someday, I hope you will understand. Chastin: You were always a great road trip companion. The spot and I miss you. Where the hell are you?? Christy: Congratulations! You will never look at life the same way again. You will ALWAYS be the rookie. Coal: It is good to have you back, my friend. I have missed you. Daniel: I miss the rocks, our talks about religion and the meaning of life. Hell, I even miss Yuna. The bridge will miss us. It is true that time heals all wounds, but it always leaves a scar. "Put the contraband down and put your hands on the hood of the car!" TA power!! Death Valley: Do not be sad. I am coming home. The Desert: You are so pure and devoid of human influence. Oh, how I envy you. "When I go there, I go there with you. It's all I can do." "All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms." Dewey: "YANG" I trust you more than you know. You have become a very close friend and I will never forget our talks. I hope to see you soon. TJ says HI. Time for a Matrix Marathon! Star Trek, too. Have you ever been able to shower at the same time you take a shit and do your laundry? And Dewey, I too love the rainy nights. 831. Friends In Mississippi: Thank you for a summer that I will never forget. Gizmo: I thought I was the one who was bringing life back to you. I found out that it is you who brings it back to me. "god": HELLO?? Is there anybody out there? Gram: I miss you so much. "I once was blind, but now, I see. Was lost, but now I'm found." You are the most influential person in my life. Thank you for all that you do for me. Haley: "Oh my love, you have your mother's eyes, and when I see you laugh, you have your mother's smile." You are so beautiful, so young. You are so simple, yet so complex. Your mother says you are an angel. I wonder if she knows how right she is. Jason: You have always been a very close friend. It is a damn shame I just now realized this. Jodie: "All around your island, there's a barricade. It keeps out the danger; holds in the pain." Remember the mouse. Again. Kite. Joshua (The Cat): MY BEST FRIEND. "I may have died, but I've gone nowhere. Just think of me and I'll be there." You have ALWAYS been there, and always will be. Your love is whole, honest and without judgment. We humans could learn something if we could only learn to open our eyes. "I am smiling next to you, in silent lucidity." The Joshua Tree: A symbol representing ALL that I hold sacred. Joshua: These are the times that try our souls. You are the only person I know who can get through this. Thank you for being a TRUE friend. Kayce: You are like the sister I never had. Thanks for being there for us. You remind me of my youth. Do not ever let that part of you change. Kelly: When I think of you and Haley, I see two angels holding hands, walking through life. Kyle: Freaks are not born. We are hatched. La Nariz: You showed me that happiness is everything. This is a lesson everyone should learn. Lisa: You have a beautiful soul that you should let everyone see. Until then, keep writing. The sadness inside will be defeated. Then, you can come fly with me anytime. Or hang glide if you prefer. Loni: I love you. I miss you so much. I never expected us to become this close this fast. I looked to you hoping to find an open ear and a shoulder to cry on. I found them, and an open heart and open hand too. "GLUE" Misery loves company. "My precious." 831. Lori: I have missed your company these last few years. It is good to know you again. The more things change, the more they stay the same. Mack: So, when are we going ropin'? Mandy: Try e-mailing me instead of calling me from another country half way around the world. Stand tall, not many people are as strong as you are. Did you ever figure out how to use a spoon? I will miss you. I hope you get all you want out of life. You deserve it. My X-Files girl. LA Traffic and cellular phones. Mathieu: I miss you and I love you to the moon and back. SUPERHUG! "When it's cold outside, I've got the month of May." "You so totally rock squirt!" Mike: LIVE LONG AND PROSPER. Moses: You mean more to me than I ever realized. I will always love you. Nature: My one true love. The only inspiration I ever needed. The "Force". The only reason I know what TRUE love is. My Parents: Thank You.....for EVERYTHING. Perkins: You were there for me more than you know. Thank you, my friend. Phoenix: Daniel, Chastin and Tom-Tom say "HI". Someday ... Porsche: There is no substitute. Much more than just a car. Mrs. Roskam: You were the first to open my eyes to the REAL world. Sheila: Things will always work out. You just have to be strong enough to make it through. It has been way too long, my friend. Society: You corrupt good people and turn us all into monsters. South Padre Island: Spring Break '97, '98, and '00. The Spot: The great escape. Tom-Tom: We have been close friends as long as I can remember, and will be as long as we live. My Tree: You are so much more. You are my friend who comforts me when I need it most. Your sound. Your touch. I long for a human to hold me the way you do. The Trenches: It is as if contentment and joy were something tangible and you could wrap yourself up in them. If ever I have felt Nature's hand, it was with you. My FRP. The X-Files: A show even I can not understand sometimes. Everyone Else: SORRY. All you get is "HI". Quotes From Songs: Bob Carlisle: "There's two things I know for sure. She was sent here from heaven, and she's Daddy's little girl. As I drop to my knees by her bed at night, she talks to Jesus and I close my eyes. And I thank God for all of the joy in my life, oh but most of all... For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride. I know the cake looks funny Daddy, but I sure tried. Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right. To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night. Sweet sixteen today. She's looking like her Mama, a little more everyday. One part woman, the other part girl. To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls. Trying her wings out in a great big world. But I remember... Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. You know how much I love you Daddy, but if you don't mind. I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time. With all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right. To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night. All the precious time, Oh, like the wind the years go by. Precious butterfly, Spread your wings and fly. She'll change her name today. She'll make a promise, and I'll give her away. Standing in the bride room just staring at her. She asks me what I'm thinking, and I said I'm not sure. I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl, And she leaned over... Gave me butterfly kisses with her Mama there. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. Walk me down the aisle Daddy, it's just about time. Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy? Daddy, don't cry. Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right. To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses. I couldn't ask God for more, then this is what love is. I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember... Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses." Bon Jovi: "You want commitment. Take a look into these eyes. They burn with fire, yeah, until the end of time. I would do anything. I'd beg, I'd steal, I'd die, to have you in these arms tonight." "I could kick this bad world's ass if I could just get on my feet." "Still I look you in the eye. 'Cause I believed in things I've thought. And I'll die without regret for the wars that I have fought." "The desert's been a friend to me. It covers me by night. And a snakebite's not my enemy, but it taught me how to fight." Counting Crows: "Her kindness bangs a gong. It's moving me along. And Anna begins to fade away. It's chasing me away. She disappears and Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing." "Round here, she's always on my mind." "I can't go outside, I'm scared I might not make it home." "You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." "If you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love." Def Leppard: "You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind. Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time. I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call. When divided we stand baby, united we fall. Got the time got a chance gonna make it. Got my hands on your heart gonna take it. All I know I can't fight this flame. You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind. Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time. Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, do you have a heart of stone? Without you. Can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide. I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for. When we treat each other baby, like an act of war. I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise. When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes. There's a time and a place and a reason. And I know I got a love to believe in. All I know got to win this time. Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, do you have a heart of stone? Without you. Can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide. You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind. Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy. Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, do you have a heart of stone? Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, if you have a heart at all. Without you. Can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide." Depeche Mode: "Oh God it's raining, but I'm not complaining. It's filling me up with new life. The stars in the sky bring tears to my eyes. They're lighting my way tonight. And I haven't felt so alive in years." "Words are very unnecessary. They can only do harm." "Before you come to any conclusions, try walking in my shoes. You'll stumble in my footsteps." "It's too late to change events. It's time to face the consequence." "I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors, but I think that god 's got a sick sense of humor. And when I die, I expect to find him laughing." "Though my views may be wrong, they may even be perverted. She'll hear me out and won't easily be converted to my way of thinking. In fact she'll often disagree, but at the end of it all, she will understand me ... Someone who'll help me see things in a different light. All the things I detest I will almost like." "With grabbing hands, grab all we can. Everything counts in large amounts." Duran Duran: "Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand." "Don't say a prayer for me now. Save it till the morning after." "Where is the life that I recognise? Gone away. But I won't cry for yesterday. There's an ordinary world; somewhere I have to find. And as I try to make my way to the ordinary world, I will learn to survive." The Eagles: "I was standing on a corner in Winslow, Arizona, such a fine sight to see." "We may lose, and we may win. But we'll never be here again." "They stab it with their steely knives, but they just can't kill the Beast." Enya: "If you really want to, you can hear me sing. Only if you want to will you find a way. If you really want to, you can seize the day. Only if you want to will you fly away." "No storm can shake my in-most calm. While to that rock I'm clinging. Since Love is Lord of heaven and earth. How can I keep from singing?" The Escape Club: "Don't be afraid, oh my love. I'll be watching you from above. And I'd give all the world tonight to be with you. Because I'm on your side, and I still care. I may have died, but I've gone nowhere. Just think of me, and I'll be there." Everclear: "Last thing I recall I was in the air. I woke up in the street crawling with my strawberry burns. Ten long years in a straight line. They fall like water. Yes, I guess I fucked up again." "Let's just drive your car. We could drive all day. Let's just get the hell away from here." Peter Gabriel: "I can imagine the moment. Breaking out through the silence. All the things that we both might say. And the heart it will not be denied, 'Til we're both on the same damn side. All the barriers blown away." "Rest your head. You worry too much. It's going to be alright. When times get rough, you can fall back on us. Don't give up. Please, don't give up." "I stood in this unsheltered place. 'Til I could see the face behind the face." "I am standing up at the water's edge in my dream" "I come to you defences down, with the trust of a child" Genesis: "Someday you'll be sorry. Someday when you're free, memories will remind you that our love was meant to be. Late at night when you call my name, the only sound you'll hear is the sound of your voice calling, calling after me." "Ooh I know you're going, but I can't believe. It's the way that you're leaving. It's like we never knew each other at all. It may be my fault. I gave you too many reasons, being alone. When I didn't want to, I thought you'd always be there. I almost believed you. All this time, I still remember everything you said. Oh, there's so much you promised. How could I ever forget? Listen. You know I love you, but I just can't take this. You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps. Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this. You know I want to, but I'm in too deep." Gin Blossoms: "My patience keeps me plaintive, my high hopes keep me alone." "The past is gone, but something might be found to take its place ... Hey Jealousy." "Time won't stand by forever, if I know it's true. And I've learned not to say never, or else I'll seem the fool." Guns N' Roses: "Cause nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change. And it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain." "Well I jumped into the river too many times to make it home. I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone. If it doesn't show, give it time." "You know where you are? You're in the jungle, baby. You're gonna die!" Don Henley: "I need to remember this. So, baby give me just one kiss. Let me take a long last look before we say goodbye." Hootie and the Blowfish: "She sits along my lamp post. Trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind. She says, "Dad's the one I love the most. But Stipe's not far behind." James: "Drawn by the undertow, my life is out of control. I believe this wave will bear my weight, so let it flow...Now I'm relieved to hear that you've been to some far out places. It's hard to carry on when you feel all alone. Now I've swung back down again. It's worse than it was before. If I hadn't seen such riches, I could live with being poor." "Sometimes, when I look deep in your eyes, I swear I can see your soul." "Whole face carved in stone, amongst friends but all alone. What do you hide?" "Bored and a drug is what I need. Need a change of scenery. Need a new life." "Take a drug to set you free, strange fruit from a forbidden tree. You've got to come down soon." Jimmy Eat World: "Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best. Try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away. Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own so don't buy in. Live right now. Just be yourself. It doesn't matter if that's good enough for someone else. It just takes some time. Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride. Everything, everything will be just fine. Everything, everything will be all right. Do your best. Do everything you can. Don't you worry what their bitter hearts are going to say." Matchbox 20: "All day staring at the ceiling. Making friends with shadows on my wall. All night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep. Because tomorrow might be good for something. Hold on. Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown. And I don't know why. But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know right now you can't tell. But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me. I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired. I know right now you don't care. But soon enough you're gonna think of me, and how I used to be...me. I'm talking to myself in public. Dodging glances on the train. And I know, I know they've all been talking about me. I can hear them whisper. And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me. Out of all the hours thinking, somehow I've lost my mind." Mazzy Star: "Fade into you." "There's a blue light in my best friend's room." New Order: "I feel so extraordinary. Something's got a hold on me. I get this feeling I'm in motion, a sudden sense of liberty. I don't care cos I'm not there. And I don't care if I'm here tomorrow. Again and again I've taken too much of the things that cost you too much. I used to think that the day would never come. I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun. My morning sun is the drug that brings me near to the childhood I lost, replaced by fear. I used to think that the day would never come, that my life would depend on the morning sun. When I was a very small boy, very small boys talked to me. Now that we've grown up together, they're afraid of what they see. That's the price that we all pay. And the value of destiny comes to nothing. I can't tell you where we're going. I guess there was just no way of knowing. I used to think that the day would never come. I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun My morning sun is the drug that brings me near to the childhood I lost, replaced by fear. I used to think that the day would never come, that my life would depend on the morning sun. I feel so extraordinary. Something's got a hold on me. I get this feeling I'm in motion, a sudden sense of liberty. The chances are we've gone too far. You took my time and you took my money. Now I fear you've left me standing in a world that's so demanding. I used to think that the day would never come. I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun. My morning sun is the drug that brings me near to the childhood I lost, replaced by fear. I used to think that the day would never come, that my life would depend on the morning sun." October Project: "My name is Ariel." "You shine like the moon over water. And you darken the sky when you leave. Now I want to know how to keep you. Return to me." Pearl Jam: "Is something wrong?", she said. Well of course there is. "You're still alive.", she said. Oh, and do I deserve to be? Is that the question? And if so...if so...who answers...who answers..." "Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay. Her lace spread out before me, as her body once did. All five horizons revolved around her soul; as the earth to the sun. Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn. Ooh, and all I taught her was everything. Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore. And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds. Of what was everything? Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything. I take a walk outside. I'm surrounded by some kids at play. I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear. Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head. I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning. How quick the sun can, drop away. And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass. Of what was everything? All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything. All the love gone bad turned my world to black. Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be. I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky, but why? Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?" Tom Petty: "All around your island, there's a barricade. It keeps out the danger; holds in the pain." "The sky was the limit. Into the great wide open. Under the skies of blue. Out in the great wide open. A rebel without a clue." Phil Collins: "I'll always be here by your side. Why, why, why? I never wanted to say goodbye. Why even try? I'm always here if you change, change your mind" "I won't be your fool anymore. There's no need to be cruel anymore …no, no. Least you can do is say you're sorry girl. The least you can do is give me back my heart. Just give me back my heart" "There are things we won't recall, feelings we'll never find. It's taken so long to see it, cos we never seemed to have the time. There was always something more important to do, more important to say. But "I love you" wasn't one of those things. And now it's too late. Do you remember?" "You know I never meant to see you again. And I only passed by as a friend. All this time I stayed out of sight. I started wondering why ... 'Cos I know, I know I never meant to cause you no pain. And I realize I let you down. But I know in my heart of hearts, I know I'm never gonna hurt you again. Now I, I wish it would rain down, down on me. Yes, I wish it would rain, rain down on me now." "White man turns the corner, finds himself within a different world. Ghetto kid grabs his shoulder, throws him up against the wall. He says, "would you respect me if I didn't have this gun? Cos without it, I don't get it, and that's why I carry one." We always need to hear both sides of the story." "Seems so long I've been waiting. Still don't know what for. Cause I've been a prisoner all my life, and I can say to you. But I don't remember. I've got love on horizons. And I wish upon a star. They don't think that I listen, oh but I know who they are. So take, take me home. Cause I don't remember." Pink Floyd: "And I make her prove her love for me, I take all that I can take. And I push her to the limit to see if she will break." Robert Plant: "29 Palms. I feel the heat of your desert heart. Taking me back down the road that leads back to you." Poison: "We both lie silently still in the dead of the night. Although we both lie close together, we feel miles apart inside. Was it something I said or something I did? Did my words not come out right? Though I tried not to hurt you, though I tried. But I guess that's why they say every rose has its thorn." Queensryche: "It's a place where you will learn, to face your fears, retrace the years, and ride the whims of your mind." "If you open your mind for me, you won't rely on open eyes to see." "Life's been like dragging feet through sand, and never finding the Promised Land." Savage Garden: "I believe the sun should never set upon an argument. I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands. I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you. I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do. I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem. I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone. I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye. I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality. I believe that trust is more important than monogamy. I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul. I believe that family is worth more than money or gold. I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair. I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires. I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye. I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness. I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed. I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists. I believe in love surviving death into eternity. I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye." Bob Seger and Martina McBride: "Chances are you'll find me somewhere on your road tonight. Seems I always end up drivin' by. Ever since I've known you, it just seems you're on my way. All the rules of logic don't apply. I long to see you in the night; be with you till morning light. I remember clearly how you looked the night we met. I recall your laughter and your smile. I remember how you made me feel so at ease. I remember all your grace, your style. And now you're all I long to see. You've come to mean so much to me. Chances are I'll see you somewhere in my dreams tonight. You'll be smilin' like the night we met. Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer all I have. You're the only one I can't forget. Baby, you're the best I've ever met. And I'll be dreamin' of the future, and hopin' you'll be by my side. And in the morning I'll be longing for the night, for the night. And chances are I'll see you somewhere in my dreams tonight. You'll be smilin' like the night we met. Chances are I'll hold you, and I'll offer all I have. You're the only one I can't forget. Baby, you're the best I've ever met." Soul Asylum: "I can go where no one else can go. I know what no one else knows. Here I am just a drowning in the rain, with a ticket for a runaway train." "Looking outside from my window sill, throw another coin in the wishing well. You'll never find what you're looking for." "So I stole everything they couldn't give away, yes, I did my best and I did the best that I could do with all the mess that I've been through what did you expect me to do? I did my best for you." "We could build a factory and make misery. We'll create the cure. We made the disease." "Every little thing about this tells me nothing out there is ever gonna help me. All these words I hear spoken, just promises broken." Bruce Springsteen: "I walked the avenue till my legs felt like stone. I heard voices of friends vanished and gone." "I was eight years old and running with a dime in my hand. Into the bus stop to pick up a paper for my old man. I'd sit on his lap in that big old Buick and steer as we drove through town. He'd tousle my hair and say son take a good look around, this is your hometown." Starship: "Lookin' in your eyes I see a paradise. This world that I found is too good to be true. Standin' here beside you want so much to give you this love in my heart that I'm feelin' for you. Let 'em say we're crazy. I don't care 'bout that. Put your hand in my hand baby don't ever look back. Let the world around us just fall apart. Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart ... I'm so glad I found you. I'm not gonna lose you. Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you. Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times, whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do. Let 'em say we're crazy. What do they know? Put your arms around me baby don't ever let go. Let the world around us just fall apart. Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart." Rod Stewart: "Who else is gonna bring you a broken arrow? Who else is going to bring you a bottle of rain?" "And when you finally fly away, I'll be hoping that I served you well." "But whatever road you choose, I'm right behind you, win or lose." U2: "I'll show you a place. High on a desert plain. Where the streets have no name." "Who's to say where the wind will take you. Who's to say what it is will break you. I don't know which way the wind will blow. Who's to know when the time has come around. (I) Don't wanna see you cry. I know that this is not goodbye." "In the garden, I was playing the tart. I kissed your lips and broke your heart." "Don't believe the devil, I don't believe the book. But the truth is not the same without the lies he made up." "I stopped outside a church house, where the citizens like to sit. They say they want the kingdom, but they don't want God in it." "How far are you gonna go before you lose your way back home?" "So where is the hope and where is the faith and the love?" "Free at last, they took your life, they could not take your pride." Van Halen: "There's a time and place for everything. For everyone." "I wanna hold you and say. We can't throw this all away. Tell me you won't go, you won't go. Do you have to hear me say. I can't stop lovin' you." Quotes From Movies: The Arrival: "If you can't tend to your own planet, none of you deserve to live here." Jurassic Park: "Yeah, but your scientists were so preoccupied with wether or not they could, they didn't stop to think if they should." "What you call discovery, I call the rape of the natural world." "Don't you see the danger, inherent in what you are doing here? Genetic power is the most awesome force the planet has ever seen, but you wield it like some kid who found his dad's gun." "The kind of control you are attempting , it's not possible. The one thing that the history of evolution has taught us is that life will not be contained" "I am simply saying that life finds a way." The Goonies: "Don't say that! Never say that! Goonies never say die!" Weekend At Bernie's: "This sucks, I am so unhappy." Die Hard: "When Alexander saw the breadth of his domain, he wept, for there were no more worlds to conquer." Star Trek V: "I've made the wrong choices in my life. I turned left when I should have turned right. It's the things we carry with us that make us who we are. We lose them, we lose ourselves. I don't want my pain taken away. I need my pain!" Star Trek Generations: "They say that time is the fire in which we burn." "Someone once told me that time was a predator that stalked us all our lives. But I'd rather believe that time is a companion who goes with us on the journey, reminds us to cherish every moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we've lived." BEST OVERALL SONGS: "Silent Lucidity" Queensryche "Where the Streets Have No Name" U2 Songs to listen to when you are depressed: "I Wish It Would Rain Down" Phil Collins "Everybody Hurts" REM "Don't Give Up" Peter Gabriel Song to drive to: "Pride (In the Name of Love)" U2 Song for the beach: "Here's Where the Story Ends" The Sundays Song to sing with friends: "Let Her Cry" Hootie and the Blowfish Song for night time: "Fade Into You" Mazzy Star Songs for the winter: "How Can I Keep from Singing?" Enya "To Touch The Sky" 2002 Song for the desert: "Where the Streets Have No Name" U2 Song to relate to: "Walking In My Shoes" Depeche Mode Song to ponder: "Silent Lucidity" Queensryche Song to remember the Porsche by: "Fade Into You" Mazzy Star Song to cry to: "Someone Else" Queensryche Song to remember me by: "I'll Be There" The Escape Club Other influential artists: Gin Blossoms, The Outfield, When in Rome, Poison, Flock of Seagulls. __________________________________________________________________ BEST OVERALL MOVIE: "E.T." Perfect 10 on the CSMG! Movie for Summer: "Weekend at Bernie's" 8 CSMG. Animal Movie: "The Cat From Outer Space" 7 CSMG. 80's Movie: "The Goonies" 9 CSMG. Comedy: "Spaceballs" 8 CSMG. Movie to cry to: "E.T." 10 CSMG. Movie to inspire you: "Star Wars" 10 CSMG. Pizza Movie: "Home Alone" 8 CSMG. Movie to listen to loud: "Stargate" 9 CSMG Other preferred movies: Signs 10!, Gremlins 9, Alien 9, Die Hard 9, Powder 9, Star Trek, The Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter. Here is a picture of my cats. Joshua (on the left, named after the cactus) and Moses (don't ask). As you can see, this page is dedicated to the things that matter most in my life....my friends, family, and Nature. These are the things that make my life what it is. They guide me through the game. They teach me the rules. They show me the etiquette. They help me when I am losing. They help me celebrate when I am winning. These people influence my decisions. They have been an overwhelming positive presence throughout my life. To all of these people and to all whom I have ever known....THANK YOU. 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"Before you come to any conclusions, try walking in my shoes. You'll stumble in my footsteps." Depeche Mode
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference." Robert Frost
These days, they go by so fast. I have tried for the last 8 years to slow them down without success. If life is a race against time, then we will all lose. If life is anything else, why do these days go by so fast?
MOVIE QUOTES
THE LORD OF THE RINGS
I am old, Gandalf. I know I don't look it, but I'm beginning to feel it in my heart.
I feel thin. Sort of stretched. Like butter scraped over too much bread.
I need a holiday. A very long holiday. And I don't expect I shall return.
In fact, I mean not to.
It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door.
You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet,
there's no knowing where you might be swept off to.
Recommendations
Starting 2005, for each movie mentioned on this page, I will list its ranking on the Chris's Scale of Movie Goodness (CSMG).
It is a personal, subjective rating based primarily on plot, story, casting, acting, and enjoyment.
Can I watch this movie over and over and feel as though I am NOT wasting my time?
Does the movie get better and more enjoyable each time I watch it?
The Village - Everything you would expect from the master of surprise endings, and more. 8 out of 10 on the Chris's Scale of Movie Goodness (CSMG).
I, Robot - Will Smith in July, possible destruction of mankind by a seemingly unstoppable force numbering in the millions - You know how well this works out Strong 9 on the CSMG!
Harry Potter 3 - Every bit as good as the first two. Ready for The Goblet Of Fire? 8 CSMG.
The Lord of the Rings Trilogy - The Return of the King has grossed $377 million at the domestic Box Office making it the number 7 movie of all time! This gives the trilogy a total of $1.030B in domestic Box Office gross. It is the 2nd most successful trilogy in history following the original Star Wars Trilogy (Episodes 4-6) which grossed $1.060B. 8 CSMG.
New Releases - MUST SEE
Shrek 2 - May 21. Shrek 2 has hit $437 million in the box office. It has now passed E.T. to become the number 3 movie of all time! 8 CSMG.
The Day After Tomorrow (Written and Directed by Roland Emmerich - Independence Day & Godzilla) - May 28. $186 million. 7 CSMG.
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban - June 4. $248 million. 8 CSMG.
Spider-Man 2 - June 30. SP2 has grossed $368 million in 9 weeks in the theaters. It is already the number 9 movie ever and will hopefully pass the jesus christ movie and take over the number 8 spot in a few weeks. 7 CSMG.
I, Robot - July 16. $141 million. 9 CSMG.
The Bourne Supremacy - July 23. $158 million. 7 CSMG.
The Village (Written and Directed by M. Night Shyamalan) - July 30. $110 million. 8 CSMG.
X-Men 3 - May 5, 2006.
Chris's Music Quote of the Month:
MARCH 2005
I stood in this sunsheltered place
'Til I could see the face behind the face
All that had gone before had left no trace
Down by the railway siding
In our secret world, we were colliding
All the places we were hiding love
What was it we were thinking of?
So I watch you wash your hair
Underwater, unaware
And the plane flies through the air
Did you think you didn't have to choose it
That I alone could win or lose it
In all the places we were hiding love
In this house of make believe
Divided in two, like Adam and Eve
You put out and I recieve
Oh the wheel is turning spinning round and round
And the house is crubling but the stairways stand
With no guilt and no shame, no sorrow or blame
Whatever it is, we are all the same
Making it up in our secret world
Shaking it up
Breaking it up
Seeing things that were not there
On a wing on a prayer
In this state of disrepair
Shh, listen...
Peter Gabriel - Secret World
The Joshua Tree
AUGUST 15, 2001
Rest In Peace
Eldorado
Edgar Allen Poe
Gaily bedight A gallant knight In sunshine and in shadow
Had journeyed long Singing a song In search of Eldorado
But he grew old This knight so bold And o'er his heart a shadow
Fell as he found No spot of ground That looked like Eldorado
And as his strength Failed him at length He met a pilgrim shadow
"Shadow", said he "Where can it be This land of Eldorado?"
"Over the mountains Of the moon Down the valley of the shadow
Ride, boldly, ride" The shade replied,
"If you seek for Eldorado"
The quest to obtain a goal is more important than the goal itself.
CHRIS QUOTES:
I feel as though I will spend my entire life searching for what will make me truly happy. And, in the end, I will find it.
Only then will I realize that I did not have to spend my entire life searching ..........
You were with me from the beginning.
True fear is imagined, not experienced. 2-28-05
A person is smart. People are ignorant. 10-3-04
Damn wankers 5-1-04
In this great search for happiness, if anyone finds mine, can they please return it to me? 4-6-04
How can we ever have time if we do not take time to make time? 12-30-03
We all have wings.
Come fly with me.
If we really do learn from our mistakes, then I am the wisest person on Earth.
Distance is a horrible thief of what is precious, because it only reminds us of how precious it is.
Never let go of your dreams.
Live and let live.
How can you ever be sure you are right, unless you also consider that you may be wrong?
If time travel were possible, would we not already know about it?
Does it feel like TV shows have become the filler between commercials?
Do not cry because it is over; smile because it happened.
We should forget about what ifs and think about what is.
Rumors are just ignorant people believing ignorant people.
Just because I do not agree does not mean I do not understand.
Are you a leader, or a follower?
I am good at everything I do, but I am great at nothing.
Small minds discuss people. Mediocre minds discuss events. Great minds discuss ideas.
I would rather die standing than live on my knees.
You cannot expect to tell others the truth when you keep lying to yourself.
The only thing shorter than a weekend is a vacation.
The more things change, the more they stay the same.
What you see depends mainly on what you look for.
You are only as old as you feel.
Ignorance is ignorance.
If you hide so much from others, you will end up hiding you from yourself.
A chain is only as strong as its weakest link.
Sometimes, I feel like a piece of meat that has been eaten, shit in a toilet, then flushed. Twice.
It is not fair to make your friends pay for others' mistakes.
Oh the pain of wanting something that is not perfect.
We rarely consider certain situations because we think they will never happen to us.
Most humans are on the world, not in it.
I would rather be a smartass than a dumbass.
It is hard to want something that you already have.
SAVE THE PLANET ...... KILL THE HUMANS.
What we do is not as important as why we do it.
PISS ON THAT!
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. How is this possible when you bury your dead in a box?
You will only find what you are looking for after you stop looking.
Never trust AOL because it is a pile of shit.
How can you stay mad at someone who has "done you wrong", when you have learned so much from them?
Time and self are the best teachers, but we must first understand how they interact before we can learn from them.
All one ever needs, in times of despair, is to remember what is left in the box.
It is true that time heals all wounds, but it is kind enough to leave a scar.
All the wrong things happen for all the right reasons.
We humans could learn a lot if we only had the courage and the wisdom to ask the right questions.
People worry about crossing lines while I ask, "Why are there lines?"
In order to understand and love someone, you must first understand and love yourself.
A good friend is hard to find and even harder to lose.
Happiness is the key to life.
Who made who?
Why do humans fear and try to control what they fail to understand?
The alpha and the omega are irrelevant without the substance in between.
Why is Homo sapiens the only species that has sex for fun?
Heresy is opposed only by the closed-minded.
In order to understand the answer, you must be wise enough to ask the question.
Is it not arrogant for humans to believe that they are the only "intelligent" life in the universe?
You always come back to your one true love. From Cheers
Why are humans the only life form that kills for sport?
Dreams are your subconscious interpretation of and reaction to recent events and thoughts.
You may never find what you are looking for, but you will live because you are looking.
You never know what you have until it is gone.
Do unto others as others have done unto you.
It does not matter what you say, only what you show.
You can never win an argument with an ignorant person.
Why me?
When I die, Nature will lose its greatest ally.
I do not care what you believe in, as long as you believe in it 100%.
You must play with the hand which you are dealt.
I try.
If god exists, why don't I know it?
That would be... copacetic.
You cannot fully appreciate anything until you have lived with and without it.
Why are humans so eager to assume the role of a god and judge others?
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for I am the craziest son of a bitch in the valley.
If a human kills others because it thinks it has to, is it really wrong?
Why do humans feel they need to put lines between groups of people (stereotype)?
OTHER QUOTES:
Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds. Albert Einstein
For the love of money is the root of all evil. Unknown
"In the end, our society will be defined not only by what we create, but by what we refuse to destroy." John Sawhill
"Still there exist secrets which should remain secret." X-Files
"I want to believe." X-Files
"The truth is out there." X-Files
Throughout history, the search for faith has led man to look to the stars and the heavens for answers, but only by looking into ourselves may we truly find it. The Outer Limits
Quotes For Friends and Family:
ALL Humans: I laugh at our ignorance, our vanity, our hypocrisy, and our arrogance. Why would a god so perfect ever create a creature so horrid?
Abby: Would you prefer it if you had the knife on your side of the car?
Amanda: I will always be here for you and Ashley.
Annie: "Who's gonna drive you home tonight?" "We've had our share of hard times, but that's they price we paid. And through it all we kept the promise that we made. I swear you'll never be lonely."
Ashley: You are the first person to teach me that I am mortal. But, every time I see you, I feel like I will live forever. Someday, I hope you will understand.
Chastin: You were always a great road trip companion. The spot and I miss you. Where the hell are you??
Christy: Congratulations! You will never look at life the same way again. You will ALWAYS be the rookie.
Coal: It is good to have you back, my friend. I have missed you.
Daniel: I miss the rocks, our talks about religion and the meaning of life. Hell, I even miss Yuna. The bridge will miss us. It is true that time heals all wounds, but it always leaves a scar. "Put the contraband down and put your hands on the hood of the car!" TA power!!
Death Valley: Do not be sad. I am coming home.
The Desert: You are so pure and devoid of human influence. Oh, how I envy you. "When I go there, I go there with you. It's all I can do." "All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms."
Dewey: "YANG" I trust you more than you know. You have become a very close friend and I will never forget our talks. I hope to see you soon. TJ says HI. Time for a Matrix Marathon! Star Trek, too. Have you ever been able to shower at the same time you take a shit and do your laundry? And Dewey, I too love the rainy nights. 831.
Friends In Mississippi: Thank you for a summer that I will never forget.
Gizmo: I thought I was the one who was bringing life back to you. I found out that it is you who brings it back to me.
"god": HELLO?? Is there anybody out there?
Gram: I miss you so much. "I once was blind, but now, I see. Was lost, but now I'm found." You are the most influential person in my life. Thank you for all that you do for me.
Haley: "Oh my love, you have your mother's eyes, and when I see you laugh, you have your mother's smile." You are so beautiful, so young. You are so simple, yet so complex. Your mother says you are an angel. I wonder if she knows how right she is.
Jason: You have always been a very close friend. It is a damn shame I just now realized this.
Jodie: "All around your island, there's a barricade. It keeps out the danger; holds in the pain." Remember the mouse. Again. Kite.
Joshua (The Cat): MY BEST FRIEND. "I may have died, but I've gone nowhere. Just think of me and I'll be there." You have ALWAYS been there, and always will be. Your love is whole, honest and without judgment. We humans could learn something if we could only learn to open our eyes. "I am smiling next to you, in silent lucidity."
The Joshua Tree: A symbol representing ALL that I hold sacred.
Joshua: These are the times that try our souls. You are the only person I know who can get through this. Thank you for being a TRUE friend.
Kayce: You are like the sister I never had. Thanks for being there for us. You remind me of my youth. Do not ever let that part of you change.
Kelly: When I think of you and Haley, I see two angels holding hands, walking through life.
Kyle: Freaks are not born. We are hatched.
La Nariz: You showed me that happiness is everything. This is a lesson everyone should learn.
Lisa: You have a beautiful soul that you should let everyone see. Until then, keep writing. The sadness inside will be defeated. Then, you can come fly with me anytime. Or hang glide if you prefer.
Loni: I love you. I miss you so much. I never expected us to become this close this fast. I looked to you hoping to find an open ear and a shoulder to cry on. I found them, and an open heart and open hand too. "GLUE" Misery loves company. "My precious." 831.
Lori: I have missed your company these last few years. It is good to know you again. The more things change, the more they stay the same.
Mack: So, when are we going ropin'?
Mandy: Try e-mailing me instead of calling me from another country half way around the world. Stand tall, not many people are as strong as you are. Did you ever figure out how to use a spoon? I will miss you. I hope you get all you want out of life. You deserve it. My X-Files girl. LA Traffic and cellular phones.
Mathieu: I miss you and I love you to the moon and back. SUPERHUG! "When it's cold outside, I've got the month of May." "You so totally rock squirt!"
Mike: LIVE LONG AND PROSPER.
Moses: You mean more to me than I ever realized. I will always love you.
Nature: My one true love. The only inspiration I ever needed. The "Force". The only reason I know what TRUE love is.
My Parents: Thank You.....for EVERYTHING.
Perkins: You were there for me more than you know. Thank you, my friend.
Phoenix: Daniel, Chastin and Tom-Tom say "HI". Someday ...
Porsche: There is no substitute. Much more than just a car.
Mrs. Roskam: You were the first to open my eyes to the REAL world.
Sheila: Things will always work out. You just have to be strong enough to make it through. It has been way too long, my friend.
Society: You corrupt good people and turn us all into monsters.
South Padre Island: Spring Break '97, '98, and '00.
The Spot: The great escape.
Tom-Tom: We have been close friends as long as I can remember, and will be as long as we live.
My Tree: You are so much more. You are my friend who comforts me when I need it most. Your sound. Your touch. I long for a human to hold me the way you do.
The Trenches: It is as if contentment and joy were something tangible and you could wrap yourself up in them. If ever I have felt Nature's hand, it was with you. My FRP.
The X-Files: A show even I can not understand sometimes.
Everyone Else: SORRY. All you get is "HI".
Quotes From Songs:
Bob Carlisle: "There's two things I know for sure. She was sent here from heaven, and she's Daddy's little girl. As I drop to my knees by her bed at night, she talks to Jesus and I close my eyes. And I thank God for all of the joy in my life, oh but most of all... For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride. I know the cake looks funny Daddy, but I sure tried. Oh with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right. To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night. Sweet sixteen today. She's looking like her Mama, a little more everyday. One part woman, the other part girl. To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls. Trying her wings out in a great big world. But I remember... Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. You know how much I love you Daddy, but if you don't mind. I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time. With all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right. To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night. All the precious time, Oh, like the wind the years go by. Precious butterfly, Spread your wings and fly. She'll change her name today. She'll make a promise, and I'll give her away. Standing in the bride room just staring at her. She asks me what I'm thinking, and I said I'm not sure. I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl, And she leaned over... Gave me butterfly kisses with her Mama there. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. Walk me down the aisle Daddy, it's just about time. Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy? Daddy, don't cry. Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must of done something right. To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses. I couldn't ask God for more, then this is what love is. I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember... Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses."
Bon Jovi: "You want commitment. Take a look into these eyes. They burn with fire, yeah, until the end of time. I would do anything. I'd beg, I'd steal, I'd die, to have you in these arms tonight." "I could kick this bad world's ass if I could just get on my feet." "Still I look you in the eye. 'Cause I believed in things I've thought. And I'll die without regret for the wars that I have fought." "The desert's been a friend to me. It covers me by night. And a snakebite's not my enemy, but it taught me how to fight."
Counting Crows: "Her kindness bangs a gong. It's moving me along. And Anna begins to fade away. It's chasing me away. She disappears and Oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing." "Round here, she's always on my mind." "I can't go outside, I'm scared I might not make it home." "You get what you pay for, but I just had no intention of living this way." "If you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love."
Def Leppard: "You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind. Instead of slamming down the phone girl, for the hundredth time. I got your number on my wall, but I ain't gonna make that call. When divided we stand baby, united we fall. Got the time got a chance gonna make it. Got my hands on your heart gonna take it. All I know I can't fight this flame. You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind. Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time. Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, do you have a heart of stone? Without you. Can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide. I don't wanna fight no more, I don't know what we're fighting for. When we treat each other baby, like an act of war. I could tell a million lies and it would come as no surprise. When the truth is like a stranger, hits you right between the eyes. There's a time and a place and a reason. And I know I got a love to believe in. All I know got to win this time. Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, do you have a heart of stone? Without you. Can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide. You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind. Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby...Crazy...Crazy. Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, do you have a heart of stone? Without you. One night alone is like a year without you baby, if you have a heart at all. Without you. Can't stop the hurt inside, when love and hate collide."
Depeche Mode: "Oh God it's raining, but I'm not complaining. It's filling me up with new life. The stars in the sky bring tears to my eyes. They're lighting my way tonight. And I haven't felt so alive in years." "Words are very unnecessary. They can only do harm." "Before you come to any conclusions, try walking in my shoes. You'll stumble in my footsteps." "It's too late to change events. It's time to face the consequence." "I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors, but I think that god 's got a sick sense of humor. And when I die, I expect to find him laughing." "Though my views may be wrong, they may even be perverted. She'll hear me out and won't easily be converted to my way of thinking. In fact she'll often disagree, but at the end of it all, she will understand me ... Someone who'll help me see things in a different light. All the things I detest I will almost like." "With grabbing hands, grab all we can. Everything counts in large amounts."
Duran Duran: "Her name is Rio and she dances on the sand." "Don't say a prayer for me now. Save it till the morning after." "Where is the life that I recognise? Gone away. But I won't cry for yesterday. There's an ordinary world; somewhere I have to find. And as I try to make my way to the ordinary world, I will learn to survive."
The Eagles: "I was standing on a corner in Winslow, Arizona, such a fine sight to see." "We may lose, and we may win. But we'll never be here again." "They stab it with their steely knives, but they just can't kill the Beast."
Enya: "If you really want to, you can hear me sing. Only if you want to will you find a way. If you really want to, you can seize the day. Only if you want to will you fly away." "No storm can shake my in-most calm. While to that rock I'm clinging. Since Love is Lord of heaven and earth. How can I keep from singing?"
The Escape Club: "Don't be afraid, oh my love. I'll be watching you from above. And I'd give all the world tonight to be with you. Because I'm on your side, and I still care. I may have died, but I've gone nowhere. Just think of me, and I'll be there."
Everclear: "Last thing I recall I was in the air. I woke up in the street crawling with my strawberry burns. Ten long years in a straight line. They fall like water. Yes, I guess I fucked up again." "Let's just drive your car. We could drive all day. Let's just get the hell away from here."
Peter Gabriel: "I can imagine the moment. Breaking out through the silence. All the things that we both might say. And the heart it will not be denied, 'Til we're both on the same damn side. All the barriers blown away." "Rest your head. You worry too much. It's going to be alright. When times get rough, you can fall back on us. Don't give up. Please, don't give up." "I stood in this unsheltered place. 'Til I could see the face behind the face." "I am standing up at the water's edge in my dream" "I come to you defences down, with the trust of a child"
Genesis: "Someday you'll be sorry. Someday when you're free, memories will remind you that our love was meant to be. Late at night when you call my name, the only sound you'll hear is the sound of your voice calling, calling after me." "Ooh I know you're going, but I can't believe. It's the way that you're leaving. It's like we never knew each other at all. It may be my fault. I gave you too many reasons, being alone. When I didn't want to, I thought you'd always be there. I almost believed you. All this time, I still remember everything you said. Oh, there's so much you promised. How could I ever forget? Listen. You know I love you, but I just can't take this. You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps. Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this. You know I want to, but I'm in too deep."
Gin Blossoms: "My patience keeps me plaintive, my high hopes keep me alone." "The past is gone, but something might be found to take its place ... Hey Jealousy." "Time won't stand by forever, if I know it's true. And I've learned not to say never, or else I'll seem the fool."
Guns N' Roses: "Cause nothin' lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change. And it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain." "Well I jumped into the river too many times to make it home. I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone. If it doesn't show, give it time." "You know where you are? You're in the jungle, baby. You're gonna die!"
Don Henley: "I need to remember this. So, baby give me just one kiss. Let me take a long last look before we say goodbye."
Hootie and the Blowfish: "She sits along my lamp post. Trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind. She says, "Dad's the one I love the most. But Stipe's not far behind."
James: "Drawn by the undertow, my life is out of control. I believe this wave will bear my weight, so let it flow...Now I'm relieved to hear that you've been to some far out places. It's hard to carry on when you feel all alone. Now I've swung back down again. It's worse than it was before. If I hadn't seen such riches, I could live with being poor." "Sometimes, when I look deep in your eyes, I swear I can see your soul." "Whole face carved in stone, amongst friends but all alone. What do you hide?" "Bored and a drug is what I need. Need a change of scenery. Need a new life." "Take a drug to set you free, strange fruit from a forbidden tree. You've got to come down soon."
Jimmy Eat World: "Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best. Try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away. Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own so don't buy in. Live right now. Just be yourself. It doesn't matter if that's good enough for someone else. It just takes some time. Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride. Everything, everything will be just fine. Everything, everything will be all right. Do your best. Do everything you can. Don't you worry what their bitter hearts are going to say."
Matchbox 20: "All day staring at the ceiling. Making friends with shadows on my wall. All night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep. Because tomorrow might be good for something. Hold on. Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown. And I don't know why. But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know right now you can't tell. But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me. I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired. I know right now you don't care. But soon enough you're gonna think of me, and how I used to be...me. I'm talking to myself in public. Dodging glances on the train. And I know, I know they've all been talking about me. I can hear them whisper. And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me. Out of all the hours thinking, somehow I've lost my mind."
Mazzy Star: "Fade into you." "There's a blue light in my best friend's room."
New Order: "I feel so extraordinary. Something's got a hold on me. I get this feeling I'm in motion, a sudden sense of liberty. I don't care cos I'm not there. And I don't care if I'm here tomorrow. Again and again I've taken too much of the things that cost you too much. I used to think that the day would never come. I'd see delight in the shade of the morning sun. My morning sun is the drug that brings me near to the childhood I lost, replaced by fear. I used to think that the day would never come, that my life would depend on the morning sun. When I was a very small boy, very small boys talked to me. Now that we've grown up together, they're afraid of what they see. That's the price that we all pay. And the value of destiny comes to nothing. I can't tell you where we're going. I guess there was just no way of knowing. I used to think that the day would never come. I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun My morning sun is the drug that brings me near to the childhood I lost, replaced by fear. I used to think that the day would never come, that my life would depend on the morning sun. I feel so extraordinary. Something's got a hold on me. I get this feeling I'm in motion, a sudden sense of liberty. The chances are we've gone too far. You took my time and you took my money. Now I fear you've left me standing in a world that's so demanding. I used to think that the day would never come. I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun. My morning sun is the drug that brings me near to the childhood I lost, replaced by fear. I used to think that the day would never come, that my life would depend on the morning sun."
October Project: "My name is Ariel." "You shine like the moon over water. And you darken the sky when you leave. Now I want to know how to keep you. Return to me."
Pearl Jam: "Is something wrong?", she said. Well of course there is. "You're still alive.", she said. Oh, and do I deserve to be? Is that the question? And if so...if so...who answers...who answers..." "Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay. Her lace spread out before me, as her body once did. All five horizons revolved around her soul; as the earth to the sun. Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn. Ooh, and all I taught her was everything. Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore. And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds. Of what was everything? Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything. I take a walk outside. I'm surrounded by some kids at play. I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear. Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head. I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning. How quick the sun can, drop away. And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass. Of what was everything? All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything. All the love gone bad turned my world to black. Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be. I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky, but why? Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?"
Tom Petty: "All around your island, there's a barricade. It keeps out the danger; holds in the pain." "The sky was the limit. Into the great wide open. Under the skies of blue. Out in the great wide open. A rebel without a clue."
Phil Collins: "I'll always be here by your side. Why, why, why? I never wanted to say goodbye. Why even try? I'm always here if you change, change your mind" "I won't be your fool anymore. There's no need to be cruel anymore …no, no. Least you can do is say you're sorry girl. The least you can do is give me back my heart. Just give me back my heart" "There are things we won't recall, feelings we'll never find. It's taken so long to see it, cos we never seemed to have the time. There was always something more important to do, more important to say. But "I love you" wasn't one of those things. And now it's too late. Do you remember?" "You know I never meant to see you again. And I only passed by as a friend. All this time I stayed out of sight. I started wondering why ... 'Cos I know, I know I never meant to cause you no pain. And I realize I let you down. But I know in my heart of hearts, I know I'm never gonna hurt you again. Now I, I wish it would rain down, down on me. Yes, I wish it would rain, rain down on me now." "White man turns the corner, finds himself within a different world. Ghetto kid grabs his shoulder, throws him up against the wall. He says, "would you respect me if I didn't have this gun? Cos without it, I don't get it, and that's why I carry one." We always need to hear both sides of the story." "Seems so long I've been waiting. Still don't know what for. Cause I've been a prisoner all my life, and I can say to you. But I don't remember. I've got love on horizons. And I wish upon a star. They don't think that I listen, oh but I know who they are. So take, take me home. Cause I don't remember."
Pink Floyd: "And I make her prove her love for me, I take all that I can take. And I push her to the limit to see if she will break."
Robert Plant: "29 Palms. I feel the heat of your desert heart. Taking me back down the road that leads back to you."
Poison: "We both lie silently still in the dead of the night. Although we both lie close together, we feel miles apart inside. Was it something I said or something I did? Did my words not come out right? Though I tried not to hurt you, though I tried. But I guess that's why they say every rose has its thorn."
Queensryche: "It's a place where you will learn, to face your fears, retrace the years, and ride the whims of your mind." "If you open your mind for me, you won't rely on open eyes to see." "Life's been like dragging feet through sand, and never finding the Promised Land."
Savage Garden: "I believe the sun should never set upon an argument. I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands. I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you. I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do. I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem. I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone. I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye. I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality. I believe that trust is more important than monogamy. I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul. I believe that family is worth more than money or gold. I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair. I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires. I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye. I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness. I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed. I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists. I believe in love surviving death into eternity. I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned. I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side. I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye."
Bob Seger and Martina McBride: "Chances are you'll find me somewhere on your road tonight. Seems I always end up drivin' by. Ever since I've known you, it just seems you're on my way. All the rules of logic don't apply. I long to see you in the night; be with you till morning light. I remember clearly how you looked the night we met. I recall your laughter and your smile. I remember how you made me feel so at ease. I remember all your grace, your style. And now you're all I long to see. You've come to mean so much to me. Chances are I'll see you somewhere in my dreams tonight. You'll be smilin' like the night we met. Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer all I have. You're the only one I can't forget. Baby, you're the best I've ever met. And I'll be dreamin' of the future, and hopin' you'll be by my side. And in the morning I'll be longing for the night, for the night. And chances are I'll see you somewhere in my dreams tonight. You'll be smilin' like the night we met. Chances are I'll hold you, and I'll offer all I have. You're the only one I can't forget. Baby, you're the best I've ever met."
Soul Asylum: "I can go where no one else can go. I know what no one else knows. Here I am just a drowning in the rain, with a ticket for a runaway train." "Looking outside from my window sill, throw another coin in the wishing well. You'll never find what you're looking for." "So I stole everything they couldn't give away, yes, I did my best and I did the best that I could do with all the mess that I've been through what did you expect me to do? I did my best for you." "We could build a factory and make misery. We'll create the cure. We made the disease." "Every little thing about this tells me nothing out there is ever gonna help me. All these words I hear spoken, just promises broken."
Bruce Springsteen: "I walked the avenue till my legs felt like stone. I heard voices of friends vanished and gone." "I was eight years old and running with a dime in my hand. Into the bus stop to pick up a paper for my old man. I'd sit on his lap in that big old Buick and steer as we drove through town. He'd tousle my hair and say son take a good look around, this is your hometown."
Starship: "Lookin' in your eyes I see a paradise. This world that I found is too good to be true. Standin' here beside you want so much to give you this love in my heart that I'm feelin' for you. Let 'em say we're crazy. I don't care 'bout that. Put your hand in my hand baby don't ever look back. Let the world around us just fall apart. Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart ... I'm so glad I found you. I'm not gonna lose you. Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you. Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times, whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do. Let 'em say we're crazy. What do they know? Put your arms around me baby don't ever let go. Let the world around us just fall apart. Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart."
Rod Stewart: "Who else is gonna bring you a broken arrow? Who else is going to bring you a bottle of rain?" "And when you finally fly away, I'll be hoping that I served you well." "But whatever road you choose, I'm right behind you, win or lose."
U2: "I'll show you a place. High on a desert plain. Where the streets have no name." "Who's to say where the wind will take you. Who's to say what it is will break you. I don't know which way the wind will blow. Who's to know when the time has come around. (I) Don't wanna see you cry. I know that this is not goodbye." "In the garden, I was playing the tart. I kissed your lips and broke your heart." "Don't believe the devil, I don't believe the book. But the truth is not the same without the lies he made up." "I stopped outside a church house, where the citizens like to sit. They say they want the kingdom, but they don't want God in it." "How far are you gonna go before you lose your way back home?" "So where is the hope and where is the faith and the love?" "Free at last, they took your life, they could not take your pride."
Van Halen: "There's a time and place for everything. For everyone." "I wanna hold you and say. We can't throw this all away. Tell me you won't go, you won't go. Do you have to hear me say. I can't stop lovin' you."
Quotes From Movies:
The Arrival: "If you can't tend to your own planet, none of you deserve to live here."
Jurassic Park: "Yeah, but your scientists were so preoccupied with wether or not they could, they didn't stop to think if they should." "What you call discovery, I call the rape of the natural world." "Don't you see the danger, inherent in what you are doing here? Genetic power is the most awesome force the planet has ever seen, but you wield it like some kid who found his dad's gun." "The kind of control you are attempting , it's not possible. The one thing that the history of evolution has taught us is that life will not be contained" "I am simply saying that life finds a way."
The Goonies: "Don't say that! Never say that! Goonies never say die!"
Weekend At Bernie's: "This sucks, I am so unhappy."
Die Hard: "When Alexander saw the breadth of his domain, he wept, for there were no more worlds to conquer."
Star Trek V: "I've made the wrong choices in my life. I turned left when I should have turned right. It's the things we carry with us that make us who we are. We lose them, we lose ourselves. I don't want my pain taken away. I need my pain!"
Star Trek Generations: "They say that time is the fire in which we burn." "Someone once told me that time was a predator that stalked us all our lives. But I'd rather believe that time is a companion who goes with us on the journey, reminds us to cherish every moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we've lived."
BEST OVERALL SONGS: "Silent Lucidity" Queensryche
"Where the Streets Have No Name" U2
Songs to listen to when you are depressed: "I Wish It Would Rain Down" Phil Collins
"Everybody Hurts" REM
"Don't Give Up" Peter Gabriel
Song to drive to: "Pride (In the Name of Love)" U2
Song for the beach: "Here's Where the Story Ends" The Sundays
Song to sing with friends: "Let Her Cry" Hootie and the Blowfish
Song for night time: "Fade Into You" Mazzy Star
Songs for the winter: "How Can I Keep from Singing?" Enya
"To Touch The Sky" 2002
Song for the desert: "Where the Streets Have No Name" U2
Song to relate to: "Walking In My Shoes" Depeche Mode
Song to ponder: "Silent Lucidity" Queensryche
Song to remember the Porsche by: "Fade Into You" Mazzy Star
Song to cry to: "Someone Else" Queensryche
Song to remember me by: "I'll Be There" The Escape Club
Other influential artists: Gin Blossoms, The Outfield, When in Rome, Poison, Flock of Seagulls.
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BEST OVERALL MOVIE: "E.T." Perfect 10 on the CSMG!
Movie for Summer: "Weekend at Bernie's" 8 CSMG.
Animal Movie: "The Cat From Outer Space" 7 CSMG.
80's Movie: "The Goonies" 9 CSMG.
Comedy: "Spaceballs" 8 CSMG.
Movie to cry to: "E.T." 10 CSMG.
Movie to inspire you: "Star Wars" 10 CSMG.
Pizza Movie: "Home Alone" 8 CSMG.
Movie to listen to loud: "Stargate" 9 CSMG
Other preferred movies: Signs 10!, Gremlins 9, Alien 9, Die Hard 9, Powder 9, Star Trek, The Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter.
Here is a picture of my cats.
Joshua (on the left, named after the cactus) and Moses (don't ask).
As you can see, this page is dedicated to the things that matter most in my life....my friends, family, and Nature. These are the things that make my life what it is. They guide me through the game. They teach me the rules. They show me the etiquette. They help me when I am losing. They help me celebrate when I am winning. These people influence my decisions. They have been an overwhelming positive presence throughout my life. To all of these people and to all whom I have ever known....THANK YOU.
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The OFFICIAL U2 web site
Depeche Mode
The Goonies
United States Humane Society
PETA
Sci-Fi Channel
Star Trek
Star Wars
Stargate SG-1
World Wildlife Fund
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