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bored out of my mind. kinda fixed things with james. i love him and i trut him so i'm gonna go with my gut feeling and stay with him cuz its prolly only my imagination overworking. so i guess i do really love him. i didn't think i could b-cuz of my past. but i do. I LOVE JAMES!!!! hes great.

i really need help.........
oh gosh i really need help. i have no one to turn to and the one person i want to talk to i can't. i need to tell him whats going on. i can't go on like this. i finally have all my thoughts straight and now i can't even talk to him. and i can't stop crying.....ok. i have really bad trust issues. last night he wouldn't talk to me. he got mad or somehing. so i go online this morning and hes there but still not talking to me. i love this guy. he says he loves me....does he really.? on ftj there is this girl shayna.....it says she loves him. i ask him about it...he says its nothing his away message today.....says Shayna i miss ya , Gimme a call the numbers *-***-***-****and the pass is ^^^^ if it asks.Dont call till after 5 ok.Luv ya baby ttyl!

now thats to this girl shayna....what does it mean? as a friend...as more? what am i supposed to think considering he won't talk to me. he doesn't even say anything about me. and he usually refers to me as "baby" but no...now its shayna.....what am i supposed to think.?and the fact that he says he loves her. and in his profile on ftj it says "i'm dating and proud...i luv ya hun" who is that to? me or shayna? as you can see i have severe trust issues and i need some advice. please someone help me......

help me......
omfg what the hell is wrong with me????? i have finally found someone who loves me unconditionally and now i feel as if I'M the one pushing him away. I LOVE HIM! I REALLY TRUELY DO!!!! BUT i'm scared of getting hurt again. and i don't wantg that to happen. and my little problem with trust issues is coming into play. idk why but it is. i don't want to hurt him either. i love james...i love him unconditionally so. but i always feel as if there is a part od "us" that is missing. something that isn't fully connected yet. i know that may sound crazy but its true......what am i supposed to do???? maybe i should just go with it and see where this relationship leads to. i don't want to be with out james...i can't be hurt like i was with alex. never again will that happen. this is all i can write for now. i'm out.