the tears when it comes to breaking up
It has come to mind that I am not the pefect person it the world and every time iI get a boyfriend I end up freaking out for some apparent reason. For example: my ex-boyfriend eric edward smith i had to break up with him because my social worker had come to pick me up from my grandparents house in order for me to got to rehab. on the account of doing drugs. and i'm not talking just about weed but i would perfer not to go into details. well a couple of nights ago my ex who was my boyfreind at the time was talking about rasing a family and having kids of course i don't want to have kids since i am only 15 years old and he is 18. but to make matters worse i do indeed love him for a matter of fact. the chance that i could've been spending with him right now but i wasted it on drugs and it hurts that i lost everything including a possible incredle relationship with the guy i most wanted and even dreamed of. just like i said to him you'll probabley meet someone pretteier than me and forget about me and he said he couldn't just as much as i didn't want to break up with him i needed to because long distance relationships just don't end up working. and that is the reason i go to bed crying every night knowing i can't see him or have him hold me or even see his bueatiful face for that matter.....i just don't know what to do but just my heart seal on its own. with a blister in in forever as it seems.