Living with a Porn Addict: What has worked for me...for now.
Mood:  lucky
Topic: Living with a Porn Addict
Hello. I have been living with a porn addict for a little over two years. It is the most painful thing that I've ever had to do in my life. How horrible is it to fall in love with and marry a man, only to discover that he can't keep an erection long enough to make love to you. Then, when you are at your wits end, and can not figure out what's wrong with you, and what you are doing wrong, do you discover that he is masturbating to porn DAILY.

You feel so hurt. You feel so ugly. You feel neglected, uncherished, and unloved. The man that you promised your life and fidelity to is beating off to porn so much that he can't meet your sexual needs. In fact, he doesn't even want to have sex with you. You awake in the middle of the night, and reach for him, to find that he's not there. You peek down the hall, and see the light from the computer screen flashing, and you just know.

You plan to have lunch in bed with the man that you love, but you arrive home to find that he is not in the mood...and you just know. So you check the history on your computer, and you see that not twenty minutes before you arrived home, that he was looking at pictures of barely legal teens.

You get so angry, that you call a lawyer for a divorce. You are sick and tired of it. You're a newlywed for God's sake! You should be having sex every day, but your husband can't get it up for you!

BECAUSE OF PORN!

So you cry, and you beg him to stop. He promises that he will. Porn isn't that big of a deal, and he doesn't care to give it up for you.

But nothing changes. He still sneaks behind your back and looks...only this time, he deletes the history.

So then you learn about cookies. You check the cookies. He's not fooling anyone. He's gone from once a day, to sometimes three times a day, and you still aren't getting any.

You tell him that he's not fooling anyone, and that you know all about everything he sees, and you are sick of not having sex.

He promises to stop.

He doesn't stop.

You live in sexless misery. You don't understand. What's wrong with you that your own husband doesn't want to have sex with you!? Are your breasts not big enough??? Are you too fat!? Is your hair to short!? If he didn't want you, why did he marry you and put you through this!?!?

You slowly start to hate him...

This is my story. This is my life, and I'm going to share with you how I'm learning day by day to live with it.