* OCEANS BETWEEN FRIENDS*

You came into my life like a ray of sunshine and then you were gone. You left me.... Through tears and heartbreaking pain we said our goodbyes. Your tears mingling with mine. Your pain a mirror image of my own.

Sadness, emptiness and loss. Who now will I confide in? Who now will listen to my hearts secrets? Who will comfort me and console me when I feel lost and alone? And who will hold me when my doubts resurface and my fears assail me?

Why is life so unfair my friend? Whos right was it to put oceans between us? Didn’t they realise how desperately we needed each other? They gave us but a tiny glimpse of what could be And then they snatched it, cruely, out of our grasp.

Damn them.....Damn life. Damn us for meakly accepting it. Damn us for not fighting. And above all...Damn lifes many commitments. Are we so weak, my friend, that we cannot fight that which seperates us? With tears in my eyes.....I say yes....

We mapped out our lives before we knew what we would mean to each other. So, now, you go back to yours...And I, I go back to mine. And we are left to wonder if this pain in our hearts will ever heal. My heart tells me......It will not.

We both tasted what true friendship was really like. And we wept tears of regret when it was taken away from us. But no matter what happens. No matter how many miles, oceans and countries they put between us. If ever you should need me I will always be here for you. And when tears threaten to fall always remember...

I love you....Friend of my heart.




© Sue Cummins 15/11/98