*A DAUGHTERS PAIN*

                       As you lay in your sickbed.                    
                                                        You looked so sad and lost.                                                        
                                          I'd have given you my life's blood.                                        
                                            No matter what the cost.                                          





I didn't want to lose you.
I loved you more than life.
You were more than just a mother
  You were a nanna and a wife




                             So much I needed to tell you.                             
                                So many things to say.                                  
                       I thought you were getting better.                      
You seemed stronger everyday.




                                                     But then you lost your lustre.                                                                               
And your spirits seemed to fall.
I thought you were just tired.
And so fed up with it all.





                 You hardly ever spoke to me.                     
               Was there nothing you needed to say?                   
          Did you know that you were dying?              
 Did you even want to stay?  





And then while you lay sleeping
 The Lord he quietly came.  
                                              He laid his hand upon your heart                                                                         
 And took away your pain.





          I don't think I can ever forgive Him.            
                                For taking you away.                                    
                He shattered my world completely.                   
   All in a single day.       




You were more than just my mother
                              You were my closest friend.                                 
We shared a very special bond.
Why did it have to end?





                            You listened to my problems.                          
                       And talked my worries through.                       
                  You were always there to guide me.               
           And I cherished having you.       





  All the love you gave me.
  Was always pure and true.
                     You were a very special friend.                  
     And I cherished loving you.





               There comes a time in all our lives.             
                             When we must just let go.                           
           And I've tried so hard to do that mum.           
        But my hearts still aching so.     





  They say with time comes healing.
  And I pray to God that’s true.
                             I thought I'd die from all the pain.                          
I felt in losing you.





                      So think of me with tenderness.                       
                            This daughter you left behind.                            
             And please be there to welcome me.              
     When God deems it's my time.   





So until we are together.
I'll do my best and try.
To heal the gap your leaving left.
                                                        And to stem the tears I cry.                                                                               





I'll be thinking of you always.
As you fill my heart with love.
And try to make you proud of me.
As you watch me from above.











©Susan Cummins 1/7/1998