Cole Kalina's Online Journal and Response
Hey! this is where I say what i am feeling so if you don't want to read, don't....if you wanna hear about my messed up life do!
Oh yeah, If you wanna respond to whatever or put a feeling of your own, email me at jeremy_switch2@yahoo.com . Sure, why not!
June 18, 2003
I CAN'T WAIT TO MOVE OUT!
although i am 15, i have a whole future ahead of me! I think I know my goals, and I am aware of what I may encounter. Well reasons why I want to leave...My sister seems to be like a lesbian and being a bitch to me 24/7, and I get in trouble for her actions...yup...thats right. Evry time i say to my mom, I can't wait for one of us to leave, she gets sad and asks why we hate each other so much. I told her all my reasons. My sister isn't letting my use Kazaa Lite so i got Limewire and Grokster to myself. My sister said to this girl from Georgie, The map you gave me smells like you!...How gay does that sound! At school, Lance Sandy is even gayer (not a word)! We were playing this game and my friend/Cousin Joelle joked about him being a woman. After that he said, if I were a woman I would be a lesbian. I remarked, so no matter what gender you are, you have to date the same gender as yourself! And he agreed, i kinda puched away since he has been making gay actions towards my friend Andrew. He cornered him into a room asking for gay experiences and shit like that. I would respect people for being Bi or Gay as long as the respect the people who are straight and don't want gay experiences...FUCK its GROSS! Anyways, that Lance kid is dating my friend Melissa, and she knows about his fantassies of guys. I don't think he ever has intentions of sleeping with another woman. So all the while...im suspecting this one person of liking me (one of my good friends)! She tries to make it sound like no other girl would date me, leading my to just ask her...i don't think so. I know a couple of people! But meh, what can you do. She is desperate and hella bossy to me. All my friends laugh at me since she is yelling at me 24/7 as well. I mean GOD....IT IS NOT LIKE WE ARE DATING. Back to Andrew...he likes my other Best Friend Tiffany (whome I tell everything to) and Alana is like best friends with her as well. Alana doesn't like Andrew and said she won't hang around Tiffany if Andrew and her date. So now, They are dating and she seems to be hanging around still cause i say their not dating...(tiff are you guys dating?) Anyways...When I move, i will forget this crappy lifestyle...remember my better friends (Tiff, Veronica, and Andrew) and forget about my family. When i start my new life...im literally staring my own life. My sister Robin i will remember, my mom, Tiff, Veronica, and Andrew...the rest, i may call them...but, you know how it is. I want Lance to stay the hell away from me tiff, andrew and veronica, we all hate him...maybe not Tiff...but oh well. Andrew is freaked out at Lance's gay ass questions. GAY ASS! Lance is a freak, and i mean it. Melissa should dump his ass and make him move back to Winnepeg. It's disturbing him being anywhere near me. He was even asking gay questions about me, i just told him to fuck off...and he just mocked, So i got pissed off and walked off. I will delete and add another day. Fuck this stupid town, need more oppurtunity.
Cole
I don't know if any one goes to this site, but it feels good to get this shit off my chest since I can't tell everything to anyone. Thanx for listening
June 18, 2003
Now my whole fucking family is mad at me for voicing up to my sister. PISS ME OFF! I told her if she wanted to go, go...She responded that she couldn't leave. I said why, no job, or money. As soon as my mom came home from work, i was in my room where i walked off so i did have to talk to my sister, She told my mom i told her she had no life. Now she walked off mad into the sunste. I don't know if she is coming back, but I didn't say it! My mom is pissed off at me and giving me a lecture that if you can't say anything nice, don't say nothing at all. Sitting throught that I was going to rag on her but i restrained. So then I came here to tell what happened so I won't keep it in. Maybe I will rent my own apartment, so i don't have to live in this fucking house. I hope my fucking sister will move out soon. She is 20yrs old. still in grade 12, doesn't have a job...irrespnsible, addicted to the internet, addicted to Cidny...(i think) and I just wanna say, FUCK OFF...YOU HAVE NO LIFE! But i just can't because i know what might happen. I can degrade people until they are nothing but a pile of rubble. If i said everything I had in my mind to my people, i would have no fucking friends, but be more calm...i wonder if this will help calm me down. Stress is not good at all, since I am almost failing Science. My FUCKING SISTER didn't let me go on the computer to finish my science labs (they need to be typed) so i almost failing my science this semester. I seriously had everything done, yet I am barely passing. Her non-existing life is ruining the hell out of mine. My plan is not to talk to her ever...My family fucking hates me...I did nothing wrong at all. All I did was voice to my sister the trth, and to her the truth hurts. Well ITS THE REAL WORLD. She needs to join the real world before she loses it for good. She used to like Men...what fucking happened. It pisses me off knowing what she is, and she hasn't announced it to any of us yet. My cousin/friend Joelle knows the truth. But shes a fucking blabber mouth. I am fucking tired of apologizing. Apoligizing has no fucking place in the world. If I said it in the fucking first place, I fucking meant it! It is my thoughts, making my thoughts to me write. MY THOUGHTS. LEARN!!!!!
Cole
June 19, 2003
LANCE IS A FUCKING FAG. He said he loved pain, and sometimes he likes sticking thumbtacts into his fucking arm. Once, he burnt himslef on a woodstove...after the fucking BLISTER got ripped off...he kept licking it. HE IS A FUCKING GROSS PIG. I still can't wait until I move away from the insanity i live in (no offense Andrew, Tiff or Veronica)...
