Things are looking up...
Why you ask? Her name is Britney...
Yup its a girl. And she has a boyfriend...I so don't want to mess that up. I mean they are having trouble and all, but she loves him...I think. Plus she's not interested in me. Its like she's always trying to push me back at Ryanne.
I love Ryanne don't get me wrong...but she's like my baby sister and I have to protect her. I don't...LOVE her...ew. I think thats something I really need to straighten everyone out about.
We're in Las Vegas...Ryanne and Mike still not talking to me...damn it. Ethan showed up, damn him. He was supposed to surprise Ryanne in NY with the baby. Well I have to think of something else to get in good with her...maybe the truth?
But thats the least of my worries...if I keep this Brit thing up...I might get hurt.She has this wonderful boyfriend and I just waltz in and have feelings for her. Maybe if I tell her I'll feel better hearing the truth....that sounds stupid, but maybe its what I need. Well she invited me to this costume party for Cali, who I don't know. Going in my Superman 'costume'...
Costume...yeah right. We all know better....
Until next time...



Just when things were getting good.....
Ok so Ryanne still won't talk to me...
so i told her boyfriend that I didn't trust him...or think he was good enough for her...hey she has dealt with some tough stuff and the last thing she needs is to get hurt by some bodyguard on a stupid tour! Give me a break. I thought she was soooo much smarter than this!
Ok so I know what your thinking...I'm not jealous....
ok so I am a little. She's my best friend. I'm not jealous because I love her in that way, I'm jealous because for the last couple years it just been Adam and Ryanne...and now...I'm gonna lost that because of him. Sometimes I guess you have to grow up...