O yea! and since prom is in what.. soon? remember the band rufio, the one i obsessed over for about.. 2 months?
You're standing there alone And so am I But I want you here By my side Your smile at me Is everything The staring game That song of love.
I look you in the eyes I try to read you thoughts I ask you to go with me To a far off place. Oh.
You and me dancing the night away You can feel my heart beating so hard. We look eye to eye And I'm swept away. On a moonlit walk on the beach Watching the sunrise for the first time I'm in a trance From that one slowdance.
We don't have to talk, We don't have to laugh at all I just want you here with me
Last night i was thinking...what happened to the innocence? Back in jr high everything was so new and even the littlest things seemed so "scandalous". It kinda scares me how numb people are to those situations now, and now ordinary it seems to everyone. Since when was getting drunk cool? I feel like i missed something in the last 4 years... Yea, yea... I'm naive and sheltered but that sort of thing makes me very uncomfortable. I can't give a straight answer for why even moderate drinking and drugs is bad, other than it supposedly screws up your judgement and makes you look like an ass. I really hope you don't go to that party on Friday Tamie. I like you best when you're alive.
thanks you guys fo rlistening to me...even when i don't know what to say. =)
be it a minute of your two cents or hours on end of discussing back and forth...you guys are the greatest. both as friends and as moral backbones hehe. thanks for respecting me even though i make bad decisions all the time. i'm trying. :) bye sunny honey bunnies! =)))))))
well it's Feb so... happy late V-DAY! and... umm wow our english project is super weird! and THANKS A MILLION MR. ERIC TAI! yup now the weblog is updated.
i like the layout!!! the green post background adds festivity to the site! thanks to everyone who could make it to the party on sunday... and to those who weren't able to, i understand! i hope you get better, cathy and michelle!
thanks for a eventful year. it was one that I will never be able to forget.
wow, we haven't updated since thanksgiving :P
but as tiff said, "have a good break! :)" merry christmas and happy new years you guys!
I'm gonana make it CHRISTMASY!!!! maybe? if I have the skill and time hehe :) Michelle asked me to post everyone's secret santa likes/dislikes on here so it's an easy reminder for everyone. But I kind of don't like the idea of stating the likes..cuz it's kinda like "so...go get me this!" So, do you guys mind if we just post dislikes--or like things you really hope you don't get (example: lotion/perfume..stuffed animals..etc.)
i haven't talked to most of you in forever. seems like we're all so extremely busy. just remember that i will never be too busy to listen or to talk to any one of you. i appreciate you guys a lot, and always have! you might call me a pimp (what a conspiracy!) but i know that you're just playin and know that i'm all for chicks before dicks. =) and laura, i'm so glad that you're ok.
thank you so much!!!!!!!!!! you guys are the best friends ever!!!!!!!! :DDDDDD il ove you all! cathy, deb, and everyone else of cousre--we must hang out! jess, have fun on vacation with your FAMILY--most important :D! shan, no worries just bs something if you need to =) bev, i watched your recital while cleaning up after the party..man you're my piano hero!!!!
next year let's ALL go climb mission peak and watch the meteor shower!!! theyre so pretty and cooool. it'll be a new tradition :)
not much of summer left but i must say it's been the best ever. it's pretty awesome how everything i've wished for or prayed for has come true/happened. (except my most recent meteor wishes =p..actually soem of THOSE TOO!) and MORE, like a surprise party? hahaha crazy. ENJOY THE REST OF AUGUST! it's such a lovely month!
hi you guys! i got back from LA at 4 in the morning today! :D my super short, twodays, one night road trip! all we went for was the HARVEST CRUSADE anyway! HAHA we are so cheap, the crusade is a FREE 3-day concert in anaheim, so we planned to squish 6 people into one hotel room, which was right across the street from edison field (the angels stadium) to avoid the $8 parking cost. and we drove home at 11 at night, so we just slept in the car. :D let's see, there were some problems leading up, like we had no driver and had to ask my mommy to drive us, and then thursday (day before we leave) at 11 at night lucas and jack find out they can't go anymore! so that messes some plans up, so we were kinda worrying and inviting people (at suchhhh late notice. hahaa dang i wish we had extra seats EARLIER!) but i was reminded of "no worries!" :) ok i'm too tired to write in such long paragraph form so i'll just annotate. -saw a car ON FIRE(in the back) and the driver didn't notice at all--just kept driving. (too bad we passed her too quickly and when i looked back she had exited. said a quick prayer; i hope she got out safely. -after 4 hours on the road, we went an extra hour to pick up my bro's college roommate andy, who is SUCH a cool guy!!!1 -got there a bit late cuz of the traffic, but my bro’s other friend from UCLA eusden(sp?) saved us AWESOME SEATS (compared to day 2 anyway!) -saw SWITCHFOOT perform their most AWESOME SONGS. new way to be human, i dare you to move, meant to live, on fire, and i think…..one more, but i can’t remember. switchfoot makes ANY length of car ride WORTH IT. hearing a song that is already so powerful, like meant to live--LIVE, is incredible. -hung out afterwards: starbucks, watching PROFESSIONAL HOLD ‘EM POKER (mm yummy!) hahah andy made sure we wouldn’t miss family guy on tv, but there ended up not being any! broke his heart =o -next day we ate IHOP to make my brother SUPER HAPPY: paradise pancakes! -mommy left us to go shopping, so we had nowhere to go until summerfeset (day 2 of harvest crusade) started, so we walked as far as we could into Disneyland until you had to pay! and there’s a LOT in “downtown Disney” where you don’t have to pay :D i saw a SQUIRT and PIRATE MICKEY stuffed animals in the HUGE Disney store there! hecka spiffy. boys had TOO much fun with lightsabers and swords in the lego store. sigh! J -it was BURNING at summerfest, where there was SONICFLOOD and some motocross show, so we left w/ jonas (another UCLA friend) with no where in mind. ended up at a random mall hahaha -Saturday night was audio adrenaline + delirious? but kinda SUCKY cuz this time the stadium filled up COMPLETELY and we had horrible seats. (like….behind the stage seats hahaa so we had to watch the screen) but the music was still good! delirious? ROCKS MY SOCKS too :D british accents! ahaha the message seemed ALMOST the same as the night before, which was kinda sucky too. but the message itself was pretty good, except at the very end it seemed like the speaker guy, greg laurie, was threatening us to go down to the field, where thousands of people went if they wanted to make their public stand for Christ. -hit the road as soon as possible! played MIND GAMES for so long!!! hahaha like the key game, jonny whoop?, the ball game, etc. OH and “who’s line…” games. at my party we MUST play..uh..the PEN GAME! i love it.
sorry this was so long! a lot happens in two days! my family was planning on going to either Hawaii or Canada, but august is sooo darn busy i don’t know anymore! i hope your summers are going great!!!! make the MOST that you POSSIBLY CAN OF AUGUST!!!! i BETTER see you all on Sunday!! hahah didn’t i say i would get my ears pierced when i turn 16? i’m stillll scared!!11
i keep forgetting that we have a blog! hehe sry guys..but yeah good job bev!! my dad recorded ur whole performance or else i woulda asked for a video..haha hes all, "why cant u play like that?!" and i'm like..:X *sinking into chair* hahaha well anyways u know whats a good song? 3 Doors Down- Here Without You...well i think its good..well yeah, i have like nothing to say..just that i'm soooo bored..haha i think i'll go occupy myself with some wonderful vocab words!! heh cya guys
debra... hmm actually i dun really kno wut to say but seriously... thanks a lot for that entry. i kno i have u guys to lean on when i have probs. its juss that.. i feel like theres this huge gap between me and the most of u (cuz we dun talk all that much.. but i dun blame u guys... actually i blame mahself because i always have this huge block in mah head so i dunno wut to talk about) and itll seem really selfish if i ONLY talk about mah problems. it'll annoy the heck outta u guys.
hey tamie jess and ang i saw u guys walkin down some street on sat but mah mom drove passed u guys and i was like hella squishing mah face onto the window and waving like crazy.. but i knew u guys didnt see me and it didnt occur to me that i could juss open the window and stick mah head out. =P yeah i'm stupid like that. lol
thanks tamie, ang and jess for coming to mah recital and for the beautiful flowers! =D it was nothing but boringggg but i'm really glad u guys came and went through it with me! ahh its finally over. very very happyYYYYwiehiuahgarg. ok. oh and say thanks to elaine for me.
we should all get together and bond. yes?!
debra thx a lot for that entry... it really made me feel better. ah i would put this in more detail but i gotta go. mah parents are behind me. bye!
good job bev on ur piano recital! oh yeah we forgot to tell u that the flowers are from elaine too! and she was sorry that she couldnt be there... next time u have another recital tell me! this blog was from tamie jess and ang
today was a great example of wats going on in our group...
that was the best entry regarding our group issues i've read so far. i fully agree with everything you said. it's so true about us all feeling ostracized at one point or another. bev: debra couldn't have stated my thoughts any more concisely. i really have trouble expressing myself.
debra that was a nice little positive blog entry...sorry that the advice to me will never be taken but thanx for it anyway. oh yeah! i went to SF a few weeks ago and i saw that man again! remember when we went with ur sister and her friends? and there was that guy outside and he was telling us not to have sex and he had a big sign? well hez still there! with the same sign and everything...hahah wat a funnie man...also are we ever gunna play some golf? well call me cuz i haven't talked to u in hellla days
boy was i suprised to check the blog a month & a half later and finding out ppl have problems... my insight (read it if you want or skip it if you don't care, it really doesn't matter). I really wished that you guys, which includes everyone, could have just relaxed over the summer and not think so hard about your social lives. Tamie & Laura- Tamie, you've got some differences and.. opinions but let Laura talk and explain herself or at least clear up whatever problem you two have. If you sit down together, listen to everything she has to say, and you STILL disagree with her...attitude/behavior whatever, i'll support your decision, 99%. Its not your fault if you guys don't click, but don't be so quick to drop a friendship. Bev- I'm truely sorry for how you feel. I wouldn't blame you for anything that you say/do/feel. I know that everyone has felt outcasted/ not belonging in this group at some point (and if anyone disagrees, you're a liar), heck, i've felt like i didn't fit in before too. But you've probly felt that way much longer and more frequent than i have and i don't think i could really understand how you feel. All i want you to know is dont blame yourself for whatever is going on with you. And if you or anyone else has a problem, don't be afraid to speak up, and be strong when you do, using words like "I" instead of hiding behind phrases like "some people". If you people don't make it clear that YOU have a problem, it will prbly go unnoticed. People aren't as smart and perceptive as you may hope!! If its not there in front of me, i probably won't see it. If you have a problem bev, talk to me or anyone else about it, its kinda what we're here for. I'm glad you spoke out, at least now ppl know theres a problem and we could try to fix it. No one will be mad, and if anyone does get pissy about something like this, they probably wouldn't make a good friend anyways. Cuss at me/the group (if given consent..) if it would make you feel better. i'm sure you'll feel better if you just let it all out without all the frills to keep it friendly. and i promise no one will hate you for it.
i kno i should be tellin all of u this kinda stuff in person... or at least directly online.. but immah wuss!! i admit it. but i also want u guys to kno that im tryin mah best to get mah act together and juss tell u guys flat out. i juss have trouble puttin stuff into nice words... and im afraid that im gonna make u guys really mad. =\
but i dont wanna point fingers at specific people either... cuz thats juss simply... rude. are u sayin that i shouldnt feel guilty for wut i wrote in mah previous entries in mah own blog, when i actually specifically mentioned the desserts? cuz i really did. but if i shouldnt feel that way then let me kno and i guess... i wont?
also... i agree with tamies reasoning. its meant for people who understand wut im sayin. however, it was wrong of me to assume that all of u kno that i was talkin about u... but i wouldnt be talkin about anyone else, especially at a time like this. if u didnt kno.. then i guess... now u do.
AND... actually come to think of it.. im not bein vague when i say "u guys" or "people" because im actually referring to u guys... or people. but if u had no idea that i was talkin about u guys the whole time then i guess thats a diff story.
im typin this whole thing while im half asleep, heh. so this entry may be really twisted.
but anyway, im really sorry.
man this whole thing is confusing now. we're goin off on so many diff tangents i dun really kno wut we're trying to solve anymore.
i cant go anywhere on mon, wed, thurs, friday, saturday and i work till 4 everyday except fridays but then i have badminton and airband so pretty much only sundays are with open.
the thing about generalizing in my blog was because that certain blog entry was to a certain person that understood wat i was saying...it wasnt meant to be understood by anyone that its not to.
btw the blog can't be seen because i messed somethign up on the website. but that's ok because I really didin't like that layout. I thought it was super ugly =/ BUT since i have no cd drive, i can't even use the photoshop cd that derek let me use. grrrr no worries im getting my comptuer fixed soon! so, just read the blog from here! puahah so ghetto :D plus, most of this stuff i don't think you'd want peopel reading anyways! We're not very entertaining. =p
blah my blog got screwed up too, so i'm using: www.livejournal.cpm/~swtflangirl . but yeah while i was trying to fix my blog and the links, i read bev/tamie's. and i dunno..it's really confusing and almost frustrating because i've noticed that you guys are generalizing a LOT (i.e. using "people"x3302432047 and "you guys")--basically making the problem even more ambiguous than it already was.(or am i the only confused one?) and i don't see how that will help resolve anything at all. Pointing fingers at "anonymous" people?...sorry, but that bugs me.
I remember when i was tryign to talk to angela cheng like a year ago, and i asked my cousin for advice (cause i was at his house) and he just told me to stop talking from a group perspective and be more personal. given, they are your own blogs and spaces for ranting, but still..i think generalziing makes thigns worse.
hmmm... i mustve not put enough detail in mah entry. thx laura for ur encouragement though. i dun really wanna talk about it right now... need a break.
and as for group talk... i dun think im gonna be able to make it any day of the week until im done with mah piano recital. btw do any of u kno if u can come or not?
hi guys. okkkk how about a group talk? or just a hangout. dude we have nottttt hung out even ONCE this summer. if i have it's been with like ONE or two people from our group. SAT CLASS DOESNT COUNTTTtt. hahaha can we stop being nerds for a DAY and do something? like a successful movie night or shopping or anything? ok! so free days (afternoons/nights? cuz i know kaitlin has school, bev/deb have summer school, laura has interning):
monday: not from 6:30-9:30 for michelle tamie jess ang tuesday: wednesday: i can't from 6:30-9:30 starting august thursday: not from 6:30-9:30 for michelle tamie jess ang friday: youth groups at night saturday: sunday: i can't till 4. and not at all this sunday.
that's as far as i know, so if you guys could pick a time o rsomething, thanks ^_____________^
i dont really understand what's going on. Beverly: know that we care about you. nothing's changed from the time that you started hanging out with us, to now. Honestly it's all a mental thing. keep saying to yourself that you've done nothing wrong... that you're a good person.. that your friends are here for you. drama happens, that's what makes adolescence so difficult. it's normal. (hey read "reviving ophelia... it talks about tons of other people going through awkward times--from eating disorders to suicide, etc") talk to your friends.. or at least those you trust. friends stick by eachother... that's why we're "friends".