a new day
Well Steves gone missing, he was supposted to do this first aid course for his work and he never showed up then he was never at the pick up point, never came home last night and wasn't there this morning, he has me worried, i hope he is ok,and when he does come back i am gonna beat the crap outta him for giving me a heart attack! But then i think he might not even be alive, this is worring me i won't be able to sleep tonight until i know he is ok, unless he is with another chick, ACK* THIS IS PISSING ME OFF HARD CORE!!!! It made me cry when i heard. well i hope he comes home tonight, i'll fill you in if he comes back and write a new entry tommorow.

another day...that sucks
a lill tid bit for you all. Today is the day that Julius Ceaser died. Also a bad luck day, well today was bad it started out as when i got to school i sneezed and got a horrible headach from that! So i took 2 asprin and it took an hour for it to kick in! Then my friends where ignoring me! To add onto that i was supposted to meet my drummer today and he never showed! Steve wasn't home today eather! *GRRRRR* Then during my social class pretty much the whole right side of the class were being stupid and noisy (doesn't help the headach)now i am finally home *sighs* and i can relax and fight off the headach! Oh and Dorian, you could never be scary, no matter what your still the teady bear#1 (steves teddy bear #2! but thats only cause well he's cuddly)!well hopefully tommorows better.

reality
well today i found out that steves friend Danny got his GF pregnant, now heres where reality sets in, how easy it is to get pregnant,or get an STD some of you might just take this as a joke that it would never happen to you, well it can, this hits pretty close to home for me, they were using a condom but it still happened to her, and she hasn't told her parents yet, i think i am taking this the hardest cause i thought the whole getting pregant thing was "just a joke" but it is. Steve and me are really close and we were thinking about it, it hasn't hit him yet that it could happen to us, but i know, i know it could i hope that Steve realizes soon, that it could so i am going to wait, i hope Steve will appreciate what i am doing for him he might not realize it now but he will later, nether of us are ready to be parents, i am 15 i still attend school and have a future a head of me, Steve well he is 17 and a drop out but that doesn't matter, nether of us are ready, i hope that you people who read this do realize that it can happen to you or someone close to you, you might not know it now but you will in the future, and if you hold off till your older you will be a better person for it, i hope Dan and jess realize that.

The worst week
well the start of my day i go to class, and sit there, then i notice from across the room Joel, staring at me, now being the person that i am i check to see if anything is wrong(fly undone, smuged makeup..ect)nope.ok, stay cool, so i look back at him, then my desk then back at him i start to think, wha is this some trick? cause earlier in the year i send him a candy-o-gram for v-day but left my name annoymous, cause well lets just say iv'e seen the girls he dates and theres no way i am gonna go up and talk to him and confess my crush , cause most likely he'd sit there and laugh his ass off at me, the only person whom i told that i liked him was Blaire, wait a sec....could she have told him that i like him, or mabey jess and kailynn??? or was i just extremely obvious? i didn't know so i just figure if i give him all the right signs he'd clue in and come talk to me so i stare back it is like that for 10 mins, nothing happens so i figure hey what the hell and quit staring, as class ends i'd figure i should go talk to him, just as i go to say somthing, BAM, is GF shows up,scrap that plan i don't wanna get by butt kicked, even if it was just to let him know i like him, cause see i have a BF and i couldn't hurt him like that, but it isn't my fault he is about an hour and a half away, and may i say only cause he got kicked outta the house, besides wouldn't it be good if me and joel were just friends OMG this thing is all confusing the temptation is there ( if there is any or i am just dreamin there is)but thats the thing that confuses me i donno which way to go, I can pretty much gaurentee that Steve has looked at other girls and it has run thro his head to go talk to them even if he is dating me. So as the day goes by i run into two of my bandmates and we decide to have a band practice after school, as after school rolls by....I can't get ahold of my drummer, now that just put a shit in my day...no drummer, so i just head home and call steve, i find out he hasn't called me in the past three days cause he has been working on his car! HIS CAR! now that really set me off he is an hour and a half away and he doesn't take 5 mins outta his day to tell me he is still alive.WHAT A JERK! oh well i guess thats the way the cookie crumbles, he'll just have to suffer later. later dayz pplz

A HeLLA TO ALL MY BUDS!
hey i just like to give a shout out to my friends and if i missed any of ya you can beat me up later.

Kirsten- yo gurl remember the 30 below weather.hehehe
Chance- yo ya lil shit disturber, we need to party it up sometime.
Derek- (chunky D) quit calling me beer whench
Dorian- still the teddy bear
Steve- love ya lots
Dave-when are you gonna come up to canada and teach my gutair
kalynn+jess- our band kicks ASS!
Kyle- when are you gonna quit calling your teacher a nazi?!
Brent-(mousie)the kinda guy you wanna date but can't
Chris.L- what possesed you to get a ear peircing, when you can get a tatt!
Daniel-(danny boy) when are you gonna quit those shrunes? and why in the hell did you knock your GF up? keep it in your pants!
Tristan- still a sweetie
Jamie- me and you are sooo gonna party together...someday.