My diary type thing and site updates

Hello. On this page I will share anything interesting that goes on in my life and I will also note any site updates I make. DISCLAIMER: If anything here offends you I probably don't care because this is where I vent and rant and share the intimate details of my life. So if you don't like it, too bad. Just don't read it then. Keep in mind I could be quite angry while I'm writing this, so don't take it extremely literally. I still love you, well unless I don't. :)~ ANOTHER DISCLAIMER: I will only be using first names so that only the ppl I'm talking about and their friends will know to whom I am refering. *see how much I love you all?*

Diary

• 2/16/01 -- Today I broke up with Justin, and then remembered that he has one of my cd's, my Playboy, and might have my grape lip gloss that I think I left there... I hope I get that stuff back. The break-up happened just as the bell was ringing, so I haven't gotten to talk to him about it.
• 2/17/01 -- I went bowling and got a 142 the first game! That was cool. There was this cute latina girl at the lane next to us and Jamie and I kept looking at her very nice butt, and her husband/boyfriend looked very angry, I thought he was going to hurt us. That was kinda funny.
• 2/25/01 -- I got my driver's license on the 23rd. I haven't gone out on my own yet, but I probably will tonight. After talking to Jamie last night we decided that I should probably talk to a psychologist about the issues I have with my dad, the question is, will I have the guts to go through with it..? Oh well. I'll let you know how it turns out. There is a girl-ask-guy dance at school on Saturday, I really want to go so I guess I'll have to find a date. The theme is hoe-down, but I think I'll go wearing vinyl instead.
• 3/6/01 -- Friday night Jamie some how talked me into going to a basketball game. I hate basketball, but watching the cheerleaders was fun ;) On Saturday Jamie and I went to a dance at my school. The theme was hoe-down or cowboyness or something like that, but I didn't feel like fitting in. I wore a black viny corset and a short red plaid 'school-girl' looking skirt. I thought I looked pretty cute. lol. The music sucked, as I expected. Not one song by a white person.. not even Eminem. But I suppose it was a good way to waste what would have otherwise been a very boring evening. On Sunday I went bowling with my friend Ilea's church youth group. I was in two churches in one day.. which is quite unusual for me. I didn't do great (101 and 107) but it was fun anyways. On Monday there was no school due to Casimir Pulaski day, but I just did my english homework and nothing else of interest that day. Hearing about the Santee school shooting was interesting though. Speaking of which, there is threat of a shooting at my school on Friday.. one can only hope, right? lol. Hopefully that means the day off of school. Which is cool because seniors have no make-up days in the spring. Justin came over today with plans of a little oral action, but my mom and brother were here so nothing happened. Oh well. There will be other days for that.
• 3/9/01 -- Well, today was the day of the supposed shooting, it didn't happen which made my day dull. I brought a camera and everything! Argh! Oh well, maybe next week something interesting will happen. Ilea and I still remain undefeated in bowling. Today there was only a 35% attendance rate at school today, which meant that it was a do nothing productive kind of day. I got to watch videos in 4 of my 6 classes today, including 'GI-Joe: The Movie' the cartoon from the 80's so that was cool. It was in psych... some kid brought it in, the teacher was a bit reluctent about showing it, but we voted and GI Joe won... it was pretty cool.. I think that was the only time this week I've stayed awake all hour in that class.
• 3/11/01 -- Yesterday I got to drive without mom. Jamie, Guy, and I went to Culver's for supper, then Cherryvale mall, and next Barnes & Nobels. It was fun. I didn't make any mistakes while driving, although I was a bit nervous at times. It was raining most of the time, so that wasn't very convinient. It's nice to not have to rely on parents for transportation. Today I am going to Katie's house for her dad's birthday. Yesterday (or maybe it was the day before) was Richard and Betty's anniversary. 23 years. Wow, that is a really long time. Yesterday I talked to a guy online and he didn't believe me that I am a virgin. Why don't people believe that? And why haven't more of you signed my guest book? It'll only take a minute and it'll make me happy. :) It turns out that Gore would have massively won Florida. Maybe if Bush gets assassinated... One can only hope, right?
• 3/13/01 -- I heard yesterday that it was supposed to be 50 today, so I shaved and then went online only to read that the high was to be 44 with snow, rain, and wind. I feel like my freshly shaved legs are wasted. But tomorrow it's supposed to be 47 and partly cloudy so I'll wear my skirt then, before I get too stubbly. lol. The other day I got hooked on the song 'Last Resort' by Papa Roach. I love that song. I wish there was something interesting going on in my life, but sadly there isn't. This weekend might be fun though... if your lucky maybe you'll get all the hot sexy details.... ;)
• 3/14/01 -- My day sucked. It started out pretty good, I was wearing a skirt and feeling cute, so I thought it would be a good day... I was wrong. It was pretty good until lunch time. I was sitting with Ryan and Guy in the commons where we always sit and this fat black bitch who none of us knew came over and told us we had to move because she was going to lay down. I started out by ignoring her, and then she continued to order us to move in ebonics so Guy moved and I didn't feel that I should have to move so I just scooted down to the end of the seat thingy as did Ryan and she said something to the effect of we had to move completely and not just scoot down, so Ryan being the passivist he is moved down to where Guy was sitting while I continued to hold my ground. She then said 'don't say nothin' if I kick you' and I was like what? and then she stood over and threatened to kick my mouth or face or something like that.. it was in ebonics so I'm not sure exactly what she was refering to. So, being that she was massivly bigger then me I mumbled something like 'fine, bitch' and sat down by Ryan. I hope she dies a slow and painful death while I watch and take pictures so I can savor the moment over and over. Then I had bowling and due to my anger I was having trouble concentrating and I bowled a 76 (my average is 107) so even with my handicap we still lost by about 50 points. So that was terrible that we are no longer undefeated, although we are still in first place by one game, so that's something I guess. I figured that once school was over my day would be good, but again I was wrong. While driving my brother home from the dentist I was about 2 minutes away from home and I pulled out into the intersection on a green arrow (perfectly legal and what I was supposed to do) and this kid pulls out on red and almost hits the front of my car! But thankfully my mom saw it about to happen and yelled for me to stop and the other guy did too, so I didn't get hit. And that was my lovely day.
• 3/17/01 -- I guess Thurs. was fine, I don't really remember it. Friday was good and bad, the bad first. I have never had much faith in humans, but a few things happened Friday which increased my misanthropy. First my cute little vibrating puppy keychain was stolen off of my backpack while walking to 6th hour. Last year I had a skeleton keychain named Freddy who I made little outfits for, he was so cute, but someone ripped one of his legs off. If I ever find that person, I will kill them. Also I had a clip-on watch that was stolen off of my backpack last year. In 6th hour I told my teacher about my puppy, and she told me that Monday someone in her 7th hour stole her cell phone. That is just wrong. So I was feeling pretty bad about that, and then when I got on the bus Kyle (not a very bright kid, but he is a freshman) asked me if you could get cancer through sex. I was shocked and asked if he was serious. He said he thought you could, so I informed him that cancer is not an std. What a moron. Now the good, Ilea and I are still in 1st place in bowling. I got a 113, which was not bad. Friday night I went with Jamie and Richard to a new coffee place and Barns & Nobles. At Meg's Daily Grind (the coffee place) I got a mocha and Jamie got 3 expresso shots in a cup. Nothing else, just the shots. To say it was quite strong would be putting it mildly. The cashier guy was so not straight, he was so cute! Then we went to the book store and that was fun. I didn't buy any books, but Jamie got an issue of 'Out' which has the ever so adorable Kerr Smith on the cover. Today I had to get up way too early, 7:30 am, to clean the house. My house went on the market last Saturday, and today was the first showing. I have no idea how it went because there is this weird rule of the home owners can't be present when ppl are looking at the house. We were in Wisc. at the time, looking at the new house. It's got drywall now. It's starting to look more like a house, and I'm thinking it has the potential to be a fun place to bring guys on the weekends when the workmen and my ppl aren't there... ;)
• 3/19/01 -- Yesterday I went with Jamie to see 'Guys and Dolls' at her school. It was really good. I liked it much better live than when I saw the movie. Today was fairly uneventful, although Ilea's friend found my stolen puppy keychain, so I now have that back. My dad is in Turkey for the next few weeks, so hopefully Jamie, Katie, and Ilea can come over Friday night and then we can go to Rock n Bowl and then hang out here, and watch Fight Club of course since none of them have seen it. I think my boobs are getting bigger. Maybe I'll take some pics later and get some opinions on it. Katie mentioned a week or so ago that she thought they looked bigger, without me even asking her. How cool is that? lol. Anyways... that's all the news for now...
• 3/24/01 -- Well, it's been almost a week since I've written here, sorry about that. I'll try to fill you in on how my week has been. I don't think anything special happened Tuesday, and Wednesday was dull with the exception of not getting to go bowling because two black girls on my bus started swearing at each other and were about to fight, so the teacher had the bus driver return to school. That really sucked. It was nice out, so we had to walk or jog around the track, I oppted to walk since I was wearing a skirt and high heels, so running just didn't seem like a great idea. Thursday was Heather's 18th birthday. I went with Ilea to the 'Mr. Auburn Knight Pagent' which raised over $1200 for a childrens crisis center, so that was good. The reason I went was, of course, to see the swim suit compition... oh my god those guys were hot! But then with guys my biggest turn on is a well built upper body, which those guys certainly had. Two days later my hands still hurt from all the clapping. Sadly I do mean that literally. Bowling didn't go very well Friday. Due to my hand injuries I only bowled a 75, and we are now only tied for first. Next Wednesday is the last day of the tournament, so we will be playing the team we tied for first. I really hope we win. Oh, I got a lovely quote from my english teacher on Thurs. 'This building (refering to my school) is trash!' Isn't that great? I thought so. Today I went out to eat with Katie, her mom, and their neighbor for lunch. That was fun. Then I drove Katie to the mall where I bought a tank top and blue satin panties. Next we went to Shoe Carnival which was pretty scary and didn't have decent shoes anyways. Then we went to Target so I could buy nail clippers and altoids. Finally we went to Ulta 3 (a makeup store) so Katie could look at fake nails, and then I took her home. Oh, she got a new g-string at the mall.. it's Calvin Klein, isn't that special? lol. So, that was my day. I'm really looking forward to meeting Keith on Wednesday and I can't wait to see Bruce again this summer.
• 3/27/01 -- Welcome to the latest installment of my diary. Not too much has happened so far this week. Sunday I'm pretty sure I just stayed home all day doing nothing. Monday kind of sucked. I had pretty bad cramps all day and I only got an 80 in bowling, but that's okay because it wasn't tournament and I didn't expect to or care if I did good. Oh, on Sunday I watched a Marilyn Monroe movie. That was pretty cool. I knew about most of it, but I didn't know she was locked up in a hospital for awhile. Since then I have become mildly obsessed with 50's clothing. I found some really cool thrift stores in Chicago online, but my mom won't take me there. Maybe I can get Jamie or someone to. I really want to go shopping in Chicago. My mom did have this really cool 50's looking navy and white dress that is now mine. It's really cute. I think I'll take some pics in it next week. Speaking of pics, Jamie told me today that she showed her mom my new pics on my site. I don't think that was very nice of her. I also think that I am allergic to the placebo pills in my birth control cycle. I always seem to get ichy rashy things whenever I'm at that point in the cycle. It's very annoying. Tomorrow is the last day for the bowling tournament. My team is tied for first, so wish me luck everyone! The other team is good, so I'll need it.
• 3/31/01 -- Wednesday was uneventful I believe because I can't remember anything from it. I was supposed to meet Keith, but that got moved to Thurs. and then cancelled due to his lack of having a car and starting to feel ill. I was sad that we couldn't get together, but I'm sure there will be plenty of other times. I got my prom dress on Thurs. and shoes on Friday. I'll be taking pics next week and will post the pics on my site. I went bowling with Jamie and Guy Thurs. night. It was fun, even though I didn't do very good (90, 80, 91). I was extremely hyper for no aparent reason and I think I might have freaked Jamie out by my attempts to seduce her by pulling up my skirt and such. Well, not really trying to seduce her, just joking around but it was fun. Friday was the last day of the tournament in bowling. I did pretty good (118) but Ilea did bad (77) and we sadly lost the tournament by 1 point. I went to the mall with Katie and we had lots of fun. We spent most of the time trying on prom dresses and talking to Stephanie. We also tried on some cute things at Victoria's Secret, and I got shoes to go with my prom dress at Sears. They are really cute, both the dress and shoes are 50's vintage looking, but you'll see that in the pictures soon. Today I went to Wisc. and saw the progress on my house and ate lunch with my grandparents. Then Guy and I went to the Abbey to play pool. We each won a game. I can't wait to get my pool table this summer! I can see many fun things coming from that.... I saw Jamie's car on Thurs. It looks really cool. I love the interior. It looks very big inside, and the seats are leather.
• 4/2/01 -- Not too much has happened the past few days. As you may or may not have noticed I now have my prom dress pics on my site. Now all I need is a date. Bruce said he might be able to go with me, which would be really awesome, and maybe then I'll, how should I put this.. 'get lucky' after the dance... lol. If not I'll probably just ask some freshman or something. How sad is that? lol. Anyways.. today was pretty boring. I did find out that I have A's in all my classes this quarter, so that's really cool, and a first for me. It really helps not having any math or science classes. I went shopping and got two new shirts and bras if anyone cares... Seniors only have 32 more days of class! Woo hoo!! I found out that Cassie, Glenda, and Greg (my cousin, aunt, and uncle-in-law from MN) will be coming down in two weeks. That should be awesome.
• 4/8/01 -- I haven't been online much lately. I've been busy, but I'm not sure with what. I can't recall anything significant happening Tues. through Thurs. Friday was really awesome though. I got my report card and I have a GPA of 4.0 for the first time ever! As if that wasn't great enough I got a 205 in bowling!! That was so cool. I've been getting 80's for the past few weeks so that 205 really made me feel good. I called Jamie when I got home and told her I needed to celebrate, so we rented a few movies and came back to my house. We only watched one of them, The Opposite Of Sex, it was good. Then we went to Forest Hills Lanes and bowled two games on the way to her house. We saw Heather there, so that was cool. Oh, on Tuesday I think it was I got accepted to UW-Whitewater, so that's awesome. That is where Keith goes to school. I haven't talked to him since getting accepted, but I think I emailed him about it. Today I didn't get up until 12:30 or so. It was really hot out today, 83 or so, but really windy, like 60 mph. I really wanted to go somewhere so Jamie and I went to Cherryvale. We saw Sonny and Beto there. Neither of them have gotten cuter, but Beto had (one of?) his kid there and he was cute. We were only there for about an hour and then we headed back t o my house to watch Mallrats. Then we went to Taco Bell and then to her house, and now I'm home typing this. Prom might cause a slight problem.. I found out that the date age limit is 15-20 and I want to go with Bruce who is 24.. when we were talking about it in class Alicia told me that her and most of her friends dates are in their early 20's. My plan is to just not worry about it. I really doubt they'll check the birth dates and if they do they didn't announce the age limit so I don't think I should have to abide by it unless I'm informed of it. With all the people with 20something dates, they can't turn us all away, right? Not without refunds and protest anyways, and I doubt they'll want to deal with that. Only 42 days until prom. Hopefully soon I'll find out if Bruce can go and if he can't I hope I can find someone else, hopefully within that age range...
• 4/11/01 -- I've had a very stressed past few days, but I'll try to keep this from getting too angry. On Monday I went with Lee to see 'Blow' it was really good, but also very sad. Johnny Depp was so sexy in most of the movie, until he got old and fat that is. Then we went to Applebee's. That was nice, good food and really good dessert. Tuesday was initially really bad. I had to get up at 7 to go with my mom to take Guy to the dentist to get 3 wisdom teeth pulled. So getting up early sucked, but it was nothing compared to the fact he kept threatening to throw up, which as my close friends know is the one thing I can't deal with at all, but thankfully that didn't happen until we got home and I was in the other end of the house, where I stayed for quite awhile. So, just as I was about to take a bath I noticed reminents of blood and vomit in my sink, so that had me VERY pissed, and I asked my mom if it would interfere with anything if I took a bath, and she informed me that Guy was thinking he needed to go back to the dentist so that had me pissed because I had to go with and I was dirty because I hadn't needed a shower at the very early time we left earlier that morning, and I was hating my brother for all his apparent (and many) weaknesses. So, we had to go there and it turns out that he was spazzing for no reason (big suprise). So I finally got home and took a bath so I felt a little better and then Jamie called and said she needed to go to the mall, so that was good because I really needed to get out of the house. Oh, through all the ordeals I went through my shoulder was still hurting very much from my sunburn (which is almost healed). So, we went to Machesney first and they have a new pet store where I got to hold a really cute rose-haired tarantula. I tried to explain to Jamie that it was just like a cute little kitty with more legs, but she didn't believe me. Then we went to Cherryvale so Jamie could try on prom dresses. There was one that was really cute, but one size too small, so she might have this lady make it for her, that would be cool. Then we went to Hooters. Those girls look really really good, except for this one girl who was totally flat.. that was just confusing. Then as we were leaving I saw Cody and said hi to him. Today I didn't go anywhere or do anything. I've been in a bad mood though, I really wanted to play tennis, but it was raining and when it wasn't I couldn't get anyone to go with me. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about prom. Bruce can't go with me because he has a wedding to go to that day. Lee keeps pressuring me to go with him, but I want to go with some one I see as more than just a friend. I'm thinking of asking Ted, but I'm not sure.. I need a date by Tuesday though, so I can turn down Lee with good reason. Yes I know he could be reading this, but I doubt he is. I don't think he ever goes to this site. I found out Cassie won't be coming down, but that's no huge suprise. Well, I guess that's all for now. Hopefully the rest of the week will get better.
• 4/24/01 -- Well it's been quite awhile.. much has happened and thanks to a few calendars I should be able to fill you in a bit about what's been going on in my life the past few weeks. Well, I'll start at the 12th and give a brief summary of each day. 4/12 - well it says in my calander that I went to WI to see my house, but I don't remember doing that. 4/13- My aunt and uncle (Glenda and Greg) came down from Minnesota. I spent the next few days hanging out with them because they are awesome and I love them. Glenda is 50, although she looks and acts 35-ish. She married Greg about a year ago, he's 11 years younger than her (39, for those of you who failed math). Her first husband died from asbestos many years ago. I'm not sure if her daughters have 'warmed up' to him yet, but I think he's great. He's so youthful and chipper and sweet. On easter I was at my great uncle's and Greg said that if I can get up there this summer he's going to teach me how to shoot a gun and hunt. That should be fun if I can get up there. I haven't been there since they've been married. I still have to meet 2 of his kids and their horses and dog. Well, I've been turned down 4 times for prom.. lucky me. Gosh that makes me feel loved. They all had valid excuses as to why they couldn't go though. So I asked Ilea and she is going to go with me. Looks like I won't be getting laid.. lol. It should be fun anyways though. Some day, I'm not sure when, I went to see the house in Wisc. It's coming along nicely. Most of the walls are painted and although unfinished the wood floor in the kitchen is in. Most of the siding is on too I think. Oh, that was on Friday, Hitler's b.day and Columbine day. Oh yeah 4/20 too. How stupid. Also that day I went to a really boring car show, and a pretty disappointing Gershwin tribute.
• 5/1/01 -- You guys better love me for updating this because I had to re-load this page like 15 times to get it to work. Grrr. Anyways, I will now attempt to recall what's happened recently. Well on 4/25 I might have gone to WI according to my lovely agenda thing. Thursday was not fun. I had to get up early, like 7ish and then I got my left wisdom teeth ripped out. I don't remember any of the operation, but I do remember that it was like 48 hours or so before the bleeding finally stopped. Also they gave me lots of meds, so I was taking over a dozen pills a day for awhile there. That had me very out of it and a bit spacey. Friday I didn't go to school, so I sadly missed the last day of bowling. Saturday was fun. Jamie had her prom, so she called me Friday night and said I should go out to eat with her, Sonny (her date), and Heather who's prom was also that night at a different school. I'll try to put up pics from that later. So anyway, I got to Jamie's house a few minutes before Heather. We all took pictures and waited for Sonny. He was supposed to be there at 5, but at 6 called and said his suit was in Beto's car, so Jamie told him to meet us at Old Chicago. On the way there Heather's parents called and said she had to be home because her friend was picking her up at 7, so her brother came and picked her up. Jamie called Sonny yet again, and we ended up meeting him at Sunrise at like 7 or so. So we ate there, and Sonny's friend (lover according to Jamie and I) and his friend showed up, so we hung out with them for awhile and took more pics. So, we left at 8 or 8:30ish, and went back to Jamie's so my mom could pick me up. I felt like flashing someone, so while Jamie was in the house Sonny (who's had a crush on me for a long time) got to see my boobs. Then my mom got there, we took more pics, and then I went home. Oh, also Jamie's parents got me the new issue of Penthouse. It's really a good magazine. I even read an article or two.. lol. Yeah, so then on Sunday I think I just worked on packing up more things in my room. Monday I got to go skating in gym. It was so much fun!! I love skating, and I get to do it again tomorrow. I got my english and psych papers done finally with much thanks to Jonathan and Josh. Thanks so much you guys! I got prom tickets today. Jamie is going to post prom with me. I've been told that maybe I should be revising a bit of what I wrote about a classmate, but I really don't think he reads my diary, so I'll just let it remain the way it is. If you did read it, sorry. Also, while I'm not getting any action, that may change soon. I'd love to share details, but I've been sworn to secrecy, and I don't really know any other than who it's going to be with. Well, I have to watch Buffy now. I'll try to update more of this site later. Adios.
• 5/5/01 -- I really should try to update this more... lol. I bought prom tickets. I'm taking Ilea to prom and Jamie to post-prom. On Wed. I had skating in gym. It was really fun, except I was wearing a skirt and when I tried to turn around I fell, but Brad kind of caught me, so that was good.. but the cute guy in my class saw me. It's not that bad though, because he can barely skate and falls a lot. On Thurs. I got my stitches taken out. That hurt a little bit, and bled, but it was all good because I feel much better with them out. Oh, Lee has offered to take Ilea and me in a limo with his friends and to Cliftbreakers. I'd only have to pay $25 for the drivers tip. It's a good deal, so if Ilea's parents say okay then that's what we're going to do. If not then I'll take my car and we're going to Baskin Robins. On Friday there was no school. I took Guy to Karl's and then wandered Cherryvale all by myself. How sad. But it's okay because it gave me something to do. Then I went online for a long time since I was home alone. For those of you who know about my other site, it now has a counter and a guestbook that I'd really appreciate it if you'd sign it. I've got a new favorite song.. 'American Hair Band' by Tuff. It's really great. If you haven't heard it, then d/load it or something. So, back to Friday. Josh and I were talking online and I said that he wouldn't come over here, and he said he would, but I had to say no on the outside chance he was serious and if my parents had gotten home when he was here that would have been not so good. So, anyway, we were trying to decide what to do so I called Ten Pin Lanes, but they were closed, which is weird, so we opted for hanging out at Hilander's, but that got really boring really fast. I guess that only works if I'm with Katie or Jamie. So then we drove to Cherryvale and back and then through my neighborhood and then we hung out at my house for awhile. It was fun, but apparently my driving wasn't as great as usual. I guess my driving made him nervous or something. I still think I'm a good driver though, as does everyone else I've asked. Today I went to Wisc. to see the house and hang out with Grandma and Grandpa Taylor. Grandpa's birthday was Wednesday. We were gone until about 3, then I took a nap for a few hours because I only got like 6 hours of sleep last night. Then I cleaned the windows of my car and I guess I've just been online since then. We've agreed not to tell people so I won't include names here, but an old friend of mine and I have tentative plans to get together tomorrow and get naked and take pics. If it works out it should be quite fun.
• 5/11/01 -- Well yesterday was really fun, but I'll start at the beginning of the week. Over the weekend I learned the 'forbidden truth' of time cube and started preaching it at school. Check out what I'm talking about at http://www.timecube.com and make sure you go to the 'above god' link at the bottom. I'm pretty sure nothing really interesting happened until Thursday I took Jamie, Katie, and Hayley to Culver's and then we were going to go to West for a band concert, but Hayley said we should pick up Jarod first, so we did that and then went to West. We saw Blake and Bobby there. Blake didn't even say hi to Katie, which was weird since they've been going out for a while. So, Bobby's dad (who is really really hot!) said that Bobby couldn't chill there with us, but we could all go back to his house. We went there for awhile and watched tv and listened to one of Bobby and Jarod's songs (if you want some, IM me and I'll send you the file, gotta promote them here) and Bobby and Jarod played drums. They're really quite good. Gosh Bobby's dad is hot. So's Bobby. Jarod too. So, after that I took everyone home. It was raining really hard, but I got everyone home safely. So, that was really fun and now I know where everyone lives. Today I stayed home with a sore throat. I got my steel-toed boots for my job this summer. Well I'm tired and a bit out of it now, so I'll write more later.
• 5/13/01 -- Yesterday Josh was being all pissy and ticked at me. That got really annoying really fast. I think he's probably still mad. I hope he gets over it by tomorrow, or things could get awkward in english class. Well I think enough of you have heard me ranting about this, so I'll move on and tell you about my weekend. Saturday I went up to see my house in Wisc. with my mom and dad. It is coming along nicely and should be completed in about 3 weeks. I took lots of pics, so if you are interested in seeing them just IM me and let me know. Today I picked up Guy from Karls, went to Hilanders to get flowers for my mom, and then spent the rest of the day helping her pack. Then Katie came over and used my screen name to harrrass some of my friends, like Jason and Jonathan.. I'm sorry about that you guys. Well, that was my weekend. Is anyone besides me going to watch that Marilyn movie 'Blonde'? It should be cool. Well, before I forget I'm going to make some massive changes to the 'friends' page. It's too hard to keep up with my buddies, so I think I'll make it a quotes page, but mention my buddies too.
• 5/14/01 -- I think I'm going to start mentioning how many hits my site's had, because it makes me feel special. lol. Well it's good that someone, well several someones, are taking advantage of the effort I put in to this. So, 860 hits the last time I checked. We started golf in gym today. As I predicted I really suck at it, but so do most of the other people, so it's not all bad. My cold is almost gone, so that's good. I got a grad. card from my umm relative of some sort in Vegas today. I'm not sure how we're related, but I've been told I remind people of her, and we email each other. Oh, I watched the first part of Blonde last night. I can't wait to see the conclusion on Wed. Here's a fun fact for you all concerning my genetics.. my maternal grandmother looked like Marilyn before her transformation when she was still Norma Jean Baker, and my paternal grandmother looked like the beautiful Ms. Monroe after her transformation. Things are looking good for me genetically speaking.. :) Josh said he's still mad at me, but now I think I'm at the point where I no longer care. I gave it an effort and if he's not going to be reasonable about it, then I guess that's his loss. At the top of this page you will find a pic of the ever so lovely Lake Geneva, where I am moving in a few weeks.
• 5/28/01 -- I'd like to start by saying Happy Birthday Katie!!! and I'm sorry for not updating in so long. I'll try to be better about it in the future. Well, it'll take to long to go day by day, so I'll just give you the highlights of the past two weeks. Prom was 5/19. I went with Ilea. It was really fun. We went to Culver's for dinner, then to Katie's for a few minutes, and then to prom after a quick stop at my great uncles house, since I saw my grandma was there. When we first got to prom it looked like it was going to suck, but then after a bit it got fun. They actually played some decent music, like Enter Sandman (Metallica) and at my request played AC/DC (you shook me all night long) and Britney Spears. On a less happy note, the dj said he was going to play Guns N' Roses, but he never did. I got a cool G N' R shirt though, so it's all good I guess. Ilea and I danced with Marvin, a guy in my english class, a lot because,like us, he was dateless. He's cute too, so that helped. Then after prom I picked up Jamie and we went to post prom, but that kinda sucked, so we left after not too long and went to the restaurant her mom works at for breakfast. By then I was extremely tired, but oh well. It was kinda scary though because I was wearing my vinyl dress and all these drunk old guys were staring at me from outside the window when they left. I got home at about 4 or 4:30 am that night/morning. I slept until 1 pm the next day, and then my mom made me get up. We went to play mini-putt with Jimmy and Katie since Jim's b-day was a few days before. I think he won, and he also got a free game, so that was cool. Then the next day was senior skip day, so I only showed for 7th hour because I'm worried about my gym grade.. I only have a B. On Thursday I took Katie, Jarod, and Hayley to the CAPA showcase thing at Auburn. It was okay I guess.. a bit dull though. Oh, Jarod and Bobby are in a band called Salad Bar, and you all should buy their cd when it comes out. As their groupie, I must promote the band. If you want to hear a song or two of theirs then IM me and I'll send it to you. Yeah, so after the CAPA thing we went to Hilanders and I got a candle for Mrs. Heisel, and then we went to Walgreens. Jarod was having trouble with unhooking Katie's bra, so I showed him how and after a while he finally figured it out. Oh, I have golf in gym and I found out that, atleast in golf, I'm left handed. On Saturday (5/26) Jamie and I saw The Mummy Returns. It was really good and the special effects were very special. In the parking lot after the movie we saw some guys attacking one of the cars, so we got scared and went inside again. Of course mall security doesn't work that late, but when we went back outside they were gone, so it turned out okay. On Sunday I went to Katie's birthday party. It was really fun. Today I went to the Memorial Day parade with Katie and Chan. It was cool, but we did a lot of walking.. it was scary walking back to the car because I was parked at the other end of the parade then where we were, so the people were gone, and it was just the scary talking to themselves homeless people on the streets. Downtown Rockford scares me. I don't want to ever go back there. Well, that's it for now.
• 7/27/01 -- It's been quite awhile.. I've moved in to my new house, got things set up for college, had and lost a b/f (Scott), and started work at EDC Water. Well, since pretty much only my friends read this I'll start with today. I called Scott and I've been replaced with Bitchi (Becci). Like I didn't see that coming. Oh well, I guess he just can't handle that I didnt' base my every move around him like she does adn always will. But as my mommy says, there are plenty of other fish in the sea, which I will have to beat off with a stick accordign to her. I have yet to see this day. So, work was pretty dull today. Sadly John G. is going to be in Sturgis at a Harley Davidson thing all next week so I won't get to chill with him. That's my boss, by the way. He's pretty cool. There is a new chick at work tthat the guys are talking about.. me getting jealous of course. Unlike what Scott always thought I don't have guys lined up to replace him, not even one. :( I'll find some one some day though. Or if a certain someone were to come visit me from England... Speaking of that, Scott was so insecure he thought that I was going to run off with Steve, even though we are 3,000 or so miles apart. He really should have had some faith in me. Well, enough of my ranting for one day. I'll try to update often.

Updates

• 2/16/01 -- Diary page, Quotes page, Friends page
• 2/17/01 -- Diary page, Quotes page, Main Page, Katie page, Friends page
• 2/25/01 -- Added page of my convo with Jonathanviolin.
• 3/9/01 -- Main page, Friends page, Diary, My pics
• 3/13/01 -- Quotes page
• 3/19/01 -- Main page, Cool stuff...
• 3/24/01 -- added another page with pics of me
• 4/1/01 -- added prom dress pics
• 4/24/01 -- main page, more pics of me page
• 5/5/01 -- quotes page
• 5/13/01 -- friends page
• 5/14/01 -- friends page
• 7/27/01 -- main page
• 8/5/01 -- main page, friends page, fettish page, cool stuff page, pics of Katie page
• 8/29/01 -- main page
• 11/25/01 -- Main page
• 1/9/02 -- main page, fetish, author, hobby page, cool stuff page

Diary installment 2 from Aug. 1 to whenever

• 8/1/01 -- Well something interesting happened at work today. While Rose and I were just standing around Mike came over and told us that there was a bird in the shipping area, so we went over to check it out. It turns out that someones pet yellow parakeet flew in. We knew it was tame because it was easy to catch and would perch on peoples fingers and shoulders. Matt (the boss) wasn't there yet, so Rose adn I went to her neighbor's house to borrow their empty bird cage. That was fun.
• 8/4/01 -- Sorry I havent' updated lately. Here's a recap of the end of the week. Thursday when I got home Mom informed me that we were going to Rockford and that I should call Jamie and chill with her, so I called and we picked her up and went out to eat at IHOP and then Mom dropped us off at Barnes & Nobles while she left to run some errands. Oh, the night before Jamie and I were having fun thinking of guys over 30 that we'd sleep with. Joe Danger topping our lists of course. lol Katie. Hayley's gonna get me the hook up with Bobby's dad. Isn't that great? Gosh he's a hottie. lol Anyway, so Jamie adn I had fun there, although I guess I was being a bit too hyper adn chatty... ah well. Friday at work was sorrta sad.. I found out it was Kevins last day.. I didnt' see him much, but he was fun to flirt with. Also Jeremy wanted me to hang out with him, but I said I didnt' know what my plans were, so I gave him my number. I don't know if he called or not since I wasn't home for awhile. So, yesterday I went to the library (finally) adn got my card and a few books. Then Mom and I went to Ben Franklin to get some ribbon to decorate the curtins in my room. Then we went to a TYME machine to see if my card works, and it does, so that's really cool. Then when we got home I took a nap at 7 with the intention of getting up at 9 and going online to see if Anthony was on, but when my alarm when off I decided to rest like 5 more minutes and the next time I looked at the clock it was 1am, so I got up, got ready for bed, and went to bed. Today I haven't done much.. went back to the TYME machine to deposit my checks, went to Inspiration Ministries to make some donations, then went home and went online. No real plans for later, probably just stay up late reading.. might go for a walk along the lake shore.
• 8/5/01 -- Not much has happened, but I did vow to try to write here more often. Last night I just went online, and I haven't done much today, just some reading and working on the curtins in my room. My Rockford ppl: just wanted to let you know that I'm planning to stay in Rkfrd a few days after I'm done with work, my last day is the 24th. I'll probably stay with Grandma W, so let me know when during that week you guys are gonna be free so I know when to visit. Also, if anyone talks to Joe or Joey let them know I'm gonna be down there a day or two or three. Thanks bunches you guys! Love ya.
• 8/14/01 -- Sorry I haven't written in so long. I've been a bit busy. I'm going to write this without looking at a calendar, so I hope I get it right. Katie and her mom and bro came up on Wed. I only saw them a few hours before they left since I was at work. I took Katie and Lori (her mom) shopping in Delevan so Katie could get a robe. Then we came back to my house for supper after getting gas and some fresh fruit. I had bought corn at work from Dave since mom never buys any, and when I got home she told me she had just bought 1 1/2 dozen ears.. but her's sucked, so it's a good thing I got some. The following day soem ppl from Rochelle that we know came up. I didn't get to see them for long (because of work) but that's okay because I don't like their dad.. seems sorta like a child molester, not that I think he does his kids, but he seems like the type. Friday some of dad's relatives came over. I didnt' get to see them that long either, but that was okay since there was a family reunion Sun. (more about that in a sec) Also Friday there was a barbeque at work. That was fun. I made two key lime pies, which as I guessed were a big hit. I spent most of that day flirting with Jeremy.. it's such a shame he smokes.. he's got such pretty eyes and he's really nice, but I can't get with the lung cancer thing.. ah well, there's always Joe Danger :) Saturday was the annual Glenwood Springs Pig Roast. That was as fun as I expected. The games and children don't hold appeal for me, but the food was good ($1180 worth of pig! but figures to less than $3 a person) and chatting with Brett's parents was nice as always. Sunday was 'Altenburg Fest'. lol. tacky name, but relatives from as far as Las Vegas were there, so taht was nice. There were these three guys a lil older than me there, but sadly they all smoke :( I ended up talking to two of them who are brothers. David and Derek. Unfortunately the less intelligent of the two was the one hitting on me. Just my luck. lol. Ah well, we're related, in the same way I'm related to Ryan. I gave both guys my number and email, so maybe we'll hang out later. Yesterday really sucked. Work was boring since I was working with cartridges and Rose wasn't there, so I was all alone. Then when I got home I found out taht the uw-w ppl might not be giving me the money they said they would which would put me $7000 short and force me into community college or another full year at EDC. Thank goodness that got resolved and I'll be getting my money. Then I was talking to stupid lil Scott who still hasn't told me when I can get my ring back. Damn him. I know plenty of ppl that have practically begged me to let them kick his skinny lil ass, but not til I get my ring. Jamie offered to let her dad accompany me to help 'lean on him a bit' as they say.. lol but I think I'll go alone. I just hope I can avoid hurting him. Ryan thinks that he still want's me, which is what I was kind of thinking. If anyone is interested I'll send ya the convo I had with Scott, just let me know. So, he's supposed to be calling me today, but I doubt I'll be going over there tonight since I'm not going to miss Family Guy for it. It can wait until tomorrow. I'll really try to keep you all updated more. I just don't have much time between work, checking my mail, and sleeping so I can be awake at work. *Jamie, hope things are working out with your uncle*
• 8/15/01 -- Whoa.. writing two days in a row.. impressed? I know i am lol. Disclaimer: I've decided I know longer care about minor typos in this. Just try to ignore them. Thanks. Okay, back to my diary... Last night was fun(ny). I went over to Scott's to get my ring back. I wasn't planning on staying, but he wanted me to so I figured why not. We went over to Anthony's and it was enjoyable to watch his unique combination of disappointment and confusion when I refused to hug him. We argued pretty much the whole time we were in the car (sorry about that Anthony) and I think he was so pissed because everything I said was true. When we got back to his house I wasn't getting out of my car because I had to get home because of work the next day, and he was like 'oh, so you're not gonna even come in?' and I was like 'no, I've got to get up at 5 tomorrow, so I gotta go home' then I told Anthony it was nice seeing him again and Scott said something like 'fuck you' and got out, slamming the door behind him. I restrained laughter and talked to Anthony for a few minutes, then he said he better go so I could go home and go to bed. I laughed for like the next 5 minutes straight as I pictured him walking off.. I can't recall ever feeling a high like that before. lol It was great. The only thing that would have made it better was if he was crying. Now that really would have been funny. I was proud of myself for not hitting him though. :) I'm gonna miss his kitty Icarus though, and his mom was really nice. Too bad he's so spoiled and insecure. It's sad really. Oh, get this, I was talking to Anthony today and it seems that Scott is determined to become friends with Josh so they can make fun of me together. Too bad for him that Josh hates him so much. lol Well, enough about yesterday. Today at work I was talking to Chris and he said that he really liked my website, and is going to ask John (the company owner) if I can design their website. It should be fun and will get me some extra money as well. I don't know any html, but with help from Ryan, Steve, and Cody of whom I'm sure at least one will be willing to help, I should be able to put together a really cool site. Well, thats all I can think of for now. Love you all.
• 8/18/01 -- Only one week of work left... I'm going to love not getting up at 5am anymore, but I'm really going to miss the friends I've made there. I'm glad at least some of them have email. I'm really excited about going to Rockford next weekend. I'm pretty sure now I'll be staying there until Monday. Katie hasn't talked to Joe yet, but she said that she adn Hayley will soon, as well as finding out a bit about his sexual history so I can remain safe if we end up doing anything. Which I certainly hope to. Some interesting things happened last night. First I got Ryan's movie of the family picnic. It's really cool. If anyone wants it just email me and I'll send it to you. I talked to Allan last night, and it looks like Sex in the City is going to feature his game. Also he's hopefully going to have a business trip to Milwaulkee in Nov. which means if he's here I'll get to meet him. That'll be pretty awesome. Then something very very weird happened. Josh IMed me and said he wanted to have sex with me, but it had to be last night, or never. I declined. How weird is that? I was very confused... maybe he was drunk or something. I finally got to talk to Steve today. :) and Anthony last night. I've missed those guys. Ryan's off at a Chrsitian ranch thing in CO. Hopefully he'll be back by the time I'm in Rockford so we can chill and stuff. It looks like nothing exciting is going to happen in my life this weekend, but that's okay because I need to rest. Last night I saw a Marilyn Monroe movie, Some Like It Hot. It was really good, and not just because it was about crossdressers! lol but that certainly didn't hurt. :) Watch it if you ever get the chance. That's all for now. Love ya.
• 8/20/01 -- Nothing interesting happened Sat. Sunday started out boring, but Jamie called and asked if I could go to Rkfrd to see Amer. Pie 2, so we called Katie adn I left at about 4pm. I got to Katie's at about 5, then Jamie called and we met at Culver's for supper. While we were there J.D., a family friend, showed up and ate with us, so that was cool. Then we went to the movie, and it was really really funny. I'm definately going to take Ryan when I'm in town. So all was going well until we were leaving.. being that I was in Rockford I had to be listening to Ludacris with the bass all the way up.. hmm 3 white girls in a white truck chillin wit da rap.. must be a Rockford thing.. lol. Yeah, so as I was going to merge on to the highway type road my truck made a weird noise and died for awhile... I put it in park, but it wouldn't start or turn off.. the key wouldn't move at all. So of course Jamie didn't happen to have her cell and my dad doesn't think my life is worth the monthly hook up fees of having a cell, so Katie went to Taco Bell to call Richard and Betty for help. Jamie todl me to retry shutting off my truck, and it worked that time, and then I tried restarting it and that worked to. So I went to jamie's house without incident and Jamie and her dad took Katie home. then we went back to Jamie's house to pick up her mom and then they followed me back up to my house, even though it was two hours out of their way late-ish at night *love you guys for doing that*. My truck has been working since then *knock on wood* Why must life get so complicated? Grr... ah well. Not much of interest today. Just work and then shopping. Got two cheap tank tops at Bob's, and a charcol zip up sweatshirt, and Airwalks that look sort of like the ones I have, but are worn out. Love you all. Adios and Auf Wiedersen (did I spell that right? it's been awhile since German class...)
• 8/21/01 -- It's unfortunate that when I have time to write nothing is going on in my life. My dad was supposed to be gone all week, but he called adn showed up tonight, so that really really sucks. Work was pretty dull today, just helping Rose build cartridge brackets. Mike gets more sullen every day with my inevitable departure so near. I sort of feel sorry for him, so many bad things have happened in his life.. I'm really going to miss the friends I've made there, like Mike, Rose, John, John, Jeremy, Chris, John (hey, there's like 7 Johns there....) and all those other buddies I made there. But I'll come back and visit and I'll be there next year. I've been talking to Steve *love ya babe* a lot lately, so that's good. I talked to Justin today.. sounds like he still wants me... grrr how do I always end up doing that?? Well such is the curse of having nice boobs... lol Anyway, hopefully something interesting will happen before this weekend. Love you all.
• 8/29/01 -- I had a great time in Rockford, now lets just see if I can remember it all... I went down to Rkfrd Friday after work. My last day was pretty fun, but sad too as I'm really going to miss a lot of ppl there. So, I got to my grandma's at like 4:30. Guy was with me. Afer calling Jamie and Katie we arranged to meet at the mall with Jackie and Heather. I picked up Katie and dropped Guy off with Cody. Katie and I got there, and then saw Jackie and Heather and this annoying typical white trash whiney self pity bitch girl named Courtney. Jamie called to say she'd be a few minutes late. So Jaye got there and within a minute of walking white trash girl started crying. I guess she saw her ex who was sleeping with all her lil white trash friends. So very reminicent of Auburn... So Jamie and Katie and I sort of strayed from the rest of them, meeting up once in awhile. Then Courtney said she had to leave, and we (J., K. and I) were thinking fuck you, we still wanna shop and not be by you anyway, so we told Heather we'd meet then at Barnes & Nobles later. We stayed shopping for awhile, and then Katie said she was hungery so we went to IHOP. The food was good, and we had a lot of fun there. Katie was quite hyper and had trouble ordering her Dixie Fried Chicken Strips.. lol. Good times. Then we went to B&N until closing, 11pm, and then back to Jamie's house where we tried to get me the hook up with Bobby's dad. Despite all our attempts that weekend, it never ended up working. They're still trying though. lol. So, then Katie and I went to pick up Guy at Cody's, but he said he was staying at Jon's, so we took them there. Then I dropped Katie off and returned to Grandma's. *just have to add that Cher rocks!* Saturday Ilea called me and we met at Machesney for an hour or two. It was good seeing her again. She's just as perky and sweet as ever. Too bad she's not online. Maybe some day... So, after the mall I went to pick up Katie on my way to drop off Guy's overnight stuff at Jon's house. Then we went back to Katie's house and waited for her mom to get home, and then we went with her to Ulta to buy make up and so Katie could get her hair cut, as her last cut job wasn't so good. Her hair looks good now, although a bit shorter than she woudl have liked. Then after Ulta we went to the mall and went underwear shopping. lol. Got some cute thongs :). Then we went back to Katie's house and went out for pizza with Brad (her dad) and Jimmy (her brother). That was nice. Then I think I just chilled at Katie's for a while.. I can't remember doing anything else. Sunday was probably the busiest and most fun day. One sad note, Jamie's uncle died that day. The day started by just chilling at Grandma's, and making a few phone calls. First I called Ryan to see if he wanted to see Jay adn Silent Bob Strike Back later that night, which he did, and then I called Joey adn he was actually home! I was so happy since no one seems to ever be able to get a hold of him. So I talked to him for awhile, and then it was time to pick up Katie to meet Ilea adn her mom and sib's at the mall. It was pretty fun, although Ilea can be fairly annoyingly picky when shopping, right Katie? lol I got some cute plaid pants though, they make my but look really cute :) Sadly though I'm apparently now a size 9... when did that happen? grr... Oh well I guess. Maybe those pants were just small. Oh, also my first night in Rkfrd Katie gave me some of her clothes that she had out grown, so I got 4 pairs of pants and 5 shirts from her. *thanks dear* So after the mall I went to Katie's after dropping off Ilea at her church. Brad cooked steaks and baked potatos for dinner, and Grandma came over, but no one had been able to contact Guy. After supper I went to pick up Jamie and then we went to pick up Ryan. Jamie hadn't really met him before, but as I had promised her, everything is so much more fun when Ryan is around. He's one of my most favorite people. So, we went to the movie and it was really really funny. Also had some really sexy people like Jason Mewes (Jay) and Eliza Dushku (Faith from Buffy and Sissy in the movie). Ryan slightly mocked us for practically drooling over her during the movie.. lol. We finally got in touch with Guy after he left a message on Jamie's cell, not stating where he was or if I needed to pick him up, just that he called. What a jerk. So Jamie called over to Grandma's and he was there, so I scolded him and took everyone home. I got Ryan to ask me to homecoming after I had suggested it, but I have no idea if he was serious or not. Oh, on Saturday when Ilea and I were at the mall we saw Dirty Billy. eewww. Thankfully he didn't try to talk to us. Monday I didn't have any real plans. Then Bobby called and wanted to know if I could pick up him and Josh, and Jarod and take then to the mall, so I called Katie and she didn't want to go, so I took them. It was pretty fun I guess, I'm just glad we didn't get kicked out of the mall or any stores there. Oh, on Sunday when at the mall Katie and I sort of stalked Joey's g/f Sara to see what she looked like since he told me she was working at Hot Topic until 3, and we found her and she's really pretty. So, after taking the boys to the mall we went to Katie's house so I could say good bye to her. *sorry 'bout bringing them over* Then I dropped them all off and went back to Grandma's where I had an ice cream cone, and then packed up and left. We got back to WI about 7:15. I didn't do much yesterday besides dye my hair a lighter warmer shade of blonde. I'm not sure I like it, but it should mellow in the next few days. I hope. Today I didn't really do anything other than finish a book I was reading and update my diary. Well, that's it for now. Love you all.
• 9/16/01 -- Sorry I haven't updated recently. I started college two weeks ago as most of you know. College isn't so bad, but it's not great yet either. My roommate never showed up, which pissed me off only because she didn't let me know ahead of time, so for now I'm stuck without a computer, tv, fridge, and microwave, which she was supposed to bring, but I didnt' know she wasn't going ot be there until I moved in. So, I bought out the other half of my room and now have my own room, which has proved to be quite nice. I've made a few friends on my floor, like Kristin, Allie, Allie, Bridget, and the RA's (resident advisors, they are sort of in charge) Jana and Brian are really cool. A lot of the guys on my floor are cute, but they all seem to be perpetually drunk which sucks. I have hooked up with Keith a few times. For those of you who don't know him, he's a guy I met online about a year ago and he's a senior at UW-W. We always seem to have really sucky conversations, but we've had fun anyway. I have a sore throat right now, which is really annoying. I've talked to Jamie just about every day. I wonder how huge my phone bill will be.... lol. I went to Rockford last weekend to help Jamie sell tickets for her uncle's funeral. I tried to dress sort of slutty, but as much as guys were looking I only managed to sell one ticket :( I haven't done much this weekend since I'm sick, but I did sort of have a breakdown of sorts Friday night I think it was, but after talkign to Jamie, Josh H., and Anthony P., I feel better. I blame my lack of computer for this, because without electronic distraction at school I'm afraid I've had too much time thinking, which for me usually leads to depression. I'm sure I'll snap out of it soon enough though. Oh, if anyone has found something worth dying for, or even living for, please let me know. Or even the meaning of life.. that'd be nice to know. I'd like to have a purpose of some sort. A believeable religion would be nice too. I suppose I'm asking too much though. Oh well. I'll write more when I have time. Love you all.
• 9/23/01 -- I should be getting my own computer soon. When that happens I'll try really hard to make updates more than once a week. This past week wasn't that great. I had/still kind of have a cold, so I spent a good deal of time sleeping. Keith came over on Monday I think it was. That was fun. All I'll say is pantyhose was worn, but didnt' stay on long... lol. Allie, Kristin, and I decided to not go clubbin' but we plan to this week. I'm having a lot of fun in swing dance class. I've got a dance class tonight taught by Mike Topal, he competes in west coast swing I believe. I'm planning a trip to Rkfrd next weekend. J, K and I are plannign a a trip to Edward's apple orchard. That should be fun. If anyone is looking for a good book to read, Subterranean, by James Rollins is good. I tried driving the mazda yesterday, my first attempt at manual transmition, I wasn't great at it, but practice makes perfect I guess. Well, since nothing interesting happened last week I guess that's it for now. Love you all.
• 10/2/01 -- Hey everyone! I've finally gotten a computer at school, so I'll be in contact with you all a lot more often. Also I have a tv, but I have yet to turn it on since I've been online in all my free time. I dont' think anything noteworthy happened last week, but I had a great weekend. I went down to Rkfrd Friday night after I got home from school. It was so great to be driving again! Now all I need to do is get a motercycle.. they look like so much fun, but my mom isn't loving the idea of me getting one.. lol. Anyway, so I went to Jamie's and then we picked up Katie. Katie told me that Joe (aka Bobby's dad lol) had been asking Jarod about me, so that was cool, but I was way too busy that weekend to try to contact him. So J, K, and I went to North Park Pharmacy I think it's called, they have really good fountain drinks there. Then I think we went to Best Buy to get my printer and surge protector. Katie kept scaring away the sales ppl by asking them if they'd vote for her for ROTC queen if they went to Auburn. Such a cutie, but can be a bit much at times... lol. Then we went to Barnes and Nobles for a few hours. I got a book of Penthouse stories.. good book ;) lol Then we went to pick up her nephew Zane. We took him to Penny Pinchers with us, where Jamie bought me the new issue of Penthouse. Then Katie was really wanting pizza, so we went to Papa Johns, but they were closed. So we took Zane to Dwight's house (his mom's b/f) and then we went to Steak N Shake for supper. Then we went to Jamie's house for a few minutes and then to her sister's where we spent the night. It's so cool that she'll lend Jamie her house. So we went to bed at about 3:30 am I think. Then we got up at like 8am.. Zane and Chantel came home then. Saturday morning we went to Penny Pinchers since Jamie's aunt Carol was working so we got cheap but good breakfast there. Then we went to Edward's Apple Orchard. There were some really cool goats there. I wanted to bring one home for Kitty, but none of them seemed interested when I offered. Oh well. So then we went back to Jamie's for some coupons and so Jamie could drop off what she bought. Then we went to Cherryvale. Didnt' buy anything but food.. that's a first. lol. Then we went to McDonalds so Jamie could get some food for her parents, then it was off to Katie's house. Oh, I had to change jeans in my car first.. that wasnt' easy.. lol. Okay, so at Katie's house we dyed my hair. I now have dark red bangs and a few highlighs. It looks really cool. I've got lots of compliments on it. I've pretty much been online every spare minute. Which turns out to be good since I've been talking to Joe today.. :) Such a hottie.. and his chick is moving out soon. yay. lol. oh, I saw the Fast and the Furious on Saturday. Really great movie. Really made me want to drive fast after watching it... damn speed limits. My english class is really starting to piss me off. I hate the crap we're reading, and no one likes my opinions on it.. oh well. Well, I guess that's all for now. Love you all.
• 10/9/01 -- Well since I have a few minutes before class I figured I better write here.. I started (finally) talking to Joe aka Bobby's dad, lol Jamie and Katie... yeah, so I was talking to him and he came up to visit me on Thursday. I had a swing dance class that night, so he went with me to that. I didn't get to dance with him, but it was really fun anyway. Then we came back to my dorm and talked and did other fun things, but I won't bore you with the details... :) I will mention though that he is much more talented than Keith.. (hope he isn't reading this...). I've decided I dont' really want to mess around with Keith anymore. It was fun while it lasted, but since I don't have feelings for him it was never really great. Yesterday was my mom's 50th birthday. Guy and I went shopping and bought her a really cute fleece penguin shirt. She thought it would be too small, but I told her to try it on anyway, and of course it fit her just fine. I got a really cute little rose plant for my room. My aunt Glenda from MN and possibly Cass (yeah right) are coming down here this weekend. They're coming over to my house on Sat. then I'm going down to Rkfrd Sat night til Sun afternoon. Gotta run since I have to leave for class.. I'll write more later. Love you all.
• 10/11/01 -- Happy Coming Out Day!! I'm bi.. lol. Not much has happened today. English was cancelled so I got up way too early for no reason. grr. Psych was boring, but I expected as much. I thought there was an IMPACT meeting today, and yesterday, but there wasn't anyone in the meeting room. I went to social dance club yesterday. Since that meeting wasn't required for any classes like the last two were there were only 9 ppl there including the instructor as compared to the over 80 ppl of the last meeting. It was still fun even though I only got to dance with 3 guys. Joe came over Tues. night. He took me for a ride on his motercycle, which was awesome. We were in the city so only going 30 mph but it was still great. Then we came back here and talked for hours.. it was great. I learned so much about him and the world. Just being with him was great too. Just laying there next to him and talking was so nice. We both wanted him to stay the night, but since it was supposed to rain the next morning (which it did) he left at like 1:30am because riding a motercycle in rain with no helmet is like being pelted with small stones for hours.. not exactly fun. There'll be other days for that though. The sleeping that is, not the getting pelted with stone like rain... Brian stopped by and fixed my tv today. He said the problem was with the outlet, not the tv, so that's good. Does anyone understand the bombing/food dropping thing in the middle east? 'Sorry we killed you, here's a loaf of bread' wtf? Does this make sense to anyone? If so please explain it to me. This is so typical... my tv gets fixed and Bush is on. If he is on during Will and Grace I'm going to have to get violent.. Ugh.. Thursday night.. a.k.a. everyone gets wasted and runs around screaming all night. Damn these people. Atleast I'll be home tomorrow night, then off to Rkfrd for Sat. night and Sunday. Okay, enough rambling.. Love you all.
• 10/16/01 -- Well today started out badly. I missed my first class since I've been here. I did call my teacher though. So, not to jump ahead of myself I'll start with what happened last weekend. Glenda, Jamie, Cass, and Collin came up to visit Saturday afternoon. Those are some of my relatives from MN, just so ya know. I took Guy, Katie, and Jimmy to Rkfrd that afternoon. I hate taking Jim anywhere because he's always insulting my driving, which he has no right to do since I'm great at driving, and he really sucks at it. Anyway, so I took him home first so Katie could get her key, then she, Guy, and I went to Coco's for supper since Jamie wasn't ready to get picked up yet. So we ate and went to Osco's so I could get a notebook for psych. Then we went to pick up Jamie. Then we went to the gas station and Joe called, and asked if we wanted to see a movie with him, Bobby, and Jarod. We said we couldn't because Katie had to be home by 10:30. I told him we'd be at Barns and Nobles at 9ish, so we went there and he showed up there. Jamie was amazed at how much hotter he gets every times she sees him. lol. So Jarod read us a story adn then they had to get going, so we went out in the parking lot so Joe could compare Katie and my boobs. We always argue about who's are bigger. As we had thought, hers are bigger, but mine are firmer. lol. So, that settles that. Oh, we had picked up Ryan before going to the book store. We came up with a few inside jokes that night, like fisting and rim jobs.. lol that was great. So, after B&N I took Katie home, and then I think we went to Jamie's sisters where we were spending the night. Jamie had bought me some cheap porn for our anniversary, so we watched that with Guy and Ryan. It was really terrible.. we watched it in fast forward.. that made it a little better.. it was really more of a comedy than porn.. lol. Then Zane wanted to go to his mom's b/f's, so we took him there and then went out to eat at Steak N Shake. Thats where I think I got food poisoning. So then we went back to Chantel's and maybe watched some tv and then went to bed. I couldn't sleep and ended up getting sick.. which is extremely rare for me, like once every 5 years or so. So that sucked ass. Then Zane adn Chantel came home in the morning at like 10 or so. Ryan kept messign with Zane, that was hilarious. We all went to Penny Pinchers for breakfast since Carol was working. Then we went to the flea market where Jamie sold me a knife, and Ryan and I each bought Guy a pair of sun glasses. We went to the mall next. It was like mexican day there or something. lol. We saw Sonny adn Pepe there. Sonny grabbed my ass, the lil slut. But like all the guys there were staring at me. lol. There were some circus acrobats there. They were cute and very talented. The one we named Milli (since he resembled the guy from Milli Vanilli) kept hitting on me, and he was really cute, but he smokes, and hot as he is, he's not Joe... What? Me being faithful.. what's that? lol Anywho, so I was talking to him and then Guy adn Ryan said there was this guy in Babages that wanted my number, but couldn't come out because he was working. So Guy pushed me in and I gave the guy my numbers and email. His hair sucked, but he was cute. lol Jamie. So, it was getting late so we went to Grandma's and my mom was there. Jamie, Cass, and I went to see my old house. Other than a new tree in front it looks pretty much the same. We went back to drop Cass off and then went to Katies. She tried on her sexy ROTC uniform for us. Then I washed my hair since I felt dirty and I was going to see Joe. I took Katie to Grandma's and then Jamie and I went to meet Joe at Culvers. That was fun. He's such a hottie. Speaking of him being a hottie.. he's going to come over tonight, but not til 8 or 9 so that means I get to watch Buffy first! yay! lol. So today was pretty dull, as was Monday. I skipped hte nursing home thing last night and English this morning because I felt sick, but I feel better now.
• 10/23/01 -- Yeah, I know it's been awhile.. Jamie ever so kindly pointed that out to me today.. lol. Well some really good adn really bad things have happened lately. I'm going from memory here, so if I have dates wrong well I guess that means my memory sucks.. same for if I forget anything. I think I'll just forcus on the past few days. I found out last week that my great aunt Murl was in the hospital for lung cancer and a brain tumor of sorts. The doctors found that the tumor was fast growing, so they started radiation therapy, but that caused her to have a seizure, so they decided that they weren't going to attempt treatment, other than pain meds and oxygen. I went to visit her last weekend with mom and Guy, but she was heavily sedated for the pain so it was really really sad seeing her. Mom called me last night to tell me that Murl had passed away. Grandma had gone to visit her, but it looked like she was sleeping, so she was lookign aroudn the room, and when she went over to her she noticed that she wasn't breathing, but by then it was too late. Mom and I are fairly sure than she willed her death. The funeral will be on Friday morning, so I'll be going home Thursday. Glenda, Johnna, and Cass are coming down Thurs. and staying til Mon. Guy's got a party at Karl's so I'll be in town Sat. and Sun. Last night was.. interesting.. it started out really bad.. finding out about Murl and then Joe was a few hours late.. I was homicidally pissed.. but he had viable excuses, so I couldn't justifyably stay pissed.. Especially once he started kissing me... wasn't too easy to stay mad.. especially with the events that followed.. for once I won't go in to specifics.. if I want you to know then you probably already do, and if not don't worry about it. And dont' tell my mommy. lol. I can't believe dance class is over.. all I have left is the final dance next Mon. and of course I still have social dance club. I'm going to talk to Denay (my dance teacher) tomorrow and see if she can get me in to her latin beginning social dance class. If not there's always dance club. Oh, I finally got to talk to Steve today! I hadn't talked to him for like a month. I'm worried about him though.. he's depressed and is still drinking when not in school or working... if only we lived on the same continent I could maybe help him.. Well I suppose that's it for now. As always I love you all my faithful readers... xoxoxo
• 11/3/01 -- I think Jamie's going to hurt me if I don't start updating more often.. lol. Well.. let's see if I can remember whats happened the past 11 days since I don't have a calander to refer to, since I'm at home. Halloween sucked. Joe was supposed to come over, so I got all pretty and as usual he said he'd be late... but I had sort of expected that, but then he called to say his car died, and because it was gonna rain he couldn't take his motercycle. Also Bobby and Jarod got arrested for tresspassing. Cutting through a parking lot on halloween. How stupid is that? Ashley was supposed to move out Thurs. but I dont' know if that happened or not. Joe didn't mention it last night, but I emailed him like 3 days ago with no response yet. That's got me a bit pissed. Espcially like how he says he'll be right back when he's online, and then he isn't for like a day or two. I guess that's probably how it feels with Jamie when I tell her I'll call her adn don't, but I'll atleast IM or email her or eventually call her or something. Glenda, Johnna, Bruce, and Cass were here last weekend for Murl's funeral. I had fun hanging out with them, although Cass was a bit sick so that sucked. My darling lil Katie had way too much fun telling Bruce abotu Joe and me. lol. Oh well. I got some new clothes last weekend. Two new sweaters, pin stripe pants, a vinyl skirt, a shirt, and two g-strings. Katie got a matching g-string. They're really cute. I won't be able to wear them this week though.*sigh* Joe (the gay one) went with me to IMPACT on Thurs. that was fun. I'll be fun to go to the socials with him. He's such a sweetie. I learned the Rumba in dance club last week. It's a lot easier than tango. I'm going to teach mom later so I'll have someone to practice with. Guy's play is next weekend. Hopefully J and K will come up to see it with me. I gotta go to Rkfrd next weekend to buy Brit's new cd, so maybe I can pick them up then if their parents dont' want to see the play adn just like want to pick them up afterwards or something. That should be fun. Buffy: The Musical will be on Tues. at 7.. I can't wait to see that.. Spike as a rock star.. yummy. lol. Anyway, I'm tired and in a pissy mood, so I think I'll stop typing now before I say something I'll regret later. Love ya'll and I'll try to update more.
• 11/25/01 -- Wow.. sure has been awhile... sorry about that. Well, a lot has happened this month, and unfortunately I'm at home right now so I dont' have my calender to refer to to see what's gone on in my life. Some really good and really bad things have happened this month. I'll start with the bad so I can end this on a happy note. I got a D on a math test and haven't really been doing any homework in that class.. but I've gotten A's on every quiz and I'm pretty sure I did good on Wed.'s test. I thought I got a D on an Ind. and Society test, but it turns out I got a C on it, and I got an A on the last unit test, which raised my grade to a B and should be an A by the end of the semester. Joe and I sort of got in to a fight last week. Which was pretty much my fault. Me and my damn honesty. But I saw him this weekend and it was like nothing had happened. I didn't get to see Brit's HBO special, but I did get her new cd, and I'll get the performance when it comes out on tape. :) Oh, on a really bad note for the past almost two weeks now someone has decided that it's really fun to pull the fire alarm anywhere from 12:30 to 3am If I find who is doing this, I will kill them. I'm sure there'll be another alarm tonight, so I should probably take a nap today. Grr. Oh, the 'good' side of that.. I've made some new friends via the alarms. On a sad note my friend Joe from school might be transfering.. that would suck for me, but if it'll make him happy then I guess that's good. I had a great Thanksgiving. Christmas is going to be weird though.. this'll be the first year that we won't be at my grandparents house.. but I'll get to help my mom cook, so that'll be fun. I'm sure you guys have heard this since it made national news, but a guy set himself on fire at Cherryvale mall Friday. I didnt' get to see it, but I did get to see the burn marks from where he was, and where his fingerprint was burned into the wood handrail. Jamie and I got to listen to a cd that Joe made. He's really really good. Oh, I dont' know if I've already said this in another entry, but I'm going to be the new character is Steve and Wil's comic The Flatmates. My pic is up in the characters section, but my comic isn't up yet since Wil is too lazy to draw it.. there's a link on the main page, but I think I'll put one here too http://flatmates.cjb.net Well, that's all the news I can think of for now. Love you all.
• 12/4/01 -- I’ve been trying to write more often, but I can’t always get the site to work, so in the mean time I’ll have to write in Microsoft word, and copy and paste when I can get the site to load right. I haven’t been too happy lately. My sort of off and on depression that I’ve had since 8th grade is at a low point right now. Nothing seems fun anymore. I don’t feel pretty. I have been feeling very alone as well. For those of you that see me on the weekends, I’m pretty much fine then, but during the week… that’s a different matter. I should be happy. I’m doing well academically, my health isn’t perfect, but I’ve only got a slight cough. So it’s not all bad. I’ve been crying a lot lately… Thank god for waterproof mascara. Also my insomnia has been quite bad lately. But that’s a symptom of depression, so that explains that. I just wish things were fun and easy again, if only for a few days. Is that too much to ask? I’ve had some interesting propositions lately… a couple emailed me about having a threesome this weekend. I turned them down. Then a guy messaged me through ICQ with an interesting proposition. He wants me to stomp on his face with my bare feet as hard as I can. He really enjoys it for some odd reason, and also has said he’ll pay me to do it, and will sign a document forbidding legal action on his part in the inevitable event of injury. I’m not sure if I’m going to take him up on that or not. If songs could sum up my feelings, right now I’d say it’s a mix of ‘Last Resort’ by Papa Roach, and ‘Live and Let Die’ by Guns N Roses. Good thing I’m too worn out to be suicidal. One thing that still really bothers me is that Joe never calls or emails when he says he will. I know he cares about me, but he doesn’t show it very well when he’s not with me.
• 12/12/01 -- As some of you know, I've been trying to update for a long time, but for some reason the update page won't open on my computer at school. Above is an update I wrote while I couldn't get to this page to update. Gosh, that last entry was a bit depressing.. sorry about that. Things are much much better now. Things between Joe and me are pretty great right now. After spending months thinking about it pretty much non stop I figured out that I am in love with him :) It's really weird.. it's like other guys (and chicks) don't interest me anymore. Like if I see someone that's really hot walk by I won't even give them a second look. How un-like me is that? lol Also it seems that he's starting to have good luck with his inevitable record deal :) He's really really good. Let me know if you want to hear any of his music and I'll send it to you. On his songs he does all the writing, singing, guitar, keyboards, editing.. pretty much everything but drumming. Oh, last weekend when I was in Rkfrd I spend the night at his house and got to meet his cat. He's such a sweetie :) has hte same name as my cat, Kitty. It was so great staying at his house.. I hate my dorm... he does too.. but it's better than nothing I guess. As long as I'm with him it's not so bad. Jamie's great niece Nina is living with her and her parents for the next 6 months to 2 years. Her mom is in financial trouble or something.. but then that's what happens when you have a kid at 15 yrs old. Nina can be annoying, but she's pretty cool. She told me that she loves me today :) lol My mom is leaving tomorrow morning and my parents won't be back til Monday night. Dad didnt' give us any rules besides no keggers while they're gone (beer sucks anyway lol) and mom just said no overnight guests. I thought for sure she'd say Joe can't come over, but she didn't say anything about it. How cool is that? I didn't really want to go behind her back about it.. and now I won't have to. I'm pretty much done with school. I just have to go back Fri for a 2 hr final (algebra) and Tues for a 20 minute final (honors english). Then no school til late January. I really wish it would snow.. I just can't get in the x-mas spirit with no snow. It should be fun anyway though because we're having 3 x-mas partys at my house this year. One for my friends, one for my mom's side of the family, and one for my dad's. Lots of chances for me to bake stuff :) I'm gonna get so fat.. lol Well now that I'm home I should be able to update a lot more often. Love you all. xoxoxo
• 12/17/01 -- Hello everyone! My life is actually going really well right now. It's about time. lol. School's going good, I've got my last final in an hour and a half. Things between Joe and me are getting better every day :) I talked to Ilea (finally!) last night adn we're going to go shopping on Thursday. It'll be great to see her again. I haven't seen her since school started. I think Jamie's going to go with us, and I'll call Katie too. Also Joe might go.. I want her to meet him, but it's gonna be weird x-mas shoppign for him if he's there.. I'll see him while I'm in town at his studio if nothing else. My x-mas party is still on for Sat. although Ryan can't make it :( Hopefully Jamie'll be spending the night Friday so she can help me cook adn set up and stuff. Katie and Joe will be here for sure, and Ilea will if she doesn't have to work. This lack of snow is really depressing.. it hardly seems like winter. I don't think there have been any days where it's been below freezing, and not a flake of snow :( How am I supposed to get in teh christmas spirit when it feels like April outside?? Well sorry for such a short entry, but that's all the news I can think of for now. I will add more later if I think of anything. Love ya'll. xoxoxo
• 12/26/01 -- Merry day after x-mas everyone! It really didnt' feel like x-mas to me.. how about you guys? Oh well, it was fun anyway. I went in to work last Friday. That was a lot of fun. It was nice to see they still remember and love me there. Hopefully I'll be starting work for about 2 1/2 weeks on the 2nd. Then after that I went to Rkfrd to see Joe.. that was fun as always ;) and then Jamie, Nina, Ilea, Katie, and I went to the mall. We had a lot of fun.. didn't buy much, but I did get Joe's x-mas present.. can't tell ya what it is though because I havent' given it to him yet. Saturday I attempted to have my x-mas party but Jamie was the only one here. I brought her home with me after shopping Fri so we could get all the cooking done. We made lots of stuff, but everyone was either busy or transportationless. *sigh* Maybe next year.. hmm next year I'll just have it in Rkfrd. lol. I made Joe a cherry pie and Jamie took it to him, but I never heard if he liked it or not.. I hope it wasn't really bad.. my mom said it was good.. I didnt' try it because I dont' care for cherries. Sunday I dont' think I did much of anything. Monday Katie's family adn Grandma came over. That was lots of fun. I got a hot topic gift certificate and a shower gel set thing from the Kings adn money from Grandma. I got Katie a cute lil butterfly ring. Lori gave me a silver and pearl ring that used to be Murl's before she died. It's really pretty. Yesterday I went to my grandparents house. They were supposed to come up here, but Grandma tore soemthing in her knee, so we went down there. That was fun as well. I got lots of gift certificates. Today I'm going to go grocery shopping adn then bake stuff for tomorrow with mom. Tomorrow I'm going back to Rochelle for a pizza party with my grandparents and out of state relatives who will be there as well. Before that though I think we're going to Rkfrd to get a cd burner and go out to eat at my fave restaurant, Lone Star. Their cheese bacon fries with ranch dip kick ass. lol. Friday we dont' have any family stuff going on, so hopefully I can get my parents to let me go to Rkfrd (I'll pay for gas if that's what it takes) to see Joe since that's his birthday adn I still have his x-mas present and that stereo part I picked up for him. Also I might do some shopping since I have all those gift certificates. Saturday it's back to Rochelle for my great aunt's b-day.. she's going to be 90. She has the same birthday as Joe. Then I have to go to a Bucks game in Mil. I really hate basketball, but my dad got the tickets for free so I have to go. *sigh* I have no idea what I'm doing for new years or new years eve. I usually go to Katie's and chill with her and Chan, but if Joe wants to do something maybe i'll hang out with him. I don't know what's up yet. I think Jamie usually spends new years eve getting drunk with her parents. lol. Well, I guess that's it for now.. love you all. xoxoxo
• 1/3/02 -- Happy new year everyone! The Friday before new years I went to Rkfrd to hang out with Joe. I didn't have a lot of time down there because of Guy I couldn't spend the night in Rkfrd, but I did have a great time with him for the way too short time we were together. New years eve started out sucking with me thinking I'd just be staying home, but then I talked to Katie and found out she was having her annual party so I took a shower and left for Rkfrd. First I spent a few hours with Joe. We didn't have sex, but it was just as nice just laying down next to him and talking and not talking too. Okay, I know that sounds stupid, but I guess it's one of those things were you have to be the person(s) involved to understand it. So, then I went to Jamie's and Richard took Jamie, Nina, and I out to eat. Nina can be such a cutie.. esp. when she's actually listening to you.. which, contrary to popular belief, does happen some times. Then I went over to Katie's house. Chan and Kathryn were there, as well as her family. We watched American Pie, which Chan and Kathryn hadn't seen, and listened to cds and later watched some mtv. We did our traditional running and frolicing outside at midnight for a few minutes, but it was cold and there weren't any fire works so that didnt' last long. We also made resolutions afterwards. I resolved to try to lose a little weight (don't worry Joe, I'm not gonna lose my stomach.. that was part of the resolution lol), to keep getting good grades, and to be more confident and secure. I keep having reoccuring dreams of rejection and they're really starting to get to me.. I'm always so paranoid the people i care about are going to leave me.. I know it's irrational, but I don't know what to do about it. I spent the night at Katie's and then went to Joe's the next afternoon. As always I had a lot of fun being with him. I really didn't want to leave and go home though. I just feel so at peace when I'm with him.. I feel loved and relaxed and like bad things aren't going to happen, and if they do it won't matter because I'm with him. At home on the other hand, reality sinks in.. I hate my dad, EDC is having problems and can't hire me over break which means I have to find a job to work during weekends til next spring when I start workign at EDC again. Bleh.. stress is getting really annoying.. I've been sleeping a little better than usual lately, but still not enough. *sigh* Well, I gotta get up early, wish me luck getting some sleep.. love you all. xoxoxo
• 1/9/02 -- Yesterday was so perfect! I went to the studio and as always that was great. Then Joe and I went out to eat with my mom. She really likes him. She said he's what she's always wanted for me :) yay :) and the age thing doesn't bug her. So I was really happy about that, so I went online when I got home to share the good news, and I found that my favorite author, Michael Cecilione, saw my website and emailed me!! To say I was ecstatic would be an understatement. It took a minute for the reality of it to sink it, but wow. How kick ass is that?? Jamie called me this morning to tell me that he was online, and I got to talk to him. He's really nice and he's going to send me an autographed copy of Domination. I'll write more later. Love you all. xoxoxo