From within my heart and soul I feel a burning desire

I really can’t explain how it draws me to the fire

Reality seems to fade away leaving nothing but the flame

Every time is different yet it always feels the same

Flooded with emotions from sadness to solid rage

Intimidating thoughts, my head becomes their cage

Racing pulse and heavy breaths, the flame is in my sight

Eager to feel the heat from this fire burning so bright

Futile attempts to find the answers I’ll never see

I’ve understood the flame and all it’s meant to me

Rationalizing the fire is something I cannot do

Equivocal words I’ve written tell only what is true

For as long as I remember it’s always been this way

I really don’t know what it means or just what I’m trying to say

Reasons are easy to find if you’re willing to live the lie

Eternally searching for answers, forever asking why

Forcing myself to believe some things I don’t need to know

Insisting it’s more important just to watch the flame glow

Raging fires and questions still burning deep inside

Even when I controlled the flame I felt I had to hide

Forgetting how it hurt I watched the flame dance

Igniting a new blaze and taking another chance

Remembering how it was, not caring what it means

Entering the world where this fire shapes my dreams

Fearing the fire at first because I could not explain

In time I have accepted it though questions still remain

Realizing I’ll never understand this desire

Endlessly wondering……"what is the fire"?