Title: “Fallen Embers”
Author: Kelly (bloody_adorable@yahoo.com)
Pairing: Boromir/Faramir
Summary: Faramir is remembering his fallen brother, and how he loved him.
Disclaimer: Don’t own ‘em, don’t pretend that I do. I just have fun writing them.
Music: “Fallen Embers” by Enya (www.enya.com)
Once, as my heart remembers,
All the stars were fallen embers.
Once, when the night seemed forever,
I was with you.
Once, in the care of morning
In the air was all belonging.
Once, when the day was dawning,
I was with you.
How far we are from morning,
How far are we
And the stars shining through the darkness,
Falling in the air.
Once, as the night was leaving
Into us our dreams were weaving.
Once, all dreams were worth keeping.
I was with you.
Once, when our hearts were singing,
I was with you…
--Enya
Boromir, son of Denethor, High Warden of the White Tower and Captain-General of Gondor, where have you gone, my brother?
Once I was strong, proud and a great warrior. Once, I had my brother standing by my side, his love and faith in me enough to get me through the toughest of times. Once, our hearts sang with an eagerness for each other. Once, we defeated the scorned beatings of our father to remain in each other’s arms.
Yet now I stand upon the land of Gondor that you cherished so much, staring down at a grave that your body does not grace. I am wounded and bleeding, the hole in my heart paining me each time I hear your name.
No more will I see your smiling face. No more will I hear your contagious laughter. No more will I hear your words of passion, whispered to me in secret, late at night by the fire in my room. I shall not ever touch you again, shall not gaze into your clear eyes. I will long for the rest of my days for your touch, your kiss, the mouth that could make me whimper in delight. O! How I shall miss you, my dear brother…my prized lover.
I will have the memories of our love, the long nights that we spent exploring each other, learning what the other needed and wanted. I will have the memories of our last night together, spent in my bed, where you made love to me until the sun peeked over the horizon. I will have the memories of your form hovering over me, kissing me with abandon, our muscles straining against one another.
I will die a loved man. I shall never be alone, for your memory and love will always be with me. I was with you when you died, as you are with me as I mourn you. But the world is not the same to me.
Gondor is no longer my home.
The sunrise isn’t full of the fiery colors I remember seeing while you were alive.
The clouds are nothing more than billows of smoke, the flowers nothing more than weeds.
And the stars are nothing more than fallen embers.
I will always love you, brother. I will always return to you, to the memories that we share. I will see you in my dreams, the ones worth keeping, and there I will be with you.
~The End~
