Mood: silly
Now Playing: First Contact
Topic: Natural Familly Effected
My first daughter emailed me yesterday!!!!!!
I was so absolutely blown away, it was incredible.
I had sent her a letter about two weeks ago. I had written the letter over and over and chickened out before sending it as many times. But two days before her birthday I bought het a birthday card. This time I was not about to let myself chicken out again.
Then I started talking myself out of it. i was worried I might ruin her birthday. So I waited until after her birthday to put it in the mail. There are two things here in my blog that were posted by two of my daughters. They explained why they wanted to know their sister. I printed those and sent them too.
I was so worried at first, but then I thought about it. She is my daughter. When I realized that, I was finally able to write the letter that I mailed to her. I put my trust in her and having been going nutso for weeks wondering if she got it, if she was going to respond, if , if , if...
But she did and it was such a sweet thoughtful letter. I have been pinching myself for the last two days to make sure I am not dreaming.
I am blabbing about this to everyone. And have been trying to thank the many, many people who have become my support line over the last year. I didn't realise just how many people have been helping me get through my fears of rejection, ect. until I tried to thank them. WOW!
I am waiting for my next letter. My daughter is going to send pictures and I can't wait to see them, scan them, plaster them all over my walls. :))