When I look at you, I see myself:
What I want to be, what I should be.
But I can’t change what I am,
What I was meant to be.
I look at you, and your face seems
To be a mockery of what I lost:
All the characteristics that make one
Trust and love you.
They’d die for you, you know,
If you asked them to.
I’d die for you.

I look at you, and feelings swell to
Proportions that make me fear my
Lack of self-control.
All that matters is that I’m with you,
Can kiss you, be inside you —
But upset is never far away, there’s
Still too many obstacles between us
That we can’t shift.
When yet another shows its face, I
Wonder if we’ll survive it this time.
I can’t change what I am, but you
Want me to, and I don’t know how.

When I look at you, I want to cry
And laugh at the same time.