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Considering that the world is open to use anything I say or do to degrade my level of happiness I openly express at risk of providing material for criticism by those who are determined to create focus for their desires by disregard of unity.

There are a few main points that are in my mind right now, the first is requirement individualism in an ethical world, and the second is the confusion of precedence of peace. Other thoughts of course are repression, rejection and supremecy. Overall the feeling is clear as always the colour of it understood for determination of fullfillment. Regardless of the underlying identification of tainted guise remenant in any modern thought grounded in the world I attempt to justify purity of abstract meaning. I will see about addressing each of the main identities in focused extrapolations.

The idea of individualism has been in my mind since a walk two or three summers ago maybe four now, time has melted somewhat for myself and I have no great desire to delve through the smeared mental blocks. Upon returning from the walk the compact idem of the need for humans to exist as moral creatures but not allowing this morality to abandon the idea of humanity as a group identity, individualism is a paradox of the requirement for companionship. There is a drastic devision between individualism and isolation. Individualism is the identity of having a self identity but having others to draw a difference from.. where as isolation is being removed from foriegn or exterior identities. Isolation seems a major imposibility in full if there ever exists the potential for interaction to warrent the notion, however the abstract idea can be weaned to periods of isolation from other object identities. For instance I was isolated from apples in a radius of 100 meters. If there are apples in existance then you are not truely isolated from them in full as both of you exist in the same reality. It is more so an imposibility to know you are isolated from anything in a raw idea context because anything you know of exists, however perhaps not in a physical real, however I say perhaps at risk that we really only exist at a mental level, with are physical qualities at times being at the forefront of our mental actions. The idea of individualism gives way to ethics and an array of foreign systems creating external communication etc.. etc.. Individualism is somewhere out of the idea of precedence of peace. If there is no difference then one would exist in a sense of nirvana. Nirvana is relized but it is not actualized. There are moments that Nirvana is actualized in the overall framework of ethical reality, that is our unaccounted time, such as during sleep or unconciousness or every moment between the next, an imposibility to beleive we die between our heartbeats and neuron firings, as everything is seen to have a sensual symetry smoothness. Time itself fails to exist outside of the lowest measurement unit of physical interchange in a physical sense. It is a method of comparison of likeness. It seems somewhat redundant to argue the idea of time existing or not existing, the use of it in science seem to give others a greater precedence of peace, however that verywell may be a confusion of identifying with your full desire. This goes back to the level of unconcious and concious desire. It seems a falacy to say that there is an unconcious however it very well may be the actions of Nirvana that that is the continuation of our overriding peace as a backdrop to our ethics. To say that human concious reality is dual in nature would be an understatement since the modalities of reality seem various not confined to a singularities, ethics, desire, purpose, unconcious and concious, fragmentation, unity, logic and illogic, and the other aspects of paradoxial existance, and the idea of a core be it faith, and to leave it at that.

Trailing at this point however just to raise the point that it is a logical imposibility to ever cease to recognize yourself however the repercussions of drafting isolation is to draw contrasts between our purpose and desire. The thought dawns on me and falls somewhat that there is the balance of our contrast and the system to which the contrast exists at. One could argue randomness or chaos and to create further redundancy to this perhaps, the scientific logistician may simply raise a glass in cheers and dropping it, the militant may just demostrate the foolishness of your existance for suggesting as such. It seems a fundamental truth that we act based on our desire in fullfilling our purpose which is fullfilling our desire, however the system must remain intact to create continuance of the action. It is making love, or in a way a industry of love. However it doesn't quite fit to understand or explain the variation of love, that is to bring back how does someone create amplify etc.. ala genisis. It is all a doctoring of sorts however the confusion exists in the logical side of it. To say it is, without explaining how it is is only the S of S/R and is hard to claim it is understood instead it just continues as part of the abstract. It automatically brings the question of the division.. and the system. Learning about industry is not new however understanding how individualism fits in. The arguement that love is continuance something you seek to continue being however to love yourself versus loving nirvana.. nirvana as the other unconcious aspect of ourselves that we can never see except through our sense of values which are cast into the physical world. It is this interaction between the two.. however from nothing or everything the alpha omega seems like saying void init. It is what is befor that is the occult and the mystery order from chaos, however if everything is linear is that to say that it is defined if it is defined is that to say that we have found love or that the system has given us a utility to break us free from confusion so that we may find it. That is is understanding a greater contrast and loss of love or is understanding a greater relization of our love. To be linear in the emotional aspect or create a balance of emotions.. good bad.. etc.. what is desired is there undesired surely if I kick my foot against a wall .. but some may be masochistic or sadists. It quickly gets lost in the idea of insanity however to say that every human is the same or to say that we are all different raises a paradox between individualism and a system of love. If you don't understand what I mean here is more bable to perhaps help you sort it out. To cut through the abstract reasoning and cut it down. We are not all the same, because we in ethics can assume we all exist from different perpectives as our aspect , physical concious recognition body or whatever has a different frame, we do not know this but we can bridge the gap using logical, we are NOT all me looking at things from my aspect. The idea of avatarism is still existant of the overall faith of unity and fullfilled purpose however there is a disctinct barrier between me seeing this book and everyone in the world seeing the book. Psychic identities of course contrast this empaty telepathy mind reading etc.. are unconcious aspects that are confused to be ethical however the idea of division from love can be seen as well, that is ulitmately life is a psychic entity with everything communicating its meaning irrespective of the physical presence, that is we think about things that are not physical forcing themselves in largescale mesurable way,, how much force does a photon firing have, however that is exactly what we are messuring, in a scientific sense. Nothing exist to us that is relized by our sensory systems, the abstract notion of course could compain but once again science would say our thoughts are rationalized by the ability of energy to pattern perceptive responses, it is not a flatline, that is nirvana, that is to say that we are fully the world? To be centered around ourselves is a logical confusion. Sure it is a logical imposibility to die, but it is illogical to beleive in isolation, however aspects change, however we cannot see this in ourselves.. of course abstractly not true due to dream notions, roleplaying, ideas such as astral projection, NDE's are all worldly ideas that the world has expressed and erased isolation of the unknown. What is worthwhile to beleive and what is first hand experience seem an aspect of faith and faith a contrast between desire and purpose. Purpose itself being imposible and desire questionable in life to be achieved, or the exact opposite we are always fullfilling our purpose to maintain the peace of nirvana while at the same time the desire is to achieve nirvana.. however for nirvana to be relized isolation is an imposibility of ethics. To explain .... etc.. an achievement of nirvana ... etc.. There has to be two ... if we do not stop the unconcious state then we can never relize we relized nirvana and we cannot fully understand the love, understanding the love can then be appreciated as everymoment give a reminder of the previous moment of love. heaven.

Of course I must be critical and skeptical and pessimistic in saying that if I have any undesired thoughts then what does that mean? It does not fit into the fairy tale idea. It goes back to an insane thought. Why not just disbeleive it, but once again isolation .. is that the sense of meditation, what exactly is our controlled seperation from the world. That itself seems an aspect of the divine unity it seems a sense of death and however it is our conciousness in nirvana? That is to say our remembrance of the most sacred loved. However why accept our death if we can live? Is not the continuance of love our purpose.. that seems the question of fortitude if we can maintain love maintain love.. that is when logic is relized then the system must be saying that there is love to be relized, and when we relize this love again we will find our peace again, loosing ourselves in love.