Natural Blues
wat it do wat it is why are you so beautiful
it's my lie. and i like it. and it eats me. but i like it. and i think about it. and i wonder. do you want to know. and if you do. it seems okay with you [ a false sense of hope.question mark] i know you know. and you know i know you know. and i know you know i know. you're such a pinball.and yea you know it's true. i'll never ask [by asking for a non.lie you could potentially be setting yourself up for dissappointment.sad face. that's why everyone loves a big.phat liar!enourmous griiiin] if you really wanted to know. you'd ask --but then it couldn't be my lie anymore. you'd know.the --truth. covered in security. i can't let you smother me. i'd like to but it wouldn't work [unless --andonly when-- you lie with me.or my lie is your truth.smirk] i know you'll never tell me. i know you well enough to know you'll never bother me. bother me. it keeps me from myself. or else.andthen i start to think. and the more i think the more i realize. but do YOU reaalize.question mark. emotions run as deep as oceans. exploding. like brain cells. brain cells.exploding. snap. crackle. pop. hip.pity hop. stop. the voices in my head are saying something [telling me to study--i need to stop thinking before i can start thinking about human evolution though maan] i thought i heard your laugh out loud.in my head. my soul got happy.for a second. there there i think i lost myself.again long breath in.hold it in. trouble so hard. don't nobody know my troubles but god. don't nobody know-- and that's assuming that god isn't empty.like me. if life is full of empty promises is it only because everyone swears to god when they make 'em.question mark and is that how billy corgan arrived at his conclusion that god exists in a vacuum.question mark.two.times. if he is in actuallity, we're making him look baaad i can always get you to let me down [up.down expectations accordingly] so crush me baby i'm all ears!i know you can make it up next time. this time it's gone too far.but not really i'm hooked on a feeling. and its caaaaalled hateme.so we can move along. try to laugh about it.cover it all up with lies.hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause phellz don't cry.fake smile.i think i know too much. i think too much. i haven't seen enough. those who know do not talk. those who talk do not know. keep my mouth closed. guard my senses. temper my sharpness. mask my brightness. simplify your problems. and i just.might just find somebody. and i just.might just love somebody and i just.might just kill somebody. and if only they knew of the thoughts she can't stop from coming through... how are we supposed to be positive when we dont see shit positive.question mark [optimism needs to feed off self esteem]
in.my.dreams.imdying.all.the.time. i'm
jellis.all.the.time.
today's a goode day to die. so tell me when to gooo!
tis.wat it is it aint and wat it aint it is
fuck you, you stole my lines! it's okay. i take your cookies all the time.
just when i think i've lost my mind..you always win.
nothing i know changes me
i just wanna be pure