Day of 4 Cheeseburgers..

6th August 2003

                Waiting in a train at Oslo Train Station now.. on my way back to Trondheim liao... shld reach there at arnd 710am.. den the orientation programme for international students starts tomorrow at 930am.. abit rush lar.. but bobian this is the best arrangement we can make liao cos of the train schedule.. veri complicated lar.. cos to make our way back from coppehagen.. we have take 3 different  trains in 3 diffierent countries (Denmark, Sweden and  Norway)..

                Bought 3 cheeseburgers at the Copenhagen train station this morning.. ate them for my breakfast and lunch.. quite cheap lar.. each cost 8DKK.. den juz now we reached Oslo and we have to wait 5hours for our connecting train back to trondheim .. so we ended up going to Macdonalds to rot and we each bought a happy meal for 35Noks... den eat cheeseburger again.. hmm.. anywae, tink this is my 1st time eating a happy meal.. quite weird feeling..

                sometimes, i thought to myself.. why is it so  hard for me to get along with these 2 frens? .. initally, i would usually tink the problem lies with them.. but now.. i am starting to tink about myself.. am i a person who is veri hard to get along with? hmm.. to me, i seems normal.. i do have my clicks of frens whom i seems to "connect" quite well.. but there do exist some people whom i find it really hard to maintain a conversation with them..

                Was tinking about this during the long hours of train rides.. maybe the problem doesnt really lies with me nor them.. this is juz a part and parcel of life.. cos everyone in this world is different.. even twins are different in their personalities and character.. everyone of us look at the world from a different prospective and we have our own likes and dislikes.. so its like some people may juz somehow "click" with u and become ur good fren cos of some common interest, liking or even common hatred for something/someone .. but the person u disliked the most in this world, may not be exactly a bad person after all.. maybe so happens that he/she juz did something unknowingly to hurt/disgust and u juz decide to "condemn" this person forever.. but this person may have many other desirable traits which u are refusing to "see" or acknowledge cos of wat he/she did to u? And i tink the most stupid thing is to judge a person u dun really know based on wat other people say of them.. this is really unfair to the person.. u probably shld alwaz try to know a person better before making a judgement of person and start commenting on them..

                Anywae, who are we to judge if a person is good or bad? Now i dun feel that the 2 frens are bad or irrritating people... maybe i have portrayed this image of them out of anger/disgust previously... but nowi hope to clarify things abit.. i seriously dun tink i am i bad person too.. its juz maybe we haven got enough time to appreciate the "like-able" characteristics of one and another..  so its nobody's fault.. =)

            Sometimes i tink i am putting some too sensitive or personal stuff here.. some people may get offended reading wat i wrote here.. i used to have another online journal too.. but that one is really personal.. dun tink anyone have the url to it.. and i was able to express all my feelings on it without any restrictions ..and it does have a lot of vulgarities one.. but den again.. that's wat i am.. wats the point of hiding myself and my feelings juz b/cos i am aware that people may read and get offended?