jane's prayer

i wish you spent a little more time making me understand
i wish you could have called when doubts marched through my head
i wish we were together even when i couldn't stand to talk to you
i wish i had your heart like how i used to have so true

i wish you could have told me that you found someone new
i wish you didn't call me even though she's there with you
i wish you would stop confusing my mind
i wish i could lock out all those memories of our past time

but most of all, i wish i could forget
i wish i could erase every image of you in my head
i wish i could take back everything
i wish that the word "us" wouldn't mean a single thing

i wish i knew then what i know now
i wish i could stop all this pain someway somehow
but even then, would that have been enough?
after all, i was and still am, just a fool for love

God please heal this heart and give me the strength to go on.