My Thoughts
Here's a page where I can talk about what's on my mind...so if you're not willing to bear with me, you shouldn't be here.
02.09.03 [aka First day of school] @ 9:28 am
So here it is already. The first day of school. About three weeks ago I was actually looking forward to today, but now I'm like, "No! I don't wanna go and you can't make me!!" I think it may be mostly becuz I have to change my crappy schedule and I REALLY don't want to deal with that rite now. I mean, come on, who REALLY wants to have Math, Science, Socials, and English all in the same semester? Why can't they be kinder to me? Not fair! I had pledged to work my ass off this school year - are they mocking me? Well, my mom phoned the school last week while I was at camp, and they were all, "We're too busy, go away." So what the hell am I supposed to do?! Hopefully they changed it over the weekend or something. And another thing: camp. I never thought I would, but 2 days after coming home, I really miss it. I was slightly looking forward to coming home so I could see my friends (Kyle, Kendra, and especially Kristina, considering she just came home 4 days ago), but now that I've talked to them, I wanna go back to camp! It's just the coolest place with the coolest people. It's really hard to explain.
02.09.03 @ 9:05 pm
School was interesting today. Just an hour, but it was sooo long. We got our lockers today. I have quite possibly the worst locker in the school: in the hub, rite by the payphone. But whatever, it's just a locker. Afterwards, a bunch of us (me, Kendra, Kristina, Kyle, Shawn, and Jono) went over to Kendra's house to hang out. It was great - I honestly love these ppl. They're the greatest friends I've ever had. It was pretty interesting - me and Shawn were acting kinda crazy. Shawn kept flirting with Kristina, and Kyle looked ready to beat his brains out. Poor Kyle, having such an evil twin brother. I told Shawn to tone it down, but I doubt he listened to me. So we basically just hung out and talked. Then I went home and decorated the back of my planner - it's pretty ugly, with a thing from ICBC warning against dangerous driving. So I covered it up :). Then I talked to ppl online. I had a good conversation to Kyle about relationships. You can read it here. I'm just so jealous of Kyle and Kristina's relationship!! I kinda feel bad feeling guilty, but I can't help it! The one relationship I was in the guy cheated on me (ANDY YOU ASSHOLE!! not like you would be reading this, but yeah.) and the one guy I've kissed is Jono on a dare, and that was just on the cheek. Rite now I really want a good meaningful relationship where the guy really cares about me, but it doesn't seem to be coming ne time soon :(. All my friends go, "Your time will come, Jess!!" but I'm just so damn IMPATIENT!! Argh. Oh well...I suppose all good things come in time.
02.09.04 @ 4:04 pm
I hate the school. They are stupid. My schedule is stupid. I don't wanna switch out of PE!! Well, I do but I don't. I want it the same time as the French Immersion ppl, which is what i have rite now. But I'll prolly get bad grades next semester becuz its so damn STUPID: english, socials, science and math. UGH. So the counsellor is proposing that I switch my PE with my math, so I have math blk a with Ms Austin first semester, and PE blk a with Mr Lamond second semester. It may be ok since Jason would be in math with me (woo hoo! :) ) and I would still have Lamond for PE, and the same blk as Kristina. But I wanted to have the same blk as Kyle and them :(. But I suppose I can just hang out with them @ lunch and outside of school...I mean, isn't school supposed to be about learning and nothing else? Well, it really doesn't feel that way sometimes. Last year and Grade 8, schoolwork was never on my mind. Ever. It was always guys...friends...internet...trying to figure out guys...if I should bug my mom for money for new jeans...you get the idea. Never school. But this year I really want to buckle down and work my ass off. You may not know this, but I'm actually a pretty smart kid. Of course none of my teachers know that...But I'm going to work so I get a GPA higher than 3.125. And get on the Super G for the first time in my life. And actually get on the Passport to Education list. I was kinda sad to see that I wasn't on it for Grade 9, considering some of the ppl we have at our school. But hopefully this will be my "best year ever" like Kristina predicted. Then again, she said that for grade 9, too. Hmmm...maybe it's just been a bit delayed. Hopefully.
02.09.05 @ 3:56 pm
Wow...I have this empty feeling rite now. You know when you're not sure about ne thing and the world just seems like nothing's for sure ne more? That's the feeling I have rite now, but I have no idea why. It's really weird. I had my first stageband class of the year today :). It was great...I missed band! Just sitting around while Fullerton's yaking his head off...moving his head to the music...Jeremiah going, "Huh? It wasn't me!"...me and Janeen talking...Nicole complaining about getting second alto...Colin hugging his tenor when not playing...it was just so damn TYPICAL of us. I felt like I was where I was meant to be again. That was the one group of ppl that I really missed during summer. Oh, and I just got a new alto last nite!! Well, a very old new. But I'm happy to finally OWN one. Jeez Louise. Tomasz is crazy...he was trying to go visit this oh-so wonderful site of mine but he couldn't get to it, so I was going to figure it out for him...so I was gonna say "one sec"...but THE C KEY IS TOO DAMN CLOSE THE THE X KEY!! And I wrote "one sex"...which Tomasz replied to with: "lol...you said sex...no I didn't...now you said sex...it's a dirty word!" which I'm guessing he got from my MSN profile quote. *sigh* What crazyness. NE WHO...Kenny has bad grammar!! WOO HOO! And now shes offline...HOW DARE SHE ABANDON ME. Oh well. Ne ways...that's all I have to say for now...for I must go do French homework..."Je lis Je lis Je lis ... Il lis Il lis Il lis ..." aahhh the terrible French madness!!
02.09.06 @ 9:17 pm
Guess what. No more Jessicaness for a total of ONE MONTH! Yes, that's rite, you will not be able to witness the wonderousness of JESSICANESS until October 6th!! *sobs* Oh well. That's your prob, not mine. You see...me and Kendra were having a discussion...and she was all, "Well, you should tone down the Jessicaness, it scares ppl sometimes." So I was like, "Fine, I'll go on strike!" Which turned into, "I won't use Jessicaness for a whole month then!" So see the mess I got myself into? Oh well. I'm using it to test my true willpower. And I will be so very proud of myself if I can actually last a whole month. That would be cool...but then ppl would be all, "I don't know you ne more!!" Poor ppl. So now I'm wearing this weird ring with different coloured stars on it to remind me, since I don't really wear rings so I'll be like, "Why am I wearing this? Oh yeah..." So yes. Rite now I'm listening to Christian rock to boost my pureness. Go pureness! Woo hoo! (By the way, Seed [the Christian rock band] kicks ass!! Wooooo!!) So yes...check in here to see how I'm holding up...I'll try to update often!
