February 2002




01 Feb
It's friday.. the power has been out since wed night at about 8:something pm. tonight i'm staying at grandma jacobs' house. i love that place. so much fun. we saw the matenee at chillicothe of "A Walk to Remember" with Mandy Moore and Shane West. WOW! AMAZING movie. :)


02 Feb - Groundhog's day, Uncle Pat's 40th bday.
JEENY GOT A TATTOO! we went to "Rave Cage" on washington st. in chillicothe tonight and she got the chinese symbol for "unborn child" on her lower back. it was nice. when i saw it, i knew she had to have it. also we ate at dairy queen. mmm. she took it like the man we all know she is. ;) jj. jeeny, you really make it look easy. sara got to watch "Dude, where's my car" tonight for the first time. it's not like she couldn't quote it before she saw it either way.


03 Feb
sunday... hmm. what'd we do then? well, i guess that was the morning that we (the three of us and sara) woke up at sand's house. we watched "save the last dance" that morning and then headed to grandma's again to eat (MMMMMMMM!) roast, potatoes and carrots. yummy! we came back to sand's house to watch the SUPERBOWL 36 - rams vs. patriots. Patriots won 20-17. bummer St. Louie. sand's mom made a turkey and potatoes and stuffing.. MMMM! and we had k-k-kool aid. mmm. :)


04 Feb
monday, monday... ahh ahhh .. hehe. i love the mama's and the papa's. :) i watched a special on them a few days back. they're really great. i slept in til 12 or 12:30... not my best effort and didn't do much all day. i made cupcakes and little loaves out of chocolate cake mix though, and put vanilla icing on them! yummy! i also made supper - hamburgers, rice and fries. yes, i realize it may be just a little weird of a combination but you know, i eat what i like and i fix enough to go around. if you don't like it, find something yourself!


05 Feb
YAAAAY! i had an interview at pizza hut today. i dressed up too! wore sara's skirt, the plaid colored one and my HUGE white sweater that i get lost in sometimes. :) i think i did well except that they're wanting a shift manager for AUGUST (the month i'm leaving to go back to school). some chick is having a baby and another lady is leaving. of course, i'd LOVE to stay and have a job but you know, i love sedalia and the people there much more than brookfield pizza hut. either way... i made dinner again. this time, baked crunchy chicken (covered in corn flakes, mmm), stuffing and creamed corn. yeah, i got rave reviews -- again. ;)


06 Feb
yet another fight with the parents tonight. i'm sitting on my ass not doing a thing. nearly started what i'm calling a "street brawl" with mom only sara pulled me away before i got to hit her too much. it's because she slapped me for saying something and i told her to do it again. she did. that's what got me. it's all because i sit on my ass playing on the computer and not trying to find a job (yeah right).


07 Feb
again this morning i'm feeling like shit. i woke up before 8 thinking i'm going to town with mom. that didn't work. dad reminded her and i that i'm supposed to clean up the bullshit in my room and get it clean or he's throwing it out my window and burning it with the branches that fell in the ice storm. .... so i called pizza hut and debbie is supposed to call me back. i guess to set up an interview or something. who knows. so it's 12:57pm according to the clock on the computer. i tried cleaning my room and got distracted by the door. i hate that door. so i took it off of the frame at the hinges and nailed the panelling back to the wall. this house is seriously a piece of shit.
i honestly think that i am beginning to melt away like they say i am. i read today a somewhat complicated sentence and did not understand a word of it. that is something i would have naturally gone over until i understood it, taking just a couple times. i'm so sick of feeling this way - like i'm losing every bit of knowledge i do have. why can't they understand that i don't WANT to be like this... that i'm not NOT having a job because i don't want it. if i could get someone to HAND me a job i clearly would.. God get me out of this hellhole.


08 Feb
friday - the 8th. i'm writing this on monday the 11th. what did i do this day? OH! i went to see "A Walk to Remember" again.. this time it was me, jeeny and sand. haha. she was a total bag. jeeny said she cried more this time than last. i couldn't help but not cry. i'm not sure why because this movie is really great with a message that's changing me every day. i'm loving this, seriously. after watching this movie i'm going back to my old thoughts. i'm starting to wish and hope again for that love instead of lust that it's been for so long. i want to wait now for a true love... it seems much more gratifying, even after just seeing a "teen movie". now just to get that "love of my life".


09 Feb
i cleaned some more on my room, blah. it's not like i could get anyone to notice. either way... we lounged around the house all day, the three of us. course everyone was there but who's to notice despite the yelling and cussing. it rained today... i love rain. it was cold though. no matter, it didn't freeze or anything. jenny stayed tonight, or uh, sunday morning.


10 feb
sunday... woohoo. um, mom made tuna casserole for lunch.. hehe. that's when i finally got out of bed - 2pm. i love sleeping in. and it's only on sundays (sadly) that i get to. i really should go to church but... i dunno. yeah, maybe i will next sunday. i finally took jenny in around 6pm (maybe earlier) and we watched part of "Meet the Parents". man, that movie is hilarious. i love ben stiller. :) um... we went to THE WAL-MART! so i could drop off film. we saw steph too. it's been quite a while since we've seen her. graduation i think.. i might have seen her at walmart once before though... who knows. i got my roll on cd and online (shibby!!). that's the roll i've got of the boys from the dorm, ameen, olisha, austin, etc. i really love them. i'm meaning to go down there again to talk to Nasser but everytime i go, he's at work. one night i'll get to stay over. i really do love it there. :)


11 Feb
so uh, it's 10 til 11am... blah. i hate this getting up early stuff but (hehe) i've gone and outdone myself. i'm kind of in a mood coz uh, there're some evil spirits hangin around the city offices today - each a bit moody. i've had a couple pieces of wheat toast this morning and a pepsi and two (2) stay awakes. so i should start tweakin out any time now as my typing abilities start to diminish. i suppose that's why i'm trying to get this done now before my mind turns hazardous. either way, i filled out an application to walsworth north plant today. the chick at the front desk (joy main) said that she was not aware of any openings in the "desktop publishing" area however they will keep my application on file until the 1st of september. i suppose that's a good thing since i will be out of marceline *crossed fingers* by mid august. ah well... i hope the day turns good for me... it IS a monday, i've heard that already twice today. hehe. so i'll be heading out. if i write more today, remind me to write in orange so you'll know it's later.
it's 11:15pm and i'm at home. boy have i had an interesting day. actually, it wasn't all that interesting however sara called me from home while i was at city hall burning sand a cd to tell me that i had TWO messages on the machine. one from "THE WAL-MART!" telling me that they might have an opening in the garden center... apparentely i know this "Becky Clark" chick.. or mom and dad do, and i could prolly get this. the other was from walsworth (ALREADY) telling me to get in tomorrow to get an interview. who knows though... dad says they've been interviewing quite a few people for this same position... it's working with digital cameras, etc. something called "plating" or somethin. who knows. that's chuck norris' dept. hehe. ah well. i spose that's it. i've got a busy day tomorrow... yet another day to dress up.ooh ooh! i got a senior pic of drew today too. i can't believe that sara took 3 of them and took 2 for herself. I'M the one who's liked him since i was in 8th grade. i guess he's gotten pretty popular this year - more so than ever before.. that's ok. he's not mine to claim.


12 Feb
I GOT A JOBBBBBB! i'm working at walsworth now for 7.70$/hr in the shipping/recieving place. i hope i like it. i'm working 2nd shift (YAAY) from 4p to 12a. i'm basically all by myself in the back of the building but it could be cool. OOH OOH, there was a poster of Kareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeem Rushhhhhhhhhhh up and i told Chuck i liked it. hehe. they make most of the MU posters, etc. well, i'ma get. me and sand are going to columbia to go to her "model search" thingy. hope she does well!


18 feb
sorry it's been so long since so long since i've been on here. i started my job today on the 8a to 4p shift. it was pretty cool. i spose that's all i've got to say. i'm not in a rush just don't have much to do right now and not much to ramble about. byeeeee!