I worried about being on myself alone, miles away from my family. I always wonder if “are they ok.” Seems like I’m old enough, but I’m afraid to become mature. I have the feeling that I’m still not ready to carry those responsibilities that I have to take care of. I have a girlfriend right now, and I’m afraid to trust her maybe because of what happened in the past. For in the end she will hurt me too. But there’s nothing I can do about it. Just trust her, ‘coz now I’m afraid of missing her smile when I am bored.

I’m afraid of one word living in my heart, and “God” is what I’m talking about. I’m afraid to face him as I’m ashamed of all those sins I had committed. And I’m always wondering if I failed to do those things that he planned for me to do. But there’s one thing I know I will never be afraid of………. and that is to put my trust in Him.