some thoughts..
i've been thinking a lot these days. despite all of the work i have and what not, i've really been thinking a lot. which sometimes isn't healthy for me. thinking about what life has to offer. and growing cynical in the process. being cynical is now tiring. i want to live life happily. do something that will boost me up. studying, swimming, research, volunteer work...God. right now i feel like my eyes will close. like literally. i am typing with my eyes closed and my chin on the floor. plus i have class soon...
everytime i get tired or feel just down, i remember that someone told me, "hey! i stil have five fingers i can see i can walk and still not too sick to work and hab my mom and sister" such...i dunno what the right word is. i keep hearing it in my head. and these dreams. i had a dream...
come on seong jin, life ain't over yet. and yet, i still hear the voices. drawing me on, pulling me back. what to do, what not to do. when to feel this way, when not to feel this way. when to look at someone and betray ur inner feelings, and when to turn away. Lord, i hope i don't burn out.