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Friday, November 12, 2004
If I Post 3 Times
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Page Avenue -- Story of The Year
If I post 3 more times in the next 3 days, I'll have a post for every day for exactly 30 days. I know that sounds odd and off-the-wall and rather obvious, but hey.
Anywaysz. Alfie looks interesting. Very interesting. Or maybe that's Jude Law? LOL!! Naw JL looks hott and sexy. Interesting is a bit different.
I need to quit thinking about summer. Summer was fun while it lasted but it's over now. *tear* I loved summer ... I love summer ... I'll always love summer. Ataris -- Boys of Summer *tear* Yellowcard -- Ocean Avenue *tear* Santana -- Why Don't You and I *tear* I'm getting all sentimental ... *sniff* I should write something "Goodbye."
*changes song* Sidewalks -- Story of The Year
I love Story of The Year. And Yellowcard. And Coheed & Cambria. And the Ataris. And Simple Plan. And Nirvana. And so on and so forth, lol. I'm avoiding what I was going to talk about.
Who saw the O.C. last night? Did anyone else cry? I cried last week, too. I've discovered a disturbing parallel -- I am Marissa. *gasp* Just watch the damn show if you don't know what I'm talking about (I'm going to start taping each episode too so you can borrow them).
On one hand: the yard boy, DJ.
On the other: the semi-social-outcast with a kid on the way, Ryan.
Oy. Oy VAY, I tell you. And you people think I'm confused. Ha.


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Wednesday, November 10, 2004
In Paaaiiin!!!!!!!!!
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: McDonald's Theme -- TV Commercials
My mouth hurts. My jaw hurts. My face hurts. I leave it up to you to figure out why.
My arm hurts too. Yeah, I "fell up the stairs" again. Jeez. I manage to "hurt myself" way more than anyone I know.
LMAO. I'm watching Friends and Rachel slapped Joey's hand. Have you seen that episode? Where Ross gets extremely tanned on one side and not the other? I love it.
Damn. I'm not high, I know that for sure. I sure feel like it though. Must be all the painkillers. For my "self-inflicted" injuries. I don't like men. (Except *Josh*. I still like you.)


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And the tangled web gets more tangled
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Heaven's A Lie -- Lacuna Coil
I may actually go to church tonight. There's this new youth pastor, and I have to see what he's like. Now shall I go as my cuddly, adorable, angelic side? Or my dark, evil, sullen teenage poet side? I'm leaning toward dark poet. Let's see how he handles THAT. Grr. Lol Kelly stfu.
Just when I think I've made up my f*cking mind, something happens to change it. To be totally honest, I was going to break up with *Josh* today. But... but... and... F*ck it. I know most of you are telling me that I shouldn't have gotten into this relationship in the first place and I realize that it's my fault (mostly). But... but... and...
I need to fall off a cliff and rid everyone of their problems. I bet life would be so much easier if I wasn't involved, wouldn't it? And yet I entertain you....

"Can't you take me away from your lies?"


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Sunday, November 7, 2004
I'm Home, Did You Miss Me?
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: Damn Kelly Clarkson
Yeah basically I'm home and I'm in a huge rush to get my homework done (damn Mrs. Smith). Jooooosh, did you do your hooooomework??? Lol. I hate English homework. How am I supposed to do an argument on something I know nothing about?? I'm not smart, people!! Until Friday night, I didn't even know what mandatory sentencing meant!! Bah.
And I have the hiccups. So yes, off to check my hate mail (the last nonhetero Republican, BUSH TILL I DIE!!!).


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Friday, November 5, 2004
Philly
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: Join Me -- HIM
In Philly. Bored. Lonely. I should go for a walk. There are some interesting people here, lotsa musicians and such. I've had way too much coffee. If I knew people here, it wouldn't be so bad. But I miss some people (*Josh*) and so I will return to MD by Monday.


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Thursday, November 4, 2004
I Figured It Out
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  down
Now Playing: nothing
It's S.A.D. The rain, no sunshine. The only explanation is S.A.D., Seasonal Affective Disorder for you nonmedical types. Wonderful. Now I'm diseased, too.


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Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  down
Now Playing: The End of Heartache -- Killswitch Engage
Yes I am semi-depressed. Back to the Zoloft. Yippee. I'm so damn tired all the time. All I want to do is sleep. I'm not functioning right.
I don't know if I'll actually post this. I don't want everyone thinking I'm all angst and typical teen. I know my life from looking at this blog may seem like that, but it's not. Or maybe it is typical teen crap, but it's not totally depressed and angsty and so on, is it?
Then again, why should I give a f*ck? It's my blog and I can post what I feel like posting and I shouldn't be thinking about how I sound. If no one likes it, fine. I don't care. To borrow from Stefani, It's my life!!!
So. I'm tired and nonfunctioning and I don't like it. *changes song to* Mein Teil -- Rammstein. I love this song. Maybe if I listen to more nondepressing stuff (no more Lacuna Coil or Evanescence for awhile) I'll get better. No more Eagles. Funny how I talk about anything on here and yet in real life I would die before I talked about it with anyone. I hate sounding needy and sh*t.
This is a very disjointed post.
I'm reading Mansfield Park, by Jane Austen. It's kind of funny in a way. There's this one part where Miss Crawford and Edmund are talking about Fanny, and Miss Crawford says, "Pray, is she out, or is she not?--I am puzzled." They go on, talking about how to determine whether a young lady is "out" or not. Apparently, if a girl wears a closed bonnet, she is demure and not "out." A girl who is "out" has confidence and is not afraid to speak out. So am I out? It depends.
"Till now, I could not have supposed it possible to be mistaken as to a girl's being out or not."
Unfortunately, it's much harder to figure out now. Girls flirt with everyone. I swear, even if a girl kisses you on the cheek, it doesn't mean she's bi or les anymore. This is getting ridiculous. I think all females are at least bi.


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Friday, October 29, 2004
Singing and Walks in the Rain
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Join Me In Death -- Him & Her
I'm house-hopping again, so I spent the day at my boyfriend's house. It was fun. We watched Man On Fire and hung out. (I hate parents.) We went for a walk, and since he lives next to the Potomac and has a pier, we went there. (Shut up, Kelly. I do not want to hear it. ...Got an empty room next week? I may need to borrow it...) Anyway, I've never seen swans before, not in real life -- and it turns out that a flock of them swim there all the time! So I got to see swans and sit on a pier in the rain. Kind of cool. His mom wants him to play guitar and have me sing along so she can tape it. Why, I have no clue. It sounds fun though. We're going to do either "Hotel California" or "Heaven's A Lie." I wanted to do "Whiskey Lullaby" or maybe "Comalies," but oh well.
So tonight I'll be at Nat's house (probably all day tomorrow and maybe Sunday too). I need to get the f*** away from my house. I'm only here for an hour to get some clothes and submit the damned English paper that was due yesterday. (Joooooooosh! Do your paper! LOL.) If anyone has an extra room, couch, bed, floor (I'm not picky LOL), can I use it sometime next week?? Pleeeease??? I'll only stay a day or two, I promise.


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Wednesday, October 27, 2004
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Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Something off the Resident Evil:Apocalypse soundtrack
I'm getting back into metal apparently. Quite a switch from Chesney and Jackson. Oh well. I think the song is called Nymphetemine (no clue how to spell it).
I've also gone back to the gothic faeries and angels *coughAmyLeecough* Vampires are interesting me too. (Alex, do vampire chicks wear those stupid skirts? LOL.) I think I'm going to go back to my all-black-and-lacy wardrobe. (Would I still be "cute," Josh?) I have this craving for something swishy and black and lacy. I need to go back to Hot Topic. No, back up. First I need money. Damn it I need a job!
I could make myself a cape. One of those short, femme leather capes with a collar. Interesting. (No, Ashley darling, you can't bite me. We're over, remember?? Goes for you too Kelly.) Hmm. I'm supposed to see Saw on Friday. Or was it Saturday? Ice, you're supposed to keep track of these things for me! I should deck out in my chains and cuffs. I dunno if I can give up the tight jeans though. I kinda like the way my ass looks in those. (Shush, Tiffany. "I'm allowed to like my ass, right?")
It's like a 180 for me. Prep, punk, goth, punk, prep, punk, goth, on and on. I take PRIDE in being a "poser," Abby! F*ck you. (No, really .... LOL.) OK I'm supposed to be doing an essay. DOWN WITH MRS. SMITH!!!!! Peace.


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