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Saturday, January 8, 2005
Good News, Bad News
Topic: ~ * today * ~
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Breathe No More -- Evanescence
Actually I'm singing it, not playing it, but oh well. I have good news and bad news, so my mood should read celebratory/down.

Good news first: I have restocked on chocolate. I'm home alone. I'm in a pretty damn good mood despite the bad news. I'm not in Philly. I'm happy cause I hung out with Josh yesterday.

Oh yes, and did I mention I had my interview today? And I didn't totally f*** it up? Don't know if I got the job yet, but hey I'm proud of myself.

OK, now the bad news: My arm has a bruise from where my dad twisted it {and it still freaking hurts}. My dad is being a complete bastard. My birthday has become ammunition in my parents' war {forget me doing anything or having any kind of party}, which really makes me upset because it's MY birthday, you know? And they're all like, "Well you can't do anything this day because your FATHER *insert glare* wants to go somewhere," and "Forget going anyplace that day because your MOTHER *insert glare* is having friends over," etc. And I have stuff I want to do {and am damn well going to do} for my birthday. FYI, they don't give a rat's azz that I'm turning 17. Their only concern is that the other parent is not happy. Grr. Anyway. I think that covers the bad news.

This birthday shiz is really making me upset though. My dad makes it sound like my birthday is an inconvenience and like it's my fault we can't go to Philly so his mother can have Xmas. I'm all for my grandma having Xmas, but there is stuff I want to do. I want to meet Josh's family. I want to hang out with my chick friends. I'm turning 17 and nobody in my family cares. Nobody. I don't think anyone even knows how old I am right now. This sucks. Oh and to top all that, Steven is turning 7 and EVERYONE is making a huge deal out of it. My mom is going crazy with joy and planning this HUGE bash for him and shiz. His birthday is four days after mine, people!! Grr.

There's more stuff I want to say but this birthday crap is getting in the way. It's like I'm freaking invisible all of a sudden. {When I finally went inside last night, no one knew I was even out there. No one cared. I went into my room and cried.} My mom doesn't talk to me. My dad doesn't talk to me {no, he twists my arm and yanks me around instead} which is fine because I don't want to talk to him either. My brothers are either hitting me or ignoring me completely. No one cares. When I left with Josh on Tuesday, my mom didn't know I was gone after an hour {and after she gave me the puzzled look and said, "You're leaving? For where?" and then just walked away}. Yes, I know I wish for them to get off my back, but I didn't mean that I wanted them to completely cut me out.


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Saturday, January 8, 2005 - 10:06 PM EST

Name: you know who

I'm not kiding come live at my house and see how long it takes them to see that you are not there! my mom likes josh 4 wut ever rezon (she haz never liked any guy over the age of 7 and most of all thought he wuz nice!)so I don't see the prob. but wut ever.

oh oh I got to see the blue hair josh.

Sunday, January 9, 2005 - 12:18 AM EST

Name: Josh

I'm So sorry sweet heart.
I didn't know he twisted your arm.He shouldn't treat you like that.
No one should.
I love you, and I hope you are okay.




My grandparent agreed to maybe having dinner up there at the olive garden or something and maybe meeting your parents, I'll discuss it with you later.

I want to see you now, and I want to hold you and be there for you.

You don't deserve to have your arm twisted, and be flung about like that.

I'm sorry, and I hope your okay.
I love you!

Sunday, January 9, 2005 - 7:12 PM EST

Name: Diana

Wait she likes Josh? And hasn't met him yet? {Or am I forgetting something?} I'm confused....