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Friday, January 7, 2005
I Hate My Face
Topic: nothiing iin partiicular
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: Nothing
The minute I come downstairs to do something, my eyes get irritated. Why? I haven't a clue. Blast contacts. EVERYTHING irritates them. And you would think that taking them out and putting them back in would fix the problem, but nooo. That would just be too easy. I had to go and get out a new pair of contacts just so I could see. Stupid eyes.

So I'm bouncing around the house, putting up curtain rods and taking down curtain rods, in my 1940's ... whatever you want to call it. The dress plus the hat plus the scarf-thingy plus the butterfly necklace. {I'm not wearing high heels today so I left out the shoes.} I look like a Mafia queen or something. It's very interesting. Unfortunately, it's all black. I'm trying to break away from the black-evil-dark clothing that I wear when I have to be formal. I need some color. {That's why I'm wearing the blue butterfly necklace. Shush, Kelly, it looks interesting!}

I'm hungry and there's nothing in this house to eat. Except maybe fries. Other than that, there's nothing. We don't even have "healthy" food that everyone else in this family eats. It's kinda sad.

*yawn* I dunno, I feel rather blah. I don't have a lot of energy, but I want to be doing something instead of just reading. Grr.

The most awesome song of all time has to be Breathe No More. Second to that, it's Missing. And then there's Annie and She Floats. Oh oh and can't forget Driven Under, which rocks. If I had to pick a favorite song, I don't think I could do it. Maybe a favorite song by a certain group or singer, but not in general. There's way too many songs. I couldn't pick a favorite singer/group, either. Maybe a favorite singer/group within a certain genre, but once again not in general. My musical taste is too broad for that. I never thought I would say that. I used to be one of those kids who only listened to what her parents listened to. {Which was Christian music and it all sounded alike anyway.} And then....

DC101 saved me. From DC101 I went to HFS. From there I went to 99.5 and what was then Z104 {and is now a blend of music instead of all hits like 99.5 is now}. I haven't voluntarily listened to anything Christian in two years. {Wow. That's a long time.} Pretty much anything else, I'll listen to. Including country music now. But that's more recent. I've only been listening to WMZQ for like six months. {Voluntarily, that is.}

It's weird, people accuse me of being all close-minded and crap when I say I listen to anything but Christian. That's not true. I just don't connect with the music, is all. My mom claims I've closed the religion out of my life because I don't want to listen to it. {And because I don't care what happened in Awanas the night before. And I disagree with Pastor Hirschman on a lot of things he preaches about.} It's funny.

It's not that I hate Christians or Christianity {that's impossible for me}, it's just that it doesn't work for me. I grew up Christian and there was nothing that made a difference in my life because of it. {Other than the being bullied constantly, etc. I mean a good difference.} My mom believes in the power of prayer and stuff, but I used to pray a lot and nothing would happen. Ever. The Bible didn't say anything to me. {Most of the time I couldn't understand it.}

And now she says I've closed it out of my life. Ha. If anything like that happened, then it was God closing me out, thank you very much.

Enough rambling. I'll make myself mad in a few minutes if I keep talking about it.


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