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Thursday, November 11, 2004
Tired awake happy not happy cold hot hungry not hungry
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Swamped -- Lacuna Coil
F*cking English teacher. F*cking laws. *sings along with Cristina and sound awful* I need a library card.
So. I'm tired and awake. I'm happy and not happy. I'm cold and hot. I'm hungry and not hungry. I'm excited and exhausted. I'm straight and gay. I'm a walking contradiction. The only way this could be more perfect would be if I was actually trans. (Naw, that would just be funny.)
F*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck. I censor so I can check my damn blog. F*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck. If I could, without having serious problems with my parents, I would be screaming my f*cking lungs out because I can't think of what else to do. Well no I could just sleep all weekend but I don't want to do that. There is wayyyyyy too much tension in me to do that anyway. So I'll settle for screaming in my head and drowning out my voices. I think I'm zooming down into another "crisis."
On a side note, I would like to inform the bit of humanity that reads this to know that I'm not this much of a drama queen in person. I'm much more laid back and the person that nothing can get a bad reaction out of.

"Set me free, your heaven's a lie, set me free with your love, set me free."

I've discovered Angel's Punishment. I love that song. That and Aeon. Hell I love most of the album. Except for Daylight Dancer. I dunno, that one irritates me. The Ghost Woman is good. And Entwined. And so on and so forth. Maybe if I focus on small things like this, I won't think and cause problems. Ah ha!
Saturday I might get to see Alfie! Yay! I still haven't seen I heart Huckabees. Or Saw. Damn it I want to see Saw. What else? Flight of the Phoenix. I know there's more. I compile long lists of more movies to see every time I go to the theater. Crap. Well I know there's more.
Saturday. November 13. Anyone know why that day is important? How about October 11? January 26? November 29? January 11? December 13? Anyone?
Oh well. I didn't think so.


Love and Kisses, Ducki at 7:16 PM EST | Permalink | Share This Post | Post Comment | View Comments (2) |

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Friday, November 12, 2004 - 7:22 AM EST

Name: you know who

1 of them is your B-day and you are going shopping with me!

Friday, November 12, 2004 - 12:44 PM EST

Name: Ducki

I am? When? Not tomorrow ...