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Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: behind thoughs eye by 3 doors down
this world is full of lie's and half truths but for some reason im at the point that it dont matter anymore. all i care for is wat i want and how to take care of my friends and family. thanks yessenia for introducing me to Karla cause she's hot. anyways everying or say is a clue to how my mind works or how i feel. figure it out and u might know the truth. i know its wrong to hate or act like a child so i let it all go. all emotions towards these events mean nothing to me anymore let there lives be in peace and happines and let me be. to fix myself up. and yea its a good day. scary aint it.

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Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: bad day by fuel
u know when u have those moments when u wish u could go back and change everything....im there yet again. but no tears this time...no sorrow...ive burned my burdens and let it go. no more of being blind. i guess i should had listen to everyone but this is wat happens when i try to do it alone. oh well. enough of dwelling on the past. i guess there is something ive done in the past that gets me to go through all this shit. fuck it. no one should dwell in the past u never get anywhere. and i want a job im going to try somewhere eles. fuck it. and im sorry to everyone for not listening. you were all right. lol now on more happier news my lil sis is growing and looks more beautiful everyday. soon i will go back to the gym and try to destroy myself in there. i dont got much to say and i got alot in my mind take care all.

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Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: la camisa negra by juans
hey its been awhile since i wrote anything but thats cause ive been busy. i just found out something very how can i say funny. things may turn out to be better than i thought but i dont wanna ruin the ending yet. STAR WARS is comming this month sweet!!!!!! i know most ppl think thats stupid but ive been a loyal fan and i wanna see the last moive and know how darth vader was made. my baby sis Gaby looks beautiful. i love that lil one but i love all my lil pains in the ass. juans is comming this dec and im going and hopefully i get enough money for 3 so me and my two friends can go. u know who u two are. lol anyways i got alot going on in my head. its on overdrive again and i know that this is a good thing. i feel happy or atleast i have something making me feel like this. although im tired i still feel like i got a shit load of energy left. lets see how this next couple of days unfold and wat secrets i find. lol if i go down atleast im going down wit a bang. and i want a job lets hope laz hooks it up. thats all for now

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Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: incubus
well its been awhile since ive written anything worth reading so lets see wat i can write. my friend finally made me come to my sense and relize i was being stupid and marilyn was right. damn oh well something must be done. ive been really down lately and losing sight of wats important and wat isn't. it happens to the best of us. and my mind drifts alot trying to escape from all the problems but i know in the end i got to face them. nothing in this world is ever certain but u can always do wat pecker does and wing it. it works for him but thats not my style i like using the lil logic i have. i know that i will most likely end up losing more than winning but hey im happy.....well u get the idea. im out of here if u really are worry about me and shit just ask me or ask the right questions and i will answer.

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Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: usher
well where to begain....life is full of questions and many times u just get more questions not answer but hey thats the fun in life. i know that i may seem some wat crazy but shit i make sense if u think about it. laz i tried but i dont think i did it right so one last time and if this dont work u owe me a taco. lol. maria dont worry your nose will get back to normal. and finally maria and mari are friends again no thanks to leo. happy to hear. i swear i need a beer just one or a concert which ever of the two comes cause really need to let go. and i just dont like to let go wit friends cause they got problems of there own and they dont break like me so i guess i feel week when i do break down in front of them. so there people u know a lil more of me happy. and well this is about it and everyone wish me luck tomorow cause its D-day for me, as the a song once said its do or die and well here i go....shit i need a beer.

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Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: i just wanna live by good charlotte
well its the morning and im wondering y i am awake. i remember now my lil brothers woke me up. oh well. i had a kick ass dream. i saw her again and she said to me y did u open your eyes late and i couldn't say anything. i know wat it means and i guess i was late. :( oh well fuck it thats life i guess. everything is a game u just got to know when do you show your cards. i was one hand to late. and jennifer i hope we do become friends again. i dont wanna lose anymore. and i wanna go to the gym so fucking bad and just lose myself. i wanna say sorry to everyone just incase this week ive been a ass im just tired thats all. well if every dog has his day mines has to come(shit i aint a dog this sucks)lol. oh well ill get mine i just got to wait. and laz your right in life you gamble u just got to know when to stop or keep on. laters

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Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: i just wanna live by good charlotte
ok when im on fire its either in really fucking happy or about to kill. you be the jugde. anyways life is going in wierd ways. everytime i figure it out and think i know the answer it take a twist. im talking to jennifer again but cause she left her man.(no comment about that) lets see if we can be good friends again. yessenia u know i didn't mean calling u jessica it was a mistake and u know i love u girl. lol and yea u do make a good looking couple wit jose (i spelled it right ok) and i wish u two the best cause he's a good guy. well as for me im tired of all the half truths so fuck it. i wont care no more and as for jello FUCK YOU i dont care anymore i never liked him never will. mari best of luck (your going to need it) i know its wrong for me to do shit like that but who cares. being a good guy all the time isn't no fun. maria and tony hope u two last and laz and marilyn shit i got nothing to say u know i wish u two more years to come. shit im starting to see that im not wit someone when most of my friends are. fuck this happens for fearing the worse. fuck it next time i like someone head first and worry about the losses later. and marilyn i know marla is an impossible goal but i have a right to dream from time to time. now most people have been saying im being weak for talking to mari but if u look doesn't that make me strong cause ive stood by my words and when i see her wit her man doesn't that make me strong cause i dont snap. i dont care anymore on who says wat about who. im 16 not 61 i need to enjoy myself and i think its time for me to. and vani your hot too. lol i know in the past ive said a kind heart is worthless in this world but fuck it my heart is stronger than anyone eles and hell im not weak. ive open my eyes and see the truth im just a kid i cant do it all my self and i cant help the world. wat i can do is help my friends and help myself. laters for now.

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooooo life is sweet. my last letter was written that case is done. im going to try to talk to jennifer again and hopefully get stuff fix again. leo u will be missed u whore bag. life maybe doing bad right now but i got to keep trying to get mine. my goal maybe far right now but i will get it. no more dreading the past and my burrdens i have put them in my pocket and although they maybe heavy they remind me of the things ive gone through and the next thing that comes up will be easier. i may think im alone but my friends are always there next to me helping me on the journy of life and all i got to do is just ride it and see where i go. no one can see the future just hope its good and pray for the best.

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooooo life is sweet. my last letter was written that case is done. im going to try to talk to jennifer again and hopefully get stuff fix again. leo u will be missed u whore bag. life maybe doing bad right now but i got to keep trying to get mine. my goal maybe far right now but i will get it. no more dreading the past and my burrdens i have put them in my pocket and although they maybe heavy they remind me of the things ive gone through and the next thing that comes up will be easier. i may think im alone but my friends are always there next to me helping me on the journy of life and all i got to do is just ride it and see where i go. no one can see the future just hope its good and pray for the best.

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Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: sin city
im not her father or older brother im nothing more than just a friend so im not going to care anymore about it. they say its better to put stuff in your past im going to start to believe it i guess. ill just be here for her and nothing more or less. i hate her choice but its something i have to deal wit. and as for the other now she wants to talk to me after her bf leaves her wat am i to think that im a toy she can pick up only when he bf aint there and when she gets back wit him im old news again and fuck nelson. i dunno wat to do but just sit back now and let the castle fall on its own im not going to repair shit anymore. and marilyn (laz girl) im sorry for today it was a mistake. u know i love u girl and i never wanted to hurt you sorry and i wont play like that no more k.