thoughts
Mood:
don't ask
Now Playing: usher
well where to begain....life is full of questions and many times u just get more questions not answer but hey thats the fun in life. i know that i may seem some wat crazy but shit i make sense if u think about it. laz i tried but i dont think i did it right so one last time and if this dont work u owe me a taco. lol. maria dont worry your nose will get back to normal. and finally maria and mari are friends again no thanks to leo. happy to hear. i swear i need a beer just one or a concert which ever of the two comes cause really need to let go. and i just dont like to let go wit friends cause they got problems of there own and they dont break like me so i guess i feel week when i do break down in front of them. so there people u know a lil more of me happy. and well this is about it and everyone wish me luck tomorow cause its D-day for me, as the a song once said its do or die and well here i go....shit i need a beer.
thought
Mood:
energetic
Now Playing: i just wanna live by good charlotte
well its the morning and im wondering y i am awake. i remember now my lil brothers woke me up. oh well. i had a kick ass dream. i saw her again and she said to me y did u open your eyes late and i couldn't say anything. i know wat it means and i guess i was late. :( oh well fuck it thats life i guess. everything is a game u just got to know when do you show your cards. i was one hand to late. and jennifer i hope we do become friends again. i dont wanna lose anymore. and i wanna go to the gym so fucking bad and just lose myself. i wanna say sorry to everyone just incase this week ive been a ass im just tired thats all. well if every dog has his day mines has to come(shit i aint a dog this sucks)lol. oh well ill get mine i just got to wait. and laz your right in life you gamble u just got to know when to stop or keep on. laters
thoughts
Mood:
on fire
Now Playing: i just wanna live by good charlotte
ok when im on fire its either in really fucking happy or about to kill. you be the jugde. anyways life is going in wierd ways. everytime i figure it out and think i know the answer it take a twist. im talking to jennifer again but cause she left her man.(no comment about that) lets see if we can be good friends again. yessenia u know i didn't mean calling u jessica it was a mistake and u know i love u girl. lol and yea u do make a good looking couple wit jose (i spelled it right ok) and i wish u two the best cause he's a good guy. well as for me im tired of all the half truths so fuck it. i wont care no more and as for jello FUCK YOU i dont care anymore i never liked him never will. mari best of luck (your going to need it) i know its wrong for me to do shit like that but who cares. being a good guy all the time isn't no fun. maria and tony hope u two last and laz and marilyn shit i got nothing to say u know i wish u two more years to come. shit im starting to see that im not wit someone when most of my friends are. fuck this happens for fearing the worse. fuck it next time i like someone head first and worry about the losses later. and marilyn i know marla is an impossible goal but i have a right to dream from time to time. now most people have been saying im being weak for talking to mari but if u look doesn't that make me strong cause ive stood by my words and when i see her wit her man doesn't that make me strong cause i dont snap. i dont care anymore on who says wat about who. im 16 not 61 i need to enjoy myself and i think its time for me to. and vani your hot too. lol i know in the past ive said a kind heart is worthless in this world but fuck it my heart is stronger than anyone eles and hell im not weak. ive open my eyes and see the truth im just a kid i cant do it all my self and i cant help the world. wat i can do is help my friends and help myself. laters for now.
thoughts
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooooo life is sweet. my last letter was written that case is done. im going to try to talk to jennifer again and hopefully get stuff fix again. leo u will be missed u whore bag. life maybe doing bad right now but i got to keep trying to get mine. my goal maybe far right now but i will get it. no more dreading the past and my burrdens i have put them in my pocket and although they maybe heavy they remind me of the things ive gone through and the next thing that comes up will be easier. i may think im alone but my friends are always there next to me helping me on the journy of life and all i got to do is just ride it and see where i go. no one can see the future just hope its good and pray for the best.
thoughts
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahooooooooooooooooooo life is sweet. my last letter was written that case is done. im going to try to talk to jennifer again and hopefully get stuff fix again. leo u will be missed u whore bag. life maybe doing bad right now but i got to keep trying to get mine. my goal maybe far right now but i will get it. no more dreading the past and my burrdens i have put them in my pocket and although they maybe heavy they remind me of the things ive gone through and the next thing that comes up will be easier. i may think im alone but my friends are always there next to me helping me on the journy of life and all i got to do is just ride it and see where i go. no one can see the future just hope its good and pray for the best.
thoughts
Mood:
on fire
Now Playing: sin city
im not her father or older brother im nothing more than just a friend so im not going to care anymore about it. they say its better to put stuff in your past im going to start to believe it i guess. ill just be here for her and nothing more or less. i hate her choice but its something i have to deal wit. and as for the other now she wants to talk to me after her bf leaves her wat am i to think that im a toy she can pick up only when he bf aint there and when she gets back wit him im old news again and fuck nelson. i dunno wat to do but just sit back now and let the castle fall on its own im not going to repair shit anymore. and marilyn (laz girl) im sorry for today it was a mistake. u know i love u girl and i never wanted to hurt you sorry and i wont play like that no more k.
not only thoughts but emotions of failure and pain
Mood:
down
Now Playing: think twice by eve6
this is how i feel
not sure wats the truth or the lie or even if my emotions are clouding my thoughts i dunno anymore the truth. the lines of truth and lie are blurry i dunno wat to do anymore but think of everything and figure out if it was a lie or the truth
When all is said and done
And dead does he love you
The way that I do
Breathing in lighting
Tonight's for fighting
I feel the hurt so physical
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more
She spreads her love
She burns me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out
Wait till the day you finally see
I've been here waiting patiently
Crossing my fingers and my t's
She cried on my shoulder begging please
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more
She spreads her love
She burns me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out
What is it you really want
I'm tired of asking
You're gone I'm wasted
When I showed up and he was there
I tried my best to grin and bear
And took the stairs but didn't stop at the street
And as we speak I'm going down
Cause she spread her love
And burnt me up
I can't let go
I can't get out
I've said enough
Enough by now
I can't let go
I can't get out
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around come around no more
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around I'll let you feel the burn
Think twice before you touch my girl
Come around no more
thoughts
Mood:
not sure
Now Playing: sin city theme song
why? why? why? why cant i get her out of my mind? what did i do to trigger all this to happen. was it out of my hands. two girls i see and one knows the truth but i must stand by her and the other will never know not yet atleast. i dunno wat to do or say. tomorow i must face one of them and tell her things i thought would never leave my lips. well as they say everyone must face the music one day. and my dreams are getting to be more and more real. each time they keep telling me something but i dunno wat. wat am i to do now i dunno but i must face my nightmares now. and movico didn't give me the job damn......main street here i go.
thoughts
Mood:
on fire
Now Playing: blvd of broken dreams
i got an interview today sweet. wish me luck and maria if u see this i need to talk to u asap cause this is big. my mind is on overload wit so many things going on and so many unanswer questions and wat if's. although things arent going my way and im still wondering on weither or not to put my back towards her or not still a big thing to figure out. and names will never be told in these things unless i feel like it. lol. i want this job so pray u lil fuckers. take care and write on wats on your mind.
thoughts
Mood:
not sure
Now Playing: loser by 3 doors down
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i just dont get a break in life or maybe i just dont take the breaks when they come. either or damn. i got to stop being so fucking blind. anyways my bday past on thursday and it was ok i got my punches. pain lots of pain i didn't get much but lots of hugs and saying happy bday. but my mind wasn't on the bday it was on other things. wondering on weither or not i can give up on people i care for or not. most of my friends say fuck her and let her be but y is it that i dont wanna. everyone bitched at her but i listened to her. does that make me weak. or a loser. lol. i dont know if i should listen to wat my mind says and let her be or listen to something eles that i havent heard from in so long and im wondering on wat it is. it keeps saying dont let her go. you cant lose her.....dont. and since marla doesn't have this site, she is hot!!!!!!!! lol had to do it. back to the subject wat should i do lose her or not i dunno only time will tell on that.
