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Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: sin city theme song
why? why? why? why cant i get her out of my mind? what did i do to trigger all this to happen. was it out of my hands. two girls i see and one knows the truth but i must stand by her and the other will never know not yet atleast. i dunno wat to do or say. tomorow i must face one of them and tell her things i thought would never leave my lips. well as they say everyone must face the music one day. and my dreams are getting to be more and more real. each time they keep telling me something but i dunno wat. wat am i to do now i dunno but i must face my nightmares now. and movico didn't give me the job damn......main street here i go.

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Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: blvd of broken dreams
i got an interview today sweet. wish me luck and maria if u see this i need to talk to u asap cause this is big. my mind is on overload wit so many things going on and so many unanswer questions and wat if's. although things arent going my way and im still wondering on weither or not to put my back towards her or not still a big thing to figure out. and names will never be told in these things unless i feel like it. lol. i want this job so pray u lil fuckers. take care and write on wats on your mind.

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Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: loser by 3 doors down
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i just dont get a break in life or maybe i just dont take the breaks when they come. either or damn. i got to stop being so fucking blind. anyways my bday past on thursday and it was ok i got my punches. pain lots of pain i didn't get much but lots of hugs and saying happy bday. but my mind wasn't on the bday it was on other things. wondering on weither or not i can give up on people i care for or not. most of my friends say fuck her and let her be but y is it that i dont wanna. everyone bitched at her but i listened to her. does that make me weak. or a loser. lol. i dont know if i should listen to wat my mind says and let her be or listen to something eles that i havent heard from in so long and im wondering on wat it is. it keeps saying dont let her go. you cant lose her.....dont. and since marla doesn't have this site, she is hot!!!!!!!! lol had to do it. back to the subject wat should i do lose her or not i dunno only time will tell on that.

thoughts
Mood:  on fire
fuck her fuck her fuck her she lied to me. i was so dumb to beleive her. she back stabbed me. i was blind and tati was right hate is wat kills an emotion. right now my best friends laz and marilyn make a year and are eating shit together behide me. how cute lol im going to vomit from it. i happy for them. my bday is tomorow and it really sucks. thats all i got for now andm y sis bday is today happy bday

thoughts
Mood:  on fire
fuck her fuck her fuck her she lied to me. i was so dumb to beleive her. she back stabbed me. i was blind and tati was right hate is wat kills an emotion. right now my best friends laz and marilyn make a year and are eating shit together behide me. how cute lol im going to vomit from it. i happy for them. my bday is tomorow and it really sucks. thats all i got for now

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Mood:  happy
Now Playing: father's son (3 doors down)
yo wats up. i didn't go to skool today which is always sweet. i was to tired. anways notice how if life was like the moives everyone would be happy. hell i would a pimp cause ill always walk away wit the girl. someone asked me wat i miss the most. hard to say so much i let go inorder to move ahead. thats life i guess. i still had fun this friday cause of bongo's. thanks laz again. right now im at my room and my mom has the baby. she's so beautiful my lil sister. like i was saying before if life was like the movies i would never be down. the good guys always win and bad guys lose but since this is the real world its mostly the other ways. i haven't had any dreams lately (thank god) i hate my dreams it reminds me of my inner thoughts and wat wants to come out. anyways tell me wat u think and write about it. and im in a good mood ok

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Mood:  happy
woooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooo last night was fucking fun. i relaxed and laughed like crazy. congrats laz and mariyln im happy for you guys and mariyln wait until next year cause u know laz would always try to out due himself. and marla (i think i spelled your name wrong) i make you go lala, lol. this is wat i needed to relax and shit im happy as fuck. thanks laz for letting me go. im happy for u kid and wish for the best wit your girl u deserve it man. take care all and tell me wat u think

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Mood:  happy
MY BABY SISTER WAS BORN TODAY YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! im so happy about it. she's beautiful and her weight is 6 lbs 14 ounces. on the sad point im going to change dippers forever. this is my last chance to get a good sister. i hope this one will be good. and im tired of johnny who is buggin me alot lately. and my friend tati is pissed off at her bf again. somethings never change. but hey she's born and happy and healthy. sweet.

Mood:  don't ask
well im just tired and full of thoughts. i think to much. i wanna pull something but i dunno wat. i wanna know y things are the way they are. its been rough but im alive and there are people doing worse so y should i care so much about my problems. wat u think should i worry about me or put others before me. one way or another i lose. that sucks. dont u sometimes know the truth?

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Mood:  don't ask
its been a crappy day and im really tired and full of thoughts. i need a beer lol. and i need to get laid j/k. i going to try to get a job and lets all hope that i get the job. tell me wat u think and write wat u think i like to hear wat everyone one eles thinks.