I have come to a point where I feel so empty inside
This awful pain I can no longer hide
It lingers inside me like mold on bread
God please protect me from what is ahead
I wish there was a way to push it all away
But as far as I know, this shit is here to stay
I constantly try to get it off my back
But so-called friends keep holding me back
It’s pushing me into a deep depression
God stop punishing me I learned my lesson
I guess the world wasn’t ready for me to come out the closet
Everybody damn near lost it
That didn’t help it only made it worse
Why in hell was I damned with this curse
My mother taught me everything was supposed to be a blessin
I told you already I learned my lesson
The anger that fills me runs so deep
I am forced at night to cry myself to sleep
Everybody tells me that what I am doing is a sin
Then why the fuck do you keep digging in
To my life, my stories
The struggle the glory
Y’all some two faced mutha fuckas
How dare I let you worry me
You pushed me to the point where I was suicidal
Then tried to save by saying I was you idol
For being so strong and doing what I do
Y’all asses don’t know what I been through
Now that I pushed y’all away my life is empty
Don’t y’all asses come try to defend me
When you see people doing the same things you did
I can’t believe I once called you friend
I wrote this to let everybody know
That there is always room for people to grow
You may think my mind is sick for writing this
But all y’all fake bitches can drink my piss
