xx Tuesday, 14th January xx

i don't understand what i've done wrong, how have i driven them apart? he's being so nasty, he doesn't understand how much he has hurt me, no one does...i dunno what to do, i just want to cry all the time, i thought he was one of my best friends...i never thought that friends could be so spiteful :'( james is being really sweet, he blames himself for not telling me but i don't...i understand why he didn't...kinda makes him even nicer in a way, not wanting to hurt my felings...i wish someone had told me sooner though, i really do. christo always makes me feel so special, he always cheers me up...doesn't even have to say anything...proves how special he is <3 gavin keeps sending text msgs, they're so nasty, i dunno wot to do i honestly don't know what i have done. i hate him soo much, but i still like him...i'm so confused...i really am beginning to hate him... :'(

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