Empty Inside
slowly and surely you take it all away
why are you so empty inside?
you beat me down and make me feel hate
why are you so empty inside?
everything i want from you i cant have
why are you so empty inside?
everyday...more hurting words from you
why are you so empty inside?
everyday is worse then the one before
why are you so empty inside?
everday hurts worse then the others
why are you so empty inside?
everday i cry because i cant please you
why are you so empty inside?
my heart and soul have been drained by you
why are you so empty inside?
that you took everything from me and made me empty too
why am i so empty inside?

confessions of lying, confessions of pain
confessions of the mental, confessions of the sane
everythings so different, everythings so intense
ive lost everything in the battle, i have no ammunition for my defense
what can i do in a world full of hate?
what can i do to change the outcome of my fate?
sometimes i think i should accept it, let go, be free and die
but then i rethink it and realize...no..not i.

Life is lonely when no one understands
When all you hear are orders and demands
Life is lonely when your all alone
Locked up in your very own zone
Life is lonely when your insane
All Live is, is a phuckin pain
Life is lonely when your a me
All i want is to finally be free.

.x.Prayer Of A Dead Soul.x.
Heavenly father, i have no power left and no will to fight so this is my final prayer to thee.
Thou has sentenced my soul to damnation far before its time and punished my body for a crime i have not committed.
I stand before thee, broken hearted and torn, with only my will power to pass for judgement, for nothing else matters in a cold-hearted world.
I have been stripped of everything thou has given me to begin with.
Family, friends, loved ones, and possessions...even my own free spirit and thoughts and thou has put my through unbearable torture more then once.
I stand before thee, not to ask for judgement but to defy thee.
Heavenly father thou does not exist to me.
So with this rightious gun and the power it holds, i choose to go to my damnation rather then to be judged upon thy pearly gates.
Death of thy Father, and thy son, and Glory be to my eternal spirit.

Sitting here i cry
And think "What did i do"
God how can i explain this
You always picked me up when i was blue
but now the tables have turned on me
and you dont see all this pain
The way that im invisible to you..
its driving me insane
You hurt me once before
but i forgot about the whole ordeal
But now your hurting me even more
And you dont see my pain is real
I woulda been fine with just that first pain
if only you could see..
The way that how you ignore me... Is really killing me