Disappointing Disillusion
i lay here alone
encased in my tomb
some morbid child
in mother earth's womb
dead to the world
yet alive inside me
remember my life
such dead imagery
disappointing thought
disillusioned world
not taking the time
to truly uncurl
to unravel themselves
show who they are
be so much stronger
be proud of their scars
the knot of the world
slithering serpents
wasting their lives
trying to repent
belief in your god
may have made you strong
if you lived by your word
didn't do so much wrong
practice what you preach
words to live by
instead contradiction
and living a lie
i didn't believe
in the one you called god
but as one of the snakes
i did my job
i unraveled myself
exposed all to life
all joy and happiness
all pain and strife
i was always myself
despite what you said
that means so much more
now that i'm dead
nothing to regret
i said what i felt
i was who i wanted
with the hand i was dealt
but you're still alive
still time to change
to finally discover
where to place blame
don't place it on me
and not on your god
and not on yourself
never on the knot
don't place blame at all
accept things and change
live every second of life
don't regret in your grave
once you're where i am
it's too late to change
don't lay here eternal
entombed by your shame
you don't have to listen
to the things i've said
just know you were warned
by one already dead.
~phreakgirl
one of my absolute favorites! this, and more killer poetry (i don't feel like posting it all here) can be found on screaming in silence (a web zine)'s poetry page