but i'm also an optimist. now, with pestilence and greed and war and bloodthirst as the pillars of our society, how could this be? well, that one's easy. i live my life without society, i am my own island. and because in my little world there's no real pending dilemma, i'm happy. and i always have hope for the outside world and my own, that whatever it is will pass and life will always go on.