11-25-02 10:50pm
11-25-02 5:00pm
jesus christ...why would ANYONE think that throwing something that is ON FIRE into a trashcan on the second floor of my dorm would be a good idea? esp at 12:30am on a monday morning? fuck, i'm tired! and i think my toes are still cold (sandals were a bad choice of footwear since we had to wait outside for quite some time until the smoke cleared). hehe, anyway...something tells me tonight will be spent resting up and neglecting papers. again.
DON'T FORGET: NOVEMBER 29th IS BUY NOTHING DAY
11-24-02 1:54pm
what a fucking weekend.... i had every intent of just moping in my room and catching up on sleep and "me time," but the wonderful lizzie convinced me that we needed to drown our sorrows instead on friday night. and drown we did. to the point where we can't remember most of the night.... hehe. oh well. sorry to andrew if you got molested or ended up with marks on your neck, and just know that lizzie and i are pleading innocent-due-to-whatever-the-fuck-was-in-that-punch. anyway, after waking up on saturday with a nasty hangover, i decided against being productive and pampered myself into recovery just in time to meet up with lizzie, jenny, and the polak to go see 12th night at oxford. not a bad play, although i think i could have done without seeing little mike in yellow tights and a red thong.... *shudder* at least the old ladies liked it! and somehow konrad and i ended up dying his hair and going over to some hotel to drink with nevin and adam and some lightweight jewish guy. interesting... but lots of fun. and now i must turn on productive mode if i want to get out of here on tuesday night. so much to do before the end of the semester!!! :-(
11-21-02 11:50pm
ugh. numbness starting to kick in. i'm not really sure this is the best way to go about things but at the same time i refuse to let my emotions tie me down and ruin everything that i've worked so hard to become involved in this semester (not to mention my classes...). anyway, thanks to andrea and chels for the talks on the phone. i always think that i dont want to talk about anything but feel so much better after a chat with someone who understands and distracts and makes me laugh. anyway, i'm busy trying to decide where i want to go for spring break or something...since i'm not going to scotland (yeah, in case you hadn't guessed what all the bitching was about, now you should be able to figure it out). i'm thinking new york. it's ridiculous that i've never been there. or there's always cali...i haven't been back in awhile. anyway, i'm not really "ok" but i'm forcing myself to move on. which means that the next time i am upset with something i will spend an extra three hours crying to make up for the fake normalcy i am forcing myself to experience right now. healthy, huh? at least the crying only takes place every year or so! :-) not too much else going on. only a few more weeks left of school and so much to do! there's a protest in front of the cnn headquarters this weekend that i would really like to go to (but must find someone to be a crazy liberal with me!). and of course the oxford oesa (student-run shakespeare play) production of 12th night. other then that i'm just trying not to totally lose it before thanksgiving break! mom hasn't exactly been the most supportive person through this whole ordeal which is sad but not really surprising and has just reminded me why i don't usually tell her anything related to relationships. oh, and kile has his fucking driving permit now! so for those ridgers who are going home for turkey day: watch out for an out-of-control buick rendevous (my mom wants to be tiger woods or something) being driven by a teenage blonde boy. ugh. enough procrastination. i am alive and semi-ok and that's all i really got on here to tell you in the first place. must write essays on "singin in the rain," infectious diseases, energy conservation in home construction, and the grand canyon. hehe. i know you're excited for me....
11-19-02 2:17pm
so i've survived what has been one of the worst days/nights in quite some time. thanks to you guys who were there for me (ib, andrea, rhys, aaron, chris, lizzie...). i'm still pretty much a wreck, but i can't afford to let some guy fuck up my life when there's obviously nothing left to salvage. all i can say is, i'm more glad then ever before that i'm graduating early and getting on with my life somewhere other then here. i wish i wasn't so goddamn sentimental when it came to things reminding me of people though...would make life a lot easier for me right now. anyway, i'm sorry that i can't come up to chatty to see the play you guys. break a leg and hopefully i'll see you all when we're home for thanksgiving break. and now to try to do some homework or something productive....
and now for some bad news that's a little more global :-(
and what's this about 9/11 trading cards???
11-18-02 3:10pm
it seems as though the more i give and the more i hope...the further there is for me to fall. and i always end up falling. hard. when i least expect it from the people that i've given my heart and soul to...from the only people who really knew me. and i guess i should know by now. it's not like it hasn't happened before. but each new time i just hope it will be different. i don't think i can afford to make the same mistake again, so i will be trying my best not to hope and not to love and not to give myself to anyone until i'm sure. and when will i be sure? probably either too soon or too late. the more i trust and the more i give...there is less of me left in the end and i fear that soon i will have nothing left. but at this point i'm hoping that it's very soon, because then there will be nothing to take away from me when someone decides that i'm not worth it anymore. fuck this shit. i'm sorry guys. i hate it when other people mope about life's shitty jokes and now here i am doing the same. but when the people you confided in are the ones who toss you aside, you're not left with much except a webpage to talk to with the hopes that there's someone out there who still cares.
11-17-02 7:00pm
11-17-02 3:56pm
what a weekend.... friday night i got to spend some time with mehrdod for the first time in awhile. went to dinner and then met up with nevin, konrad, and jeremy (some tech guy) for the FREE tinkers punishment and jump little children concert. very awesome. check those bands out. anyway, we went to a party for a little while afterwards and then called it a night. saturday i got to spend all afternoon giving directions to the ridge kids who got hopelessly lost on their way here. hehe. losers. (just kidding, i LOVE you guys!) Aida kicked ass and is definately one of my new favorites. i still can't believe we fit 7 of us (me, johnny, jessica, chuck, genny, katie, sarah) in my tiny shoebox of a room for some late night ice cream and alcohol, but i had a great time seeing all of you! it was wonderful finally meeting chuck (yes jess, i totally approve!)! and now i'm just trying to wake up enough to actually be productive. yeah right.... i feel kinda bad cause i missed out on the SOA protest, but there's always next year i guess. other then that, i have to break down and write this damn paper on 'the royal tenenbaums' and i don't even like the movie that much! at least i have some left-over wine to help my creativity flow (or something). just keep thinking that thanksgiving is coming up soon, right?
11-13-02 11:00am
thanks to "uncle" vincent for passing along this wonderful article. hopefully you will enjoy it for its dry sarcasm as much as i did.
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oh, and some good news for me: i'm going to be co-president of ecoseac (emory's student environmental group) next semester. i'm slowly taking over the world.... hehe, not really. but it's fun to think that i am! oh, and check out this great new website.
11-12-02 4:00pm
this is almost funny.... i sure am glad that these guys are putting me in my place! and all along i thought that part of being an american was having your own opinions? i know, i know, i was totally wrong. thank god those american-loving non-liberals are here at emory to wake me up. :-P
Emory's liberals are blinded by anti-Americanism
11-11-02 1:11am
like boobies? want some love? go here and type in your name. yes, it's in ANOTHER LANGUAGE (better keiran?)...but all you have to do is type your name in the box. (thanks brandon!)
11-10-02 8:30pm
so after talking with mom for about an hour on the phone i've decided that if all goes well and i get the classes i want the next two semesters i'm going to be graduating a semester early. it's kinda funny, cause i didn't go abroad because i didn't think i could afford to waste a semester and here i am with just a few more classes needed to graduate. i'll still be able to go back and walk with the rest of my class in the spring, but i'm going to try to get an internship and MAKE money instead of SPEND thousands of dollars to stay at school for no good reason except to hang on to people that i'll just be leaving a semester earlier/later depending on what choice i make. i want to hold on, but i know that leaving early will not have an effect on who i lose touch with over time. friends will be whatever friends they turn out to be no matter how much longer you stick around with the hope that something magical will happen to bond you together forever. ok, thats enough. just wanted to update you guys on what's going on. and now i have to start work for my week o' 6 essays, one problem set, one presentation, and the volunteer "hunger and homelessness week." and i'm doing 22 hours again next semester so the bitching isn't gonna lighten up for awhile, sorry. yay....
11-10-02 12:35pm
it's been one hell of a weekend. lots of work surrounded by some quality play time. yesterday was the atlanta "people's passion for peace" march. it was so much fun! all the students met up at emory to carpool and i ended up giving rides to four forign chicks (turkish, italian, german, and french) to the martin luther king center. we gathered together with the 2,000-3,000 other people who were marching, and blocked traffic all the way into centennial park. and let me just tell you how encouraging it is to see and meet so many other people who care about the same things as i do. there were some great signs too: this freshman from emory had a bag full of bagels and a sign that said "bagels not bombs," there were the "puppies for peace," the people dressed up like moneybags saying "billionares for globalization," and my personal favorite "no premature iraqulation." after the rally in centennial park we got to deal with lots of characters (for one: this stupid cop who was directing traffic and who told us that "the problem with terrorist coutries is that none of them have jobs"...i shit you not! god he pissed me off. but there was some drunk black guy who decided to join our conversation who did all the yelling for me) on our walk to and from marta to get to our cars. and i still can't help but find it very ironic how every big city has an area named after martin luther king jr. but it's always a fucking ghetto packed with black people, low income housing, and liquer stores. it's gotta be some racist white city planners "big joke" or something. anyway, as much as i want to help out areas of town like that, i was still very thankful that i had a crowd of other tired sign-bearing protesters walking through there with me. and how the hell are things ever going to change if most of the people who have the ability to help are scared to walk around in places like that by themselves? everyone was friendly as hell, knew where us crazy white protesters had parked our nice cars, and directed us back, telling us that "my friends are with you all the way." hehe, anyway, i dunno how much any of you care about any of this, but just know that i had a blast and even though i'm sore from walking all over the place it was totally worth it.
and another with the emory banner pictured (my chest is right under violence!)
11-08-02 8:40pm
just wanted to let you know that i've added a few picts from emory and from fall break back in the ridge. enjoy the weekend!
11-07-02 10:00pm
so i've wasted my whole day doing homework, studying, going to class, hearing two different environmental speakers...and now i must start studying for my sociology test tomorrow! grrr. so my world is just as busy as ever and the whole world is on the verge of blowing itself up. but don't worry, "the president's intelligence is our strength!"
11-06-02 8:00pm
i just saw a young look-alike of mr. masters on campus...and it was a girl! hehe, just thought that might amuse some of you ridge kiddies.
11-06-02 12:35am
jurassic five: even more amazing then the first time i saw them in 2000. what a great night! even if i did have to convince myself to haul my ass to the concert all by myself and meet up with some oxford kids at the show. i absolutely HATE going places like concerts or movies by myself, i'm still surprised i went. i guess the love of music won tonight? anyway, now i have to start concentrating on all that homework....
oh yeah, and fuck the american voters
11-05-02 11:20am
election day, woohoo! heh, sorry...
anyway, i was lying in bed this morning making myself very troubled by thinking too much (its nothing new, don't worry). and as much as i love that so many of us have stayed in touch and make a point to get together whenever we're all in the ridge, i can't help but feel regret about all the people that have stopped showing up at our get-togethers or who just don't bother to stay in touch anymore. you would think that as many times as i had to move from school to school or state to state i would be used to losing touch with people, but i'm not- and losing a friend tends to be one of the biggest regrets that i'll have about my life (unless they had turned into an uber-bitch and i would have killed myself if i hadn't lost touch with them). lots of friends (even those who aren't in the webmonkey ring yet) tell me they read my page and that they're keeping in touch, but what do i know about their lives? i've tried to explain this to some of you...that as much as you may think you know about what's going on with me, if you're not emailing or calling or IMing, it's gonna be hard for our keeping in touch and staying friends to be a mutual thing. maybe this is just a silly pet peeve of mine, maybe i just miss getting emails from people now that i have a webpage, or maybe it's a valid worry? who knows. but i am worrying (like that needs to be at the top of my list right now with all the school shit going on) and i don't really know what to do about it. i guess i should just consider myself lucky that some of us have stayed so close after high school.... but each friendship was a part of my life, and i can't help but feel somewhat empty as i lose touch with people. i know, i know...i just need to shut up because going through different phases of friends is life. so why does it still bother me so much? and then there are the people here at school. we've become friends through circumstance (dorm halls, classes, other friends, etc.) and i honestly doubt that i will stay in touch with many of the oxford/emory kids after graduation. i mean, even jacob and i are struggling to stay in touch now that he's in scotland. i think that a lot of that has to do with the fact that we only talk on AIM, which i hate doing. but still, we're both explaining that we have nothing going on to tell the other about, and yet i think that we have both convinced ourselves that the other person is leaving something out, because they certainly should have some sort of news, right? hehe. damn, i'm being such a girl this morning. so if you're still reading all the way at the end of the rant, i'm very much impressed and i love you lots!
oh, and the bigger text is for you chuck.... even if my cleavage doesn't interest you. ;-)
11-04-02 12:43am
newest news: no more eyebrow ring for erin. i was playing with the ball on the ring, the ball fell off, couldn't get it back on.... so i gave up and took it as a sign that the face mutilation era has ended. for now. :-P
11-03-02 4:50pm
i have just been informed by my trendy little brother that the title of my webpage (it's my turn now) was the very same as a britany spears article. and needless to say, i am mortified. heh, anyway, here is my lame replacement for the time being. i'm feeling a bit uncreative. :-/
11-03-02 4:23pm
whew, i am so fucking tired. went to go see holly's play (full of sick people, i'm sorry babe!) with genny and some more of the crazy ridgers. and then we even convinced genny to join us in OS! hehe, it wasn't quite up to par with previous parties, but i still had a great time gettig to see everyone who came out. was a little upset that marshall ran off before talking to any of us and that andrea, jessica, and johnny were no shows. oh well, i guess i should be used to that by now, huh? got to spend time with junior today for the first time in years, which was absolutely wonderful! it's always so nice spending time with a person who thinks just like i do! uhhh, anyway, i have books to read and papers to write so i'm going to attempt to get some shit done here at home before leaving for emory later tonight. woohoo. i'm so ready for school to be over....
11-02-02 11:00am
wasted another friday night cause i fell asleep before the hard-working of the world got home to party. ah well, at least i'll be well-rested for the OS party tonight. still have no idea what my costume will be, i've really gotten to the point where i feel totally uncreative and would rather just go as me. cause that's who i enjoy being.... heh. that sounds lame. anyway, i'm looking forward to my date with the sexy genny tonight to see holly's play and then i FINALLY get to see junior on sunday (assuming he doesn't forget, right? hehe). this weekend is shaping up to be a great one, and i refuse to let it become anything less. so i'll see all you crazy ridgers soon....
