Below I have written a few things to the family that I love most...

Chacha Jaan, Taj Aunti, kids -

*Cha Cha Jaan: I truly want you to know how much your love and care has made a difference in my life. You taught me to respect elders, you use to wake us up early and make sure that I would eat before going to school and make sure I dressed up for the weather. I remember the good times that I was able to share with you and the times that I probably didnít like too much then, but I understand that you did what you did to help me to stay on the right path.

Iím also writing to you here because you really are an important person in my life and I love and care for you a lot. I also want to tell you that you did not fail me. You did more than anyone else did when we all needed someone as a father and a mother and you truly were both for us.

I want us to be able to talk sometime in the future and I will pray for that day because I still need a father figure like you in my life. Please mail me or call me whenever you would like to talk this daughter of yours.

*Taj Aunty: To be honest I just wish you were here in front of me right now so I could just hug you and tell you what an impact you have had on me in the past 2 years. I never imagined that I would be this close to a woman in our family. You are exactly what any child would want as a mother and the kids are so blessed to have you as a mother and a friend.

I came here thinking that I probably wouldnít like anyone, but then I met you and spent time with you, made memories with you, which will not leave my heart. You were the first person that I spoke about things that I would have never imagined to talk about and to have someone on the other side that truly understood. So I would like to thank you for being that person in my life and being a good example and I just want to tell you that I love and miss you a lot.

*Samiha, reem and imrani: you kids are the cutest and I miss you guys a lot. I miss our restaurant, I miss being the owner and reemi being the music girlJÖ.i love you kids a lot and hope for the best fro you guys. Respect and obey your mom and dad because you truly are blessed to have such loving parents. Hope to talk to you guys soon.

Poopi Jaan, Asra, Faizan -

*Phoopi Jaan: I came there in 1996 and spent almost 8 years with you out of which we had some good times and some rough times, but even though I may have thought then that you were being unfair it still didnít give me a reason to misbehave with you the ways I did and I would sincerely like to apologize for any thing I said or did when I was living with you.

You did take care of us a lot and you were especially there for me when I was going through rough times with all the harassments. You protected me from the things I didnít even know about. I knew that if someone did something bad to me that they would have to answer to you, which gave me security.

I know that you may not like me at all, but I really use to love the times we would get along and have fun and Iím sure I will miss those times. So I would like to thank you for everything you did for me. Iím a part of your family and I will remember you as a big part of my life.

*Asra: youíre my cousinÖthe one I spent a lot of my time with and I know that like all normal cousin-to-cousin relationship we had are really nice, fun times and then we had our not so good times. We did a lot of stupid and fun things together and I will never forget those times. It is sad that along the line we lost touch and really didnít get the chance to work on our relationship, but I wish you do good in all that your doing and just know that no matter what reason or when in life you might need a friend to talk to that Iíll always be willing to talk to you so remember that.

*Faizan: I loved you from the day you were born:) and I just want you to know that I care about you and I will pray that you will grow up to be a good person and take care of your family. Well all I want to say is that Iíll always be there for you and will love you like my little brother. I hope that you come see me when you come here.

Daddy, Moin, Saba

*Daddy: daddy I love you a lot for just being there in my life. Even though people might say that you havenít done much for us, I just want you to know that I love you and you being there is what matters the most. I just pray that you can really think about the more important things in your life and I just pray that you will be open to the truth so that one day I can see you in heaven. Thank you for being a father and a loving person.

*Moin Bhia: I guess life for all of us changed when ami died and something made us become bitter with each other. I went back to Karachi alone thinking that itíll be for a little while which we all know became 8 years.

Moin bhai, I know I had grudges against you for not calling me, writing to me, and not believing me when others hurt me. But when I asked Jesus Christ to come into my life and forgive me, I realized that if God can forgive me for all the things I have done then who am I not to forgive my own brother and so God helped me get rid of all my anger and bitterness towards you.

I just want you to know that even though you may feel that you have not done enough for us, that your still my brother and I love you for just being that and that I really believe that God is going to help us to become closer and share a beautiful relationship.

I cannot write in words about how happy it makes me that we are all together and able to spend time with each other. Iím so happy even writing this that Iím actually shaking because I realize what a blessing it is to know what Jesus can do if you only choose to let him in your life and Iím so blessed to finally have my family with me.

In the end, I would like to thank you for being an older brother and trying to help our relationship. I love you and Iím glad that youíre my brother.

*Saba: Youíre my younger sister! I love you so much (even though sometimes you can annoy me), but I guess thatís what younger sisters are best at. Saba I missed you and worried about you when I was in Karachi, but you know I couldnít do anything from Karachi to help you. But Iím so blessed that we are all together now and I can only thank God for that.

Saba I really pray that you keep seeking for the truth because I know that there is nothing more important then finding God and his love that he wants to give to us freely. I say all this to you because I love you a lot and I want to see you going after the truth.

I pray that we can become closer then now and we are able to share thoughts, experiences, sorrows and happiness together for a long time. I truly love you a lot and i'm glad that youíre my baby sister.

Bobby Thaya, Badar Aunty, Omiama, Mohsin

*Bobby Thaya and Badar Aunty: I remember when you both came to Karachi to visit some doctor for bobbyís neck and I remember how for the first time in my life someone took the time to understand me and really look at what I was going through. When that big fight broke out between Phoopi and myself, I was so surprised to see how both of you took care of me, stood beside me and spoke up for me.

I would just like to tell you both that I felt so loved and secure at the time you were in Karachi. I would also like to thank you for everything that you have done for me and I hope that we are able to talk soon about anything that will help this family out to stay together as I will surely miss having you both there as role models and comforters.

*Omiama: You and I have been through a lot together and it makes me sad that you will not even speak to me about your thoughts or anything because I thought that we werenít like that, I thought that you and I could talk about anything, but because you are not wanting to speak to me this is the only way I can tell you how much you mean to me.

I remember how we met in India for the first time ( in a long time) and how fast we got along. I remember all our little secrets and our personal thoughts we shared and how we did things for each other to keep from getting into trouble. And those memories will stick with me for a long time because before you I never had a relationship like that with any other cousin.

Omaima, you became like a sister to me in a very short amount of time, which speaks for itself, and I loved spending time with you and just having you in my life to understand me the way no one else did at that time. There is so much more that I would like to say to you, but that would be something I could only share with you if you ever decide to speak to me.

I know your life has changed now, but just remember that you can build new relationships, but itís not wise to forget your past. So with that I would just like to tell you that I still love you a lot and that your still like a sister to me and also that I would love to hear from you anytime so please remember that Iíll always be there for you.

*Mohsin: I donít even know if you know about my faith because no one from the family has really talked to me after I sent my testimony, but Iíll still write to you incase you have heard.

Mohsin, you truly are like my younger brother and I love you for everything that you did for me. I would just like to tell you to take the chance to speak to me if you have anything on your mind that you would like to speak about. I pray that you will be able to at least mail me about your thoughts. I love you and Iíll be here to talk so just know that you have another sister willing to talk and hoping to talk.

Ishi, Omar, Amy

Hey guys!ÖYou are the cousins that I donít really know well, but by the grace of God somehow you all have talked to me and shared your thoughts about everything that is going on and that totally surprised me to see how loving you all are. I cant wait to get to know you guys more and really get to talk about things that matter to all of us. I would just like to thank you guys for your love and humble attitude towards me. It means a lot to me that you all are there for me.

Amy, I spoke to you for a while and I just want to let you know that I had an amazing time talking to you and learning from you and I pray that we will share our thoughts with each other more and hopefully build a good relationship. Again I just want to thank you all for just talking to me.