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RawdyMisaki: hey
DragonStoneLight: hey
DragonStoneLight
: whatsup?
RawdyMisaki
: not much, u?
DragonStoneLight: having one of those life saving discussions with people
DragonStoneLight
: or so I hope
RawdyMisaki
: ^^
RawdyMisaki: so, how r u?
DragonStoneLight: fine
DragonStoneLight
: I think I shuld take up a job as a therapist
DragonStoneLight
: lol
DragonStoneLight
: DragonStoneLight: so many people waste their lives, feeling on the pain...
DragonStoneLight
: its like that is all it becomes
DragonStoneLight
: pain
DragonStoneLight
: everyone thinks their is nothing to live for
DragonStoneLight
: so many people.... maybe we don't see those other people, what they really feel, the tears they cry at night or whatever
DragonStoneLight
: but all this does is waste
DragonStoneLight
: people shouldn't be able to waste there lives and burn other's too
DragonStoneLight
: maybe you have asthma, maybe your mother is fucked up, maybe you've never met anyone proper
DragonStoneLight
: excuse me, anyone who does everything right
DragonStoneLight
: and maybe to be human is to not get things right.... but if there wasn't a danger, a cliff I might fall off to my side, I wouldn't go hiking up those mountains. And that deadly cliff provides the most beautiful view
DragonStoneLight
: there is a good side to things, but people just gave up and now no one has the energy to even smile
DragonStoneLight
: everyone thinks I'm weird and crazy
DragonStoneLight
: and most people don't even like me
DragonStoneLight
: but fuck
DragonStoneLight
: enjoy things. All it is is the way you look at the things around you
DragonStoneLight
: brb
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RawdyMisaki: lol, y?
DragonStoneLight wants to directly connect.
RawdyMisaki is now directly connected.
DragonStoneLight: DragonStoneLight: so many people waste their lives, feeling on the pain...
DragonStoneLight
: its like that is all it becomes
DragonStoneLight
: pain
DragonStoneLight
: everyone thinks their is nothing to live for
DragonStoneLight
: so many people.... maybe we don't see those other people, what they really feel, the tears they cry at night or whatever
DragonStoneLight
: but all this does is waste
DragonStoneLight
: people shouldn't be able to waste there lives and burn other's too
DragonStoneLight
: maybe you have asthma, maybe your mother is fucked up, maybe you've never met anyone proper
DragonStoneLight
: excuse me, anyone who does everything right
DragonStoneLight
: and maybe to be human is to not get things right.... but if there wasn't a danger, a cliff I might fall off to my side, I wouldn't go hiking up those mountains. And that deadly cliff provides the most beautiful view
DragonStoneLight
: there is a good side to things, but people just gave up and now no one has the energy to even smile
DragonStoneLight
: everyone thinks I'm weird and crazy
DragonStoneLight
: and most people don't even like me
DragonStoneLight
: but fuck
DragonStoneLight
: enjoy things. All it is is the way you look at the things around you
DragonStoneLight
: brb
RawdyMisaki
: k
DragonStoneLight: back
DragonStoneLight
: lol
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RawdyMisaki: ..
DragonStoneLight: merg
RawdyMisaki
: ..
RawdyMisaki: yeah, guess u should talk with my family about that
DragonStoneLight: lol
RawdyMisaki
: yeh, they say rhar im either crazy or cursed..
RawdyMisaki: *say that
DragonStoneLight: I think this whole thing with my ma and her boyfreind and the kids and Rebecca's fucked up family is kinda teaching me.... if only I could let daniel see that I do have a bright side.
DragonStoneLight
: I have the exact opposite problem
DragonStoneLight
: my mother says that I'm all perfect and smart and the most intelligent thing in the world, that I can win the halls of ... whatever- but she doesn't know me.
RawdyMisaki
: well, problem here is with the dark side too
DragonStoneLight: yeah.
DragonStoneLight
: do you know what laura told me when I was in LA?
DragonStoneLight
: She told me if I continued to get the bad grades and be like I was I'd end up a stripper in a bar like ma
DragonStoneLight
: or a hooker on the street
RawdyMisaki
: 'like ma'?
DragonStoneLight: yeah
DragonStoneLight
: My mother.
DragonStoneLight
: Before I moved to LA she was a stripper in NYC and Conneticut clubs
DragonStoneLight
: the fancy in the eyes of alot of bigtime gansters
DragonStoneLight
: mobsters
DragonStoneLight
: and everything else inbetween
DragonStoneLight
: that was why I left
DragonStoneLight
: but instead I went to the other opposite, Miss Perfect
DragonStoneLight
: who takes twenty Prozaks a day
RawdyMisaki
: nd how did she take it?, how did you take it?
DragonStoneLight: Ma?
DragonStoneLight
: or Laura?
DragonStoneLight
: I took it.... horribly
RawdyMisaki
: your mother
DragonStoneLight: my mother didn't break down, atleast
DragonStoneLight
: and I'm glad I left her
DragonStoneLight
: because when she moved me into Mary's place..... that was the end of everything. I think I died there, in my dark little room. And she was so blind. She still doesn't know that the fourty year old she dated for a while was seriously hitting on me- and I was only ten
RawdyMisaki
: did he do anything to you?
DragonStoneLight: I was left alone in the car with him, and no one even knew a thing about it
DragonStoneLight
: no
DragonStoneLight
: thank gods
DragonStoneLight
: nearly kissed me once, the bastard, but I can barely remember
DragonStoneLight
: and years later he sent me letter on how I was different and he could talk to me about those adult things
DragonStoneLight
: like his girlfreinds, his sex life.... he scared me
DragonStoneLight
: I don't tell too many people
DragonStoneLight
: but I spent two years every night having nightmares about being raped. It changes a person.
RawdyMisaki
: i can see you are a very strong girl, you have been through a lot and still hangin there
DragonStoneLight: lol
DragonStoneLight
: just a person we all have our stories
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, i always fight with this jerk around here
RawdyMisaki: really hard fights
DragonStoneLight: arguments or the guy tries to actually beat the shit out of you?
RawdyMisaki
: well, just arguments
DragonStoneLight: yeah
RawdyMisaki
: jerk=my father...but sometimes we get along really well, so its kinda weird
DragonStoneLight: yeah, same with my ma
RawdyMisaki
: its like huge fight then ten minutes later we are like foolin around together
DragonStoneLight: she is my mother, and sometimes its cool with her, but I can't forget her past mistakes, esspecially when she keep doing things like she does
DragonStoneLight
: same exact thing
DragonStoneLight
: we never say sorry, just kinda come out and start doing things together
RawdyMisaki
: same here
RawdyMisaki: except when he messes up with the computer.. the other day he took the power cord out of the comp.. that really pissed me off
RawdyMisaki: daniel nd i took the ram out of the computer, i was like "if i cant use it he wont use it ether"
RawdyMisaki: *either
DragonStoneLight: yeah,
DragonStoneLight
: mother and I argue about the computer because she knows jack shit andkeeps wanteding me to do things that can't be done. I suppose that isn't the same problem as yours
RawdyMisaki
: nd it was kinda funny, next day i came home from my old high school nd he was all dow m like "u did something to the computer, go away leave me alone"
DragonStoneLight: but we argue over these things that really aren't important enough to argue over
DragonStoneLight
: lol
RawdyMisaki
: next day he threatened with formatting the hard drive..
RawdyMisaki: so i took it too
RawdyMisaki: O:-)
DragonStoneLight: lol
DragonStoneLight
: I guess that worked pretty well
DragonStoneLight
: I, luckily enough, could simply press the power button and turn off the computer and mother would never figure it out
DragonStoneLight
: but then, she doesn't know shit about shit
DragonStoneLight
: when it comes to electronics
RawdyMisaki
: cn u believe he told my mother that i screwed the comp up, she was in maryland back then, so she mailed me nd told me to not fight with him nd fix the comp
DragonStoneLight: lol
RawdyMisaki
: dad knows some things about electronics but still couldnt figure out what did i do to the computer
DragonStoneLight: lol
RawdyMisaki
: but just in case i bought a spare power cord
DragonStoneLight: oyvay
DragonStoneLight
: war!
RawdyMisaki
: +
RawdyMisaki: ?
DragonStoneLight: lol
DragonStoneLight
: that is what I call subversive war
DragonStoneLight
: not sure there is such a word, but...
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, u should see publaic universities in here
RawdyMisaki: *public
RawdyMisaki: specially the one i well.. used to go..
DragonStoneLight: ?
RawdyMisaki
: in protest they throw rocks to the cops from inside the university
RawdyMisaki: nd police its not allowed to go inside the campus unless there's some kinda authorisation from the city mayor
RawdyMisaki: but protest are almost always for something reasonable
RawdyMisaki: nd police throw lacrimogen gas to the students...
DragonStoneLight: great good gods
RawdyMisaki
: you kinda et used to it, pecially when you live two blocks away from it
RawdyMisaki: *get
RawdyMisaki: *specially
RawdyMisaki: first times its fun to look at the protest, it loses interest with time
RawdyMisaki: daniel is studying there now, so he'll probably take pics if there's one, we'll show u if u want to
DragonStoneLight: I think he already did
DragonStoneLight
: If its the same place
DragonStoneLight
: seemed cool
DragonStoneLight
: though my graphics suck
DragonStoneLight
: sigh
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, last one ended with my inorganic chemistry teacher's car
DragonStoneLight: I think I went a lttle too far with my Greek history. I really shouldn't try to teach my freinds
DragonStoneLight
: i guess he wasn't happy
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, we still think he took his vengance with finals
DragonStoneLight: .... I think I understand that.....
RawdyMisaki
: well, final exam was really hard..
DragonStoneLight: ah
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, he took it on us :-P poor innocent students O:-)
DragonStoneLight: i probably would too _-_
DragonStoneLight
: lol
RawdyMisaki
: well, i prefer to go to public school than private in here
DragonStoneLight: oh, I can't stand the idea of going to private school
DragonStoneLight
: and hell, i don't know about anyplace else, but if I'm going to have to pay taxes than i sure as hell am going to use the resources
RawdyMisaki
: yeah
RawdyMisaki: well, daniel is coming tomorrow after school, we are going to go our old high school
DragonStoneLight: and ur going to say
DragonStoneLight
: u have to go to sleep, too?
RawdyMisaki
: not yet
RawdyMisaki: did he get on b4 i got here?
DragonStoneLight: everyone is signing off together.... like a proccesion. i
DragonStoneLight
: yeah, for a little while
DragonStoneLight
: i think i might've pissed him off, I don't know
DragonStoneLight
: *big yawn8
RawdyMisaki
: nah, he has a hard time getting up early, nd he has class at 7
DragonStoneLight: its getting cold in here.MaybeI should go find that leather jacket
DragonStoneLight
: meh. i get up at six, and i don't sleep till maybe three if I sleep at all
DragonStoneLight
: but then
DragonStoneLight
: I'm weird and shouldn't compare.
DragonStoneLight
: --_
DragonStoneLight
: _-_
RawdyMisaki
: lol yeah, as i keep saying lately, the only general law that applies to me is gravity..
DragonStoneLight: lol
DragonStoneLight
: do you watch the X files?
DragonStoneLight
: or know about them?
RawdyMisaki
: used to watch them
DragonStoneLight: well, that is what we've been watching. Only thing decent on this late
RawdyMisaki
: cool, i havent seen them in a while
RawdyMisaki: they are showing the first seasons in fox, but they traslated them nd the voices suck, so that kinda pisses me off
DragonStoneLight: My aunt use to watch them whenI was little. She still does, infact. We watched them once a week at midnight when I lived there. X files have always been a feature of our weird faimly culture
DragonStoneLight
: ah
DragonStoneLight
: i bet
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, i dunno who is the jerk who makes the cast for series nd movies translations in here, but i want to kick his/her ass
RawdyMisaki: i have only seen a few shows nd movies woth decent voices in spanish
RawdyMisaki: *with
DragonStoneLight: I hate watching movies translated
RawdyMisaki
: besides, they dont even make a good translation
DragonStoneLight: if its in a foreign language then, fuck, I do know how to read. I just can't stand the lips moving when they aren't even talking or viceaversa. You can't translate a language like that
DragonStoneLight
: yeah
RawdyMisaki
: so, did u get the jacket?
DragonStoneLight: lol
DragonStoneLight
: no, just wrapped myself up in sheets and crap
DragonStoneLight
: curled up in a corner between couch and pillows
DragonStoneLight
: soon enough I'm going to go into sleep mode, put on one of those huge t-shirts that hangs below my knees (which is saying something, I'm pretty tall) and then crash on the couch till I barely have enough energy to raise myself and go to bed
RawdyMisaki
: lol
DragonStoneLight: I'll spend most of the night tossing and turning- but I suppose, as long as I don't fall off the loft bed, i'll be fine
RawdyMisaki
: yeah, i used to toss nd turn too, but while i was sleep, nd i actually fell from my bed several times
DragonStoneLight: lol
RawdyMisaki
: good thing was that i didnt wake up nd kept sleepion on the floor
DragonStoneLight: my bed is six feet up though, so I don't think I wan't to be doing that.
DragonStoneLight
: I know some people who do that. lol
RawdyMisaki
: lol
RawdyMisaki: i stopped when we moved nd they changed my bed to a higher one
DragonStoneLight: I, luckily enough, have never had the problem. Even when i do sleep, I always know my boundries and never pass out of them. If I have a huge bed, I will spread out. If I have a rail, I will sleep on the rail wihout moving an inch. Though other things often end up falling off when I move up there. Thats why I have a waterbottle of which the lid wont just pop off under pressure
DragonStoneLight
: I have to climb up this later, so I don't like going up and down from the bed, so everything I do ends up having to be pefect and precise.
DragonStoneLight
: ladder*
DragonStoneLight
: lol
RawdyMisaki
: lol
DragonStoneLight: brb
RawdyMisaki
: k
DragonStoneLight: ugh
DragonStoneLight
: he doesn't even sound human
RawdyMisaki
: ?
DragonStoneLight: he sounds like broken record
DragonStoneLight
: the week old baby inthe other room
RawdyMisaki
: is it a boy or a girl?
DragonStoneLight: boy
DragonStoneLight
: my little brother
DragonStoneLight
: I feel like screaming. I don't do well with lots of noice (unless, of course, I'm the one making it) _-_
DragonStoneLight
: my aunt is offering that I move back in with her
DragonStoneLight
: I think its funny that she is also getting me the plastic form of currency (credit card, whatever) and just happens to have guys coming over tommorow to see if they can instal a pool
DragonStoneLight
: sigh
DragonStoneLight
: but none of that matters to me
DragonStoneLight
: -thats a lie, it does, but there are more set backs to living there than a pool or money can ever solve-
DragonStoneLight
: but the thing is
DragonStoneLight
: one of the best highschools in the counrty is there
DragonStoneLight
: magnet school
DragonStoneLight
: all my good freinds are going there. Its magnet, for the intelligent but socially inexceptable kids. They have all sorts of alternative classes, like for gym you can take regular gym or ballet or yoga, whatever
DragonStoneLight
: lots of arts
DragonStoneLight
: and I've been thinking about it
DragonStoneLight
: I can barely live away from these mountains,
DragonStoneLight
: but if I want to live in them when I'm older, in the longer years.... I need to have money. And to have the kinda money I want, unless I want to be a goddamn drug dealer or pt grower like all my freinds, I need to go to a respectable highschool
DragonStoneLight
: do better then average
DragonStoneLight
: go to a really good highschool
DragonStoneLight
: thus to a good collage
DragonStoneLight
: make the money so that when I want I can leave.
DragonStoneLight
: go back here
DragonStoneLight
: where I can live and love :p
DragonStoneLight
: anyways
DragonStoneLight
: I'm going to go into crash mode now
DragonStoneLight
: so I'll talk to you tommorow?
DragonStoneLight
: my gods.... I've been ranting
DragonStoneLight
: see ya
RawdyMisaki
: i'll try to get on tomorrow, now u know how things work in this house