come on stab me grip the knife, light flash, cool metal. only you could stab me in the back. some friend you are. end.
we live each minute like a lifetime we die in time enough to wake up existence is temporary we made the thought of forever a reality and now we believe desecrate what is ours i profane what is yours and feel unredeemed
pressure to excel in what i cannot do. can't you see it i can't. can't you see it i can't. i fail.
i want to feel you screaming my lividity in a voice as loud as ten thousand i don't want this forever i need this for always. forever isn't long enough to satisfy this primal illness crawling where my heart should be beating. the drummer misses a beat dark pain envelopes my eyes escalating fear numbed by nothing abrasions lacerations creating the calligraphy written on my heart i am removed removal is all but everything creating a shield. cannot be numbed.
Coughing up tainted memories i want to wash them away begin anew feel like someone i never was who did you want me to be. i drown in the thought collapse into waves lapping at the shoreline pummeling the rocks. who did you want me to be this is my failed dream.
the thought of us ignites and the ashes rain down gray like the sky it has always been gray vicious cycle of loss speaking in monotone, living in monochrome, loving in black. realize what you tried to tell me i realize and realize insecurities abound accepting the fact that we had to back down. depth of your voice i never heard. you were screaming at me. this has ended so untimely. razors wiped away tears of red. and you threw in the towel.
i feel worse close to bitterness sour like acid vitality of this so apparent i am forgetting what this is all about there is nothing to remember but the aftertaste sharp as pain. fermented ideals blanketing me. rape the fate of my own inhumanity. sour like acid vitality of this so apparent. the only thing i remember is the aftertaste sharp as pain.