I had a class today. Ok, so I'll admit it here, I guess. I didn't go to it. It was the first day of this class, but I have a lot of things to get done today and I thought, wouldn't it be so much easier if I just missed this class? I convinced myself that all the teacher would talk about is the "requirements" to reach whatever letter grade and that I wasn't gonna miss anything. Except this time, although I still slipped up, I knew the truth. Missing any class for any reason will just kill my GPA right now and any chance I have of making it out of Brookdale in a reasonable amount of years. So I regret that I skipped.
And I almost, almost started to think things like, "god I look horrible" again. Almost. I stopped myself, somehow while I wondered around Brookdale campus to wait for my friend so I can get the book I need from her. I felt alone, bored, and had those annoying parinoid feelings of gee, everyone is looking at me and they're thinking things like man her hair looks horrible, or dude she's ugly. That's things that use to fall into head every five minutes if not more some days. Never again.
I vow never again.
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at 4:22 PM EDT
Updated: Thursday, 11 September 2003 1:16 AM EDT
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Updated: Thursday, 11 September 2003 1:16 AM EDT
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