Eee..
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Engel - Rammstein
It's official.. today was CRAP.

Got home from school, immediately went into my room, climbed into bed, and cried for about ten minutes. Laid there for another half hour enjoying the down-time before I finally got up to do homework.

It always scares me when I get this tired and out of it. I get.. hm.. masochistic, should I say?

Not that I would ever do any of it, but it's much easier to entertain thoughts of playing with sharp razor blades and making myself throw up so people will get off my back about not doing enough.

Of course, I know deep down that they still love me and care about me. But everyone has a day when their dark side emerges for a romp through their mental insecurities. ...That's a VERY accurate description of me today.

I guess to my psyche, a good night's sleep is so much better/more important than a week of vacation. Which reminds me, I NEED to get to bed now.

But I'll leave with a slightly more positive note. Staci got to the S's in the personality profiling class today, the category which I am uberly-high in. It's basically supportive, caring, the mushy-feely category. I'm even more uberly-high in the cautious, planning category, but that's not the point.

One thing she said about S's REALLY stuck out to me, and I've got to bury this deep in my mental thinking:
"S's expect all of us (the other three categories) to read between the lines, because that's just what they do. With everything we say, they read between the lines. ...Even if there's no lines to read between. So S's, remember that when we say something, that's what we mean."

That spoke SO much to me.. I needed to take this class several years ago. ^_^ Granted, these are generalizations about a personality pattern. Value systems, life experience, and oodles of other factors can effect the way we act, but still.. I need to remember what she said, that'll take care of almost all my problems right there. XD

And now, I need sleep so that I may ponder this with a clear mind tomorrow. And hopefully I WON'T come down with this cold. ><