:~:My Diary:~:

Guyz....

Cant live with them....
cant live without them...
and yet i still luv em! lol

u already know who i am from my actual web page... but this is an aditional part and its kinda like a diary of wat happens in my life.... so al u guyz no wats goin on... lol aighty? its nothin really important... its just wat is goin on in my life.... to most of u dont care... its wat i think/feel/and all my emotions..... i am sharin MOST (and yes.. NOT all) of my life and feelings... as being a teenager... a lot of u know... is tough, well in some ways, this si 2 show u... ur NOT the only ones goin thro hard/bad times... it happens 2 all of us... and as u'll see wne u read on.... ive had my share... but never 4get all the good uve had to.. those r wat counts :) friendship is a wonderful thing... belive me...:)

Aug. 29th 2001-

My friendz and i made the offiacial group W.A.M.H... this stands 2 Woman Agaist man Whores. and we celebrat it every wednesday.... its really kool... it made us feel better about all our probalems wiv guyz weve been havin... they r all just man whores

Aug. 30th 2001-

we ahve now also decided that yellow orange and red r the colors 4 man whores.... lol matt was really mean 2 me day... he told me he thought i was trying to break him and his g/f up and i would NEVA EVA do such a thing!!! i thought was was really mean of him... i dont even know who his g/f is... he really upset me wen he told me that

Aug. 31st 2001-

i had the first pretty good day in the longest time... like 4 2 weeks... nothin went wrong, and i was hyper and happy all day... lunch is getttin more fun4 me. cuz since i just moved here... i kinda felt like he outside crowd at lunch.. but its gettin way better... o yea... alex came 2 skool 2day wiv a sling around his arm... so sad... every1 kept hitting him... how mean! lol on the bus matt and george got moved tot he front and 2 7th graders took mine and georges seat, so i now have to sit on the otha bak seat wiv tyler... my ex.. i think he was a fraid to talk 2 meand sit by me or sumthing... o welz... its not as fun on the bus wivout george being stupid/funny... hopfully they will beave well enouht to move bak to the bak seat wiv us :) then 2night we went to the movies... i only wen tho cuz andy (matts lil bro)said he wanted me 2... so i was nice and did. we saw rat Race, it wa stupid funny... and pretty boring... but it was still fun... once again i did my little thing 4 steph and threw popcorn on her man whore.... lol... it was funny. i sat wiv andy cuz hes kool, way koole then his bro. matt i decided.. and hes way nicer then matt. lolz. thats about all that happend at the movies 2day.... not a whole lot really... ttyl!

Sep 4th 2001-

today was a very good day.... nothin in particular good happened, but i was in a veeeeeery good modd, and hypa... kayla was mad at me 4 a while, but she said she was sorry and we were ok after that.... :) that makes me happy 2... ummmm... lets see... wat esle o yea... andy wants to hook up wiv me and im thinkin bout it.... he's in 7th grade.... but i dont care wat all u ppl think bout that!!!! the only thing i worried bout is wat matts gonna do cuz he seems to be talkin shit bout me right now.... and who knows wat he gonna say bout this.... but i have come to really not care wat the hell he thinks.... he thinks im like obsessed wiv him or sumthin, wen im so0o0o0o0o0o0 NOT!!!! he need to get that thro his head! but wateva... today was a good day.... which is wat counts.... :)

Sep. 5th 2001-

doday was a pretty good day.... Tim made me really mad. but u dont need to know all bout why and wat he did.... do u??? nah i didn't think so! but apart from that, all went well. o yeaaaaa... today was MAN WHORE DAY!!!!!! but unfortunatly... this is so sad.... none of us really remembered and we didn't really celebrate it!!!!! OMG!!!! shame on us!!!! that ok, we gonna make up 4 it nx week :) lol, but we didn notice that a LOT and i mean LOT of guyz were wearin the man whore colors... red, yellow and orange.... lol and im beggin to think im gonna say yes to andy.... i got nothin 2 lose, and hes really sweet.... :) o yea, and tim is kinda annoying me cuz he keeps goin up 2 ppl and sayin to tell me to go out wiv him!!!! he knows i said no and then wen i say no infront of him, they ask y and he always says i dont like him like that, but hes tryin to get wiv me... arrrrgggg... i ahte it wen he does tha, no means no!!! lol

Sep 6th 2001-

today was an ok day i guess BUT it was my friend Laurens BIRTHDAY!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHICA!!!! mwa mwa hugz n kisses from me...lol.... tim pretty much ignored me 2day... which made me kina sad... i miss not talkin2 him... i dunno y he di, but he did... o welz... lunch was kinda boring, but there was this girl tryin to beat this little tiny bou up... he musta been like 1/2 my height, so sweet. and he was ittin by the tree we hang out at crying.... while the girl was tryin to yell at him but he friendz were stopping her... it was so sad. we were tryin to help him and protect him... i felt so sorry 4 him. and from wat i heard h didn absolutly nothin to her 2 make her wanna beat him up.... poor little boy... n-e-wayz.... i made my dessision and i did say yes to andy.... which is kool. :) if ur readin this andy~ i luv ya! mwah mwah xoxo n-e-wayz... o yea, it was so0o0o0o weird 2day i got on my bus and had like 3 ppl come and ask me if i was goin out wiv tyler or if we were about to go bak out... i was like no0o0o.... y? it was like they knew sumthin i didn't... veeeeery strange.... but o welz... it dont matter really....i guess... ok i think that all important that really happened 2day... toodlez

Sep 7th 2001-

today started off a realy bad day man.... well the moring and hom room at least, then in history (1st per.) and we were doin a group project and im in candices group wiv cody and nicole 2.... well after that i couldnt stop laughing!!!! i was cryin i was laughing so much and 4 the rest of the day i was SERIOUSLY hyper.... i swear i was like bouncin off the walls, u wouldda thought i was high or sumthin.... it was so0o0o0o0o0o much fun tho!!! gym was fun 2... i was really hyper then.... we played 4-square.. thats a dumb game u no??? and i SUCK at it lolz... but i have neva played it b4.. so guve me some credit man!!! lol lunch i was just walkin around everywhere and talkin 2 ppl i didn't even know.... and i neva do that!!! omg it was fun! lol... ok enough bout that.... o yea... 6ht period i almost got in a fight... but it was dumb... courney decided she hates me 2 death, 4 NO reaosn wat so eva... so she got her friendz to talk 2 me and wateva.... and i was puttin sum make-up on and she asked y i was doin that and i said "becuz i want to" and i think she was ready to pound me 2 the floor... but didn't cuz the teacher was there... fighting is so dumb, it neva solves nething, only gets more trouble, more anger and can cause ppl to get hurt or serious trouble.... wat IS that point of that... honestly??? o and i didn't go tot he movies 2day so kayla got so0o0o0o mad at me cuz i was ognna be her ride. so she started cussin me out, blocking me and warning me like 9 times.... whic i think is dumb really... warning me does nothin but say she cant think of nething else to say good bak, so she gonna arn me... but wateva she'll get ova it wen she wants to!

Set 8th 2001-

today was a pretty good day. i was woken up at 10 this morning by alex callin my house.... lol.. well NOT funny really... lol but u no... so andy and alex (or should i say joey)came ova and we hung out 4 a while... then Stephanie came ova.... which was kool. they left 4 a while.. then came bak like 1/2 hour lata. we were just chillin and talkin.... then they said they were goin bak.. but sat on the curb of my street...lol.. very starnge... so me and steph decided to have fun and start yellin at them form my window at them.... it was funny.... so wen went outside after that and hung out.... then i decided it wasnt working out wiv andy.... so steph told alex who told andy...and now he thnks i was USIN him.. couldnt have been any more insulted by that!!!! cuz i am NOT that kinda girl and i would NEVA do that.... i want to still be is friend, but hes stuck on the idea i was using him.... i cant make him change his mind...its not fair...i want to still be his friend...o welz... that all 4 now

Sep 9th 2001-

today was pretty boring... i was so0o0o0o0o0o tired cuz i was up till 3:30 in da morning on da phone wit a certain person, whom im not gonna say his/her name cuz i would get him/her in trouble.... (wink wink lol u no who u r) and then my feeekin neibor woke me up at 10 by mowin his laun!!!! i was like wat the freek??? so not fair dude!!!! well i kinda sorta fell asleep 4 like an hour!! i was like omg, i NEV do that.. that was how tired i was!!! i woke up cuz my old best freind form 5th grade called me 2 say hi... it was good to talk 2 her again.. we talked 4 like an hour. then had t get off cuz alex and andy came ova...... and i'll leave it at that i think....

Sep 10th 2001-

monday.... monday monday.. alwayz pretty boring days, dont u think? yea i do 2!!! not much happened 2day.... in jounalism we got out assignments... i LUV mine man...lol i get to interview the boyz basketbal team!!! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! :) lol o yea.. me and candice made a new friend 4 us... S.Y.E (4 her) and S.Y.E 2 (4 me) it stands 4 Scrath Your Elbow and Scratch Your Elbow 2...lol they r little smily faces on our elbow.. but dont make fun of em cuz they kool and they our friendz and NO1 talked bad bout myfriendz... lol ok? wel it just an inside joke of ours (one of our MANY newayz lol) that it pretty much....

Set 11th 2001 2001

this is a day to go down in history and im not kiddy and it so far from good. we have had 4 terrerist attacts, 2 on the World Trade Center, one on the Pentagon in Washington and i dont know where the otha one was... this day will be in the history books.... we dont know who did it.. we tryin to find out, but wen we do,President George W Bush WILL retaliate and take action.. they WILL pay he said.... i think this means war.... i cant believe it.. im in total shock.. i woke up this morning.. and everything was fine. today was a normal day.. and im now goin 2 go to sleep in fear of war. the thought i could possible DIE. i am a 13 yr old teengae girl who has NOT lived my life to the fullest yet.. and i may not get to see my 14th b-day.... u have n-e idea HOW scary that is??????? its undescribable really....the thuight that i might wake up with war.... afraid to walk outside... sleep.. have a normal life... this WILL change the course of history and our lives!!!! i may not have a normal life ever again.... nore will MILLIONS of others.... this is so0o0o0oo0 just NOT happening.. i cant believe it.... omg.... AND 2day at skol was not good.... tim BROKE my freekin ring that i have had since i was 6 yrs old and got in scottland... he BROKE it and tried to deny it first then said it wasnt his fault!!! and NOW hes mad at ME?!?!??! wat the freek??? does that just s0o0o0o0o not make sence to u???? i was very upset that he broke it.... it was not funny.. and he didnt even bother to tell me wen i took it bak form him (he stole it and tried to say he lost it and iw as freekin out at first!) so 2day was not a good day ay all.... all we can do now is wait day by day 2 see wat happens.... god bless every1....and i luv u all.. dont 4get it ok?

Sep 12th 2001-

today was an ok day... considering the conditions.... it was not bad. they r only recovering people form this accident right now.. thats about all they can do.... 4 now.... its all just so tense, every1 is constantly watching the news, waiting 4 them 2 say/do sumthin.... its scary.... it really is.... wat i hope 4 outta this little web page.. it 4 it to still be around like 50 yrs form now right? and kinda like ann franks diary.. how it is rememebered and famous... well i dont expect it to be famous or nuttin, but stil a good/fun web site 4 ppl to lok at to see wat was ahppenin at this time.. to find out wat life was like 4 teenagers wat went on.. and now wit this whole war thing.... ppl can find out from 1st person wat it was like.... u no wat i mean? but wateva... newayz, ya'll think im dumb and stupid im sure 4 that lol.... but o welz.... wel thats bout all that really happened 2day... since this war thing happened.. thats all pl talk about.. allppl think about, nothin else is really happenin besides this.... its horrible.. i wanna go bak 2 how it was b4 all this....

Set 13th 2001-

today was an ok day i guess at skool... VERY boring cuz candice wasnt there.... it so0o0o0o0o quiet witout her man.. she ma dawg... i missed her!!!! she was sick.. but feelin better now.. which makes me very happy :)lol.... newayz.... nuttin really happened at skool 2day.. very boring.. but OMG guess wat???? it was anounced on da TV that SCHOOL IS CANCLED 4 TOMORROW!!!!!! oooooooooooooooh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeaa!!!!! omg i was jumpin up and down 4 joy man!!!! callin every1, goin crazy..... music bangin, black/strobe light goin... wow i was so0o0o0o0 HAPPY!!!! we get 2morrow off cuz there is a strom/maybe hurricane heading our way due to hit sumtime 2morrow.... so we get tomorrow off skool.. but we still goin 2 the movies 2morrow.... ahhhhh.. i cant wait! im sleepin in.... and chillin wit my friendz (well hopfully!)i cant wait!!! its so0o0o0o kool! its like 10:40 at night.... im wide awake... and so hyper...lol i just got off the fone wit alex like 30 min ago.... well thats all 4 now really... more 2morrow!!! lol toodlez peace out babes mwa mwa!

Sep 14th 2001-

today i was home alone (i LOVE beong home alone man!)and i hung out wit kayla mostly and talked on da fone wit alex. we had rain and major winds all day cuz a hurricane was comin thro.. but nuttin was damages... just RAINED constantly.. ALL day... NONE stop... o welz... we only lost power 4 like a second or so , we were lucky bout that.i went ot the movies wit kayla (as usual) and we saw Hard Ball...that is SUCH a good movie, omg!!! so0o0o funny but the ending is so sad.. i creid!!! lol.. i aint embarressed to admit it... lol yes i cried at the movies, lmao... i sat wit kayla and derrik... i was gonna sit wit alex (well that wat he said, but u no guyz lol) but he got there 2 late and they sold out, so he couldnt come see the movie, which sucked! but o welz.... the movies was fun! i spent the night at kayla's 2... lata ppl... thats all that happened really 2day lol

Sep 15th 2001-

i stayed at kaylas till bout 4:30 2day and then she ame 2 my house... my parents left cuz they were goin out to dinner and not home till 9:30. so i hung wit kayla.. music blastin a lot...lol and talked on da fone wit alex (yes again) then around 7:30 i fond Candice, Yvette, Stepanie, Kara and Kelcey at my door in pj's LOL!!!! so cuz i was home alone i didnt think they could come in, so we went walkin around the streets being dumb... lol.. it was fun. they were pickin me up and throwing me up and onto the floor while i was on da fone wit alex... he must thought we were CRAZY!!!! lolz! it was a lot of fun tho.... HILARIOUS really... kayla went home at 8 and then wen my parents came home.. she bak ova and spent the night lol... around 10 she cam e bak oav actually...

Set 16th 2001-

today was differnt and unexpected actually... kayla went home around 2 or so... and bout 1/2 hour after that byron and george came over.... byron left bout 3:30 and then about 4 matt and alex showed up at my door (THAT was the unexpected part....) since i thoguht matt still wants me 2 die and hates me.... but if he does now.. he dont show it.. which makes life better i guess.... less to piss me off and upset me lol! and alex said if he was gona come ova he would call me.. and he didnt;, but i wasnt complainin.. they r really kool guyz 2 hang around wit and funny as nething 2! they hung aorund my house 4 a while.. then we al went to matts (which also suprized me that matt invited me there.. but kewl kewlz! we just hung out there.. we were home alone which was kool.... well thats all 4 now... lata mwa mwa!

Sep 17th 2001-

today was skool (again, DAMN lol) it felt like we hadnt been at skool in 4eva... and it was a really boring day.... nuttin exciting happened... and basically nuttin happened...LOL.. a BORING same old day... ya know wat im talkin bout im sure! lol.... tim was being kinda mena 2 me tho.. sayin stuff bout my makeup lookin ugly or sumthin.... i dunno.. but he made me feel like i was SERIOUSLY ugly.... which isnt very nicne sinse i dont think too highly of myself in the first place!!! but o welz.. o yea, OMG.. today they announed that wen we got to lunch our 4th period teacher has to walk every1 TO lunch!!!! OMG u have more freedom in freekin ELEMENTRY SKOOL then u do here at tomlin... how freekin GAY is that?!?!?!? its so0o0o0o0o0o0o STUPID.. we r in 8th grade.. we can manage to walk OURSELVES 2 lunch.. dont u think????? its so0o0o dumb... im so0o0o mad about that! thats all (tol du it was a boring day lol)lata babez!

Sep 18th 2001-

today was boring AGAIN!!!! nuttin has been happenin at all... boring boring boring! i thought alex was mad at me 2day tho... he like neva said hi to me or nuttin and stuff.. he seemed mad at me... so sad... :(then @ 9:45 @ night i get a call from kayla sayin she needs her american flag shirt (cuz 2morrow is red white n blue day, and i had it to wear cuz she let me borrow it) and i got really mad cuz she told me i could wear it, i had painted my nails wit the american flag on it to match and everything, and she all the sudden decides to call me at 9:45 @ night sayin she wants me to give it bak? i felt so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o bad about it after we yelled and i told he ri would bring it to skool 2morrow... even tho i really wanted to wear it. but i felt so bad 4 yellin at her.. t was really wrong of me.. its her shirt, she can wear it if she wants.... then @ 11 she decided to call me again (my mum got so0o mad) and say she was sorry and i could wear it cuz she found sumthin else.... which was REALLY sweet of her.... and i was happy.. and felt REALLY guilty then!!!! so i wrote her a note to give her 2morrow in homerom tellin her i am sorry and didnt mean to and know i was in the wrong, not her (4 once lol jp) o and alex called me @ 10 sumthin and we talked, but not 4 long... he said he wasnt mad at me.. but i dunno.... ? :*( ::tear tear:: thats all its real late and i got skool 2morrow! ttyl peace out babes!

Sep 19th 2001-

today was red white and blue day.. i wore my TIGHT jeans... my fav. wit the ameican flag shirt.. my nails and toe nails painted 2 match.. and here i go.. u dont need to know this, but every1 thinks its funny.. i wore a white bra and red thong to go along wit the whole theme 2..... lol.. yea yei know... i no wat u thinkin.. im sorry!!! newayz.... o yea.. if ne of u readin this do go to tomlin.. get ur parents to call the principle about air conditioning in the LOCKER ROOMS!!!! its getting so0o0o0o GROSS and totally unbareable in there!!! we r all sweating and HOT as HE!! and then have to go into the locker rooms wit no air conditioning.. thats just gross.. and HORRIBLE... its makin me really mad that their not doin nething about it.. they were dumd to take it OUT in the first place.. why the HECK would u take air conditioning OUT of a freeking LOCKER ROOM????? u cant GET any dumber then that i dont think!!! i cant stand it.... we've GOT to do sumthin about it, and SOON!!! i bet even if every student payed like 5 or 10 $'s.... we could get new air conditioning... and i dont think wed have ne worryies bout ppl not payin, cuz i think EVERY1 agrees wit me wen i say we NEED AIR CONDITIONING!!!! ok.. now i got that off my back....lol....i am gonna leave now.. thats all... (and i cant be bothered to type nemore.. im freekin TIRED!!! ttyl peace out babes! halla at ya'll lata mwa mwa!

Sep 20th 2001-

today was a really bad day.... bad bad bad!!!! i was tired as u can get...like so overly tired my eyes were red form it.... i seriously could have fallen alseep if ya let me.... i was in a BAD mood.. i didnt feel good and nuttin was goin right! one good thing actually... tim was being really sweet to me 2day... he told me 2 write him anote and stuff.. so we wrote notes ot eachotha 2day... its good 2 be his friend again.... and he gives the best hugs wen u feelin bad.... its nice to no he's there 4 me weneva.... newayz.. i YELLED at kayla 2day.. she got me really mad and 4 once i stood up 4 myself and YELLED at her.... omg i was so0o0o0o0o MAD!!!!!! eeeerrrrrrrrrr.... im so0o0o tired.... i got home and fell right alseep for 2 1/2 hours...!!!! o yea and i HATE science!!! mr Varon-I HATE YOU, and so does every single one of ur students!!!! we freekin HATE u!!! ur dumb, mean and STUPID, and yes i said STUPID! ur class is boring as hell... and u r the meanest stupidest teacher ive ever met, and ur so0o0o0o0o0o unfair.. i no life aint fair... but i think uwent a little tooooo far in the statment.... ok enough of that.... im gonna go.. i am so tired... 2morrow is friday (THANK GOD!) and the movies cummin up... cant wait (if i can stay awake lol) and dolphin dance on sat... omg i so0o0o cant wait 4 that! ttyl mwa mwa!

Sep 21st 2001-

today i woke up at the sound of my phone ringing... errrrrrrr... NOT a plesant thing ya no.... even tho it was 11:30 or so.. i neeeed ma sleep plz.. it was kayla tho... she was sunbathing and wanted to know if i could come ova... so i did 4 about an hour cuz she had to go get her hair cut! but it was kool.. altho i dont think i got ANY tan.. WATZSOEVA!!!! o welz... ::tear tear:: lol...its all good tho...tonight was the dolphin dance and was so0o0o excited... it was supposed to be hawiian theme... so as we walked in they gave us layz... how gay and chep were they...lol.. but as i said i was really lookin forward to this dance.. every1 told me they were goin.. but NO1 and i mean NO1 showed up..it had to have been they gayest dance i have ever been to... NOONE would dance...its a dance pplz..ur kinda supposed to DANCE there!!! omg it was so0o0o0o STUPID!!! maybe it would be more fun if i new more ppl there and had ppl to talk 2 more... and i didnt get asked to slow dance wit anyone...and i dunno bout u girlz out there...but wen u just stand there 4 more then 10 dif slow songs watchin EVERYONE else slow dancing...its very depressing and lonly.... i feel so0o0o0 unloved.... and THATS wat makes girls feel so ugly and wateva... ::tear tear:: :*( o welz... n-e-wayz.. thats bout it 4 today... im a gonna BoUnCe outta here luv u all..mwa mwa c-ya!

Set 24th 2001-

today i tried to ahva good day, but u feelin sick like i am...it kinda hard.. but i did a pretty good job:) skool was goo actually.. i was in a goos mood and tims bak to himself.... much nicer and way more alktiv.. hich is wat i missed :) lol. alex and nicole broke up 2day.. wel that is if alex aint lyin 2 me again... which he coud very well be.. being the FREEKIN MAN WHORE he is..... im kinda like relaly mad at him right now.. he need tSO being a man whore.... cuz hes a BIG one.. i think hes thr LEADER of al man whores... seriously!!!!! i started writtin my firs newspaper article 2day.. im pretty proud of mysel fi guess.. not toooo bad 4 my first one... lol.. its about air conditoning in the locker rooms.. TOLD ya id do sumthin bout it..... ya'll need to get ur parents to complain about it, PLEEEEZ!!! we desperate man!!!! u ahve NoOoOoOoO idea!!! therse no skool thrusday.. im xcited bout that man.. im hopin 2 go SHOPPING man!!! lol every girlz dream... shoppin..lol wel not every girl..lol ok watever... but its kinda dumb cuz we ahve thursday off and have to go BAK 4 friday...lol how DUMB!!!! newayz.... off that boring subject...lol today was Kristina Davis's birthday every1!!!! i hope u wished her a happy birthday pplz!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHICA!!!!! is sing 4 ya... but this is a computer... lol so.. i CANT....sorry!!!! lolz.. im so ful of it man.... lol.. wel i think im gonna BoUnCe outta here 4 nowz pplz.... its late... im sick.. and im tired........ :*( boo hoo 4 me, right? lol weel peace out babez.. more lata.. aighty? (im sure ya;ll just cant wait.. can ya...lol didnt think so!!!! im shuuutin up now! lol) mwa mwa babez.... lata!

Sep 25th 2001

heeeeey... i had a pretty bad morning.. sick and miserble..... not fair... im still mad at alex... and it was tru him n nicole broke up... Kayla is beggin to piss me and EVERYONE off pretty bad... i dont care if she readin this cuz she needs to know!!!! she just told me ppl ahte me..... wel those ppl that hate me... hate me 4 no reason.. they ahve neva talked 2 me b4 (i no ho she talkin about) so those ppl hate me just to hate..... but the pl that hate HER.. DO know her and have pretty damn good reaosn to..... talk about annoying....and thinks shes all that.. wel u AINT KAYLA!!!! o.. and i hope Kinsey is readin this.. cuz if so.. u got a BIIIIG probel wit ur bf and best freind kayla ova here at tomlin.... ur bf is havin a little tndency to SEEEEEEERIOUSLY flirt wit kayla.. actually kayla is flriting more.. it makes every1 at tomlin sick.. its like the talk of everyone at gym... and class.. everywhere.. it makes us all SICK!!!! Kayla.... ur life is based on tellin ppl how ugly they look.. and sayin things to them to hurt their feelingz..... thats just WRONG.. o and sum of ur firnedz that u think r ur frinedz... actually arnt... and im talkin about ur so callaed "popular group" of freindz.. and ive quite frankly had ENOUGH of ur CRAP.. and thats EXACTLY wat it is!!!! im tired of it..... so is every1 else.... newayz...im gettin sicker and sicker as the time goes on.... man this sucks!!! i had a bad day 2day.. and was so0o0o0 in the mood 2 yell... but i wouldnt yell unless i ahda reason.. and lucky kayla got to be the lucky gal.... and im such a bad mood i anin gonna give up till i win (or she is a baby and blocks me).... all kayla ever does is make me feel uglier than i already.. i dont need that right now... im depressed enoug wit things goin on.. and im tryin to make the best of it... and my best friendz (special hall a2 ya'll lol) Candice, Yvette, Step and kelcey...make me feel a LOT better.... they r da best.. the ALWAYZ know how 2 make me laugh.... and support me 100% and i no they alwayz got my bak.. just like i got theirs.. THAT wat tru frinedz r... thanx girlz!!! ya'll ma DAWGZ....lol well i gotta BoUnCe 4 now..... lata babez.... mwa mwa!

Sep 26th 2001-

HEEEEEEY.. today i had a real good day.. i was kinda like really hyper.... actually in 1st and 2nd per. i was kinda upset and mad.. but im not sure bout wat...lol. .... but 3rd per. came and i was my hyper self again:) i think we were all havin a MUCH MUCH better day then yesterday.. o0o0o0o yea and today was man whore day.. HAPPY MAN WHORE DAY!!!!! lol ::smile:: im in a good mood 2day....lol cant u tell???? o and we measuered the temp of the girls locker room 2day, wit no1 in there and it was kinda cold(er) day lol and it was only 86 degrees.... but we r gonna measure it friday again wen it it hot and there r ppl still in there all hot and sweaty....lol.... o yea... alex and nicole r goin BAK out... he "missed" her too much... wat a pathetic excuse..lol j/p.... but i do think thats kidna dumb.... to go BAK out wit sum1 less then a day after he DUMPED u.... but it aint my buisness.. so wateva!lol.... he called me and said she just broke up wit him cuz she likes derrik... but he sems to like to lie to me about thata lot.. so i dont knwo if it really tru yet.... but i'llkeep ya'll updated.. since u ppl at Tomlin like to b up-2-date on news!!!! lol but N-E-WAAAAAAYZ..... tomorrow we dont ahve skool!!!! ahhhhhhhh so0o0o0o0o KOOL!!!! i should be gettin 2getha wit all my frinedz and go lay out in da sun allll day...lol kool huh? im very much excited lol :) *hehe* hummmm... wat else happened 2day???? o yea... every1 was tellin george i liked tim on da bus 2day (which ISNT tru...) i was kinda mad bout that.. but i know it aint tru.. so wateva... ppl can think wateer the he!! they want....!!!! george finally hugged me goodbye on da bus 2day... i was so0o0o0o SUPRIZED!!!! i think every1 was actually.... but w/e.. i was happy bout it...lol.... im i dont know wat else really happen.... im to hyper 2 think much right now....lol!!! *hehe* so im gonna BoUnCe outta here 4nowz.. dont 4egt 2 keep it realz ppl...and rememeber man whore day:) luv ya alwayz... mwa mwa ~*~Caroline~*~

Set 27th 2001

HEEEEEEY ya'll.....today i ddint even get UP til 12 noon and my mum had to WAKE me up!!!! LOL... told ya'll i was TIRED man! but tim called me @ 9 in da mornin on our day off.. is he CRAZY??? lol who is up that early on our only day off??? lol NOT me thats 4 sure!!!!! lol.... but o welz.. i didnt answer it and fell bak asleep!! lol... apart form that i did NOTHIN 2 day... how BORING huh??andi had fam. ova so nun of us didnt nething:(.... but i did go to the mall at 6... till 9.. that was fun and kool! i got a pair of REALLY cute jeas...lol and a shirt (alsp waaaya cute..lol) and a pair of new shoes! *hehe* i was so happy bout that! so0o0o CUTE! o yea.. i have been listenin 2 my new #1 song al day 2day... NEW YORK CITY.... TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF.. AND TWIST IT ROUNd UR HEAD LIKE A HELLICOPTER!!!!!!!!! LOL... AWSOME kick ass song that is!!! i LOVE it.. i sing it 24/7, i love it!!! o yea.. and if alex is reading this.. i HATE YOU!!!!!!! u KNOW y.. and u KNOW wat im talkin about 2!!! i freekin hate u!!! u r the #1 man whore!!!! well that all 4 nowz.. gonan BoUnCe outta here mwa mwa...ttyl

Sep 28th 2001-

heeeeeey heeeeeey PPLZ!!!!! wat up????? i had a GOOD GOOD day.. i was bouncin off the walls of hyperness!!! (is that even a word??? lol o welz it is now!!!) newayz.. actually i want to say a special i luv u to.....~~~~ CANDICE!!!! i wont say wat happened to her.. cuz i dont no if shed want it on here 4 every1 to see.. but if she reads this, she kows wat im talkin about... and i wanna tell ya.. i still liv ya.. im here 4 ya.....i hope and pray everything is going to be ok... call me if ya wanna talk.. and let me know asap on the updated news... ok??? i luv ya.. god bless, and im gonna keep prayin 4 her ok? and i hope ur havin a better day than earlier.. i was neva mad or wateva bout ur mood 2day... i had no right 2 be, it wouldda made me a bad frined to be mad at ur 2day.. things were not dso good 4 u.. and i just wann be there 4 u... and try and be as haooy as can b to help u feel better.. i totally understood, k?...mwa mwa xoxox newayz....2day was a good day 4 me.... lunch was real good....i was hyper al day and kept singin ma #1 song...LOL!!!! george seems to be makin more effort in our relationship....TRYING.....at least.... gotta give him sum credit ppl.... i still hate alex... hes a PRICK.. MAN WHORE and so much more but i aint gonna say it on here...lol ok? but u now wat alex??? im ova ya.. COMPLETLY... and if u EVA call my house 4 my sister again.. i will hang up on u.. cuz i dont want ppl like u talkin 2 my sis..and NO B!T*H i AINT jelous, so u can STOP thinkin that!!! THERE... i fnally said it online, OK??? and i aint lettin man whores like u ruin my gooood dayz:) so SCREW U!!!! :) man i feel MUCH better sayin that! lol 2night was Estes' party.. OMG it was so0o0o0o much fun.. ppl u so0o0o0o0o shouldda gone! if u got invited and dint go, u S) missed out! we danced the whole time.. it was waaaaay fun....lol im gonna go 4 nowz.... lata babez! mwa mwa xoxox ~Caroline~

Sep 29th 2001-

today i woke up and had to go straight babysittin!!!! so sux man.... the kids r real sweet tho...luckily....lol.. i babysat form 2 till 10 the next morning! pretty boring really... o yea i went to visit my g-pa in the hospital.. he had another sergery.... i duno wat 4.... he has so many.. im sure hes gonna be ok tho.. hes gotta b ok...my g-ma couldnt live witout him.. my dad couldnt either.. nun of us could! hes gotta b ok... he wil be ok! babysittin was ok, the kids were good, and simple...lol but after they went to bed alex called and i yelled at him big time.... and i used all my money on my fone, so my parents r gonna b real mad.... but i just got so mad at him... and all he could say was that he ddint know wat i was talkin about!! which was a TOTAL bunch of B/S!!!! he was just tryin 2 deny it so he ddint look bad!!! which made me upset more then mad!!!! but newayz.. i hate him now and couldnt care less wat he thoguht of me!... g2g.. mwa mwa xoxox BYE!

Sep 30th 2001-

today i woke up and went home form babysittin.... and didn nothin at all really...LOL.. it was a boring day, but i DID go tot he new International Mall wit Kayla at 2!!! so0o0o0o kool. that is one nice ass mall man.. brand new and stuff!!!! they didnt have many of my kidna stores (body shop, rave, wet seal 579, ext) BUT they DO have Forever 21!!!! that is the most KOOLEST store i ahve ever been in!!! me n kayla tried on 14 things!!! i have NEVER EVER tried on so many things in just 1 store al at once!!! they r all real good prices 2!!! i LOVE that store.. it is so0o0o kool.. i wanted all 14 sirts lol (but only got 2)!!! its so0o0o0o kool.. if ya'llaint been in there, u GOT 2!!!!! so0o0o kool, we stayed there till 6 and thatw as al i did 4 the day, BORING huh? lol

Oct 1st 2001-

today was the first day of october...!!!! man the year is goin by so0o0o0o quickly!!! dont u pplz agree?? we've already been in skool 4 2 months!!!! woooooah!!! today was an average day.. nothin exciting, nothin at all... it was a blah... kinda day if ya no wat i mean... Candice was sick 2day... she wasnt at skool.... skool seems so much more boring witout her (no offence 2 every1 else i hope none taken and that ya'll no wat i mean!) i hope u feel better candice dawg.... we all hope u do.. and hope that u come bak 2 skool SOOOOOON!!!! we MISS u!!!! at lunch 2day every1 kept askin me wat was wrong, wen NOTHIn was wrong.. at least i dont think so.. i was just a lil more quiet then usual... but that dont mena there sumthin wrong, does it???? i hope not.... but tim and derik were most "conserned" i guess u would say bout me... they were obsessed wit the fact sumthin was wrong.. and would NOT leave me alone about it! they said guyz can sense wen sumthin is wrong wit a girl.. like guyz actually CARE tho, i mean c'mon, PUUULEZ!!!!! guyz dont give a fu*k bout girlz or their emotions.... and we all know thats the darn truth 2!!!! all guyz care bout is if they hot or not! the tim got mad at me after lunch...sayin i was being mean 2 him, wen i was doin was tellin him nuttin was worng 4 a million times!! an di ahte it wen ppl r mad at me! but he was all mean about it, then i went and talked 2 him (first kinda yelled at him lol) and we all good now ( i think) but he needs to stop treatin candice like crap...its makin her mad.. and ME... and he needs to stop... hes actin like she either not there or just plain dont exist!!! and thats wrong.. at the begginin of the yr.. thye we all buddy buddy, now... nothin... like she aint good enoug 4 him or sumthin i dunno! but w/e..... i gotta BoUnCe 4 nowz....lata babez..peace out luv n kisses and i hope u feel better candi! xoxox *caroline*

Oct 2nd 2001-

today was another pretty bad day..... i thought me and ytim we all kool now.. but OBVIOUSLY not!!!!! he is ignoreing me COMPLETLY!!!!!! i dont no WATZ wrong wit him.. or WAT i did!!!! i even worte him a note and gae it to him right after 1st period.. and he neva wrte me bak.. neva talked 2 me.. neva answered me y he was mad at me, NUTTIN!!!!! but u no wat? i figured... screw him! if he aint gonna freekin tell mem wat i did.. then i cant do anyhtign ABOUT it can i???? NO! so w/e to him..... i dont acre.. i tried to talk 2 him and fix it, but he blows me off....! newayz...candice wasnt at skool AGAIN!!!! :*( :*( ::tear:: ::tear:: boo hoo.. she was sick again.. poor thing! we LUV ya candi!!!! and send u luv n kisses to help u get batter sooon!!!!!cuz we MIIIIIIIISS YOU!!!!! so here i go, sendin all out luv n kisses.... lol xoxoxoxoxoxoxox..... did ya get them??? LOL!!! im so dumb i swear! newayz....we took a manth test 2day in switch... i think i did BAD man.. every1 feels the same.. it was HARD! a lotof ppl had to come bak 5th or 6th period to finish it!!!! i didnt tho! than goodnes!o0o0o0o0o0o0o YEA!!!! i cant believe i almost 4 got!!!!!!!! i broke up wit george 2day! i worte him a note and matt gave it to him 4 me cuz he was goin 2 his house.... yup yup.. 3 weeksand like 5 days i think.... and its OVA!!! i fely happy... it feels GOOOOD 2 be single! no WORRIES man! lol. after skool got more interest man... i borke up wit george AND matt and ryan almost faught eachother.... but matt wouldnt start it, and nore would ryan.. we all stood out there 4eva waitin 4 SUM1 to just hit the toher.... i think they BOTH chicken really.... cuz if they wer, they wouldda just freekin HIT the other one.... they both dont wanan admit it, and call the othe on the chicken.. they BOTH had the chancew 2 hit the toher, but NEITHER did.. so wateva! but it was so0o0o0o0o COOl that i at least witnesses it all!!! i feel special now! LOL.. jp.... so that was that, and one more thing.. my si just got her first boy friend!!!!!!!:):):):) *hehe* i teasin her so0o0o0o bad ... i thin she mad at me, but it ma JOB girl.. she my younger sis.. i GOTTA tease her a lil... LMAO.. she goin out wit BYRON.. i bet whoeva readin this... ya'll no who he is...lol but newayz.... that is all 4 2day..... mwa mwa lata babez!

Oct 3rd 2001-

omg today was SUCH a good day!!!!!i was so0o0o0o0o freekin hyper man!!!! *hehe* fun fun fun fun! aaaaaand to mae my day even happier candice was BAK:)!!!! ::smile:: everyone! *hehe* lol.. i so dumb! i dont no y i was in such a good mood, but i was! nuttin good or bad happed really... actually nothin did happen....lol... but iwas HYPER... oooomg guess wat?? u'll neva guess who my best friend is??? LOL.. CODY LEE!!!!! LMAO.. ask him if ya want to!!!! LMAO!!! we r bestest friendz man.. so ya'll best leave him alone! *hehe* seeee i am so freekin special candice!!! lol.... ok im gonna shut up.. sry it only cuz im hyper.... and u no wat???? i figured that GYM (of all subject, my WORST, the one i HATE) alwayz seems to make me hyper!!!! LOL i swera, it does!!!! ic an be in a bad mood, but i got to gym, and poof, im hyper..LOL. wierd huh??? i cant explain it man....LOL. but newayz....omg guess wat i got on my math test i told ya bout yesterday??? 100%!!!!!!! rnt u proud of me??? LOL.. i am.. im ranked top 5 in his 3rd period class.. im happy.... lol today was my first day at skool being single 2... it felt GOOD man.....lol.... really.. it did.. i felt i could do wateva and flrit wit whoeva and no1 can get mad at me!!! *hehe* but there could b sumthin wit me n derik..... ;) ;) but who knows.... we'll ahve 2 ait and see wont we....??? lol.. more updated info lata ! i gonna go.. too hyper 2 wrte more! lol.. mwa mwa luv u all... and dont 4 get 2 keep keepin it 4 realz dawgs.... think happy and u'll be happy peace out babez... im cheep cheepin it outta here 4 nowz!!! o and HAPPY MAN WHORE DAY.. guyz if ya wore red/yellow/orange 2day, ur a DEFINAT man whore.. and girls if ya wore red/yellow/orange u GO GIRL!!! W.A.M.H ALLL da way chicaz!!!(P.S> courtney-i no u dont no me all that well and i dont no u.. but if u wanna talk.. im here.. im a good listener (promise u i really am) so im here if ya wanna talk.. let me no....aighty???)

Oct 4th 2001-

heeeey heeeye pplz!!! yo yo yo.. wat happenin?? i am so0o0o0o0o super hyper 2day na di had a reeeeeeally good day man!!! :) i swear.. im so incredibaly speciall....(LMAO candi) i dont no y i wa sso hyper 2 day but i so WAS! Yvettes got a new boy friend....*hehe* awwwww... how cuuuute....lol... nicole and byron broke up... aw how sad...lol i new it woudlnt last who cares! and i now ahve a new boy friend.... derik... luv n kisses 2 ya babe.. mwa mwa xoxox... newayz.... gym was fun 2day 2.... its s much fun now like wen i am on the same team as yvette.... we have a right laugh and its so much more fun!!! *hehe* gym makes me so hyper... lol and i hate the freekin subject... my coach is way kool 2....lol every1 thinks he's cute... eeeewwwww i sry but i DONT see it! but i prob talk 2 him more then the gurls in my gym class that DO like him...lol o welz... omg guess wat? today at gym me n candice were fighin ova a b-day party hat (LOL) and i accidently scratched her!!!! i so0o0o0o didnt mean 2 and im so0o0o0o sorry.. i sill luv ya cat... mwa mwa SORRY! i feel so bad bout it! lol o and today was Deriks's birthday pplz!!!! so if u didnt say happy brithday.. u NEED 2... same goes wit neil... thats how i got the bithday hat man.. so0o0o0o kool... lol MY hat...lmao... im keepin it 4 all my friendz b-day 4 them 2 wear...lol... o yea chirstina and george r goin out! hehe how cute! lets see.... o yea... TIM.. is being a COMPLETE asshole 2 EVERy1.... and i AINT the only one noticin it either....i asked him 2day TWICE y he was mad at me.... derik knows y but wont tell me..!!! eeeerrrrr..... all tim kept sayin was he wasnt mad at me... B.S TIM!!! if he wasn tmad.. hes freekin TALKk 2 me.... wen i told him that hes like... wat u want me 2 say? HI well FINE~ HI BYE! and walked off.. he wants to try n tell me he AINT mad at me..??? PUUULEZZ!!! i aint buyin it babe! SRY! it makes me really upset to see him THIS mad at me... and as far as i can tell... 4 NO reason.. i considered him like one of my really good frinedz... maybe veen one of my best guy friedz.. and i dont have many of those cuz i cant trust guyz! but tim alwasy was there 4 me and helped me.... and wen ur feelin upset.. he gives the best hugz! i dont get y hes mad at me.. but if he wont tell me y, then i aint do shit about it.. so WATEVA!!!! but i had a real good day.... 2morrow should be the same way.. i have a feelin...LOL... well im outty babez.... and BoUnCiNg outta here.... mwa mwa and keep cheep cheepin it and kepin it 4 realz dawg...LMAO candice... toodlez!

Oct 5th 2001-

heeeeey heeeeey peoplez!!! wat ya'll doin??? i just chillin....friday man! dont u luv em???? i DO! *hehe* i hada hyper day 2day..... the bus ride home was So0o0o0o0o0o0o0o FUNNY!!!! tyler is in trouble and so's his sis... they both thrw sumthin out of the wondow.. but tyler hit a lady's winshile... and she was PISSED!!!! she followed our bus home!!!! LOL!!! it was funny as hell.. u HAD 2 b there.... he like haulled ass home....lol wen the lady got outta the car! but newayz...... i found out sumthin bout tim and started cryin..... i think thas y hes mad at me.. and he wont tell me... i cant believe it.. im really really hurt and upset about this...but i can tell him...sorry i care so muc tim.. but i cant help it, i DO care.... i cant believe it..... but wateva.. nuttin i can do..... i wish there was... i just wana call him and tell him...lol but i wont.... we went 2 the movies 2night at first we all bought tickets to see zoolander... but thats is a gay ass movies and i didnt wanna c it, nore did kelsey and kayla... so we exchanged to see glass house.. which is a REALLY good movie man!! andy and byron hung out wit us 4 a while.... but thats dont matter LOL.. how mean does that sound?!?!?! i dont mean it like that! lol... they r both real kool and r my frinedz.....my and yvette spent the night at candi's house after that! well g2g ttyl mwa mwa toodles babez

Oct 6th 2001-

today i was at candis' house 4 1/2 the day... her and EV scrunched my hair.... and im like OBSESSED wit my hair like that... it is so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o CUTE!!!! ahhhhh i LUV it! *hehe*itis so0o0o KOOL man... m gonna do my hair like that 4 picture day i hope.... i luv it liek that! hahaha ya'll GOTTA see it! its so cute! lolz... apart from that my day was boring... i didn nuttin.... brett and ryan came ova 4 a lil while and we walked around till like 10:20.... we just chilled....... this weekend its a boring kinda chill and relaxin weekend..... but i dont mind lol! octber 18th im goin dow t se ia and tara and im like really really excited!!!! *hehe* we goin lock- in bowlin which is like all night till real early the next morngin.. its gonna be koo..an i hope Lane is there !!!! but w/e..... im real excited bout it... its gonna b kool... i FINALLY get 2 see them again... :) hehe...im gnno now.. peace out babez... mwa mwa... outty...

Oct 8th 2001-

today wasa B-A-D day and i mean B-A-D.... i wrote a note to tim tellin him how i have come 2 realize how much i DO like him and care 4 him.... but i neva got the guts 2 give it to him.. weeeeeell.... in 6th period Christina Davis decided to go into my makeup bag (which she had no permission 2) and TAKE the note form me!!!! Tim is still way mad at me.... and at lunch i got hit in the head wit a ball and it gave me a head ache!!! and o i dunno... everythgn was upsettin me and annoyin me.... o and my b/f aint talkin 2 me... makes it worse.... i dont think nethign went right 2day..... i bout cried in home room, but i stoped cuz i promised NOT 2 cry in public lol.... im gonna go 4 now.... ttyl bye

Oct 9th 2001-

today started out just as bad as yesterday if not WAY WORSE!!!! tim asked me wat was wrong and i said nuttin at first.. then got the note i re-wrote 2 him.. ripped it in 4 and slammed it on his desk and said "heres the note christina was talkin about and THIS is wats wrong wit me" he read it and wrote bak.. NOT good... he WAS gonna wrote "thats real sweet but f*c* no"!!!!!! but he said we were 2 diferent and that he cared about me alot, but we 2 diferent.. and he dont hang out wit 'preps' like me and my frinedz!!!!! and THST really upset me 2!!! then i asked him why he was bein like this and he tried 2 say thats who he is but i KNOW its not!!!! at least NOT the tim i knew.... buuuut.... we spent the whole lunch period talkin about it.... and i think i have finally got it.. he told me he des realy like me a lot and i understand him now.... now i just have 2 chose between him and brett..... AHHHHHHHHH.... will me n tim work out...? i dunno....arrrrrrrrggggggg..... HELP ME!!!!! any of my friendz readin this that KNOWS wats goin on.. PLEZ e-mail me, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!! candi steph and yvette also had abad day..... secret reason sworn not to tell... but i hope everything is ok guyz..... and remember i luv ya.. we CAN get thro these bad days 2getha.. just gotta stick 2getha ok??? GUYZ MAJORLY SUCK!!!!!! but we got W.A.M.H so dont 4get and we can stay strong... o yea AND i really hurt my arm 2day on a sharp thing on the door way!!!! a nice big scratch and a lil bruise kidna next 2 it and it REALLY hurtz... eerrrrrr... im sure there was way more but i dont wanna wrtite it all.. such a bad day 2many thigns really lol! im gonna go.... ttyl byebye... :*( :*(

Oct 10th 2001-

hey hey..... 2day was actually a good day.. i was pretty hyper (hey candice, that 'incident' at gym~ i did NOT mean 2 do!!!!!! i swear!!!! PLEZ dont tell pplz!)....lol.... me n tim r bak 2 normal.... i think thats y im so happy... *hehe* i feel bad tho about erin.. she told me she feels really left out at gym... i feell so0o0o0o0o0o bad about that!!! i neva even knew! awwwwww.... i still luv ya girl lol.... OMG at lunch tim lifted me upside down!!!!! it was so0o0o0o0o scary man! but kinda kool 2....lol.... hummm..... lets see.... sean flicked my ear 2day at gym and it went all red, and it HURT like 4realz!!!! o yea.. at skool they ahve ade the boys basketball team...... i get 2 interview them 4 the newspapper....lol... george made it (GO GEORGE!!!!!!) daniel rule (lmao kayla.....) thats al i can think of at the moment... all b findin out more later...4 a good day... nuttin happened man..... lol.. oyea 2morrow is skool wide text book check.... and at the begginin of the year, my history book was stolen in the girls locker room!!!so im gettin an F!!!! and i dont ever remeber puttin my math book bak on my locker... so i dunno where that is either! im HOPIN its in my locker!!!!!! im in BIIIIIIIg trouble!!!! ok im goin now.... ttyl peace out babez.. mwa mwa

Oct 11th 2001-

hey hey.... 2day kinda started off bad.... i ended up gettin the F 4 not havin my history bok, and i have to ask her lata how much it is 2 pay 4 and if i get a new one or not... then we had a quiz 4 history.. which i was SO not prepared 4!!! and boooy did i fail that! 40 questions i prob didn answer like 5 and 15 i musta guessed! lol NOT good, end of the nice weeks is 2morrow.. my guess is that im gettin a B or C in History if im right, im DEAD!!!!) A or B in language (we ahd a test in that class 2day 2.. and i failed that 2!) A in math (i had a test in that 2day as well, but i think i did pretty goo and if i do well on my notebook) A in gym, A in science and an A or B in jounalism.... i ahve a relaly bad feelin im gonna do reeeeeeeeally bad on my report card.... (like more B's then A's) and if so.... dont be expectin me 2 write much in thsi jounal 4 a looooong time cuz im gonna be in so0o0o0o0o0o much trouble!!! if i dont get all A's, my parents will FREEK out and i mean that LITERALLY.... its very stressin actually... yes i care about my grades, but i did all i could so i have to accept i did bad and try even harder next time! but my parents dont think like that! its A's A's A's A's and MORE A's, and if not, its cuz im dumb and not tryin AT ALL!!!! i hate them 4 that! Tim broke up wit his g/f 2day.... but no he didnt ask me out... :( i told brett if tim dont ask me out by friday after skool 2morrow.. i'llg o out wit him.... but i really want to go out wit tim... every1 says go wit brett (and yes i DO like him a lot 2) but after all that just went on wit me n tim (me writtin him the note tellin him i luv him n crap) every1 thinks tim wont treat me right... but they dont see the carin side of him that h shows me.... o welz... im gonna go now... ttyl byebyez

Oct 12th 2001-

today was a 1/2 day and OH MY GOD was i H-Y-P-E-R!! hahahaha!!!! every class was only 25 minutes and lunch was 1/2 hour as usual!!! so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o cool! skool needs 2 be like that ALL the time.. each class was like a free day cuz 25 mins isnt enough time to do nehtign! omg it was so kool!!!! ok i got a 68 on the history quiz (thats a D in case ya wondering lol) and yes thats BAD.... im gonna ahve a B in that class 4 SURE.. o welz... more yellin form my parents.... they do it al the time newayz, watz a lil more? i didnt get the language test bak, but considering i didnt answer a lot of em, i had 2 ahve done bad! and math i got a 91 which is pretty good:) i was happy bout that. and i ahve gonna ahve an A in science cuz he gave us grade sheets! im ahppy bout that! hahahahahaha omg i LOVE 1/2 dayz!!!! they r the BEST!!! we got out @ 1:15! so0o0o0o kool! tim stil didnt ask me out 2day!!! i was REALLY upset/suprized about that!!!! after skool i hung out wit brett and ryan and iim now goin out wit brett :) o yea and then @ 7:30 i went to candices house 4 a lil party (well it wasnt a party persaaaay.. but thats wat id call it lol) me, yvette, Stepanie, Kara, Nathen, Wesley and candi (of course lol) were there... we danced most the time.. it was really fun actually!!!! haha.. altho i was the least hyper by that point lol which sux! i think i was worn out form being so hyper all day lol it was really fun tho... i had a heachache near then end.... but thats ok.... i'll live lol and i didnt get bak till l8... and i got in trouble 4 not callin 2 saying wen i was gonna b home, but w/e.... im goin 2 sleeeeeep now.. i ahve a heachace and im tired!

Oct 15th 2001-

hey hey... monday again.. sucks big time.... i had a pretty bad day... OMG tomlin has changed the lunch shedules around now!!!!!!!! i dont have lunch wit Candice or Tim nemore... i ahve lucnh right sfter 3rd, b4 gym.. an have to go straight from gym 2 science... i H-A-T-E it.... OMG!!!!! im so0o0o0o0o0o upset!!!! i hate lunch now.... i used to love it, now i hate it, absolutly hate it!!!! i miss them... candi.. OMG i so0o00o0o upset u dont got lunch wit us.... i no u dont like 2 talk about it, but i MISS YA DAWG!!!! it really aint the same witout u... well allllll miss u... they changed the lunches 2 'bennefit' every1... to make shorter lines 4 lunch n wateva crap.... but NOBODY and i mean NOBODY at this skool likes it at ALL... tyeachers, student, wateva.. NO ONE!!!!! it just messes everythign up and i cant belive they done this 2 us! UUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!! WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!?!?!??! NOT fair!!!!!! omg i got my language test bak.... lol... a 66%..... go0o0o me!!!! lol... hey that was so0o0o0o much better that wat i was expectin.... i did better that quite a few ppl 2!!!!! lol! and i got a 4 on my math notebook.. im so0o0o happy bout that, i keep my A!!!!! yea yea yea! lol..... o0o0o0o0o0o yea i almost 4got!!! 2day Yvette scrunched my hair!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhh!!!! can we say CUTE?!?!?!?!?! lol... omg it is so0o0o0o cute.. i LOVE it! *hehe* thank u so0o0o0o0o0 much EV!!!!! and thanx in advance 4 doin it on thursday! ur da bestest! lol.... omg 4 DAYS TILL I GO TO PALM BAY!!!!!!! yyyyeeeeeeeeaaaaaa!!!! and omg i found ut lane wasnt expelled... hes now bak at skool... but hes grounded.. so i doubt he will be at thie bowling thing! :( o welz! ttyt... bye

Oct 16th 2001-

hey.... 2day was not another good day.... everyone did miss my scrunched hair... they were all like... o0o0omg.. wat hapned 2 ur hair...i was like...lol... i WASHED my hair.. i do tend 2 do that ya no....lol... another new changed @ skool is 4 int he morinings... went he bell rings.. we have to walk kinda in lines, but not really.... but we have to ALL stay on the path wen walkin.... and it is so0o0o0o crowded n crap... i freekin HATE that 2... once again... i hate the new lunch system.. i stayed up pretty late last night workin on a newspaper article 4 newspaper writtin bout the new lunch system! im so0o0o0o mad about it... they had BEST chnge it!!!! today EVERYONE was tellin brett that im playin him wit tim.... and 4 ne1 who has heard this.... it is NOT tru..... ask tim if ya want.... i dont care.... it AINT tru.... i absolutly do NOT play my b/f's... cuz i no wat its like 2 b played... i no how much it hruts.... so w/e.... ya'll can belive that crap... but if u have 2 believ stuff ppl say liek that that dont even NO me that well.. that wouldnt even KNOW.... then its kinda sad u believe them 2... rumers r rumers.... a bunch of crap, never 2 be believed... everyone should know that! brett~~~~ i am NOT cheatin on u, or playin u or w/e neva ahve... neva will, ok? i luv ya!.... omg.. tim drew they COOLEST tatoo on his arm.... it is so0o0o0o0o freekin COOL... i am like obsessed wit it...lol i luv it, it was so kool!! haha! ummm... lets see.... scince we did an experiment... it was confussin man... i had 2 keep readin off time evry 30 sec.... and write down temps! lol... i have a B in language.... im gonna die.... 3 Bs' 3 A's i think... well unless i have a B in gym...??? OMG if i get more B's then A's.... i am in so0o0o0o0o0o0o much trouble!!!! well i guess it wont matter... im in so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o000o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o much trouble wit my grades already!!!! im like literally SCARED 2 death of givin my report card 2 my parents.... o welz.... wish me luck...lol.... candi and steph~ i love ya both as my bestest frineds... i wont take sides.... and im not mad at either of u.... i love ya both ok? sry... i had 2 quickly say that, ok? o yea and EV... thank u so0o0o much 4 my hair.. and thank u even more 4 doin it again on thursday... :) :) :) OMG 3 DAYS TILL I GO SEE MELISSA AND TARA IN PALM BAY!!!!! YEEEEEEA YEEEEEEA YEEEEA!!!! IM SO EXCITED IM SO EXCITED !!! i really cant wait! well thats all 4 2day... g2g... ttyl ~Caroline~

Oct 17th 2001-

today was a pretty bad day... matt is still kinda talkin crap bout me cheatin on brett wit tim... so NOT tru.... im really confussed about wat 2 do... i can tell brett is 2... he dunno who 2 belive...i dunno if i can take this.... im thinkin that breakin up wit him is the easiest... every1 thinks just cuz i hug tim (which a su no i do ALL the time EVERY day wit him ever sinse ive known him) they think im cheatin on him.... UGGGGH.... hugs do NOT =cheatin.... SORRY!!!! i didnt no it bothered THAT many ppl that i hug tim... well sry but i will hug who i want... wen i want... so u will all ahve 2 deal wit it... same goes wit writtin him notes!! and i DONT want brett and matt 2 get in a fight.... i dont no y... but i reeeeeally dont... it bothers me!!! i said i would break up wit him if they did.... but i begginin to think it would be best if i did newayz.... that way i could do wateva i wanted witOUT ppl accusin me of crap.... o welz....o0o0o0omg 2morrow i am on my way 2 palm bay!!!! yea yea yea! lol! well i think im gonna go now... ttyl pace out.. mwa mwa

Oct 18th 2001

OOOOOOOMG!!!! i was so0o0o0o0o hyper 2day!!!! but i also was kind ain a bad mood 2...lol... bad/good day.... OMG GUESS WAT????????? i have an A in HISTORY!!!!!!! can u belive it?!?!?!?!?!?!?! wit 3 fs (text book check a homework and a test) a d (homework, hey YOU try doin ur h/w witout a book!) and c's and b's all ova.. and a's.. and i STILL have an A!!!!! i ahd a 90.7 (rounded 2 a 91) but wit the 3 points added on cuz i wasnt absent the whole 9 weeks i now ahve a 93.7 which will be rounded 2 a 94!!!!! :) :) :) :)!!!! omg i was so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o HAPPY and so0o0o0 SUPRIZED!!!! lol so so so kool... 2 b's and rest a's... GO ME!!!! lol awwwww.... i luv my best friend...lol cody lee.... i asked him 2day if we were really still best friendz and hes all into it like yeeea of COURSE we r...lol awww how sweet...lol ;) wink wink....lmao... im so dumb.... after skool 2day im goin2 PALM BAY!!!! whooooo hoooo!!!!! lol....omg i was being so0o0o0o0o incredibly hyper and dumb on the bus... im suprized brett is still sittin near me.. or even goin out wit me.... i have probaly TOTALLY scared that CRAP outta him....lol.......i went to candis house (got off at her bus stop) 2 get sum pics of all my friends 2 show tara and mel... then i was on my way....wen i get bak.. i'll tell ya bout the b-bal game and bowlin n everything esle...toodlez!

oct 20th 2001

heeeeeeey heeeeeeeey!!!! omg i had a LOT of fun... wen i got tot he skool 4 the end of the b-bal game...i saw a lot of my old firnedz... it was really nice.... braught bak a lot of good memories...ok im not gonna cry...lol jp...we won the game... i found out eric was on the b-bal team!!! hes my ex...LOOOOOOONG story...lol but i thoguht that was really kool... after the game we went home and got ready 2 go bowlin... we got there @ 11 P.M and bowled till 6:30 A.M friday moring.... woooooah was i tired... bowlin was ok... i felt a lil left out a lot of the time.. melissa was wit her b/f kyle (who i DONT think liked me too much i duno y....) and tara was all flrity flrity (as USUAL) wit sum guyz... and w/e... i talked 2 sheena the most and i was barly frinedz wit her last yr lol! weird how things work out... i got asked out by a guy named justin who was me;s bf (kyle) friend id neva met b4.... but hey i was truthful 2 my b/f and said no! so HA HA in YOUR face matt... TOOOLD ya i wont do that kinda crap! justin eeeeeven was like.. c'mon it can just be a 7 hour relationship!!!! lol i thoguht it was kidna funny.... but i said no and we just chilled... he helped me bowl.. god i suck at it! lol i neva seen the # 0 so may times...lol... but then again u try bowlin at 3 in the mornin.... tired as freek...lol it was pretty funny.... i woke up the next moring and my whoooool entired body ACHED!!!! uggggh! my BUTT (i cant figure that out lol) my legs, arm figures w/e... i HURT... i was bowlin wit the 16 lb balls most the time... omg i musta droped em like 10 times...lol and 2 times i threw them into the WRONG LANE!!!! lmao lmao lmao lmao! we got home @ 7:20A.M and slepts till 3 in the afternoon lol. went tot he mall form 6-9... didnt go to bed till 1:30 that ngiht (mel was on the fone wit marcus and we were dancin and readin old notes form last yr and the ones of taras and mls ths yr) it was fun. all in all it was great 2 b bak home... i didnt get 2 see lane... but god did being there make me realize how much i miss him....i really do.. if only he could no...melissa told me that he told her personally.... that PERIODICALLY thro-out the year he liked me!!!!!!!! that makes me happy/depressed/MAD/excited/sad all at once!!!! he LIKED me... but didn do ANYTHIGN about it!!!! we couldda been so good.... really... ugh enoguh bout that b4 i get really depressed and cant stop thinkin about him like i did this weekend... ok.. this is one heck of a long enrty.... sorry!!! and i have only just talked about the past weekend.... not even about 2day... i think i'll tell that 2morrow cuz i dont got nttun planed 4 once 2morrow... im free! lol more time then! so more tomrorow... mwa mwa lata babez....

oct 21st 2001-

hey... 2day its self was boring... nuttin happend... ryan came ova 4 a lil while and we talked outsdie (cuz i was home alone) but thats about it.... but i will tell u bout yesterday...it was candice suprize bday party... se had No idea.... there were a lot of ppl (at yvettes house) and wen she came.. we all ran and yelled suprize.... god was she suprized.... the party was great.... u sure missed a lot if u were invited and didnt go!!!! and o0o0o0o0o0o my god.... robert got her a REAL baby chicken!!! cuz she told him jokinly she wanted a pink chicken wen he asked her wat she wanted (cuz she ddint no WAT she wanted) and he reeeally did get her a real baby chicken!!! OMG it has GOT to be the CUTEST/SWEETEST/MOST CARING b-day presant i think i ahve ever seen!!! even IIIIIIIII almost started cryin!!!!! awwwwwwwww!!!!!!! its the cutest lil thing!!!! omg!!!!! she was in TOTAL shock wen he gave it to her!!! lol her face was memerable 4 life man...we played spin the bottle...lol...only cheak tho... cuz u no sum of us r kinda not single...lol... so it was strickly just on the cheaks (same 4 every1 2 make it even) but it was fun anf funny lol! candiand yvette had a lil mini cake/icing fight... they ad icein aaaaaall ova eachother..... it was funny! i think candi had a lot of fun... which im really happy about.... i havnt seen her smile so much in a while... i could tell she was so happy.... thats made me glad... put sum of the bad stuff behind 4 now.... :) it was great! we danced.... talked... had fun.... i talked 2 yvettes cousin 4 a while (cj) hes really kool...and funny...lol and this was the first time id rally hung out wit robert... and OMG is he FUNNY!!! lol he so0o0o seeks attention, but gawd does he get it! lol... he speices life up... i'll tell ya... plus hes a gentleman 2... very rare..lol.... the party was really fun... candice had fun (i think lol as far as i could see/tell) and thats all that matters.... monday is her real bday so MAKE SURE TO WISH HER A HAPPY BDAY!!!!! lol! im even lettin her wear my special bday hat... how priviledged is she...lol?!?!?! ok well thats it 4 now... im gonna go.... ttyl dont 4get her bday 2morrow!!!

Oct 22nd 2001-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDICE!!! happy biiirthday 2 u..... haaaaappy birthday 2 uuuu.. haaaaaaapy biiiiirthdaaaay 2 candice.....haaaappy birhtday 2 YOU!!!!! thank u thank u veeeery much...lol i hope u had the bestest day!!!! u have 2... YYYY???? cuz its ur birthday!! lol... and u scarin the crap outta the skool wit ur poping ballooons!!! lmao!! ok tim n amanda gonna HOOK UP!!! can u believe that??? i sure as he!! couldnt!!! and OH MY GOD!!!! sum1 STOLE mine and candice's gym shoes form our lockers!!!! so i couldnt dress out 4 gym... nore did yvette canidce and kelsey! lol go us! ugh... ok if it wasnt candi's bday i would been tellin u i had like the WORST day 2day!!! and it was all cuz tim!!!!! UGH!!! no need 2 hear how upset i am on candis' bday... treat it like a antional holiday pplz! lmao right candi????ummm... lets see.... wat esle happened???/ shoes stolen.... amanda and tim.... me and tim fighin.... o0o0o0omg o yea... i saw alex wearin a shirt that said alex+matt=love 4eva!!! ewwwwww!!!! lol i alwasy new it man!!! lol JUST PLAYIN... nah they r both kool and i consider them my firnedz totally... even tho thy both completly and utterly hate me... but heeeeey wat can i do bout that??? :( i hope u had a really good day candi... i reeeeally do!thats all 4 now..... ttyl ~caroline~

Oct 23rd 2001

today was beeter 4 me personally...candi got to celerbrate her bday again!!! lol kayla braught her balloons and presant.. no fair man! my bday is in 35 daaaaaayz baby!!!!!o0o0o0oyeeea!!!!! im countin down already man!!!! lol me n tim fixed thingz (i think...lol) now him n amanda ARNT hookin up..... starnge ppl i swear....she says she didnt feel ne spark wit him.... i think she does tho... i could see in her eyes.....i dunno... he said he ddint no much nemore either... but i NO hes lyin.....i think i messed it all up wit em 2!! now i feel bad!!!!! :( canid got checked out b4 4th period just 2 go shoppin!!! no0o0o way that so sucks incredibly man!! haha lucky!!!! well thats it 4 now....ttyl ~Caroline

Oct 25th 2001

hey hey pplz! ya'll so obessed wit my freelin jounal... rnt u??? lol im just playin... um lets see... i didnt write in a while... yesterday tim hooked bak up wit crystal... and no i wasnt mad.. i aint like that, and amanda swears she dont liek tim nemore.... lol we think shes obbsessed wit him...lol riiiiihgt? newayz... 2day was an ok day... o0o0o yea one more thing... steph and candi r friendz again:):) :) yeeeea yeeeea yeeeea!!! hat makes us ALL so0o0o much happier. altho 2day at homeroom, they were all talkin 2getha 4 the first time... and i wasntin he convo.. i felt left out and upset. plus candi kinda was mad at me in h/r cuz i said sumthin bout not being a nice frined (just playin tho) about her n steph, but she got mad cuz her n steph JUST became firnedz again.... which i TOTALLY understand... it was uncalled 4... she had every right 2 b mad at me... im sooooowwie candi!! i didnt mean 2! so newayz... 2day was a pretty good day.... tim smellsa like SERIOUSLY good man... im like freekin obsessed wit wateva smell he b putitn on him, it smells GOOD man....lol right amanda?!?!?! lol. me n tim r kool now.... he alwazyz makes e smile.... he makes me happy....i shouldnt be sayin this while i ahve a b/f... so im SoOoOoOoO gonna shut up now!!!!!!!!!!! lol but im NOT cheetin on him... all of those u ahve heard that.. its NOT tru... a hug is JUST a hug.. its a free country..... so if ud excuse me and stop accusin me of cheetin on him.... cuz im NOT! today was pictire day.... all of gym we didn nutitn but take pix and wen we were done we got to sit and talk 2 all our friendz! awwwwww u no cody lee ismy best firned???? omg well he came 2 skool wit kinda wet hair.. all u no who cody lee is.. u NO wat his hair is... its like the most AWSOMEST hair ever! (to his ears and CURLY!) well we put it up in 2 lil pigtails in home rom... and wen he took them out, his hair had dreind wit a BIG crease in it and his hair was all messed up... well after 1st period... he calles me over and is like :caroline.. omg pleeeeeeeze fix my hair!" like getiin all worried n crap and i sat there 4 lik 3 min fixin it.. and hes all like is it ok? did u fix it? plez fix it caroline! i was like AWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!! i didnt actually know he liked me as a real frined... i just messed around.... im so proud 2 call him my best firned.... hes so sweet!!! lol!i just thought that was so sweet.... then he came and sat infrom of me so i could quickly make sure it was ok and me and EV spritzed it a lil 2 make it better.... awwwwww... he so lil.... ! hes my best frined yo..!! dont mess wit him! o ya.... miss carregal is being MEAN..... shes all yellin and tellin us 2 read 20 pages then write 2 essays... and if we tardy now we have 2 write a 1500 word essy on it... YOU try doin that! lol... she neva used 2 b like that! she was always kool and nice... now i think 1.2 the ppl wanna transfer out! elesctive is supposed to be more FUN... NOT stressful and waaaaaay hard... all it does is stress u out! UGH! and there r ppl in that class that dont ever do ANYTHIN... they r tardy EVERY day like 5 MINUTES tardy.... and wen thy go "intrview" they pull their boy friendz out of calss... yet i ahve NEVER seen her yell at them! where as if me and amanda get caught doin makeup 4 like 5 minutes... she assiged us lunch detail 4 it once.... or we get yelles at, conduct cuts watever mood shes in! UGH... dont YOU see sumthin wrong wit that???? i DO! so do a lot of others! well i g2g 4 now.... ttyl peace out babez... ~Caroline~

Oct 26th 2001-

hey... today started off REALLY bad.... a while ago kayla asked me online 2 rate like 20 or more guyz on how hott they were.... form 1-10 10 being highest... well she decided 2 write it up in a nice lil chart and show aaaaaaalllll da guy wat i rated them!!! so now im like the laughin stock of the freekin skool! and she wants 2 bust out sayin she didnt 'mean' 2... yet i SAW it in their own freekin hands! um yea w/e ya say kayla... dont even TRY lyin 2 me! plus canidce wasnt at skool... the was even more sadder 4 us.. :*( ::tear tear:: tim decided he was gonna make his own chart and rate teh girls...lmao.... i swear hes so dumb sumtimes... tryin 2 make me feel better by makin one of his own....lol... hey at least he cared! honestly who round here WOULNT be mad if ya'll real good freind did that?!?!?! well newayz... my day did get a lil better i guess.... codie lee is SoOoOoOoO totally like my best friend man! he is so0o0o0o sweet 4 realz! at gym he came and sat next 2 me and we talked.... and now HE will actualy come 2 ME and say hi or hey best firned... b4 i was just me, now he does it 2! awwwwwwwww.... hes my #1 dawg man.... (except u candi.. how cna i 4get u man! lol ur my #1 cat n bird 2!) i got 2 wear tims necklae 2day 2.... kool huh? lol if ya reeeeeeally say so....???? lol after skool i went to the movies... wit kelsey and kara we saw corky ramano... it was kinda funny stupid if ya no wat i mean...lol but OMG guess who was htere? my best friend!!!! ahhhhhh! lol but he didnt go and actually SEE a movies.. just hung around outside. but he NEVA goes...lol awwww... im so proud 2 call him my best friened man! OoOoOoO yea i found my cell fone guyz and it now has money on it.. so u CAN call me on it (but only if u really need 2, like if my fone is busy and u really wanna talk 2 me so i dont waste too many of my freekin minutes k? thanx!) well dats it 4 now.... peace out guyz.. luv u all.... see ya lata...

Oct 29th 2001-

hey.. sry i havnt writitn in here 4 a lil bit.... i broke up wit brett 2day.. i feel much better bout that no.. i do wanana be his friend and i no we r still friendz, which is like way kool, cuz hes a really kool guy! i has been so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o cold latly man!!! BRRRRRRRR!!!!! lol! tim called me @ 10:44 and we stayed talkin on da fone till 1:30 in da freekin moring!!!!!!!! it was sum of the best 3 hours i ahve had in a LONG time.... weneva i talk 2 him... i feel like doin nuttin but smiling.. he always makes me happy and sems to understand and know me so well! ugh.. like hes almosy perfect.... he makes me feel special... i cant explain it.. ya'll prob think this sounds real corney.. but ud have no no how i feel 2 get it.... but really... he makes me happy no matter how upset i am.. he alwasyz knows wat 2 say and has the best personality.... ugh i freekin luv dat boy! awwwwwww... im gonna stop now...! lol well im gonna go now... i have skool 2morrow and im TIRED!!! lol toodlez! p.s... a lil advice.. neva eva give up.. no matter wat u hear.. wat ppl tell u.... or wateva... never give up ur dreams.. wether its about a guy u love or ur future... keep dreamin and thinkin.... and everything will turn out the way it is ment to be... smile and alwazy be happy:)

Oct 30th 2001-

OMG i was so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o tired 2day!!! lol geeeee tim... i woooonder why...??? lol.. but it was so totally worth it! :) :) :) i was in a lil bit of a bad mood 2day.... but i dont no y... tim ddint seem 2 talk 2 me much.... i was mostly quiet all day 2day... i dunno y.... i dont THINK nethign was wrong.... tim broke up wit his g/f 2day...:) i guess rhats kool... i dunno wen we gonna hook up...but i love him!! 2morrow is hallowee man!!! CAAAAANDY!!!! whoo0o0o ho0o0o0o man!!!!!!! i LUV candy! lol.... i cait wait.. im being a belly dancer! lol poor candi got her braces on da bottom now.... and her mouth is all sore... awww wi feel so bad 4 her... she can bearly eat nethign!!! :( poor dawg! lol i love tim.. omg and i so luv my best frined codie lee 2!!! hes like the perfect best frined man!! lol!!! awwwwww :) well thast all....toodlez

Oct 31st 2001-

hahahahha 2day i was hyper..... caaaandy man....HAPPY HALLOWEEN MAN!!!!!!! ahhahahaha we were singin in da locker rooms 2day... "pretty fly 4 a white guy" lol fuuuuunny!!! OMG tim has I.S.S 4 the rest of the week!! it so0o0o sucks! i see him h/r and goin 2 my bus, thats IT!!!! i miss him so0o0o0o0o0o0o much!!! i wrote him a note sayin i do love him, but wanan be single 4 like a week or so... 2 give me a break if ya no... basically sinse skools stated.... ive had a nine stop bf the whole time (5 dif ones but still) and its been sinse 5 days after the first day of skool started!! (wit tyler)i hope he understands!!if he loves me like he says.... we will be ok...:) i promse i wont go out wit ne1 esle 2!!!i love tim! :) lol after skool tyler come ova 4 a lil while b4 he went to matts hosue 4 trick-or-treatin hahaha hes funny! OMG report cards come out 2day!!!! i ahve all A's except ONE B, just ONE B!!!! i thouhgt i was gonna ahve 2!!! my parents were so0o0o0o0o0o0o HAPPY!!! heck IIIIII was so0o0o0o0o happy! lol waaaay bteer them wat i thoguht i was gonna get! trick or treatin was prety fun... i was wit canid, ev, steph and kara... ev, candi and kara decided they were "2 old" to go...lol (i still luv ya'll lol) so me and steph shaid we had no shame in our game lmao (righ steph) and went to get us some CAAAANDYYY! lol YUMMAAAY!!!!! DONT FALL STEPH!!!!!! RIIIIIIIIGHT?!?!?!?! lol ur a dork i swear! lol jp jp! HI HO candice!!!!!! lmao lmaolmao.. now IIIIM da dork!!! lol! im so dum i swear! wesley came afetr a while 2... them steph and ev got a lil obbese wit him i think.. it wasnt as fun after that... but hey its all good i got me lotza candy! lol im outty babez! lol

Nov 1st 2001-

OMG 27 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY PPPLZ!!!!!!!!!! and form now on, im countin down o0o0o yea!!! hehe..... ok... now my happines of the day is out.... there is NONE left..... i wrote tim a note tellin him i love him, but wanna stay sinle 4 just a liiiil bit longer..... but that i DID stll love him and wnted 2 hook up wit him.... i gave it to him b4 he went to iss... didnt see him the whole day..... he was mad at me (b4 he wrote the note) so all day i was upset and mad.... he said he was mad cu he thoguht i wouldnt go out wit him cuz of amanda... who DOES like him..... in a way it is... and i feel bad cuz shes my friend! so neways.. 1/2 thro the day i wrote him a note sayin i didnt get y he was mad at me... al i did was care about him... and look where it got me... that eh was just like every toher guy an it was pointless... i gave up... and in the note... ineatly wraped his neckalce he let me wear around it.... wen skool got out and i saw him walkin 2 my bus, he handed me a note, i hnded him that one.. not a word was said as i walked off silently 2 my bus. and there.. i was in my seat on da bak of the bus... opened the note and it says...hey girl.. i relaized there r thignd about u i just dont like, das it.. and he signed it... all i wanted 2 do was CRY... but instead i riped the note into many pieces wit anger filled inside me.. or was it pain... tears... al of it.. id on no... i wanted 2 cry so0o0o bad... but held my self... canide told me she had a note 4 me, i gae her my bakpak so she could put it int here (she said i couldnt read it til i got home) so wen i got home i tured my radio on... and the song.. wne u got it, u got it bad.. (which makes me think of tim cuz it talks bout ur alwayz on my mind.. wne ur out wit sum1.. al u keep on think bout it somebody esle, which is so0o0o how i am wit him).. and i let it go.. i BURST out cryin.... WHY did he have 2 do this 2 me... i loved him and NOW he wanst 2 tell me he dont like me.. he had towait till NOW 2 tell me this.... wait till caroline loves me, THEN i tell her?!?!?!/ is that how all u f*c*ing guyz work.. i begginin to think so!!!! i HATE YOU GUYZ!!! u ALL suck.. BIG time!!!!! i dont care nemore!! nothin MATTERS nemore... hes just another one of those guyz.. nothin to get worked up about.. hes NOT worth it.. hes not worth it.. hes not worth it........... then i realized the noe form canidce.. i got it out.. opened it up... and there it was... a note made of glitter sayin i love u.... and it brought a smile RIGHT 2 my face :0 and i couldnt help but to let a lil laugh out thro my tear filled face.... that was the best thing that a friend has done 4 me in a looooong time.... she alwayz nows how 2 make me smile wne im down... thank u candice.. it really made my day i luv da bird!!! well i think im gonna go now.... ttyl luv ya'll mwa mwa xoxox bye!

Nov 2nd 2001-

guuuuuuuuuess waaaat???? 26 days till my bithday!!!!!!!!!!! yeeea! yeeeeea!!!! hehe.. im gettin more n more excited by the minute lol.... newayz.... i got to skool 2day and time gave me a 2 page note!!!! i ahve NEVER had such a long note form him in my life! wen i finished readin it tyler came up 2 me and asked me if i was mad at him.. i looked over and saw tim tryin 2 hide fom me.... he was scared 2 come over! lol i told him to coem over.... and all i did was hug him..... i forgave im.. i understand were he was comin form.. i told him yes i would go out wit him wen i was single.. then i go and say i wnana be single 4 a lil while.. im sorry i said that.... but i do just need a lil time 4 myslef and be single, which he understands 2.... he said he wrote wat he wrote cuz he was pissed... ok.. well w/e.... i love him and care too much about him 2 be that mad at him..... it hurts.... but at least we r ok now...... i wrote him bak, but he got it taken away.....lol o welz.... 2day was a goooood day.... i was hyper and happy.... it seems ever since halloween, the teachers havnt been doin much... lang. we watchion a movei just 4 fun... math.. a lil bit of work and socializing, talkin 2 him and eatin candy! lol.. p.e.... o0o0oMG p.e.. THATS wat happned 2day... UGGGGGH.... we were playin kick ball.. the GAYEST game.. and it started POURING with rain.. i mean POURIN.. i even saw a lil lightnigh.. weeeeeeeeeeell the p.e coahes were so0o0o into the game and winning.. they MADE us stay and play!!!! in the porung rain!!! YUCK.. ppl were slippin and fallin wne running.... and us girls were wearing WHITE t-shirts.. and trust me 2 have a black bra on 2....lol TOTALLY noticable!STUPID PERVERTED COACHES!!!!!!!! UGH iwas so0o0o mad.. PLUS my hair was really nice 2day.. and i had to wear it up form then on!!! UGGGGGH!!!! my hair was al wet n gross.. aaaand so0o0ow ere my p.e cloths.. i ahd nothin 2 dry off with either.. excpet this girl let me borrow her towel later, which was so totally sweet of her! i TOTALLY appriciate it! and then i ahd 2 take my gym cloths home 2day uz it friday..... so i ahd to ahve wet gross clothes in my bakpak.. tlel me.. is that NOT so very WRONG?!?!?!?!?! ow elz..... apart formt hat i had a good day i thnk.... i cant think of nethign esle that happened..... o i taled 2 candcie on da fone 4 a long time.. i luv talkin 2 her ond a fone... she understands me so0o much and i htink i understand her 2.. we seem 2 ahve this thing...like we always understand wat eachother is talkin bout.. how we feel... an dshe makes me fele betetr bout all my problems.... shes fun 2 talk 2, and funny....then i talked 2 tim on da fone til 1:30 in da morning again.... which was nice.... kinda... we talked more aboutt his whole thing... i dont no if it made us worse or better.... i think he loves amanda more now.... and she likes him 2..... i NO it... they r gonna end up goin out 4 sure.....i gotzta go 4 now babes!!!.... peace out.. luv n kisses 2 u all.. ttyl... xoxox toodlez!

Nov 5th 2001-

2day i didnt go to skool.. i was sick and STILL ahve the same migrain form this whole weekend.. it never went away!!! :( :(... its waaaaay boring stayin at home GAWG!!! it makes u actualy WANNA go to skool! and thats sayin sumthn!!! lol..... but i did feel luved wen i ahve every1 callin me or talkin 2 me online askin wher i was and how they missed me..lol even tho 1/2 them didnt really.. still..lol! hopfuly my head will stop hurtin sooon!!!

Nov 6th 2001-

one day till kayla birthday aaaaaaaannnd 21 till MINE!!!!!! yeeea yeeea!!!!lol... lets see.. i did go 2 skool 2day... im felein better....candi.. i DONT get y h said that.. its incredbly messed up!!! lol... E-MAIL IT TO HIM!!!! (if ya reeeeally want to.. which i think u do!) gym is si0o0o0o0o0o0o much fu wit my best frined (codie lee 4 all those who r behind on that one lol) hes so totally my best frined (even tho candi tied 2 steal him...lmao.. but we too good of besta firnedz...lmao!!!).. and 4 those who keep insistin its more... ur WRONG!!! YOU go out wit YOUR best firned and then i'll go out wit mine??? k?? aiight then.. i dont think most of ya will.. nor would i!!! thank u.. i rest my case on that one...lol..... i stick up 4 him.. he sticks up 4 me.. and we talk.. thats IT.. NO crime there! ummmm..... lets see.. O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O MY GAWG!!!! guess who kayla is goin out wit?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? DANIEL RUEL!!!!!!!! not only POPULAR but HOT!!! go0o0o0o KAYLA!!! my chica!!! ha aha ha shes been dyin 4 this day 4eva!! im so0o incredibly happy 4 her!!! :) :) :) hopfully yvette is gonan do my hair 2morrow! hehe yea! its so0o0o kool! i luv it liek that! hahahehe(hoho lmao kayla!) history we had a test wit 30 questions and a wrk sheet.. and o0o0o god did i fail it BIG time!!!! i think a lot of feel like we did...lol right candice?!?! lol well im gonna go 4 nowz..... i'll ttyl...

Nov 7th 2001-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYLA!!!!!! i hope ur day was da bestest.... plus u go tthe guy of ur dreamz!!! awww u 2 r so0o0o0o0o0o incredibly CUTE 2 getha!!! hahaha he needs 2 put his arm round ur WAIST tho.. jp its not up 2 me! lol yvette couldnt do my hair 2day.. she didnt have the diffuser thingy.. so she hopfully gonna do it 2morow! :) o welz.... hey yvette.... do u think i am 4 real man 2 u??? do u think i dont lie u that much??? omg i so0o0o0o0o dont thinkthat at all!!! ur onea my best buds chica!!!! i hope im not mean 2 u.. if i am.. im just kiddin... steph and candi r mean 2 u 2.. but they r just kiddin!! i LUV YA CHICA!!! plez dont be sad!!!! we need 2 ahve more inside jokes man!!!! gym rocks man!!! lol haha! o and i love my best friend man.... we r so totally best firnedz now.. we talk all the time.... like all gym period we do.... like real convos.. seriosuly.. hes my bestest firnedz man! lol... hahaha..... hes kool!!! ummm... omg its only 20 days till my birthday now!!!! yeeeeeeea!!!!!!! haha.... tim has I.S.S still.. gawg.. i dont think hes eva gonan get out!! lol!!!!!!i got my history test bak 2day... ha ha i didnt fail... but i did get a D.. but she added a curse of 10 poins. instead of my 62 i got a 72! lol go0o0o0o0o me!!!! lol well i gonna go now... peace out.... mwa mwa xoxoxooxox i u no kayla.. wish her a happy birthday lol!

Nov 8th 2001-

omg no0o0o way.. today kayla got to celebrate her bday AGAIN?!?!?!?!?!?! ugh so0o not fair....lol so i ahve decide she gets 2 celebrate it more then once like andi.. i am gonna celebrate it 4 the whole WEEK!!! lmao.. starting nov 26-nov 30th!! lol sounds good huh??? thought so!!! ok 2day i was once again.. exTREAMly hyper...!! hahahaha i LOVE being hyper.. it seems ive been like this eery sinse ive been single.. i dont have ne pressures nemore... everything is much happyier i think! :) 2day we had a Verterins day assembly... it lasted 1st and 2nd period.. it was kinda boring... but pretty good also..... sum the thigns were good.. and kinda inspiring.. and sweet... but o welz.... daniel and kayla sat next 2 eachotha.. and i got his attention and told him 2 hold her hand..... so he did....lol but then our teacher.. mrs rogers.. come by and saw.. and daniel let goes and says..."we're just givin eachother hi-fives.." LMAO!! and him n kayla start givin hi-fives!!!! OMG it was HILARIOUS!!!! lolololololol.... all of 2day was good actually... we did NO work in ne of our classes... except science.... we did an experiment.. but those r kool! :) lets see... tim still has I.S.S.. so i NEVA talk 2 him nemore..... its like he aint there nemore....O M G!!!!! i went to the basketball game 2day.. it was at marshal.. and on the boys 6th grade team.. # 5 was JUST like codie lee... he so0o0o0o0o reminded me of my best freind.. excpet hes lack.. he doesnt have curly hair.. but he does have an afro.. so it looks kinda close.. but O)O)OMG.. he love him man!! hes so0o0o0 cute.. and ehs samll 2!! hes shoes r TINY!! aaaaaahhhhhhhhh CUTE!!! omg the end of the game.... i yelled 4 him and asked him his name. and u'll NEVA guess wat his name was?!?!?!? LEE!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! i cant belive it!!! Codie Lee and his soul mate.. LEE!!! HA HA!!! isnt that liek the KOOLEST????? omg im obbsessed!! cant wait till 2morrow so i can tell codie lee! AAAAHHHHHHH!!! :) tomlin won both bos and girls game.. YEA go0o0o0o TOMLIN!!! the boys game was CLOSE tho.. it was a tie wit 23 points... then we got 2 free foul shots and made them BOTH wit 4 seconds 2 go!!! YEEA!!! well i gota ta go 4 now.. mwa mwa good night pplz!

Nov 9th 2001

2day at P.E... ugh me n yvette r so0o0o0o gonna sue... lmao...lol ok me, ev and codie lee were all at the very last wall ball section thing right all talkin and chillin....and coach let every1 go in 2 change.. but cuz he couldnt see us, he didnt no we were still there and wen we realized we were the only ones out there... we ran in and had less than 30 seconds 2 change!!!! UGH!!!! so0o0o not fair.. ive never dressed in such a hurry b4... gross!ugh.. me n yvette were screamin!!!! that mad me so0o0o mad! altho P.E was fun!!!! we played 4-square 4 a lil while wit codie lee.. then we just sat and talked wit codie...o0o yea and we lifted him up in our hands...like cheerleaders do... haha omg he is so0o0o0o LIGHT! haha awwwwwww....we went to the movies... they all made me go see monsters Inc... omg thats the GAYEST movies!!! DO NOT GO SEE IT!!!!!! ts STUPID! se me nd yvette went and snuck into Shallow hal.. that was ok... it was sumtimes funny but not all that great.. if ya no wat i mean... but it was betetr then monsters inc lol! it was so0o0o boring that candice freekin fell ASLEEP durin the movie!!!!! HA HA!!!!! well thats all i can tink of.... sry....ttyl toodlez ~*~Caroline~*~

Nov 10th 2001-

2day.... 2 my supprize....i had a bunch of guyz comin 2 my hosue.... well actually.... i was on the fone wit tyler alllll moring.... like on and off form like 10-3 all thro-out the day... hes really fun 2 talk 2 on the fone actually...hes so different on the fone alone wen he aint got no friendz around... its nice..... hes kooler then a lot of ppl make him out 2 be actually.. a lot of ya'l under-estimate him..... well after around 3;30 he came 2 my house.... and we chilled... it was fun hangin wit him.... hes a good guy... really.... ok and maybe we flirted a lil bit.... but i dont think thre is nething there.. i already WENT out wit him... and i dont think he likes me that way at ALL...lol so u guyz dont gotta be gettin the wrong impression...thro-out the whole day i had a bunh of guyz comin over...... brett, ryan... a kid i didnt even know...lol and i cant think of his name.. but he was really hot! lol errr... now its makin me mad that i cant think of his name!!!!! lol.... but neways it was a great deal of fun... tyler didnt leave 4 a long time actually... not till like 9 or 10 sumthin!!!!! thats pretty much all the happned 2day....ttyl....~*~Caroline~*~

Nov 11th 2001-

2day..... again... tyler come over....but b4 that, i found of all boys i know...MATT AND ALEX at MY house!!!! i was like OMG!!! why r u hear?? i couldnt belive it at all....i still ahve NO idea why thyey were at my house... alex ddint talk much, but me and matt did... bu they left bout 1/2 hour later... then around 2, matt come bak 2 my hosue, by himself.... and cuz i was home alone we chilled out front... then he told me 2 go call brett for him 2 come over... lol (i ahve No idea why)so i did... him n brett were over... and they wanted 2 come inside.....but my dad wasnt home... buuuuuut i new my dad wouldnt be home 4 awhile.... so0o0o0o matt put his bike out in my bak yard (incase my dad come home, he could RUN out the bak....hahaha) so i let them in my hsoue.. if my dad found out... ide never see outside AGAIN!!!! we just chilled and talked really.....nuthin much really.... then we went outside cuz i ahd a feelin my dad was gonna be home.... and i walked outside.. i saw tyler on is bike at my hosue.... he was comin 2 hang out wit me 2... ha ha.... so we went out bak 2 get his bike... and RIGHT then... my dad came home!!! we were already outside (THANK GOD!!!!) so they ran off (thinkin they were gonna get on trouble.. lol i thoguht that was kinda funny... but my dad had NO idea... still doesnt and wont ever... therse those few things i think every1 keeps form their parents....lol as a teenager.. thats part of livin....lol...later that afternoon tyler and brett came bak 2 my hosue it was bout 5.... i guess.... it was funa ctually.... well brett didnt talk that much really... considerin hes a very loud person (well.. wne he wants 2 be)lol.... i'll admit.... ive havnt flirted wit a guy as much as i did wit tyler tongiht in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time!!!!!! and damn.. it was FUN!!!!! and 4 ll those who ahve a dirty mind... no0o0o we did NOT doin nehting gross... or nething involvin clothes comin off.. NOTHIN like that.... OK??? lol.... buuuuuut wen he had his head layin in my lap as i was brushin his head wit my lil brush.. talkin..... he said sumthin 2 make fun of me.. it was kidna mean.. and i wnt to hit him in the balls... lightin tho.. not expectin to even hit him... but i DID....B-I-G time...and reeeeeeeeeeeally hurt him 2!!!!! the second i realize i really hurt him (he was kneelin on my floor in a great deal of pain....) i leaned over and just patted his head and rubbed my hand acroos his face in onfort.... i honestly ddint mean 2 hurt him.. if i did.. i wouldnt be as sorry as i am!!! wen he was ok after that.... we were ok.... not long after that.. yvettes couson, C.J called me.. for the first time ever...!! i was happy boutt hat... but tyler was NOT!!!! the first 2 times he called, tyler just picked up the fone and hung UP on c.j!!! how meeeean!!! lol!!! then wen i grabed the fone form him.... he got my sisters fone and listen 2 our convo... then started pressin buttons so we couldnt talk and ahve a normal conversation.. he was doin all possible to stop us form talkin! then tyler was all like.... omg u like that boy on the fone dont u? u LIKE him!! omg u so like him! i was like i dont even KNOW the guy that well... i cant like him wen i dont NO him... and then i said 2 c.j... tylers ova here gettin REEEAL jelous man....lol but i was just playin... bein stupid and sarcastic..... cuz i NO he wasntl... tyler has no reason 2 be gettin jelous bout sum guy callin me... it was just teasin him... but right wen i said that... tyler STORMED outta my hsoue and stated walkin home... i quickly hung up wit c.j and ran outside and tryid 2 talk2 tyler.. asked wat was wrong.....but he ran away form me.... i ran after hm all the way down the freekin street chasin this dude!!!! and if u no me... im NOT the runnin or athletic type.... but i ran after him neways.....i stayed up a long time that night tryin 2 find out wat was wrong.... brett spent the niht at his house....and he said it had NOTHIN 2 do wit me hittin him in the balls (i thought it was)... so i NO its not that.... but brett said tyler now officailly HATES me.....and never wants 2 speack 2 me again.... this is STUPID!!!!! WAT DID I DO SO0O0O0O WRONG HE HATES MY GUTS NOW??????? i just dont GET it!!!!!!! ok im goin 2 bed now..... ive been on the fone for sum time tryin 2 figure out why he hates me(talkin2 brett cuz as i said, tyler wont talk 2 me).... i didnt get very far either....so im real tired now.. o and he blocked me form IM 2....how stupid... ERRRRR!!!! nite nite every1!

Nov 12th 2001-

nothin happned 2day really at all..... i was home alone all day, fomr wen i woke up till 1 sumthin.... and no1 came over... its a monday and we hav 2day off... its kool! tyler still wont talk 2 me.. i taled 2 brett bout it wne he got bak form tylers and he told me a few thigns tyler had told him.... but i dont feel like putitn them on here..... but neways... this whole hting is really stupid.... tyler doesnt beloive me wen i say i wanna no wats wrong cuz i care actually... and he doesnt think im sorry... if only he new!!!!! im EXTREAMLY sorry and i DO care.... hes being DUMB bout this whole thing.... maybe even over-reactin 2!! considerin he wont even TELL me wat i did 4 him 2 hate me all th sudden in liess then 10 minutes!!! later on 2day..... i walked to tylers hosue 2 freekin talk 2 me.... i figured if im AT his hosue... hes gotta talk 2 me...... the worst he could do wat clsoe his door on me.. and if he did.. i wouldda just stood outside his hosue untill he came out and talked 2 me!!!! lol and im so dead serios!! well again.. i did more exercize then i EVER 2.. WaLkEd 2 his house in the dyin heat and it tok me 10 freekin minites 2 get there 2!!! well i got there... to find he wasnt home!!!!! UGH! pointless 4 me! later on wen i got home... i found out form brett and andy that a bunch of guyz were playin footbal... tyler said sumthn bout brett jackin off or sumthin... so brett went and bunched tyler real good!!!! i cant belive it!! poor tyler!! this is NOT his weekned!!! awwww!! wen i found out.. i called tyler to see if he was ok... altho i ahd a feelin he woudl jsut hang up on me.. but atleast he know i called and was wonderin if he was ok... but his mum picked up and sounded well mad and said he was not aloud 2 talk on the fone right now!!! o welz.... i tried... i really did... i dunno how 2 get it thro his head that all i wanna do is talk 2 hima nd see WAT i did.. maybe i can freekin FIX it....!! or talk bout it and try n help.. who knows....well im outty here 4 nows babez!!!! hpe u all had a good 3 day weekend.... mine was the best weekend ive had in the LONGEST time.. till the veeeeeeerry end..... but o welz.. :*( ~*~Caroline~*~

November 26th 2001-

O-M-G to all my fans out there who read this everyday im so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o sorry i have abandond u 4 so long!!! i have been kinda busy... and just kidna stopped 4 a while. also a lot of things that ahve been happenin... r things id rather some ppl NOT 2 no......if u no wat i mean....ummm....lets see.... i think i am now finally frinedz wit alex and matt again... which im extreamly happy bout.. i miss them bein my friendz... things gettin 2 be almost normal..(how it was at the begginin of the yr)... tyler STILL wont talk 2 me.... codie lee and smantha pipin r goin out (last i heard lol) he wasnt at skool 2day... i dunno y....::tear tear:: actually sinse he been goin wit samantha... we stoped talkin a lot... o welz.... ummm... me and tim dont talk nemore.....kayla and daniel r still goin out.... its so kool... theyr sweet 2getha...lol....ummm.... the last basketball game 4 the season me candice and yvette went all out 4 the skool... we MADE out own shirts (very kewl and unique if ya ask me lol).. ribbons of our skool colors in our hair... paint on our face and arms skool colors..lol it was fun girls kicked butt BIG time... guyz lost (tomlin Vs. terkey creek).....my birthday is TOMORROW!!!!!! :) yvette is doinmy hair, and so far i got caller ID 4 my fone which is wat i wanted so0o0o0oo bad!!! so im way happy...... i dont think therse a person in this world i HAVNT told bout my bday..... im havin a big party this saturday... im so0o0o0o excited man!!! we playin games like 10 min. in paradice, spin the bottle, suck n blow, pass the ice... lmao.. and we wonder WHY... a few certain guyz IM waitin 4... but those secret guyz that im sure as heck not sayin in here!!! i had a bad day 2day..... i dont even wanna talk about it... at ALL.....ummmm..... life hasnt been quite as fun recently.... im not sure y..... but im never that happy nemore..... guyz SERIOUSLY got my head messed up (espesially a few certain ones.... UGH :*( ::tear tear::)ummm.. lets see... o yea that guy i said b4 i couldnt rember his name wen he came 2 my hosue wit tyler that weekend (gawd that was 4eva ago!) his name is zack... we talk more now.. and jared 2! they r both really kool.... tim made me cry the very last time we talked....we havnt talked scinse (it wa son the fone)..... i dont wanan say everythign he said.. and it wasnt mean and it wasnt bad,..... but lets just say it was the sweetest thing i ahve EVER had a guy say 2 me.... and we dont talk nemore...i ahve learnt sumthin tho: i think its funny how life is.... it goes by so slow sometimes.. and yet u turn around and look at all those months n 4eva ago.. to find it wasnt a month or years ago.. but only a a few weeks ago!!! if that makes sense 2 u??? i get wat im sayin.... life goes my so slow..... and thigns change so0o0o0o0o dramtically.... its kinda weird.... u sometimes miss thigns u didnt relaize till AFTER its gone and dont take those chances wen their RIGHT there in form of ur face, to only realize it was that u wanted right in form of ur face the whole time.. AFTER its too late.... we sometimes find outselves chasin it... is it reall too late...? or if we keep on hopin.. keep on chasin that dream.. will we reach ot some day.... is that like sayin.. it we keep reachin 4 the stars.. and never give up.. will we one day reach them.. or is it like.. if we keep reachin 4 the ceiling in our own house.. and keep reachin.. will we make it ever...??? but one thing i DO no is... no matter HOW far away that ceiling or those stars r to u.... u cant go NEWHERE w/out the help of ur frinedz.. ur true frinedz... u only need those few tru frinedz.. and wen u ahve them,.. dont let go.... cuz its them that live the same life style and understand u.... and they r the ones who u can trust and laugh wit on ur journey to reachin that dream.....lifes hard, lifes unfair, lifes a challenge... but it is better if u DONT give up.... dreams, hopes, love.. these r thing that r NOT ment to be left behind... 4gotten... given up on.... no matter HOW immposible or unfair or unworthwhile ur dream seems.... keep goin... u'll reach wat ur ment to reach wne its time.... till them.. love... smile... talk 2 ur frinedz and family... and keep tryin!!! i no there r a LOT of u who think.. yea i wanan do that.. im gonan go 4 it.. but find urslef holdin urself bak... in fear.... ur scared... feel it wont ever happen... HOW WIL U NO UNTILL U TRY???? *what do you do when the only person who can make yu stop cryin..... is the one who made you cry* **dont ever be afraid to tell someone you love them.. if you do they might break your heart... if u dont.. u might break theirs** yea i got those form candice.... and theri tru....these r a few thigns i ahve leart sinse i have entered my last enrty in here..... i might not alwasy be happy and cheerful...life sure nows how 2 get ya down.. and so do guyz....remeber those around u who love u... it can help....i thnk thats all i wanan right right now.... so im outty babez!! ~*~Caroline~*~

November 27th!!!!!!!!! 2001- (14th birthday!)

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh 2day is my BIRTHDAY!!!! hehe yeeea:) i didnt get ne preants at skool 2day... or ne balloons... which is ok i guess......as i was walkin 2 candice's house this morinin 4 yvette 2 do my hair.... i see candice RUNNIN down her street, in pajamas singin me happy birthday!!! lmao that was a a good wat 2 start the day. i wa sin bad mood...just like i ahve been 4 about a week now..... i could tell canidce was tryin 2 make my birthday the best it could possibly be.... which was WONDERFUL... kayla and yvette did also.... i have sum of the most awsomest frineds here... they really pull in 4 me wen they no it my bday and im sad..... i new candice was havin bad day... the way she acted in the halls n crap.. i just new... but she dindt wanna say nehtign cuz it was my bday... which was nice of her.... i was in a bad mood 2.... but tried not 2 show it either.... if i didnt have candice, steph, yvette and kayla 2day.... i dunno wat i wouldda done.... they made my day much better then itwould ahve been... i owe it 2 em big time.... they the best!!!! my hair looked cute.... thanx 2 EV and my outfit got many compliments 2....lol thanx candice!!!! hehe there u 2 go.. u got ur credit!!! wen ig to home, i ahd 2 wait 4 my dad 2 open my preants... UGH... he was late aaaaand then as son as he go home.... they had 2 go to my skool 4 parent teacher conference... gawd i was so0o0o0o upset wen they left me on my bday 4 that!! i quickly opend my main oresant.....whcih was the newest nokia cell fone... its tiny and so totally the cutest!! it is waaaay kool... and vibrates...lmao...... but yea... they left.... came home and yelled at me bcuz of my grade in math ( a 72) i wanted 2 cry right there.....but didnt..... it was prob the wors birthday in a long time..... we didnt even DO anythign 4 my bday!!! my grandparents come over 4 cake and ice cream.. that was IT.... i was so upset... i got money, shirts n stuff... on the bright side.... i did talk 2 tyler 4 the first time since we faught...... we actually had a converstaion and i was so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o happy we were talkin.... he told me y he was mad at me.... but i promised him i woudnt say it.... so i cant say!! but im much happier now... im hopin this will start 2 break the ice and we might start 2 talk again...?? that would be AWSOME :) well...... im gonna go... thank u candice, steph, ev and kayla 4 makin my day as good as u possibly could!

november 28th 2001-

2day was still a pretty bad day...... and now it wanst my bday....i could express it more..... i always sit on the end of the lunch table.... and am always left out b/c i am on he end.... they dont get it cuz they neva had 2 sit on the end....a nd r always in the middle of the tabe.... in the midde of the conversation.... it really upsets me..... i just bout given up on talkin at lunch now.... there no point in tryin cuz they wouldnt even notice!!! 2day we had a field trip 2 plant city high skool.... it was gay..... candice, steph kayla and yvette all ignored me just bout the ENTIRE time... so yea... that was even great fun... i talked 2 hope 4 a while.. and chelsea then codie lee and tim thw hwole entire time... how excited was that.....?? NOT at ALL..... 2day was just horrible... lunch i didnt say one word..... no1 talkes 2 me any more... not even tim.... or my best firned codie lee..... kayla got her other frinedz, candice steph and ev got eachother.... and looky looky at me..... all my my lownsome self.....all the time..... sure as hell feels liek that a lot of the time nowa days..... it wasnt like that a few weeeks ago i dnt think.... ~*~Caroline~*~

november 29th 2001-

today was ok...... after skool me and candice sorted things out (i think/HOPE)..... we both have been really crabby this week.... both arguin over the DUMBEST and littlest things which we would usually neva fihgt over...... its been one hell of a week... sux it has 2 me the week of my bday tho....i think me and candice have come 2 terms and understand eachother now... it was bad week.. i wanna put it in the past....things have changed...... i still dont talk 2 tyler really.... me and tim dont talk a ALL ne more..... i guess thats his choice and thats fine wit me..... its funny how things change so much in such a sort time..... almost one month ago.... tim and i were so0o0o0o into eachother... so0o0o in love we said.... he wrote me and note and in big, kool, pretty letters it says: TIM and CAROLINE 4-EVA...... and i still ahve it on my pin bored in my room 4 the world 2 see...... just like he told me 2 do..... and now..... we dont say a single word 2eachother... no hugs... nuthin... life is kinda strange liek that.... not even a month and its liek my whole world has changed..... ummmm... o welz.. new subject...today was a better day i guess.... my party is comin up.... and i aint lookin 4ward 2 it at ALL... i dont no y but im not...like i just dont one at all nmore....??? ~*~Caroline~*~

Nov 30th 2001-

yea... well 2day was a pretty bad day... im not sure y... but it was.... im not lookin 4ward to my party at ALL any more...like seriosuly... if i didnt have the stuff.. i dunno if i would HAVE one any more.... nuthin happened really 2day at skool.... i talekd tim on da fone at liek 11 sumthin.... not 4 log tho... cuz he wanted 2 call amanda...ugh... well... im hopin my party turns out really well.. but at the moment... im doubtin it.... i didnt go to the movies or anything either cuz i stayed home and did nuthin but clean!!!

Dec 1st 2001-

2day os the day fo my party... and so far al i ahve done is worked my @$$ off 4 it... im tellin u.. y party had BEST be worht all this....lol.. actually now the time is getin closer... im gettin pretty excited.... i also found out more of the guyz are comin than i thoguht were... which im REEEEAL happy bout... tylers the only one that isnt comin that i had hoped would. after spendin 4eva cleanin thsi darn house... sarah called me... and all at the same time... i had 3 guyz over.... alex, zack, and ryan... then juan came... then andy showed up 2!!! geeeeez.. all in one day they all wanna show up at my hosue... so i bought the fone out wit me, sum nail polish remover, and my cell fone.... sat on my drive way and had a blast man!!! guyz can be the best ppl 2 hang around sumtiems... seriosuly.. then again... they can be the worst 2... and OMG it was HILARIOUS... zack and ryan started wrestlin... then stoped.. and zack dared alex 2 wrestly him... so alex tookt he offer... took off his earings.. gave em 2 me... and they started beatin the crap outta eachother.. i swear!!!! zack was cussin like u wouldnt belive at alex... and alex was laughin his A$$ off!!! so was i!!! it had 2 ahve been the funniest thing i ahve EVER watched guyz do!!!! zack was just so0o0o0o serious... and alex was doin it 4 the fun of it!! omg i coulnt stop laughin... durin tis wole time i was on the fone wit Sarah ( my best friend that lives in england by the way lol) and she could ehar them 2!! towards the end of that... thats wen juan showed up... i told juna i could take him... i was makin fun of zack and alex... juna picks me up int he air.. and thats wen i changed my mind!!! lmao!!!! o0o0oma gawd.... dont do that!! lol... zack settles down after a while... i then.. again makin fun of zack... went and started actin like i was gonna beat alex up... sayin i could take him.. and wouldnt u no it.. he grabed me,lifted me up 2... and spun me around... daaaaaang....lol!! it was all great tho... really... i had a good time.... after havin one of the WORST weeks ever.... they lifted my mood up...:) it was kool... lol they r kool guyz 2 hang wit... they left 2 get ready 4 my party.. they all comin...:) alex left his earings.... but came bak 2 get em after every1 was gone.... he said hi 2 sarah on the fone... he wanted 2 hear her accent...lol....and me and alex talked a lil bit.. and i put his earings bak in.. he cant do em himself..lmao... well... thats bout it 4 now... all bout my party 2morrow.. i g2g and get things ready!

Dec 2nd 2001-

0o0o0o0omg am i happy i didnt cancel my aprty.... it was like the BEST!!!!i wont go into great detail... it'll be too long.. but i'll give u wat happend... basically.. and my fav parts 2! it didnt end till prob like 11:30 12..... and it was great.... the first thing i heard wen the guyz got there..... was that alex was now single.... all im pretty sure every1 knows why.... so i wont waste space to type it.... but yea... that was kool...we played spin the bottle near the end... matt and juan did not play tho.. they ahve g/f... good 4 them... lets see... yvette and brett had 2 frinch 4 5 seconds... and so did este and alex... o boy wat hat great!! and baby did i get pictures of that!! over all i got 2 1/2 rolls of pctures taken at my party!! o0o0 yea! cant wait to get those developed! we danced a lot... steph got her grove thang on...lmao.... ummm.. i kinda played 10 minutes in paradice wit alex..... we were the onyl ones who played that game tho... so ummm.... yea..... i made out wit alex quite a bit at my party.... BUT i want u all 2 know... it took quite a bit 4 me 2 give in and kiss him.... sumthin was tellin me i shouldnt.. but yea.. i didn newayz... but it wasnt like akiss cuz he had feelings 4 me... he was just usin e... inew he was.. but thats ok! lol!! ummmm.... well....there were also quite a few things i can not mention on here... they r things that r ment to stay wit my party and my party only... ppl that were there not... thats all... so i swore not to tell.... so0o yea.... umm kayla spent the night afterwards... we stayed up till 4 sumthin int he mornin...lmoa... we also snuck out around 1 or so and went to matts house and hung out wit matt, alex and juna 4 about 20 minutes... that was kool.... sneekin out... exciting man!! lol... we piged out the entire night 2.... and woke up at 12!! that means only7 and 1/2 hours or so!!! NOT good! lol well im gonna go... my party was GREAT... trust me! lol

Dec 4th 2001-

tim and amanda are goin out now.... kool.... yea.... ummmm... lets see... wat esle.... ok nuthin...lol o yea.... im grounded from the fone and internet from now till friday...ok? lol i was caught on da fone wit candice at 11 sumthin at night! ooops...g2g

Dec 5th 2001-

tim and amanda broke up.... i dont remeber exactly y but im guessin a LOT fo it has 2 do wit the fact that he CHEATED on her wit jennifer morgan!!!!! i can NOT belive he did that!! he is NOT the same person i thoguht he was at ALL.... i dont get him any more...?? he has changed.. i dont get wats gotten into him!! i wrote him a letter sayin all this and askin him y he did that n crap... all he said was... shut the f*uck up!!!!!!!!! i cant belive he talked 2 me liek that... i dont think we r ever gonna talk again... i dont like guyz talkin/treatin me liek that... so screw him!! ugh that made me mad!!! shes one of my good friendz too!!! neways.... i got an e-mail form samantha yellin at me bout me and codie lee!! i tried 2 explain 2 her we r just best frinedz.. (shes goin out wit him).. but i dunno...? o0o0o0o yea and kayla and jeff r goin out!!! awwww.... robert and kelly r goin out... and word goin around daniel wants 2 ask mckenzie out....ummmmm... n-e-1 else??? o0o0o yea!!! alex and danielle r goin out!!! they were goin out yesterday i think.. yea i found out right after it happened... kool.. dang i swear this must my the hook up week... brett might ask yvette out.. so i heard.... but i dunno...0o0o yea tyler and... ummm wats her name? i think her name is amanda sumthin... but dont count on it.. i dont remeber!!! lol woah.. theres a lot goin on man....candice did the sweetest thing 4 me 2day!!! at lunch we al went to sit down... and as usual i sat ont he end... well she made everyone get up and put me right in the middle!!!! i think she realized maybe that i AM always ont he end..... eeeeeevery day, and how i DONT liek it... sumtimes that was y i was never talkin at lunch... but that was the nicest thing ever!!! really.. that made me feel really good.... :)even tho a lot of em complained.... she still made them.. it was ExTrEaMlY sweet!! thank u so0o0o0o much candice!!! well im gonna go.... ttyl

Dec 6th 2001-

omg.. u will NEVER EVER guess who im now goin out wit....lol like seriosuly.. ud never guess............ CODIE LEE!!! yes im goin out wit my best frined!!!!! lol... he broke up wit samantha b/c he liekd me (i heard)..... so yea im goin out wit my best frined... hehe....lol told ya ud never guess... heeeey i was leas expectin it too!! since i was JUST talkin 2 samantha last ngiht bout them 2.... i feel kidna bad tho.. cuz she still realy lieks him.... o welz... nuthin i can do now! lol well thats it.. yea... tim still being the same.... well its not the real him... or it is and wat he was 2 me b4.. the sweet...lovin... carin... kidna guy that makes u smile just wen he hugs u....that kidna guy.. maybe it WAS all a lie...?? but it dont matter now.... he is different.... o well...

Dec 7th 2001-

things r a lil weird between me and codie lee.... i can tell he finds it a lil wierd now.. and so do i.... every time i see him i wanna yell heeeey best frined.... but now i dunno WAT 2 say.. and i can TELL he does 2..... but im gonna try and work it out... im gonna just act like i always did around him.... thats how he knows me.. and lieks me... i hope once i relax.. he will 2.. and i think sumthin real good can come out of this!! :) tim and amanda seem 2 be kool againl..... considering hes goin round tellin george they r gonna go bak out.... which amanda says they wont... but i no she would if he asked.... and tey hugged 2day after skool.... glad she gets over sumthin liek that..... good 4 her!! 2night was the christmas parade... but i couldnt go cuz i was still grounded... which ment i also couldnt go to the movies... stuck HOME on a friday night.... do u no how SAD that is.. ugh it SUCKED! lol.... it seems nowadays.... a lot of things that i feel emotionally... and things that happen... r things i cant say on here.... too personal... either htat or are thigns that i dont want other ppl readin... espesially CERTAIN ppl..... but o welz... i give ya the basics of wats goin on.... so yea... tyler was mean 2 me on the bus 2day.... ever sinse wednesday he has been MEAN 2 me....??? i dont no y!!! we were doin so well b4 that... he was bein noce 2 me.. i was nice 2 him.. and we ACTUALLY talked the entire bus ride home.... like we were friendz again... maybe not... hes a confussin person im tellin u!!! lol o welz.... i found out that he was gonna actually GO 2 my party.... but couldnt cuz he was grounded!.. which i guess is sum progress... well.. now hes being mean but yea ok.. we/.. strange boy he is...lol.... wat else.... nuthin really.... kidna a stressfull week 4 me.. and my friendz 2 actually... u no who u r wen i ay that... i luv ya all... and im ehre 4 ya! im gonna go... ttyl ~*~Caroline~*~

Dec 14th 2001-

heeeeey... i no i no... so ive been slackin offa lil in writtin in here... i got so many other things on my mind..... im so sorry!! liek EXAMS..... ugh... boy... i swear they r there just 2 torcher us witht the pressure!!! so unfair!!! really is!! lol... we r havin math exams... i had a small part 2day (i got 11/12!!! lol 99%!) and then the major part tuesday and wednesday!!! THATS how bad it is.. it will take us 2 days!!! AAAAHHH... not to mention the fact i got the pressure from my parents.... if i dont make a b or higher on this... i get a C in the class.... UGH.. o welz... enoguh botu that... i wanan 4get bout that right now!!!! i got a good grade on 2days... thats all that matters... right? lol.. woah.. a LOT has happend sinse last time... matt and jenna broke up... alex and daniele broke up.. but got bak 2getha 2day....lol... me and codie still goin out.. but hes on vacation right now...:( ive been extreamly happy and hyper l8ly....lol i dunno y but i ahve..like the last 2 days i think...lol... hmmmmmmm.... right now...life seems 2 b pretty good 4 me... i cant think one bad thing ok.. exams.. but i anint gonna think bout that! lol.... steph was sick 4 the last 2 days.. omg i missed her!!!! i so sad she was sick.. skool not the same w/out her!!! (and her purlpl sunglasses!! lmao) tim is like ourt of my world now... like i dont even think bout him nemore.... he cut his hair...lol.... (d!c*head amanda!!!! lmao lmao!!!) hehe haha.. that was funny ond a bus amanda! lol... o0o0o yea freekin tyler is so0o0o0o0o annoyin.. i ahve HAD it with him!!!!! i TRIED 2 b nice.. i TRIED 2 bak him up... and he wants to go around on the bud, takin my stuff, throwin stuff outt he window, takin my shoes, MESSIN my hair up!!!.... wat esle.. HITTIN me, slappin me, pullin my hair.. u name it.. .. he did it!! ABUSE!!!!! lol.. 4rela it HURT!... such a baby!! i cant stad that kid.. i gave hi a strech of kindness... but he pushed me waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay 2 far!!!! errrrrrrrrr!! neways... lol... nehtin else happend??? ummm.... the bus is borin, tyleris bein moved 2 the front, o one other kidna bad/upsettin thin..... ok n/m.... wat i was gonna say... they read this... so i wanna keep that 2 myself... personal feelings.... so eya n/m.... sry... well thats all that been goin on that i can think of.. so i will ttyl... mwa mwa xoxox ~*~Caroline~*~

December 15th 2001-

Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for you're best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid.... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie...the thing we fear grows stronger. Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart ...but if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or that all Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had. No one waits forever... When the tears just won't Stop falling down* I'll be there* So you see I'll be there until the end* This is a promise I can make* If you ever need me* Just give me a call and.* I'll be there...* that is just somethin i wanted 2 share wit u.... it makes me cry every time i ready it (except wen i read it 2 u matt..lol.. i learnt 2 hold em bak wen i read it 4 ya..lol) read... enjoy.... think about it... :) ~*~Caroline~*~

December 16th 2001-

wassssssup ppl? m here just chillin.. locked myself in my room wit my music on tryin 2 get away formt he crazy world of my 6 year old cousin....lol. yup.. my aunt, uncle and 2 lil gurl cousin (6 and 1), are here 4 christmas all the way form england! they r my fav part of the family... they're kool.... but i think sumtimes when ur a teenager... playin silly lil games wit ur 6 yr old cousin.. ISNT wat we call fun now.....last night matt and juan came ova and we chilled.... we talked a lot actually... bout different things...they r both really kool, and not the worst of the guyz ive ever met (cough cough alex) they r both really kool... and good friendz. things r goin a lot better in life right now... altho now tht they r here from england... my social life at home is aboiut to be put on hold... ::tear tear:: its not fair... matt hs been 2 my hsoue every single day since him and jenna broke up.... which is kool cuz i told hangin out wit him.... but i think its extreamly weird that he is.... but o welz....hes real kool. neways... friday night matt and alex came over 2.... and yes.. alex is STILL the number one man whore... hes my frined now... we do talk now.... same wit juan. things have been changin a lot wit the guyz latly actually... juan doenst hate me nemore, nore does alex, and me and mattr kool now 2... which is great. its almost how it was at te very begginin of the year... but better cuz i no them all better. in some ways.. it seems my frinedship wit my frinedz that r gurlz... has been dyin.. and the ons wit the guyz r growin.... i dont feel close 2 any of the gurls nemore... im more on the outside i think then i have been in a long time (besided the begginin of they year)its upsettin me.... but i dont say anything to them b/c i dont wanna start anything.. or bother them.... its nothin major or nethign so i just let it go. but i dunno... maybe its just me... so far this weekend (except 4 2day) has been really good actually.... well not liek the BEST... but yea pretty darn good! candice and ev r in orlando babysittin i think... which seriosuly sucks.. i miss them already lol.. i miss talkin 2 them.... o welz...

Dec 17th 2001-

today was my dads birthday... kool.. happy birthday dad (even tho he dont even know this page exists..lol.. i still wanna wish him a happy birthday... ehs the best dad! lol.. awww yes i no that is wat u r all thinkin.. either that... or ur laughin....lol.. but w/e i dont care, hes my dad..w e all ahve one... deal wit it! lmao... neways.... wat happened 2day... um yea ok.. nuthin.... we watched movies in 3 of my classes...lol.... 2morrow is 1/2 of my math exam(the major part) and im not ready at all!!! i no im not gonna do well... 2day i wasnt int he best of moods i dont think... and my b/f kidna sorta freekin ignores me..... i seem 2 be good at pickin those kinda of b/f's... 4 ONCE.. i want a b/ who is goin 2 pay attention 2 me... one that im his everyday life, comes home, calls me, comes over, SUMTHIN.... im it... THATS all i want.... i NO there r a couple (seriosuly like 2 or 3 lol) guyz i no that do that...... but they dont like me, never have, never wil....so i dnt really mind..... i dont no wat i do to make all my b/fs ignore me? is i really sumthin i do? like no joke.... guyz.. u would know....if one is readin this.. tell me! lol.. i wanna no! i wasnt in a "bad" mood persay 2day... but i wasnt happy either.... which isnt nice at all... o hey candice... im sorry 4 yellin at u bout the whole whoa whoa whoa thing.... i didnt mena 2 at all..like i said.. i was havin a bad day... w/out a reaosn to be havin one! lol.... so yea.. im sorry!!! ur my bird...! lol.. oyea dont 4get the LLAMA!!!!!!! lol... neways... nothin happend at all 2day.... o yea.. i heard nicole and jeff were goin out... but i dunno if it a 4sure thing yet...? kool kool...well i think im OuTtY babez!!! xoxox mwa mwa loadza luv n kisses 2 my guyz~xoxoxox and hey 2 my gurls (well some r muchacha's others r chicas, others r purply, and others r all my woderful farm animals!!! :) lol...) but yea.. newayz...peace out ~*~Caroline~*~

Dec 19th 2001

today i was so0o0o0o0o0o0o hyper... OMG guess wat i got on my math exam.. overall.. final.....!!!!!! a 91%!!!!!!! i HAVE AN A ONMY MATH EXAM, AND NOW THAT MEANS I AHVE A B IN HIS CLASS!!!!! u ahve NO idea how excited i was.... still am.. that A on the exam ment EVERYTHIN 2 me... an di needed to FAR more then any of those other ppl inmy class... who all had a's and b's already in his freekin class.... im damn proud of myself thank u very much.. and think i deserve my A.. i studied hard 4 it... and finally i got wat i didnt b4...so yea i was like litterally jumpin up and down.. runny and huggin all my frinedz.. im so happy.. yvette got an A and so did canidce... im proud of them 2... i dont no wat all my other friendz got yet... but i no they did good:) i was in a good mood all day 2day..... we all were... im so in the christmad spirit right now... this time of year im so happy.... every1 is... plus it was cold 2day.. aand that makes it even better....at p.e i was in SUCH a good mood....lol we were all so hyper n junk..lol it was funny! we were just singin and dancig while walkin round the trak...lol... we have free time at p.e now... lol.. it was great! lol... o.. ok the one thing that got me mad 2day.... was my boy friend, codie lee (it'll be 2 weeks 2morrow byt he way... and we NEVER talk any more.. and its upsettin me!!!) but 2day i came and asked him if it was still ok to bring him baloos for his birthday 2morrow (his bday is on christmas)... and he asked me.. WHY?? i told him b/c i wont get 2 see u on ur bday and wanna give em 2 u 2morow.... and he was like... well.. yea i will c u on my bday... i told him.. NO i wouldnt... tis christmas buddy.. im wit family..lol i wont BE here.... and he kepts sayin i could just see him on his bday.. wen i CANT.... so now im like ok screw it.. u dont WANT the baloons.. i aint gettin crap 4 ya.... u lost ya chance buddy....2 late now! and well... w/e.... i might be spendint he night at samantha's house 2morrow after skool... which will be kool.. get 2 no her better.... i dont no her very well.. but i dunno cuz like i ahve my relatives form england over, so i dunno wat they gonna say.... o welz... i been gettin al my lil mini xmas presants ready... and studyin 4 my science exam and babysittin y lil bay cousin... ahhhhhhh! too much in one man! lol.... but im in a good mood.... NUTHIN happened 2do wit guyz beside the codie thing.... :*(...o welz... i got so much goin on neways...lol! well i think im gonna go...got a ltot o do.. i need 2 study 4 science (even tho i ahve NO clue WAT 2 study, he BARELY wnet over it... and only went over it 2day.. ONE day b4 the exam.. how freekin messed up is THAT??? lol well.. toodlez babez... luv ya all... mwa mwa xoxox ~*~Caroline~*~

Dec 20th 2001

heeeeeeeeey wooooah 2day i was hyper...lmao.. my day started out waaay funny and got better!!! lol.. fiiiirst i missed the bus!! lmao!!! so i came 2 skool late... begginin of first period..(missed home room man! :*( lolz! the best period of the day!) and the second i got in the classroom.. iw as surrouded by ppl talkin 2 me... sayin all this still... i ahve 2 bags of things already...lol.. it was kool...i luved the attention man! lol! i have no prob sayin i luv the attention..lol i liek attention.. i seak it man! lol! 2day was great... really... every1 was happy.. we were all excited and in a good mood... candice loved her xmas presant!! which i was happy bout.. i wasnt too sure.... and i loved the shirt she got me! its so0o0o awsome! thank you candice!!!! lol.. and i no all that trouble u wnet trho to get it too! lol!... i love christmas.... every1 is so happy.... like even if sumthing bad happens..its almost like it dont matter.... its a happy time of year... and joyful.... it make su feel warm inside... and happy to b givin... not just recievin.... nice 2 see so many people smile.... sumtiems i feel like i dont see enoguht smilin... or even DO enough smiling.. but this time of the year.. i no i will... its nice! i gave tim a christmad card....he made fun of me wen i gave it to him.... i was bout to take it bak... he was all bein sarcastic..awww how sweeeeet..... nice to no u care... in that stupid sarcastic way.... it didnt piss me off... it upset me... we NEVER talk at ALL anymore.. iw as tryin 2 me nice, show i didnt 4get him.... and he wants to be mean about it.... screw him....maybe i should ahve 4gotten him! lol.. but no... its christmas... omg... kayla so0o0o0o0o got me a christmas balloon!!!!! part of my christmas presnat!!! cuz i was sayin how i neevr got any baloons on my bday.... so she got me one 4 christmas... that was really nice 2....lol... it made me laugh...lmao... i got a lot of canidy... gave even MORE candy...lol.. candys the bomb baby! lol... oh yea..... samantha got me a really pretty necklace 2!!! thatw as so0o0o sweet of her! thank u gurl! oh yea.... i ended up givin codie his christmas presant.... i dunno if he liekd it or not.... my guess... not... he didnt get me anything.. and actually he didnt even say HI 2 me the entire day UNTILL i gave him his presant...which upset me.... and THEN... he got his presant taken AWAY from him!!!!! so he dotn even HAVE it!!! thats messed up.. i apid good freekin moeny 4 that... and they take it away and wont give it bak...! UGH!!!!!!! lol... i love my balloon... and i LOVE my dhirt.... and i love everythin esle...lol.. hey amanda.... u liek ur balloons???? u gotta luv em man! lol!!! well i hope ya do! sry i didnt have em at skool.. as ya saw.. i had 2 much!!! lol....well... i think im gonna BoUnCe outta here..... NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!!! (well 4 like 2 weeks...lol!) mwa mwa xoxox luv u all... happy holidays!!! :) *Caroline*

Dec 30th 2001

hey.. woooah i got a lot of catchin up 2 do....ok.. ive been pretty busy (right samantha lol) since the break.. wit my family here n all... but ive had more good times than bad times in the past week and a 1/2 then i have ina lo0o0ong time....b4 christmas i didnt see any of the guyz once.. it was kinda wierd.. and..quiet...lol... but yea... lets start with christmas... it was wonderful.. i always love it no matter wat... im just always happy... well every1 is really:) i got a whole bunch of new clothes... 8 new items in fact.... includin a lil white cover-up that i can use to cover my shirts cant wear to skool, a pair of the cutest jeans! and 6 new shirts!!! wo0o0o ho0o0 baby!!! lol.. im gonna be goin bak 2 skool in january.. .. wit a new wardrobe baby!!!! lol.... i also got a necklace form Tifany's.. which i was told was a really famous expensive jewlry store its a heart shape... and its georgous! i love it! i havnt aken it off since! lol.. o yea... christmas night matt andy and alex came 2 my house... that was relaly nice.. i hadnt seem then since skool got out... and they coe and see me on xmas.... that made my xmas even ebtter then b4...matt and alex came bak lata that night and we walked around the neiborhood 4 bout 45 minutes... thats all i could stand cuz it was f*ck!n FREEEEEZIN out there... bloddy hell it was cold! and it was drizzlin too.. YUCK! but i had fun... it was nice to see them after all that....:) ummmmmm.... also that night matt called me 4 the first time... we talked..... and he invited me to go to the mall wit him the next day.... so the day after christmas i went to the mall wit matt andy alex samantha and courtney.... it wasnt wat i expected.... but a lot happened... samantha had been goin out wit alex... and they broke up... samantha wouldnt kiss alex cuz she new that was the only reason he was goin out wit her, so he thinks she is straight.... alex and danielle were all ova eachother, so samantha got pissed and alex broke up wit her.. samantha was about to beat alex and danielle up.... so was courtney..lol.. to much 4 u 2 handle? lol same here! so then matt and samantha were all flirty.... so was matt and courtney.... alex and danille were 2getha.. o...look.. i ahve...? o yea no1.. i talked 2 andy some.. then the rest of the time i was wit samantha.... isaw tyler there 2... but i dint talk 2 him....o yea.... while on the subject of tyler.... a few days after we got out of skool... i went to finish my xmas shoppin and got tyler his glasses like i promised him... wrapped em up and walked his house and agve it to him (he wasnt home tho so i gave em 2 his sister).... ummmmm....most of my frinedz seems 2 have had a wonderful break 2.... and a lot of em got cell fones 2...lol kool kool... after xmas saw a lot more of the guyz i think.... which was cool.. i really enjoy hangin out wit them...sometimes i enjoy it more then sum gurlz.. gurlz r more jugemental of eachother.. guyz.. u just TALK 2...lol!! its fun....ummmmmmm.....on december 27th i spent a lot of the day wit matt and alex.... then matt suggested me and him (and alex 2 since he was at matts house) go to the movies.. it was a thursday which i thought was weird... but sure i'll go tot he movies... s my mum took me matt alex and andy came 2 all 2 the movies... we were gonna watch joe somebody we decided and since we were earlier, we all went to taco bell 2 eat first.. dat was fun.... the movies was boring kinda... sum parts were funny.. but not enough that i wanan see it again...so that was fun.....the next day i didnt see them... but me candice yvette and kara all got 2getha at stephs house 4 a movies night.... and we watcher pearl harbor.... OMG i BAWLLED in hat movie!!!! its so0o0o0o freekin sad!! but its got to be one of the BEST movies 2!!!! i HAVE 2 buy it!!! that was a LOT of fun 2... watchin a sad movie wit all my wonderful frinedz.. eatin popcorn.... it was nice... it was also the first time ive been invited really so sumthin liek that this year wit them... usually they all get 2getha... and im not invited... but i WAS this time... and im glad...:) its a nice feelin 2 no ur included....DECEMBER 29TH 2001.... the 4 month ANNAVERSARY of Women Against Man Whores!!!!! HEEEEEEEEELL yea!!!!! and not only that.... but it was the LAST w.a.m.h day of this year!!! and dont u no we did sumthin that night!!!! we candice and steph met up and candice's (only us 3 could come) and we celebrated it BIG time!!! red, yellow orange, white pink and purple (white pink and purple r femine colors) were EVERYWHERE... junk food we ate.... man whore stories that we lived thro... were told.... items that reminded us of wen we were a victim of a man whore.... were shown.... songs... that inpowered GIRLS.... were played.... a list of the top 5 man whores we know... were told by us each individually (by the way... alex arguailus.. u have been crowned.. KING OF MAN WHORES!!! congratulations!) and it was an all around... GIRLS KICK ASS AND WE HATE MAN WHORES kindda night.... and boy am i damn proud to ahve been there.. that night to live it!!! we had more planned 4 the guyz that night... but it bak-fired... so yea...ummmmmm.... o yea.... one last thing b4 i end this crap up....lol.... word goin round is that matt and samantha mgiht go out....?!?!?! so0o0o.. who knows... stay tuned.. 4 further updates! lol... well this is faaaaaaar by too long...lol.. told ya its been a lot this christmas break!!! lol... i hope u all had a merry christmas.. a happy new year... and dont 4get that new years resolution!! lol mwa mwa good night every1......... sweet dreams! xoxox

Jan 8th 2002

heeeeey peoplez!!! its bak 2 skool... o damn...lol... the first day bak 2 skool was yesterday actually... and i was like seriosuly hyper... i guess a lil too hyper and annoyin to my friendz... i didnt mean it.... sorry.... but then again...its not all about me so OFF that subject....ummmmm kelly and robert broke up 2day....jenna and jared went out 4 a couple days... and broke up 2day... first she said it was cuz she didnt feel right.. but turns out it was cuz she liekd sum1 else..o welz...poor him... *tear tear* lol..newayz... nicole and zack r goin out.... kool kool.. i am sure alex is mad...lol...o well bout time he got ova her...lol.... but its not my place to say....so0o0o....considerin skool has only bein goin on 2 like 2 days.. its been quit interesting.... traven movies to our neighborhoodand is now on our bus...lol..kool i guess.. wlel i no SUM ppl like it...lmao....riiiiight...if ur readin dis and ur wit me on da bus.. you no who u r...lmao!!!! neways.... ummmmm..... wesley moved to our p.e class 4th period... tyler is now im the same period. he dont have my class tho.... courtney switched out of 6th per journalizm and left me and amanda!! wats up wit dat gurl?!?! lol... well....ummmmm i wasnt in the BEST of best moods 2day...o0o0o yea my muchy (steph..lol inside joke ok...) is goin out wit tim..yaaaay muchy yay!!! go steph go! get ya mac on...lol..nEwAaAaA.....ummmm..actually now im writtin.. NuThIN is goin on... id write a lil more about me.... but acordin to every1... its not about me...so0o0o i just wont.....to keep others happy...so0o0o peace out babez.... have fun bak at skool..lmao THATS a laugh...lol..... im outty!! mwa mwa xoxox *Caroline*

Jan 9th 2002

heeeeeeeeey everyone!!! wasssssssssssssup?? lol... 2day was pretty good... ummmm GuEsS wAt???? i am now officailly SINGLE!!!!!! wooooooo hooooo lol.... lol.. i broke up wit codie lee 2day.....lemme tell u sumthin.... i wish i ahdnt.. now we rnt frinedz... ic alled him my best friend b4.. i no we wernt really... but at lest we were friendz... now... we dont ever talk!!! i makes me sad! i lost my friend cuz i went out wit him.... we went out 4 a month and 6 days... and didnt talk at all... we used to talk a lot b4 we went out (if u read my earlier journal entried.. u would ahve seen that) o welz... hopfully it'll go bak 2 normal...lol.... ummm.. newayz....ummmmmmm nuthin really happened 2day...lol... not that i cant think of neways... o0o0o0o yea.... GUESS who decide "oh i think i might write caroline a note 2day"? tim!!!! i havnt talk 2 him seriosuly in 4ever... i cant ever remember.... but hey....lol... him and my muchy steph are goin out... i just hope he treats her well..he had BEST.. cuz NO ONE messes wit my muchy.. or ANY of my frinedz 4 that matter!!!! so0o0 yea..... steph seems happy:) go0o0o0o0o muchy!!!!! lol *hehe* hey steph *JUST DONT FALL!!!!!* lmao!!!! hahaha and remeber-"heeeeeey tim... ::STUMBLE:: ::CRASH:: ::FALL:: lololol carefull of those shoes! lol! neways..... yea the main thing of my day was that im now single.... altho therse a certain sum1 "I WANT!!!!" lol riiiiight .....lol i still cant belive i yelled that in the halls candice! *hehe* o0o0omg...i got an A in p.e.. i freekin luv p.e! lol..hahahahahah ev at p.e... its kinda like FREEEEEZING outside right now.. so 4 p. yvette was wearin pants...and we were yellin across to candice's gym class talkin... then she was sayin she was gonna take her pants off "and twist em round ur head liek a hellicoptor"?!?! lol so0o she pulled em down (**SHE HAS SHORTS UNDERNEATH**) and the group of guyz behind us wen we turned around we all NOT playin baskettball anymore... but they couldnt ahve their mouths any more wide open!!! lmao!!! it was so0o0o0o0o funny! they were like..omg! and sayin to take em off!! lol wat perves! lol jk....lololololololol... go0o purply!!! well....dats it 4 now i think.. i think thats all i can think of! lol.... so0o0o mwa mwa...lots of luv 2 ya.... xoxo bye *Caroline*

Jan 10th 2002

today was an extreamly extreamly bad day....and right now i dont CARE how bad my day was, or how im feeling b/c it is my friendz that need support form me right now. candice-everythin will be ok.. things COULD ahve been so0o0o much worse..im here 4 ya if ya ned sum1..ok? stephanie....-dont worry bout tim. he got himself into this mess... he will be ok...and so will u and him. he DOES like u a LOT dont worry so much! promise :) incase anyone DOESNT no wat happened at skool 2day which im sure most of u do... and as much as i REALLY dont want t talk about it... this is my diary and im supposed to... tim got in a fight today at lunch and is now suspended for a week.. we al thoguht it was gona be worse than that... but he's lucky i guess. ok: this is wat i ahve been told happened... joey (the other kid involved) went to hit tim (the fight had apparently been arranged b4 hand) and joey missed. so tim got pissed off and whacked him good and made him bleed. so joey went to the clinic.. im not sure if he ok... but b/c he took the first hit he got 2 weeks suspention.... i dont really no wat to say about this. i really dont... i dont no wat to say.. i dont no wat to think... or do...i just...DONT no.... and all my friendz are having a bad week..so i CANT be sad right now.. i ahve to be strong 4 my friendz... just as im sure they would 4 me....this whole thing... is just...omg.... i... i really dont no...just.... ugh... ok.. let me think if there is any other news... samantha and alex are goin out.. which i NO makes samantha happy... lol right samantha? lol u go gurl! get ya mac on...lol.... omg.. i ALSO found out that kayla was talkin 2 codie lee anpit me... and she asked him if he still liekd me and he DOES... so i now feel REALLY bad....and i just wanan TALK 2 him again.... things r way messed up between me and him now.... i hope maybe some day we talk again.. and then who noes maybe wat will happen wit me and him.... but i like seriosuly MISS him... every time i see him i wnaan say "heeey best friend" but i dunno if i should.... like wat he will say or think now...? UGH!!! well i dunno wat else to talk about 2day was a bad day and im NOT in any mood 2 type much.. im supprized i typed this much so far... i try 2 smiel and think good things.. i cant... im just so0o0o confussed now... i no i've got my friendz to talk to... but i need to focuz on comdortin THEM and NOT me right now.... in some ways i feel a need a guy i can talk 2.... i remember alwasy havin one.... now i dont... i dunno....i just dont have any answers any more... things in life sure can bak-stab u so quickly cant they?.... ur hole world can change in matters of seconds..... well...bye... hope every1's day was better then mine...*Caroline*

jan 14th 2002

hey every1... things ahve gotten better since i last typed.... im still a lil confussed about things.... but hey.... u cant always no wat do to...can ya? lets see... this weekend i was pretty much doin nuthin cuz i had to do my science fair project... Junior Royalty pageant was saturday..c andice was it is.. she didnt win... and the gurl that did.. did NOT deserve to win at ALL.... but candice did really well.... *GO CANDICE* ummmm sunday matt and alex came ova 4 a while... then tommy zack and jared came ova 4 a lil while.... dats it... o then matt and alex came BAK that night.... after a conversation we had online where i singed off... so they came ova...but neways.... 2day at skool.... was.. well...skool...lol... it wasnt the best day but it wasnt bad either i guess....? omg guess wat? HEEEEEEEY WESLEY!!!! u no i still luv ya... !!!!! lol... this betta??? :) *hehe* o yea... u go boy shakin ur butt!! hahaha dont listen 2 candice hahaha .... ummmm i found out im extreamly quiet at lunch.. i kinda really hate lunch now... i used ot luv it... and now i dont?!?! lol... but i DO luv p.e!!! like no joke... i seriosuly can not wait 4 p.e... and i a NOT an athletic person at ALL!!!! i hate participatin.. but i have fun at p.e!! ummmm... i miss codie lee so0o0o0o muchh..... i wish we still talked.... like really.... its werid... we r not reallllly best frineds.. but i dunno.... wen we dont talk it truly makes me so sad.... i cant stand me and him not talkin.... ok... enough of that..... mmmmhhhh.... wat else happened? nuthin....lol... well mwa mwa evey1... xoxo bye *Caroline*

january 23rd 2002

yea yea yea i no ur all thinkin ive abandond you... how did ur lives go on w/out this?!?! lol jk.... neways.... i have been EZTREAMLY busy this weekend.. its also been one of the BEST weekends... the funniest and also.. the scariest...lol....well b4 i tell u this weekends news i'll give ya an update.... steph and tim ARE still goin out after all the confussion they went thro... they both seem really happy now.. which is awesome! candice and nathen r hooked up now (FINALLY!!! lol) and we can ALL tell they like eachother a LOT.... every1 gettin hooked up lol.. and im now begginin to get ova that "i wanna stay single stage" lmao I WANT A BOY FRINED!!!! but wateva... its not gonnna happen 4 a while.... i had 3 guyz on my list.... im down 2 just 2 of em.... and i told one of them (the one ive liked all year.... a LOT) i confessed to him that i really liked him.... and then singed off line... and all he ever said was "why did u sign off line" and hats it.... he said later he wants to b single.... which i no is his way of turning me down nicly.... but we r still good frinedz.. and thats how i would like it to stay.. cuz hes an awesome guy and kool to hang out wit... as a frined.. :) ummmmm yea ev LOVES burger king... lmao right???? yummy!!! lol... i dont tho... haha neways... yea evey1 gots their b/f's... i can tell they gonna last thro valentines too... im gonna b single... AGAIN for the 14th year in a row.... lmao how PATHETIC am i??? haha.. so im gonna wear black.... haha... seriosuly! report cards came out 2day.... ummmm lets say my dad is home and i havnt broke the news to him yet.....lol.. 3 A's and 3 B's.... the WORST report card i ahve gotten in my life.... and my parents are gonns seriosuly FLIP OUT wen they see it. A in p.e science and History and a B in math language and journalism. the journalism one im so0o0o pissed about!!! me and amanda are just bout the ONLY ones who feekin DO andthin in that class.... and we have a B?!?!/ all i ahve to say is if i find sum1 got a better grade then me... im gonns SCREAM!!! UGH.... math and language i new i had a B.. but math was almost gonna be a C.. but i got a high A on the exam s he bought it up... YAY? so i think i worked my butt off in math 2... and i tried in language.... so wateva...!! yesterday i was sick so i didnt go to skool.. im still sick actually... but i went ot skool neway b/c we r doin these highskool papers..selecting wat we are goin 2 do for highskool...its scarry.... like they r all talking about drivin (which i cant WAIT 2 do lol) and COLLEDGE and jobs and workin n crap... and.. i 14 YEARS OLD!!!! i dont WANNA b thinnkin bout graduation and workin and coledge.. i wanna have FUN.... hang out.... enjoy life while im still young!! wateva happend to that sayin?!?! lol... this is so0o scarry and stressful... uggggh!! not wat i need right now! a lot of things r goin on.... and its all GOOD things for my friendz.... so im happy 4 them.... yet... i feel like.... im not sure... nuthin good can come out of wats goin on... o welz... i dont care right now.. too many other thigns to be thinkin about! plus bein sick dont help! lol well im gonna tell u bout my adventurous weekend wen i ahve less to talk about (cuz belive me.. u'll wanan read this... its was I-N-T-E-R-E-S-T-N-G!!!! lol well i'll talk 2 u all lata.... mwa mwa xoxo bye *Caroline*

January 25th 2002

omg... i think i just saw the best movie in the entire world... like seriously NO joke... A Walk To Remember!!!! it was the most sweetest... romantic...saddest.. BEST movie i ahve EVER seen.... and i thought Pearl Harbor was sad... and i thought i cried in that movie!!!! good lord was i wrong!!! NUTHIN compared to a walk to remeber....omg.. it was froma book.. an das most teenagers do.. i HATE reading... i have betetr thigns 2 do.. wle i dont care.. i am READIN this book!! omg.... u have NO idea... it was just.... unexplainable.... but it now makes the fact of me not having any one (espesially wit valentines day coming up) makes me seeeeeeriously depressed!!! oh my..... ugh.... i want wat the gurl had in that movie more then anything.... and when u r like me and dont even ahve anyone TOO f*ckin like.... ugh.. im gonna stop.... 2day at skool was..... well... ok BAD...lol.... ummm i wasnt in a good mood at all 2day and i HATE lunch.... i seriosuly do.... im not gonna even explain why i hate lunch.. im leavin it at that.. i ahte it.. and this is the first time EVER ive not liked lunch.... p.e was kinda fun... we r playin tennis...with out the racketts..lol if that makes sence well who cares if it dont cuz thats wta we r playin... neways me and yvette are on the same team and we WON all 3 of our games!!! wo0o0o ho0o0o0o!!! dont try us and our tennis skills!! o0o yea!! lol.... ummmmmmmmmm 6th period was ok i guess.... me and amanda just walked around singin "i like big butts" lmao thats so0o the best song!!! ummm yea thats all that happened 2day that ic an think of.... bad day really.. bad mood.... i just wanted 2 get away form every1.... ive been like that 4 a while... just.. things in general.. make me mad... sometimes not mad... almost... upset... i dunno wat.. its stupid.... ugh... well im gonna bounce outta here.... xoox bye

Feb. 1st 2002

ahhhh.... this past week has been.... a challenge.... candice has had to go to texas for bout a week.... her g-ma passed away.... im sure u can imagine.... but i think 4 her sake im gonna get off that subject.... stephanie found out she is moving... and SOON.. AHHH no more muchy on the bus!!! no0o0o0o0o!!!! ugh.. that sucks so0o0o much!!! valentines day os coming up..... i ahve 2 friendz who r goin 2 be extreamly lucky on valentines day..... they r lucky to have thier guyz.. who tye like and that like them bak.. and treat them well... canidce and stephanie.... im jelous lol.... i am still planning to wear all black on v-day.... showin me and my SiNgLe self... UGH..... well i guess i got no1 to like... i dont like anyone. so why should i have sum1 liking me? altho im buyin one lil dude a flower..lol (look at the same and there is a hit who it is lmao) but not cuz i like him liek that...lol long story, insdie joke :) oh my... yesterday we had a test in language... on the book Night... lol woah did i fail... again she wanted us 2 remeber the smallest stupidest details!!! o welz she can kiss my butt lol.... ummm other than the major sad thigns.... nuthin has happened this week.... i me and yevette r hopin to dress brett and maybe alex up as girls 2morrow!!! lmao!!! but they get to dress us up as boyz.. hahahha this is gonna be so0o0o0o fun!!! well.... im gonna go.. cuz its like 12 am and im way tired now...lol.. sry this was boring but... i am not in the best of moods 4 typin right now

Feb 18th 2002

hey there..... im kinda hoping that since i havnt been writting in this 4 such a long time that no one i know reads this anymore...... so0o much has happened.. well actually i think actually nuthing has happend... but its been a while since ive writtin in here.... i hope wat i say next... no1 reads....but i have to say it.. to let it out....oh man.. where to start.... well.... altho nuthin ever happens anymore.. it seems as thought my whole world has changed... the sad part is that unfortunatly it hasnt changed for the good... and the only other option is that it could ahve changed 4 the worst... and thats exactly how my life has gone 4 id say the past month or so.....i have lost my frinedz.... but i havnt lost em in a fihgt.. or a argument... or anything... but one of the worst way i can think of.... and thats 2 guyz..... i guess i cant compete wit the love those guyz give my frinedz.... it seems all life is about ow if havin a boyfrined or a gurlfrined..... and im the one who doesnt ahve anyone.... not only that but i dont ahve anyone to like.... i had 2 but one is another problem now and the other is always mad at me..... and dont think he likes me bak... just flirts wit me i guess...just typing this is makiin my tear up..... i have cried more since friday ngiht... (also my party... another thing) than i ahve this whole year im begginin to think..... the pathetic thing is im being so damn selfish.. there r people who ahve real problems and im sittin here complain about THIS shit??? how narrow minded of me... and yet... its killing me inside. sum of how i feel i cant even explain..... i dont ahve ne1 to talk 2..... i feel as tho ive been left alone n this world wit no1 2 talk to or trun to... i ALWAYZ had my firnedz.... now im alone and i dont no where to go or wat to do except keep it inside of me.... i had my valentines day aprty on friday... it was the gayest.. most homosexual party ever... and every1 there can agree.... lets say it was so gay... IIIII left... i ran down my block.. away form the world.... i couldnt handle it.. i told every1 to leave and not follow me..... i got out of my circle i live in and tyler ran up to me..... i let him stay.... but he ran to get his bike so he didnt have to run lol.... and came bak 2 me..... i was at a time that i felt that was the sweetest and best thing that had happened at my party all night.. even tho i wanted ot be alone.. he dared to "resue" me.... and chased after me... it was the first time i had smiled that whole night..... he stayed wit me as i walked down my road.... for a while.... then more ppl began to come after me.. i told tyler i didnt want to talk 2 them.. so he rode down and told them to leave..... unfortuantly they wouldnt listen. tyler stayed there talkin 2 them.... and brett came up to me..... i had already had tears in my eyes wen walkin wit tyler... and as brett and every1 came closer i ran... it seems like 4ever i ran.. altho i no i didnt..... i felt wen i was running as tho the world was blurring and fading away.... i was free form the world.... then i stopped.... and found brett still walkin to catch up wit me...... again..... so sweet! i sat at the edge and droped a few tears..... the whole night of my party i felt as tho i was standing there where every1 can see me.. SCREAMIN wit all my power... and not a soul there eve hinched to look up at me.. thats how my life is..... EVERY day at skool... i walk alone in the halls.... i sit at the end of the lunch table saying not a word.... in class.... i sit there.... (not listen to the teacher either lol... just... thinking....) i walk off form my frinedz every day... goin thro the day.... wit barley a word bein spoken..... the only time of day i talk is 6th period.... an di talk 2 amanda..... she knows a lot o wats goin on..... which is nice.... i was thinkin 2day..... how... things alwasy change..... thigns were different at the begginin of the year and even like from then to my birthday things had changed... in jr high.. things change so much in such little time.. and i no ahve said this a million times.. BUT i also realized..... ocne things change.... they NEVER go bak to bein the same....i ahve been liek this and felt like this 4 a month now.... if things never go bak to being the same.... am i goin to be liek this 4ever??? the res tof the yr am i goin to be alone... no1 to talk 2.... now 2 relieve my feeling and pressure from...? walk the halls alone... and sit as tho im not there at lunch.. is this how my life os goin to be....? am i NEVER goin 2 be happy again???? i cant remeber wat it feels lik to be truly happy any more..... happiness isnt in me anyore and ive given up in tryin to be happy.... it always leads to me being sad....one of my best frinedz is now goin out wit matt..... kelcey murry..... not only r they goin out.. but guess who was right on the middle of it.. hookin them up..... ur kidna dum if u havnt guessed it yet...lol... me.... IIII had to send messages to them both form one another... i had to listen to them talk about eachother and such crap..... ever had a frined stab u in the bak like that.. w/out them even knwoin of it...? dont le tit happen.... its worse then them knowin they stabbed u in the bak.. belive me.. ive experienced both....wat makes it worse is that all my friendz r on her side about this whole thing...... and are all happy 4 her n junk.. dont get me wrong shes one of my best frnedz and i luv her as one 2..... and im extreamly happy 4 her 2.... but still.... is the whole world blind of any of my feelings and existance..... cuz im beggin to wonder if so.... im not sure wat my world has come to..... but its aweful.... and i dont no how to get out... i think im so deep in.. ic ant get out... i dunno if i ever can.... and wen u ahve no1 to help pull u out... it dont help either..... there is one person who alwasy comes to my min first wen i feel i need sum1 to talk 2... timothy david destino........ he was my ultimate friend who i told my heart and soul 2... i told him stuff i neevr told ne1 else in the enite world.... he was my soul frined who i trusted my life with.... and sum how one day... i let him slip..... and its een so long since weve talked... even if i got the courage to call him..... i couldnt... its been to long.... but the thoguht of lettin all this out to him.... sounds like nuthin ic an think of better than that.... i think.. that would honestly make me.. happy..... ive never had a frined like him...... and hes now gone..... him and stap r still 2getha by the way.... and yvette and zack r goin out.... lizzy and alex r goin out... lol therese ur "whos wit who" update lol..... well its kinda late..... and i go skool 2morrow... (we had today off 4 presidents day.....) so i'll ttyl... who knows wen....xoxo bye wit much love alwayz.... *Caroline*

ferbruary 27th 2002

hey there... ive come o realize how pathetic i really am to ahve an online diary..... and even more pathetic that sumtimes its the only way i can get my feelings out.... another thing ive coem to realize in the world..... one of the worst feelings i can tink of... is the feeling of being lonely.... and of course... cuz im me.... i have to whitness it. as i sit ehre writting this, i can think of only a couply friendz i now have that r gurls.... amanda and stephanie are my ultimate friendz who i tell everythign to right now.... kidna sad huh??? i was left to find others to sit with at lunch.... to talkl to in the halls.... p.e.... class.... u name it..... im in the finding of a new life i gues su can say..... and the worst part is i dont no wat happened.... if one hates me (which was candice) then they ALL ahve to.... it doesnt matter if they agree to be mad at me no matter wat.... so bcuz one person doesnt like me.... they alld nt like me so i now ahve no1 to turn to for nething except stephanie and amanda.... and me and staph dont talk really at all during skool.... its hard....... wen i first movied to plant city i was liek the happiest me i ahd ever whitnessed.... i seriously had never been so happy in my life... espesially with all the movin n junk..... the thoiguht of moving away from plant city killed me..... i thought i had the perfect lfie here... the ultimate bestest friendz.... guyz... guy frinedz... family and then my health..... nuth could possibly ever go wrong wit that picture now could it??? i WISH.... my life is upside down since then..... and all so suddenly to... i have gotten way more guy frinedz..... and at the same time lost of the gurls for my friendz.....the guyz LOVE who i have become and they r awesome friendz..... and the gurlz just hate me. and as far as im concerned... chicks b4 dicks.... if only my friendz thoght the same way. i would rather die for my best friend... then any boy ever. friendz r (suposidy) 4 life.... boyz get some then ditch you..... havin tru friendz is more important than anything......without my friendz... im nothing. i think one thing that makes me happy now has happend..... sumthin i talked about in my last entry... tim.... we talk now.... i dont no if u understand how happy i am that we r talking now.... altho we dont talk a lot.... we write notes occasionally and i have talked to him on the fone once... it wasnt for long but it was wonderful. even tho not a lot was said..... just talkin to him made me feel so much better... like if i can accomplish that (talkin to him FINALLY after more then 4-5 months) then anythign CAN be possible in this world..... im happy to no if all else fails in this world.... just maybe.... i'll still have him as my friend. candice used to be the person i told everything to.... them she would tlel the rest so every1 knew.... i confined my lfie to her everything..... i remeber we would ahve hour on end conversations that we so deep and if u read them u would feel there was so much luv in the friendship.... it was the best feeling ever. she understood me more then any person i had ever talked to..... each frenid in that group had a special place in my heart.... she was my listener... my helper.... she alwasy new at to say and do... the best advice.... and her poems she wrote all the time made me cry each time... shes gifted.... she gave me a poem 4 christmas..... i BALLED 4 ever reading it... funnily enough its about our friendship...... which brings me 2 tears now. she is the ne who started bein mad at me first and got ev to start ingoring me 2... and kelcey. yvette.... i ahve very class wit her except 5th and 6th. we were always 2gether and alwasy craking up about sumthing.... one day traven asked yvette how long we had been friendz and wen she said only since ths year he did not belive her..... like no joke.... she was alwasy my purply.. i was her pinky. class could never been the same without her. if i wanted a laugh... id go to her. im not sure wats goin 2 happen at p.e w/out her.... im sure she will have candice.... stephanie.... we actually wernt AS close of friendz untill now... shes my muchy all the way. i thin sumtimes she understands me so well cuz shes goin thro the same kidna feelin as me... even tho she is still apart of their group..... she, like canidce... alwasy knows wat to say. shes wonderful... truly wonderful. if i dies 2morrow i would be satisfied that even tho she was my oly freind really... i wouldnt mind so much cuz its her... ands shes one heck of a wonderful frined. THANK YOU STEPHANIE!!!!! wow... ive gone on 4ever and yet i feel so much more.... how can ne1 read this crap?!?!?! loli eat lunch with brett ryan grey tommy and greg (is that it?? seems lik more wen i got them gained up on me throwin fries down my shit lol).... and i have more fun wit them then i did ever be4 at lunch... b4 i alwasy had to try... try to fit in.. try and be in the middle of a convo... and its so hard to wen u r forced to the end of the table..... i felt i alwasy had to try and make them happy.... if i didnt... they would get mad at me or think i was bein mean or stupid and i hated it cuz they were my best frinedz..... i guess tryin never helped me be accepted by the only ppl i wanted to be accepted by... i didnt care wat every1 else thoguht about meas long as i had that group of frinedz i was happier then nething...... i guess now i have to acrry on making life as good as i can.... if its all i ahve then y not?? i dont like bein this deeply sad.... it kills me..... i guess i need to stop beinso rediculous and realize there is more to life then frinedz.. i ahve my health and family....thats all that matters...... right? i do have a b/f now... greg... which makes me happy.. we dont no eachother that well but i dont care..... u no wat?? im gonna go..... this is stupid.....ttyl xoxo bye *caroline*

March 1st 2002

hey there.... iight i just spent 45 minutes typing an entry 4 today... givin wat happened 2day in GREAT detail.... however my internet is gay and disconnected andit didnt save... so0o0o.... basically all u need to know if i am the happiest i ahve been in so0o0o0ooo long..... i creid 4ever at candcie hosue and we r now frinedz and i hope it stayes that way 4ever!!! i think everythign between us all is ok now.... well i no im not goin to go bak 2 skool on tuesday and everythign will be perfect... i give it abuot a week and hope everything IS how it used to be. GOOODNESS i feel WONDERFUl.... as tho sum1 has lifetn a heavy weight off of me... u ahve NO idea how happy i am... i am actually... "HAPPY"... oh my goodness.... i have felt the joy of happiness.... now i hope hings stay tis way... 4 a lo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0ong time....as in 4ever... :) maybe sum time wen i feel like it... i'll explain wat happened... cuz belove me... after 2dat... i LEAST suspected THIS would happen.... u have NO idea!!!! so i'll leave now... but at least u all no now i am finlly peaceful and "happy"!!! much luv always... *Caroline*.... p.s THANK YOU STEOHANIE (my better half... muchy!) i LOVE YOU!!!!! :) te amo!! (???) lol

March 2nd 2002

hey there... i just got up so i dont have ne news to really tell u... but i wanted to put this poem on here that candice wrote me a few weeks ago and gave to me yesterday after everythign that had happened at skool..... it's basically... perfect..... so here:

Things may be rough

and you feel your world start to fade

and in your heart you know

there's no way you can handle it all.

the world is spinning fastly

there's hardly time for you to think,

surely a tearwould fall

if you even paused to blink.

your heart is getting heavey

with so much hurt and so much pain.

your life feels so crazy

you try to stay so sane

its hard to be happy

when inside you feel so down.

you cannot seem to smile

your face knows nothing but a frown

you feel so alone

as if no one could give a care

i promise you you're wrong,

it's just that lifes so unfair.

when you feel defeated

and you can't even seem to win

you're sure it's the bottom

untill it all goes wrong again

the moment you need someone the most

they seem to turn away

and everyone leaves you

when you need them to stay

that's the game of life

and to win you have to fight

remeber who loves you

and everythign will be alright!

there... thats it... it makes me cry typing it geeez! thank you canidice.... i love it! well im gonna go... ttyl xoxo bye every1! *Caroline*

may 24th 2002

wow talk about long time to writting....its been...wat....almost 3 months? man does time fly....well im sorry i stopped writtin in here.... but i just felt that my life becomes to personal.... my feelings were feeling i didnt wanna expres...or have the world knwo about..... and i dotn care if u guys all think im a drama queen...or that im suposidly a whore to everyone....i react on thigns i feel i need to cuz they hurt me or have an impact on me....and i cant be a whore when there r girls in out own skool ahve gone further tham me... all i ahve ever done is make out....ok.... well enough of that.... 2night was the 8th grade dance.... it was iight i suppose.... i guess bein sick doent make a whole lot of anything be fun.... i guess i was expectin a lil more... altho im happy 2 say everyone else had a wonderful time...and danced with their guys....for tomlin..it sure wasnt bad! lol....but my feet r killin me! i think i speek for every toehr girl there lol.... ummm...well....its comin to the end of the year and its kidna stressfull.... i think i ahve just been around the same people for to damn long..and im ready to get OUT....most ppl r like...aww tis almost over im gonna cry...i have to say HELL YEA! summer... here i am and i am READY....yvette and candice r goin 2 Durrant next year..so we r all gonna be split up...which seriously sucks ass..... im gonna miss them both..... a lot....im not sure where im gonna be...hopfully still here in ghetto plant city...lolmay 8th was yvettes birthday...and the end of the year 8th grade field trip...which might i ad.... kicks major ass.... i had more fun that day then i had prob most of the year..it was just us girls...no worry bout guys or watever..... then we had out teams field trip to lithia...that was pretty fun too..... but cuz everyone was in abthinsuits..it was alll about guys guys guys (or girls girls girls for the guys)...but hey we r teenagers.... thats wat its all bout right?!?! lol jk final exams are comin up.... im exemptin science...and HOPEFULLY math.... but if i do... i NO im gettin a C in that class.... im not gonna start on my grades cuz apaprently im too over reacting....but im not doin so well this report card i guess u could say..... im havin an end of the year party 2morrow.... except NO one can come...they are all "not aloud" which sucks.... so its probably gonna be another lame party of mine...... but im willin to make the most of it and try n have fun....and justm aybe it will be be better then last time:) i thin in the last 3 months i havnt written in here...so much has happened that i couldnt even have the time in the world to explain everything...espesially w/out gettin emotions and over-reactin about it.....(i should probably stop mentionin that cuz that would mean im ebin over-reactive)....year books came out...finally..its aweomse and i gotta give probs on ma girls who helped the majority of it... u no who u r...im so happy...cuz i can finally say wat ive wanted to say to a lot of people lol.... the year is comin to an end...and it makes me lok back at his whole year..... its been a heck of a year.... i cant only think of bad thigns that has hapened...but i think its cuz u always seem to remeber the bad things and not the good things for some reason (cant remeber lmao)..... but its been a challengling, different, exciting year...im glad i lived it..and i leartn a lot thro it...ive come to find its a million times easier to give good advice...then take it..... and u only ever get wat u want...if u ask 4 it urself.... people cant read ur mind..... i dont really n wat else to say..... id rather people not know the inside scoop....i guess there r some thigns ment to keep to urself.... i doubt i will write in here much after this.... cuz it seems to get in me more trouble that just lettin my feelings out..... i wanna say i love all my friends you are the best....and special hey and love to my best friend....u no i love you i love you all.... thanks for this year..... God bless and smile! (therse a difference between a camera smile and a tru happy smile... the difference is quite clear if u look.... try to make every picture a tru happy smile and not "im only smiling cuz the camera is in front of my face" smile.... live life to the fullest...and take charge... DONT be a follower...... with love always.... *Caroline*

May 30th 2002

heeeeeey there everyone....I AM NOW OFFICIALLY IN HIGH SCHOOL!!!!! heel yea!!! yes...2day was the last day of school..the last day of 8th grade...the last day of hell...the last day of a life time of memories...work...stress....ups and downs....and its finally OVER!!!!! i still cant figure out wat im feeling...but right now? mostly joy and excitment. is summer for goodness sakes..WAT is sad about sleeping..and NOTHING?!?!? as the day went on...more and more people were crying.... i felt almost lke i was cold hearted,,,,i was so excited...and HAPPY....when everyonearound me was crying? why was/am i no so sad about skool ending?!?!?! i dont think it has really HIT me yet..... today for me...was the absolute perfect day of thi whole year..... i cant think of nethin i would have changed about it...i took a million pictures..oh..one think i would change?!?! bring another camera...cuz 2 was NOT enough! lol... i took picturwes with everyone and and anyone all day.... signed yearbooks...and got mine signed....it was the best. class was about 1/2 longand thats all we did in our classes...PICTURES we all loked so cute...all dressed up... it was perfect..... i said bye to everyone i wanted to say bye to....got their pictures.... it was the best.... i felt so0o0o0o close to everyone there...including all the guys...it was the best feeling.....like 2day was a closure for my year.....2day closed all my problems..allt he fights...all my worries...and im happy about it all.... 2day went exactly how i wanted it to.... it was perfect...i coudlnt ask for anythign more. i feel...im moving on wht my life....in the perfect ending. the only thing...that didnt go how i dreamed it would....... was saying good-bye to my best friend. Tim was suspended today from skool....but he came to skool in the morning neway...so i saw him b4 skool started.... we had planned to meet at taco bell after skool..so iw asnt too woried about not seeing him..and not sayin bye...but apparently i guess he got caught on skool campus when he wasnt supposed to be sicne he was suspended.....so i went to taco bell...not finding him there.....and he wont be here next year...and he lives in tampa....so...this morning b4 9 o clock...was the last tiem i ever saw my best friend. im sure i'll talk 2 him.... but i wont SEE him... i never got to say the goodbye... i had been planning to say.... but neways..... im sure by 2night..it will all hit me..and i'll start cryin...as for mnow...im so happy...ive been waitin for this day for as logn as i can remember...COUNTIN the days down lol.... have a wonderful summer everyone!!!!!! i'll miss you all...evebn tho...everyone i really wanan see...i KNOW im gonna see! lol...take care....and SMILE...NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we are FREE!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxo bye luv always *Caroline*

SEPTEMBER 25TH

OOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!11 hahahah ater HOW long??? yes i just found out that sum ppl with absolutly NO lives wats so ever lol (just kiddin guys i luv ya) still try and READ this junk ic all my diary online.....so i figured well since i still got my wonderful fans..i best start writtin in it a lil more often lol.........rnt u guys happy now? lol wow guys.....mmhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........where to start.....should i give u the over-all quick preview of the last like 6 months of my life..or wat? man........ i dunno.....lets see........IM IN HIGHSCHOOL BABY!!!!!!!! lol whoooo hooo I finally made it man! lol.....the first month of highschool was the best thing EVER......omgosh it was sooooooooooo awesome.allt hese great thigns were happening.....and stephanie introduced me to church and it totally chahnged my life...and i lvoe her so much for bringing me there....its the best feeling ever being at church its so awesome i love it. ummmmmm ive met sum really cool new people.......lets see.........luke charles kc, kyle mike steven anthony thomas, jeff(well i new him but i like got to NO him this yr lol).....ummmmm ryanh. eric.h justin.e aaron scott ben shane, kyle.b, bobby.k...yes all my new firneds r guys......how sad..lol...ive met like basically no new gurls.... of course there are still all my wonderful old tomlin people.....amanda stephanie kelcey lizzy kelsey...and the guys...brett and tommy would have to be the main...zack even tho he doesnt go to our skool...tyler.....whooo boooy.....ummmmm neways... yea ummmmm.......classes are ok..boring and i dont have a single teacher i really really like........and skool is just beggniin to bcome nuthin but stress and tests,,,the whole "whoh everythin is so new and fun in highschool" expereicne is gone........and it kdina just sucks.....i dont like skool nemore.u go.....to work...come home..work more..get deprived of sleep......and the cylce starts again. this friday is a home football game.....and its cool cuz i no like 1/2 the team....*hehe* lol ko that makes me lok conceided lol......actually i dont no how many pl i no on the team..i no more of the other team cuz they more my age.......but neways......lets see.....updates......homecoming is in 1 month 15 days......steph is goin with eric.h, amanda is goin with ZACK (whooo hooo), kelsey is goin with her b/f dan (which r so incredibly cute 2getehr DARN them! lol)...lizzy and vik...man they been 2getehr a LOOOONG time!! not fair man! lol.....kelcey is gonna go with traven if they dont have ne-1 else....eileen is goin with nathan.......ppl are so cute 2gether these days lol.......man SO many lil small details have happened this year so far and its not been long as ALL.....ive had 2 boyfriends...justin.e and tyler (yes again 4 anyone who wants to get on my bak abut it w/e i dont care........and i dont mke regretful dessisions either so w/e)..ummmmm me n justin went 4 a week and a few days i think..i broke up with him...i met him thro frnech class...hes aka as French Dude to all of ya'll lmao........and me and tyler are just a whole other thign which i dont discuss anymore with anyone....... ummmmmmmmnot much has changed really...... oh i moved into Tangle Wood..is sucks down here.....its very lonly..but mike comes to visit me wen he joggs...so its ok sumtimes........but the new hsoue is really nice and my room is oh SOO cute lol.....wow man therse like a million and one thgins i could talk about......that i dont usualy get 2 talk about......but im so tired (side affects of h/s and lack of sleep...).......man does ne1 no that thing thats wrong with u wen u have like low iron in u or something...and it makes u really tired allt he time and cold a lot.......well i think i have that...4real.....neways.....im out 4 now.but hey i gave ya'll sumthin 2 read finally lol......every1 just rememeber.............ITS A BEAUTIFUL MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRNING!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol xoxo bye luv ya all......**Caroline** p.s some time wen i have the time and effort....ima re-do all this old crap...and put a new pole in and junk....iight???keep signin the guestbook people!!!!....check out my subprofile on AIM for more updates stuff..sry if u aint have AIM.....cuz AOL dont work....and **GoD bLeSs**

September 28th

aloha every-1!!! well not eeeeeeeevvvery-1..but every1 reading this.if there are that many ppl nowadays lol. but neways........today me and amanda went to adventure island.and practically tanned for like 4 hours stright......daaang are we sooo much tanner than b4..bein tan make su feel somuch cuter! im 4real!neways.last night was our 2nd home game...yea we lsot.....we lsot baaaaaaad we kdian suck.but heey eric is on the team....**GO ERIC**!!! (#16!!!!!!!!!!!) wo0oo h0o0o0o (steph hes waaaaaaat? im sorry.....whhhhoooo?!?!) lol the game was a lot of fun.......finally met ryan ring...oh la la he looks good lol(aka zack look alike LOL).......ummmm yea the game was just a lot of fun....we went to 5th quarter afterwards...which was really cool 2..gettin to hang out with every1 from skool...but outside skool...its great! neways.....ok now i dont no wat to write about lol.....i gotta get bak into the habit of writting in here man.....well ok fine ima go 4 now..ttyl tho! well not TALK...but write....ok w/e lol xoxo bye luv always....*Caroline*

September 29th

heeeeeeeyyy.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN RING!!!!!!!!! lol told ya id remeebr! now u have to remeber when MIIINE is lol...dont wash ur hands.that way it will say so on ur hands lol! im goin to the mall 2day everyone.to help all ma gurls pick out their homecoming dresses...yay 4 them! homecoming is november 9th.....1 month 11 days away....... im just not even thinking abut it i kdina dont care right now....2day at chrch 4 sunday skool we went out to breakfast...they should lean not to feed up a bufay of breakfast food...right b4 they take us bak to church 4 worship..u NO how hard it is to stay calm and quiet with allt he sugar and engey in you?!?!?! lol ahhhhhhhhhhh......yes ive had a very packed weekend i like it this way......a good weekend..finally sumthin to get in me in a better mood than i have been recently! lol just wat i needed...a refill of hyperness! lol wow y cant i think of anything to write about? i swear my life seems so much more interesting AS its happening...i go to write about it and i go blankhomecoming is on my mind.it has been 4 a while...but there sint much to say about homecoming....i told ya who was goin with who? yea i did lol..just makin sure lol...every1 is gonna look so CUTE 2gether! wow im tired.....dang mike 4 keepin me on the phone till 12 sumthin wen i have to get up at 7 for church the next morning lol....its always the guys fault lol........yes im runnin out of thigns to say...well i ran out a long time ago lol...so im just gonna go....**hApPy BiRtHdAy RyAn**!!!!!!!!!!! hahahehe xoxo bye *Caroline*

September 30, 2002

you wanna no wat ive noticed since ive started re-writtin in this diary more ofetn.....it seems as you get older its harder to say things you wanan say, or express your feelings. last year there was nothin real major that i COULDNT share on here....ive neevr wrote anythin seriosuly personal..or REEEAAAALL deep feelings 4 the most part i think.....and it seems as im gettin older...thats all i have.so there is less to share to you all...but i shall keep trying...keep writting.......sometiems i find ways to express wat iw ant.without actually SAYIN wat im expressing..u no wat i mean? lol..neways....man i think i lost the cd for my science book.....neevr count on me to keep anythin i swear! lol....dude we had a test in american gov. and int hat class we ahve this intern teacher..haahah its soooo easy...he cant controll his class.and eh deosnt yell....we were all havin hfge conversations about anyhin and everythin 2 eachother.WHILE taking the test.........LOL....how cool...talk about EASY! lol....hahahaha i gave ryan his 15 hersheys kisses for his birthday 2day..i think he was pretty satisfied with that lol.....i dont think he thouht iw as seriosu bout buyin him sumthin! lol its funny! so great man! man highskool makes me so tired..i came home 2day and went to sleep for a lil over 3 horus.and i ahd to make myself get up cuz i had h/w......lol....

October 21, 2002

heeey ya'll.....how are ya? im talking like u will answer me?!?!?! neways.....ummmm its been a while since i last entered...and it feels nothign has happned...but so0o0o0o0o much has happened....some thigns i wish not to discuss over again on here....sparing some individuales of bringin bak sad events.....but thro it all ives realzied this:

**Tomorrow isn't promised to anyone....tell everyone you love...that you DO love them...say sorry to those who need to hear it...and forgive those, who need forgiving....let everyone know they are loved.....cuz remember....tomorrow isnt promised to anyone... **GoD bLeSs**

enough on that......updates on romance....no...none 4 me....i think most of that is because i still dont want too.im still not ready...well...i am ready 4 a SERIOUS relationship...but havnt found the person i want that serious relationship WiTh...wlel maybe i have but neways.....steph and eric are going out...its so cute....lizzy and vik are still 2gether...its been HOW logn?!?! daaang im jelous man! its so0o cool 4them man! im real happy 4 them and i can tell they r happy:) kelcey and dan r still 2gether and haha every day b4 2nd per i cant help but yellin awwwwwwww......kelcey seems to be gettin the hook up with a million people at once....lol..i dunno if im aloud to say names....so i wont 4 now....as to who she might be going to homecoming with.....amand ais goin to homecoming with zack....umm thats all ic an think of...homecoming is in like 19 days.....im not going tho...and all my friends are pissing me off and tempting me more not to go cuz they all think im being stupid and tryin to get attention or somethign 4 it....and they're like "oh shut up you KNOW you're going really" yea ok well wne im not there...you'll see...sayin that makes me moe sure i dont want to go anymore....that wasnt even my reaosn 4 not going..till they started sayin it..NOW it is...just to prove to them cuz it makes me really mad wen they say things liek that..i dont no why but it does.i emna i dont CARE..but if is ay i dont want to do.i DONT want to go.besides i dont even have a dress...or a hair appointment......so too freekin bad.......im goin to parties afterwards or sumthin......crap i just remeebr people still read this......now im just askin to get in some argument......can u tell i had a abd day 2day? yea.. i did.....one fo those days wen u swear nuthin goes right.....yupp thats it. iw as sick all weekend and 2day i still didnt feel good either....and was totally out of it all day...i hate bein liekt his cuz i think it brigns down other peopls bad moods and i HATE doing that cuz i no how it is wen people do that 2 you tis such a drag and liekt he WORST way t get in a bad mood...so i always TRY....and i hate comin off like im mean..im really not......im not as bad as a lot of people think....honestly......thrusday was a home game...dude we lsot ZERO-40.....did u hear see that....Z-E-R-O!!!!..how pathetic is our team?!?!? lmao its a good thing we luv those guys anyways man! friday night movies...i saw abandoned.it was a really good movie.and the stalker dude is to DIE for H-O-T-T like omg ive neevr knwon a guy to be so hott.if i new i was possible...id have been lookin harder!!!!!!!!! whew! lol cant breathe think of him lmao.....me and amanda met coleby that night....talk bout hott too lmao....its the funniest story as to HOW we met him actually..embarressing but funny as crap...lol but i aint typing it lol...ok i am goin to go 4 now....me and amanda are gettin our hair cut/highlighted 2morrow! yay! xoxo bye *Caroline*

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