Tortured Soul
Tortured Soul
My feeble Mind
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So your there right when some guy passes you by. He's wearing mainly black and looks sad. You try and speak to him but he does not reply. You try and make him laugh and he stares at you with out a smirk. He speaks to you with words of wisdom only because he is prudent. He sits there not really sure of anything. Staring into the void. He ignores you but listens secretly. Most people hate him. For many reasons. Some people love him. For many reasons. But all in all this guy does not feel. He is blinded by the night. He crys a million tears for all , but none for him. This guy is starting to scare you. Your not sure what to do. So you leave him to die.This guy is me. |
Here are some pointless facts about me:
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The worst thing that ever happened in my life the thing which changed me forever. Was when my mom died. She died wehn i was 5 it still hurts and will aways hurt. I guess thats wehn i realized that the world wasn't what it seemed. I never allowed god into my life i blamed him for my problems and still do. I probably won't ever be saved from eternal damnation because i never followed god. i'll never forgive him from taking that which was most precious to me. But now i have reached a point in where im so scared that i'd follow him. I want to be saved but i dont want to be accepted beacuse of fear but as belief i have in him . It is a hard time for me one push to hard into either direction and i could hate or maybe even love god. The only reason i'd follow god for sure was if i ever get a wife and she made me but id have to have a wife worthy of following.Well i guess my whole life has revolved around my mom because i'd not be the same person i am today with out her death. I love my mom but i miss her so much.No body made me feel wanted like my mom. I hope there is someone out there that can relight my flame and make happy. |
a picture of me