About Me
And a more recent pic. (I'm on the left.)
Okay, now that we're passed that, here goes.
I am Jade, (not my real name as I am too paranoid to give out my real name on the internet,) I am 25 years old, and currently reside in Texas. I am on disability and still live at home, for reasons which I will explain in a moment.
I don't get out much, I'm not artistic unlike the rest of my family so I don't have many hobbies, (used to garden when I was healthier, but can't stand the summer heat anymore,) so basically, my animals are my life. They give me a reason to wake up in the morning, when I can find no other reason, which is all too often. I have 2 dogs, 2 guinea pigs, 3 fancy rats, and a cat. I don't have any children to spend money on, so my pets are all unbelievably spoiled. Most of my disability check goes to my food, meds, and medical and psychological treatment, but what's left often times goes to my furry babies. I have a seperate page about them if you'd like to see photos and more info on them, I love to show them off!
I enjoy sci-fi/fantasy, and I am a big time Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings dork.
I love faeries.
I am not a professional by any means, but I love photography. I enjoy taking photos of animals, flowers, and nature. I don't have the greatest camera in the world, but I have fun with it any way. I will be starting a page of some of my photos soon.
Onto the reasons I'm considered disabled. I know that seeing this list is going to overwhelm me, because when I think about it all, it makes me feel as though it is impossible for me to ever be better or be a "normal" part of society. Sometimes it feels like all I am is a list of "diagnonsense".
My physical problems are:
Insulin Resistance
Hypoglycemia
High Blood Pressure
Hypothyroidism
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
Severe Asherman's Syndrome
Mild Tardive Dyskinesia, due to long-time use of anti-psychotics
And I fell on some wooden stairs several years ago, broke my tailbone, and twisted the base of my spine completely backwards. I went through several sessions of spinal manipulation, but couldn't afford to keep going. So I live with severe lower back pain that I try and hide because I don't want to be a downer or a wimp, but really it's so bad it makes me literally sick, and sometimes I can't sleep at night because of it.
And Lord help me, I know I've forgotten something, but that's all I can think of right now.
Mental Illness Issues:
Schizoaffective Disorder (basically a Bipolar/Schizophrenic hybrid)
Treatment-Resistant Suicidal Depression, even when Manic
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder w/Psychotic Features
Severe Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Panic Disorder
Self-Injury
Insomnia
And I'm sure I've got more out there throughout the years somewhere in my medical charts. But yeah, I'm considered a certified loony, according to the doctors anyway. It's a miracle I haven't been forcibly hospitalized more than once.
And as you can guess, I'm on enough meds to anesthetize an elephant. Since I'll be joining web rings pertaining to some of my illnesses, I guess I might as well list my meds, too, if anyone is curious:
Meds for Physical Problems:
Metformin 1250mgs
Synthroid 88mcgs
Yaz (for PCOS)
Diovan 160mgs
Verapamil 240mgs
Can't forget the loads of Tylenol I take for my back, because it's the only pain med I can take that won't interact with my MAOI anti-depressant.
Psych Meds:
Emsam 9mgs
Lithium ER 1200mgs
Seroquel 400mgs
Zyprexa Zydis 10mgs
Trazodone 200mgs
Valium 10mgs as needed
So yeah, I should rattle when I walk. And amazingly, I am on all these meds, and I'm still an insomniac. *rolls eyes*
Any way, so I guess that's me.
There ya' go.