Fuck… fuck… fuck… fuck… fuck… Jesus… Christ… oh… my... God… fuck… fuck… Brian’s fingers…are… on… my neck… and… fuck… every… fucking… push… in… this anonymous… fuck… I… I… think… Jesus Christ Brian’s squeezing my neck and his fingers are all in my hair and I’m cumming… cumming… cumming…

Oh fuck… I finish pounding into this guy… whoever the fuck he is… and Brian pulls me to him as he cums… touching his tongue to my lips… his hand pushing through my hair… and I feel so close to him even though our dicks are up the asses of two other guys. Who gives a fuck… it’s working… for us… right now…

After my screw up with that guy… Eric or whatever his name was… doesn’t matter… and I fucking, stupidly kissed him – don’t know why, seemed like I should, felt like an ass for leaving him there… his first time and I fucking brush him off… never mind what I said later… at the time, anyway, I felt so fucking bad for him. Remembered how lucky I was that Brian took me home that first time… let me stay over, let me pretend for five fucking seconds that it was romantic and wonderful… who would’ve ever fucking thought that I’d end up here… well… never mind all that…

So… Brian conjured up these “date nights” for us… where we’d go to the baths or the back room at Babylon and fuck our brains out with any fucking guys we wanted… but we’d do it together. I don’t think Brian is even fucking any other guys other than with me now… I hope… I don’t know… but… I hope…

We both know it’s too hard to keep to the rules – we both love to kiss… have to kiss… need to kiss… but… I also think we both know it’s important we keep the rules, somehow… like it’s the thing that’s keeping us together… holding us so that we don’t just go out and do whatever we want, but also so that we have something more… a connection… more than friends… more than lovers… more… just more…

And so this is what we did… unspoken rule number three… 

I’m not gonna lie… the first time we came to the baths, I was fucking scared shitless. I felt like I was fucking 16 again and a piece of ass and nothing more.

When Brian suggested it… well, whispered it in my ear as I was cumming at home in bed one night… I thought – yeah, I wanna go to the baths. I honestly had never been before. Mostly because I knew that the ones that I’d want to go to would be the same ones that Brian would want to go to… and the thought of – Jesus Christ – could you imagine? The thought of running into Brian at the baths… well… I sure as shit never need to see him fucking another guy again, and I definitely don’t ever want him to see me… well… unless he’s beside me with his tongue down my throat… then he can watch me fuck as much as he likes… and doing this together is something completely different than fucking someone when you know nobody’s watching you…

That first time, we walked into the dark rooms… I couldn’t help myself… my dick was fucking hard and I was freaked out all at the same time. Brian pulled me to him, curling his arm around my back, his fingers gripping my hip. Letting people know, I guess, that I belonged to him.

It was like being in a fucking porn movie. Everywhere… naked bodies moving and gyrating and just fucking… the sound of it… the smell… it was just fucking unbelievable.

Brian was scanning the dim room, looking for God only knows who… I was afraid to meet anyone’s eye… I didn’t know what Brian had in mind… and I didn’t know what to do…

A hot blonde guy – probably about 20 – came up to Brian… they whispered something to each other… then fuck… the guy fell to his knees in front of me… Brian put his hand on my shoulder… opened a condom packet with his teeth and rolled it on my dick… I… well… shit… what was I supposed to do? Brian whispered in my ear, “I want to watch you fuck him.” Then he guided me to my knees behind this guy… and I did what I figured Brian wanted me to do… I fucked the hot blonde guy.

Brian’s hand was on my shoulder the whole time, and he knelt behind me… and kissed me… kissed me… kissed me… and I fucked and fucked… I didn’t even look at the fuck… just concentrated on Brian’s mouth on mine and the amazing feeling on my dick.

When I came, Brian pushed his hard cock against my back, but I knew he wasn’t going to fuck me… he just held me tight… and somehow in some fucked up way, it was romantic.

And… I guess this is his way of compromising… I can handle it… for now… I think. We each fucked three other guys that night, and the whole time… we kissed and kissed and kissed… I was oblivious to everything else. I didn’t need to be fucking anyone… just kissing him was enough…

But… this is our third time… and every time… Brian just watches me as he’s fucking… and he kisses me… and… I don’t know… I don’t mind this so much… the fucking… and Brian… and sharing this together… I don’t know… I think I’m going fucking crazy. Worse yet, I think I’m turning into Brian’s prodigy… and I don’t like that. I don’t think.

I snap back to reality as I pull out of the fuck, and Brian’s hand is immediately on my dick, pulling off the condom, and he pulls off his, putting his hand in the small of my back turning me to him and our lips meet again… oh! Our dicks just touch and I’m lost in him… his tongue slides in my mouth slowly…

The guy I just fucked is at my ass… and I feel his wet tongue touching my hole… oh Jesus Christ… I… I suck in a breath and Brian’s hand leaves my back for a moment… he breaks our kiss and leans over my shoulder… “Fuck off,” he says to the guy, and I get the sense Brian pushed him from the immediate way he stops sucking me. My ass is off limits for anyone but Brian. Unspoken rule number two.

Brian’s hand is back on me, but I feel his open palm push down my ass… and he slides his middle finger across my hole… pushing around the spit from the tongue-fucker… oh… so good… he kisses my neck with his soft lips… just rolling the pad of his finger around and around and around my hole… mm… mm… mm…

“Brian,” I whisper, sure he’ll hear me over the throbbing music echoing off the walls… my eyes are closed and I imagine we’re at the loft…

I whisper his name again and he pulls his face in front of me, leaning his forehead against mine… his sweaty skin sticking to mine… oh… no… he slides just the tip of his finger in my hole… dying for this now, Brian… begging for this now, Brian…

“I want you to fuck me,” I gasp as his finger pushes in… just… a… tiny bit… more…

“We just got here…” he says, panting, rolling that goddamn finger in me…

“I don’t care… fuck me… please…” I crush my body to his… my dick slipping between his legs to brush against his balls… his cock pushing up against my belly… he’s hard again so fast, but so am I.

He rolls his lips into mouth… his eyes still closed… he’s thinking… what, Brian? Come on… either fucking take your finger out of my ass or take me home and fuck me… how hard of a decision is that? I can let him fuck me harder and longer and more intensely than any other fucking ass here… because I… because I… I want to see that look on his face… I want to feel him inside… I want more than just to get off… I want him to get off too.

He opens his eyes… catches me staring at him… “I’m taking you home,” he says… unspoken rule number four. He takes his hand from my ass and pulls me to my feet. “Let’s get out of here.”

We get dressed and Brian drives home like a fucking maniac… thankfully the baths aren’t too far from the loft…

As soon as we walk in the door our clothes come off… tearing at shirts and pants… “Shower… now,” Brian says, grabbing my hand and dragging me towards the bathroom. “We both stink,” he laughs, turning on the hot water as I curve my naked body up against his…

Everything was happening so fast so fast so fast… from all the fucking at the baths to getting changed to driving home to tearing off our clothes again… so fast… I just want time to stop right now…

Ahh… the hot water pours over me and I need it… I close my eyes and dip my head under the nozzle, feeling the water rinse off the smell and the sweat of the baths… cleaning me… and somehow redeeming me… it’s not bad, what we’re doing… it just feels that way…

“Hey… don’t hog all the water,” Brian says, putting his hand on my shoulder and turning me away from the showerhead. I open my eyes again… looking at him… smiling in and out…

“Here… wash me,” he puts a soft cloth in my hand and stands under the water, his back to me.

I run the cloth over his shoulders and down his back slowly, wiping away the night we had… cleaning him for the night ahead of us… the water is so hot it’s making his skin pink… but we love it like that… after the baths we need it… unspoken rule number five…

I let my hand stop at the curve of his ass… it’s so nice… pushing the cloth over his round cheeks, slipping between his legs, touching his balls… my other hand is on his stomach… holding him… palm flat out… feeling the water run over my fingers…

He grabs the cloth from my hand… I’d unconsciously stopped, holding it against his balls… so full… so hot… he turns towards me and directs me to the glass wall face first…

“Now I’ll wash you,” he says, his lips brushing up against my ear… his chin on my shoulder.

I feel him run the cloth across my back… sliding down my spine slowly… he kisses me on my neck and the water is hitting him on the back and spraying very lightly onto me… I take a deep breath of the hot steamy air… it’s so good… just us… so good…

He rubs the cloth between my ass cheeks, stopping at my hole… oh God… I’m aching for him inside… I just focus on it… tiny bit of pressure… I let out a gasp as he pushes just a bit… oh… man… too… too… he moves the cloth down to my balls, running it back and forth… the slight friction making me hotter… my cock is fully erect now, and there ain’t nothing I’m gonna do about it… I want him at my hole… God… it’s been neglected all night…

He drops the cloth and his lips start down my back… lightly… his tongue darting out to lick the water from my skin… I lean against the glass wall, crossing my arms and resting my head against my forearm… I hope… I hope… he’s… oh God… I hope… please…

Oh yeah… yes, yes, yes… he’s going lower… at the top of my ass… the water’s hitting me on my back and he must be on his knees… oh Brian… do it do it do it… his tongue is so hard… and he pulls my ass cheeks apart just a little bit… hot water hits me on my hole and oh fuck it feels so good… but… oh… oh… yes… please… shit… I can’t stand the waiting… I hope… I can’t help but let a little cry leave my lips and all he’s fucking doing is holding my ass apart… and… did I just feel that… oh Christ he’s blowing on my hole… oh fucking hell… this is… is… oh Brian… please…

Ohhhhh... ohhhh… ohh… oh… o… o… his tongue just… oh Christ… touches me… and I finally let out the breath I didn’t know I was holding and I just feel like I’m deflating and sinking and I’m dizzy… the hot air and the oh my fucking God… oh shit… oh yeah… please more more more more… he’s at my hole and his tongue is playing all around it… I want to cry I’ve wanted this all night and it feels so good so good so… so… I laugh with each breath… and I have to tell him…

“Brian… fuck… Brian… I love it…” I need him to know how fucking amazing this is… and suddenly I’m thrown back to our first time… and the first time he ever did this to me… I know it was to shock me… to freak the shit out of me… and he succeeded… I couldn’t believe what he was doing… when he was going down, I thought… there’s no way… I didn’t really know what he was going to do… I’d never even heard of it before… never knew people did this… and I was scared… didn’t know what it would feel like… then when he did it… oh Christ… it was so good… I couldn’t believe this wasn’t the first thing they told you about… and I’ve loved it ever since… him rimming me… he can rim me all night… I love it so fucking much… he’s so close to me…

I can feel every single move of his soft tongue… he pushes against my hole just a little bit… and the tip of his tongue slips in… moving around slowly… his lips touch my ass… and it’s so soft… so intense… such little movement but so… so… I can’t explain… so close… so intimate… his tongue slides out again, and he runs it slowly over my hole… up and down… up and down… stops… presses in… doesn’t enter… oh fuck me… he’s flicking his tongue quickly over it… and I… and I… oh… oh… no… don’t… cum… don’t cum… I bite into my arm… holding back a scream, then I figure fuck it and let the orgasm take me… my cum spurting onto the glass wall… mixing with the water… and I moan and moan and he grips my hips holding me tightly… keeping his tongue there…

“Christ Brian…” I hold myself up just barely… bracing against the wall… knowing if I move my knees will buckle… he slowly glides his tongue up my ass… licking at my back again… kissing at my shoulders… his hands moving up to push the water across my skin…

“Good?” Brian says in my ear.

“Like you have to ask… fuck… too good… too good,” I say hoarsely… trying to calm my breath again… trying to stop my heart hammering in my chest… slow… down… I want this to be slow…

I turn my face towards him, and he leans on my shoulder and we kiss… wet… water everywhere… but he smells like me…. I love it… our tongues touch lightly, then harder… passionate… more… his mouth over mine… he’s too good… too good… I tried to calm down, but nothing doing…

Pulling my mouth from his, I whisper, “Fuck me…”

He runs his hands across my shoulders and over my arms… pulling them open… taking my hands in his and pressing my palms against the glass… his hands are so hot, covering mine… he licks at my ear… weaving his fingers through mine… holding me there… pressing his body against my back… his cock hard against my ass… it slips between my crack… pushing my ass cheeks apart… so full… so hot… so thick… oh God… the base of his cock is touching my hole… and… I wish again that he’d fuck me right now like this… his skin against my skin… but he won’t… I know he won’t… that’s his rule… not mine…

He licks behind my ear… then puts his wet forehead in the curve behind my neck… his body leaves mine… his fingers leave mine… I stand there… bracing myself against the glass wall with my hands… waiting for him… waiting for him… I hear the condom wrapper tear and the little huff of breath from his lips as he rolls one on… the shot of air hits me on my wet back and it’s cool then hot so quick…

More kisses… warm breaths… licks… then the wonderful… amazing… teasing… touch of his cock against my hole… and… oh yeah… a slow push in… his hands are back on mine… then his palms slide down my arms… he pushes all the way in… so… fucking… slowly… oh… God… mmm…

Then… out… out… out… just drawing it out… until I think… he’s leaving… then… in… in… in… so… so… good… I feel him filling me up again…

His hands glide across my skin… touching… me… all… over… they slide across my chest… his thumbs pushing on my nipples… he crosses his arms over my chest and holds me to him so tight… so tight… and he pulls out… out… out… then… pushes… in… in… in… so slow… such a contrast to the frantic fucking all night… he’s got me so close… and just his hips… moving… out… out… out… and pushing… in… in… in…

His breath follows each movement… sucking back as he slides out… pushing hotly over my shoulder as he slides in… I hear him… feel him… breathe with him… part of him…

My dick is fucking hard again, but I don’t care… don’t care… he’s fucking me… over and over and over… it feels like hours… seems like forever… I want it always and always… his arms around me so tight…

“Justin,” he whispers… and he tightens his grip on me… hugging me… “I… Justin… I…”

Tell me Brian… I want to hear whatever the fuck it is you want to say… you want to fuck me? You want to cum? You what? What… please Brian… what… is it… is… it… do you love me? I keep my mouth shut, but these foolish thoughts pour through my head… because that’s what I’m thinking… I love him… I do… I’m stupid for feeling this way… but I can’t help it… he’s more than just fucking me… he’s loving me… and I feel it… even if he doesn’t say it…

He stops… and holds his cock inside me… and it’s so unreal… my breath is gone… it’s… it’s… oh… God… Brian… Brian… I love you… Brian… tell me… I want to cry out… please break unspoken rule number one…

His lips are on the back of my neck… and he pushes in me just a bit harder… pressing on my prostate… I need to leave these fucking ridiculous romantic thoughts behind me…

He stays in me so hard… I grab my cock because I want to cum so he feels me on his dick… I don’t care about how I feel… I only care about how he feels… how he feels… and he just holds me… so close… so close… and I cum quickly and he cums inside me breathing into my hair and whispering things I can’t hear no matter how hard I try… saying things I don’t know if he wants me to know… if he wants me hear… but… I think I know anyway…

It was so slow… and so good… and our bodies are pushed together so tight… he doesn’t let go… holds me still… his cock in me still… then lets out a breath… and pulls out from me… I miss him… he’s gone… his hands skim across my chest… and he lets me go… I just stay where I am… holding myself up against the glass… I’m afraid to move… don’t know what happened… don’t know… don’t want to think about it… too much… I can’t remember what I said… can’t remember if I really told him I loved him… don’t think I did…

His lips are on the side of my face… “You okay?” he says…

“Mmm… yeah,” I turn into his lips and kiss him… licking at his tongue… his hand wraps around the back of my neck and he just holds me there… as our lips touch…

We slip under the hot water again, getting warm… cooling down… whatever…

He steps out and I follow… he pulls a towel across my shoulders… drying me off… rubbing it through my hair and I grin at him… letting him do what he wants… he dries off and I follow him to bed… he throws himself down on the bed… slipping under the sheets, lying on his back and putting his arm across my pillow (fuck I love that so fucking much – my pillow – my place – here… with Brian)…

I lie down beside him on my side, putting my head on his arm… and he curls his hand around, putting it on my shoulder, pulling me to him… we kiss… I slide my leg over his… my hand on his chest… just lying there… but electric… his touch… his other arm moves around… and covers my hand on his chest… holding me… and we kiss and we kiss and we kiss… and I feel myself… slowly… falling… asleep… lips touching… breathing his breath… his warm… touch across… me… all… over… never… want… to… go… never…