Fallen Angel
In time I will heal
That is what I tell myself
As I lie in the darkness
The only sounds are the ticking clock and my troubled heart
Was it not only this morning that he said he loved me?
This seems so long ago…time has stood still inside my world
Was it not him who lay with me last night in love’s embrace?
His breath quickened as my heart raced
Passion turning into wild abandonment…tenderness turning into wantonness
Whispers of sweet nothings turned to low throaty primal sounds
Soft kisses replaced with biting of flesh…nails dug into skin
Hearts pounding as the race to pleasure completed itself
But that was so long ago…what transpired in the evening mist while I slept?
Evil has so many shapes…some hideous…but worse some so enchanting
While I slept evil came or was it always there, waiting for the right moment
Once my beloved now my heart’s enemy
So taken in by the smile upon his face
As he kissed me and left for work
“I love you my angel”
My guardian to heaven …my protector
As was the custom my day was planned
Within minutes I left for work, list in hand of daily tasks
Predictable, usual, routine…until today
When in the afternoon I remembered that forgotten item at home
As I lay here thinking about what transpired I can only wonder
How had I been so blind? Was I that in love?
The unlocked door, the keys on the table, the sound of voices
Why did I not turn back then and leave?
It was as if I was drawn to the place that would be the sight of my heart’s murder
The smell of perfume, the sound of laughter, the sight of them
Filling my senses, rushing through me, the sharp pain as the knife entered my heart
My eyes told me what my heart refused to believe
The angel of my heart now the winged messenger of pain
Embracing another, whispering into her ear, kissing her skin
My eyes covered in tears; silently I slipped into the shadows
Leaving the house we shared now the scene of betrayal
The next few hours spent in solitude
I must return as nothing has transpired
A smiles upon my lips as he greets me at the door
“I missed you angel” says the evil one
As he kisses my cheek
In my heart the blood drips from the wound
Filling my soul with vengeance
I watch him all night waiting for him to confess his sins
Will I forgive him?
Never! Cries my heart, vengeance cries my soul
As nighttime nears he readies for bed
Reminding me of the events of the night before
I smile and tell him rest my angel, for another night will come
And you will surely be in heaven
Now he lies next to me, his evil heart beating within his chest
A smile upon his sleeping lips
I watch him in the darkness as the battle begins within myself
Do I absolve him of his sins?
Or does he stand to be judged?
I will let you sleep my angel.
Dream of the heaven I promised you
Remember the love we’ve shared
For tomorrow starts a new day
Where sorrow I now feel is replaced
With the coldness of vengeance
For you my angel have violated the pact of trust
The sanctity of our love
Your wings now tarnished
You will know what it is to feel the burning
Feel the desperation
As I plan your trip to hell.