In time I will heal
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Fallen Angel

In time I will heal

That is what I tell myself

As I lie in the darkness

The only sounds are the ticking clock and my troubled heart

 

Was it not only this morning that he said he loved me?

This seems so long ago…time has stood still inside my world

Was it not him who lay with me last night in love’s embrace?

His breath quickened as my heart raced

 

Passion turning into wild abandonment…tenderness turning into wantonness

Whispers of sweet nothings turned to low throaty primal sounds

Soft kisses replaced with biting of flesh…nails dug into skin

Hearts pounding as the race to pleasure completed itself

 

But that was so long ago…what transpired in the evening mist while I slept?

Evil has so many shapes…some hideous…but worse some so enchanting

While I slept evil came or was it always there, waiting for the right moment

Once my beloved now my heart’s enemy

 

So taken in by the smile upon his face

As he kissed me and left for work

“I love you my angel”

My guardian to heaven …my protector

 

As was the custom my day was planned

Within minutes I left for work, list in hand of daily tasks

Predictable, usual, routine…until today

When in the afternoon I remembered that forgotten item at home

 

As I lay here thinking about what transpired I can only wonder

How had I been so blind? Was I that in love?

The unlocked door, the keys on the table, the sound of voices

Why did I not turn back then and leave?

It was as if I was drawn to the place that would be the sight of my heart’s murder

The smell of perfume, the sound of laughter, the sight of them

Filling my senses, rushing through me, the sharp pain as the knife entered my heart

 

My eyes told me what my heart refused to believe

The angel of my heart now the winged messenger of pain

Embracing another, whispering into her ear, kissing her skin

My eyes covered in tears; silently I slipped into the shadows

Leaving the house we shared now the scene of betrayal

The next few hours spent in solitude

 

I must return as nothing has transpired

A smiles upon my lips as he greets me at the door

“I missed you angel” says the evil one

As he kisses my cheek

In my heart the blood drips from the wound

Filling my soul with vengeance

 

I watch him all night waiting for him to confess his sins

Will I forgive him?

Never! Cries my heart, vengeance cries my soul

As nighttime nears he readies for bed

Reminding me of the events of the night before

I smile and tell him rest my angel, for another night will come

And you will surely be in heaven

 

Now he lies next to me, his evil heart beating within his chest

A smile upon his sleeping lips

I watch him in the darkness as the battle begins within myself

Do I absolve him of his sins?

Or does he stand to be judged?

 

I will let you sleep my angel.

Dream of the heaven I promised you

Remember the love we’ve shared

For tomorrow starts a new day

Where sorrow I now feel is replaced

With the coldness of vengeance

 

For you my angel have violated the pact of trust

The sanctity of our love

Your wings now tarnished

You will know what it is to feel the burning

Feel the desperation

As I plan your trip to hell.

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