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11.10.03
THE SEMESTER IS ALMOST OVER!!! i'm so excited i can barely contain myself! i can't wait to go home and take a fucking break from life up here. it's crazy. other than that, i have not much else to say other than happy late birthday brian, you had a SWEET party, and thanks for coming up to visit, Candace, Amy, Ryan and Kyle. i'll write more later. br>






09.23.03
it's crazy - i was just reading back through my previous entries and i realized that i updated my page on this day last year. how things are totally different, yet totally the same. i feel like shit - it seems like everything is just completely wrong right now. and all the people i came to trust and rely on last semester seem to be fading out of my life. and i can't tell if thats my fault because im so fucking clueless as to what is actually going on. everyday i just want to cry or kill somebody or fade out of existence. its like the emotional week before my period every day of my life. it breaks my heart that my roommate of over a year and best friend wants to move out and live by herself, and i know that it is my fault. it also hurts my feelings that i can be easily replaced and shoved on the back burner by someone else who i thought was my best friend, but has too much pride to even approach me to find out what the fuck is wrong, even if it IS to yell at me. i'm not even important enough to yell at.*insert dry laugh* my film teacher has got me thinking about grad school - and of course, not in texas brooke, you gotta get out on the east or west coast where you dont know anyone at all! and then i want to intern in paris, but im scared. im always so scared - what is wrong with me? isn't college supposed to be a great time, the best days of your life? well it fucking sucks. i cant wait to go home where the livin's easy.

"if someone can look at a piece of your work and say, 'oh, they used maya,' or 'oh they used aftereffects,' THAT IS NOT A GOOD THING." - the deet



08.20.03
all right. i'm a L-I-A-R. i said i'd update more but i lied. because thats what liars do. i just dont have the time, people. school starts tomorrow i think, which, thats exciting. summer certainly did drag on for quite some time. i had a really fun time though. not fun though was my hiatus from ryan that could last, well, who knows? my newfangled singledom has since lead me to 2 frat parties that only made me realize, is single all its cracked up to be? i dont know. thanks to thani for coming up to dallas, it really brightened my day. stuff:

*going home aug 30- sept 1. im homesick. again. brian is coming.

*going home sept 27 for my bf's b-day. good ole "kansas mandess" will be turning the big 2-1 and im muy excited about that. :) also, i will probably still be homesick.

*i cant wait to go to cozumel again. that vacation ruled and if everything doesnt work out with my film career im moving to mexico, squeaking by, and enjoying all of the nonjudgmental-laid-back locals with my cat and anyone else who will come with me.

and always remember 1 thing:
if youre not out selling, youre selling out.

peace out, dont sell out. lata.


"you should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes - it brought me back to life"



06.13.03
dooby doot'n doo doooooo!! good morning ladybugs and whatever else that crazy Dr. Polk used to say. its a great day here at 2:38 a.m. and im starting my friday the 13th off pretty well. im home for the summer in "B-E-A-UTIFUL" pasadena tx to relax and recoop from the hectic semester i had at grand ole utd. im excited because in about 7 days i will be whisked away to cozumel on my moms buck. nice. pictures WILL be posted so keep your eyes open. i plan on updating this thing more often.

so tonight i saw "finding nemo" and can i say, FAVORITE 3-D ANIMATED MOVIE. it is by far a must-see. if you know anything about 3-d graphic design (which you kids remember when i had to take that grueling class...) then you know that this is some of the best animation in the cinema today. heck, even if you don't know anything about 3-d animation, you'll still appreciate it. by far. totally way. check out my new movies page. its muy bueno.

other points of interest:
*i'll be seeing third eye blind for the 2nd time on sunday, june 15th via bri. he bought me tickets for my b-day, totally sweet. on july 26th, ill be at the john mayer show in dallas - you should all come.

*my 6-week hiatus ends on july 6th when i make the trek back up to dallas to work my fingers to the bone once more and prepare for another labor-ridden semester at school. at least i have a major now (well somewhat) and all is good. you should all be asking for my autograph NOW because when im famous im going to treat you all like crap. :) PLEASE come visit me in dallas before you all have to start the year again. congrats goes to kelli for gettin back into a&m, good luck, im sure you'll do better this time around.

thats it for this installment of "me." i'll update more, i promise. if you're looking for more entertainment, visit www.poprocksandcoke.com to relive your childhood totally 80s memories. it will tide you over until you hear from me again. peace >:o


"don't hurl on the shell, dude. i just waxed."



03.31.03
ok i have broken down and updated again. i really should keep up with this thing more often. let me just say that this past weekend was a blast!!! i have never had more fun at a party. thanks to amy and mindy for making it great - i forgot how much i missed you guys. sorry for being a slacker and not calling as much as i should, i will try to rectify that. anyways, yeah, much success on the party front, just about everyone i invited showed up except for a few people who i'd assumed probably wouldnt want to come anyways. and a few others who had good reasons. i will be attempting to publish the video of the party pretty soon. and for all of you who participated in my documentary, THANK YOU! you can not imagine the greatness of the stuff you guys brought forth - i'm going to get a super a+ on my project.

as far as other news, the semester is drawing to an end and to a welcome one at that. im doing extremely well in all of my classes, so im crossing my fingers for that 4.0 again this semester. just some points of interest:

**i don't plan on doing anything for my birthday, but we had been talking about having a few people up the weekend after. of course, *i* dont have any finals as usual, but i know that everyone else does so i may just hang out here. my mom and bro are coming up the weekend before (easter) so if you love me and youre bored and you want to come see me, please do! i'm already depressed because you guys left!

**my last day of school is april 28th, in which case i plan to take a few days to come home, visit my mindeh and nurse her back to health (cuz, dawg, we gotsta be gettin ready fo da joint partay!)

**i'll also be home again around may 30th to see kris graduate. currently, the wheels are turning to have a joint birthday party around the first week of june for both mindy and ryan since their birthdays fall in late may. it should be bigger than this last party, although it will be hard to top. warm weather and sunny skies equals bbq and bathing suits. it should be the #1 summer jam. as soon as the planning is completed i will be posting a flyer on my webpage, so be on the lookout.

**im going to cozumel with amy june 20-27. party summer, whoo hoo!


"genuis is 1% inspiration, 99% preparation."



01.14.03
well its been a month since i last updated and SOME PEOPLE have been all up on my back about it. you know who you are. anyways, classes started yesterday, and what i thought was going to be a blow off semester may turn out to be something quite different. here's my updated schedule:

statistics - mon/wed 5:30-6:45; prof. marks age of dinosaurs - no class, webct only; prof. montgomery drawing concepts - mon nt 7:00-9:45; prof. metz acting - wed 12:30-3:15 digital video - tues 12:30-3:15; prof. terry

yeah it kinda sucks that i have to get those math and science classes out of the way, but at least i wont have to deal with anymore core bullshit after this semester. other than that, everything is going nice. there is a party up here on saturday night if anyone is interested in coming. soon i'll be setting up a calnedar on my webpage to show when shit's going on up here. last semester i just assumed that some people would come up and see me a little more often than one time, but i guess thats what i get for assuming, huh?

"genuis is 1% inspiration, 99% preparation."



12.10.02
it kinda seems like i either have wayyyy too much time on my hands or not enough at all. today is one of those days where i have too much. glad finals are over, man that certainly did suck. im kinda depressed now that classes are over though because even though i had to study a lot, i learned a lot and my teachers were great. lets see, what's important here...oh yeah, i went to my company christmas party on sunday night and got really drunk, but it was fun because i got to have some neat conversations with some friends from work. (this is half price books, btw, not powell). anyways, afterwards i went to brian's house because ryan had to study, and one of his residents happened to be walking by and i was all, hey man you drinkin?? and the kid was like, no im studying. brian was like, oh my god, i can't believe she is saying this. but it was fun because i made a new friend named mike and well drunk-brooke is always loads of fun to hang out with. lol, needless to say brian was like, its time to go brooke. so i went home and fed my cat and went to bed. it was fun. the other night me, brian, ryan and cortney all made cookies here. ok well me and cort made the cookies and brian and ryan went to watch south park. the cookies are really good but they have got to go because all i do is eat them, haha. i started running again, i quit for a little while because it was getting cold and im a baby, and i started doing pilates. but even that got really boring. in the spring i plan on implementing a really rigorous work-out routine that involves running a certain amount of miles a week and weight training. i think that should be good and around may i might not be so stressed out when it comes time to buy bathing suits! anyways, i will be home the 20th probably around mid-afternoon. saturday my family is having a christmas party, so if you want to come you are invited. there will be free food and all that jazz. im sure you can drink too if you want. lets just say when i went to new jersey i got plastered with my mom and i had a lot of fun! we were dancing and all that shit, can you picture doing that with a parent? but anyways, when i come home i have to work the thurs and fri after christmas and the next week except for wednesday, but its cool becuase i'll only be working from 7 to 1. so i can get in some qualitai time with some people from back home. also, i need christmas lists. i might be sending out my annual christmas survey so keep an eye out. anyways, merry christmas, go look at lights, and be happy. its my favorite time of the year!

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11.16.02
alright so this weekend pretty much sucked! today after 3:30 though everything perked up. i miss ryan, he's out at his aunt's house for a surprise party. i went to the deep ellum film festival today, saw *the anarchists cookbook* which was by the way a fucking awesome movie (i reviewed it in my *movie reviews* section for anyone who might be interested). makes me want to make films even more badly than i already do. is that possible? crunch time is coming up, i only have 1 more class for internet studio and intro to 3d (failing failing...!!!) and 3 more classes each for art history and crime class. semester's almost over! whoo hoo! anyways...not much to write tonight. unless its a paper for art history - yessssss! lata~

"i dont know, who it was, but it probably was fqhgwads"

11.11.02
i think that i've already accepted that i'm going to fail intro to 3d. its completely beyond my scope of knowing. i pay attention, i show up for class, but its not happening yo. i've never failed anything in my life. bleh. i had actually written in here about 4 days ago, but for some reason it didn't save, and i got effed over. some things that are coming up:

-nov 26-dec 1 - new jersey for thanksgiving
-nov 29-dec 1 - utd art/ film festival
-dec 2-dec 6 - exam week

im planning on coming home the friday before christmas, but as it is, that's asking a lot of my job to come home. i may have to quit if they continue to have a problem with the fact that i live 5 hours away and haven't gotten to go home all semester because of them. as you can see, finals are early in dec., so i might have a lot of down-time up here, working a lot more. i hope that if some of you are wanting to relax before/ after your finals that you will come visit - or those of you who don't have finals (*cough MINDY *cough cough*) or those of you who have limited amounts of time to visit (*cough* MIKE LUCKY *cough cough* hack wheeze...so on so forth). i have some trips to take myself before christmas, hopefully to a&m, to austin, possibly to denton. but all in all, i miss everyone, i had a blast when you all came up, and i hope to do it again. don't forget, my door is always open. and kyle, bonkers misses you and wants to have sweet gato lovin with you. :) and i miss you amy!

for those of you interested, my schedule for next year:
intro to drawing, mon 7-9:45 p.m.
statistics, mon/wed 5:30-6:45 p.m.
age of dinosaurs, web class, no lecture
**digital video**, tue 12:30-3:15 p.m


"that lizard is on my hit list."

10.31.02
so this won't be long, i'm about to have to head to class, but i just felt like writing. last night was a total blast, me and cort and brian went to see travis' band the therapists. who kick a lot of ass, by the way. we won $50 in a costume contest. it was gravy! tonight im going to see sum 41 at the same little club i was at last night, the galaxy club in beautiful downtown deep ellum. nice. i wont get raped ever at all down there. in "dangerland" as travis so nicely put it. yeah that was hilarious. anyways, things are pretty cool, but really busy this week. i have a lot of cleaning to do because, again, we are swimming in the dishes in the kitchen, and backstroking through the trash in the wash room. yeah, we're really clean, aren't we??? anyone who's ever been to our house though knows the true answer to that. this weekend should be rad. me and cort are shooting a video and if you're coming up this weekend, you can expect to be right on in it because we need a lot of extras. if this doesnt make it on the class website as one of the best i think i'll swan dive headfirst into a tank of pepper spray, mmm. we had a really sweet speaker today in cjs who ALMOST made me want to be a cop. i think it was just because she was a good speaker. i sort of planned out my schedule today - digital video, beginning drawing and perhaps visual elements. but im pretty sure my advisors gonna pop up with something lame like, "you still need another math and another science because we only want you to fail!" blah bleh blabery blah. and i wanted to take YOGA but no no no, doesn't seem to fit my fair droogs. i hope all of you are coming up this weekend, it should be a grand time. hope to see you then! happy halloween!

"i cant read because my waist is smaller than my neck!"
"its pretty bad when your about 60 years old and you can't read so you have to pass it over to the bag of flour. take it away, flour! make my cake!"



10.19.02
i have to start out by saying: i miss mike!! yes, both of them. mike matthys because he called me yesterday and made my so-so day wonderful and mike lucky because he has been wonderful in every way lately. i am currently on the road to 'trashedville.' don't you wish you were me? i meant to write in here last night, but who knows if anyone even reads this thing? last night was cool, i got the best encouragement of my life last night from my best friend. my newfound passion to make films has leaked onto brian, and he told me that i was really good at directing and that it seemed like i really knew what i was doing. and we were having this nice sloshy convo and i was thinking to myself the whole time that this is it. this is where i realize that i have lost everything. everything i knew last summer and the summer before that and before that is gone. i am free. i can do whatever the fuck i want. my journey may be hard and my future bleak, but if this is what makes me happy then there is no reason why i shouldn't do it. it dawned on me that i dont care about money. i dont care about security, washers and dryers, new cars, plants, vases, gardens, nice shoes...as long as for the rest of my life this whole directing thing makes me happy, what the fuck else really matters? i figure that ive always had to struggle, but am i a bad person as a result? im better than a lot of people i know. and this is my thing, it is unique to me. no one else is getting off over directing and movie making like i am and i like it that way. im the first. yes! haha, anyways, like i said, im kinda sloshy, and all i want right now is for the mikes to be here so we can all hang out and maybe even good old kyle jankins because i havent seen that ho in a long time even though he's been a good friend to me over the internet. yes tonight will be rad.

"the sweet is NEVER as sweet without the sour."
"she is the saddest girl to ever hold a martini."



10.15.02
well, here's the news, folks...my car still isn't running, but hey, i guess that's life...yada yada yada. so what if i've spent $1200 on it and it still won't get me from pt. a to pt. b. so what so what so what. i dont care anymore, there's no sense in it - its only a car. i had a bad incident happen to me over the weekend - i got a kitty named lucy but she died in her sleep on sat. morning. poor baby. yeah, i am upset about it, but in the end i guess its good that she had a family who loved her before she had to leave. i got a new kitten, his name is bonkers and he's 3 months old. but he has a cold and i think that if he dies i'll denounce God. never give cats medicine in their mouths unless you care to bleed. otherwise, my friends up here have been really cool, helping me get through things. i haven't really talked to anyone from back home except for a few people. im beginning to wonder if the friendships i made at home really even exist. i miss everyone, but the feeling isn't mutual. jobs, school, cars, money. what really matters but the bonds that you make with other people - why would you not want to hold on to them? i dont understand. for those of you who have been good friends to me while i'm going to school this semester, thank you. its really helped me through the hardest time in my life. and you know who you are. :)

bet you can tell what movies i've been watching. shout out to kyle and brian!

"this is your life and it's ending one minute at a time."
"you're not your job. you're not how much money you have in the bank. you're not the car you drive. you're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. you're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world."
and the most beautiful quote that is my life:
"it's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything." that sounds about right. have a good evening kids. i miss you.



09.23.02
what i want to know right now is how on earth i have the fucking time to be writing in this shit!!?? life is crazy - my car has decided to be geriatric and break its hip and not start...my seemingly cool job is sucking more and more everyday (is it because it sucks or because I'm fucking lazy?)...my internet wont work...and im terribly lonely! isnt college supposed to be fun? but here's some good news - ive finally decided on a major - arts & engineering here at the university for total depression...but i will be specializing in film making. how cool is it going to be when all you bitches and hoes get to tell your other less fortunate friends that your friend BA-ROOKE is a director? yeah raise the fuckin roof hardcore. anyways - come visit me, its getting cold up in dallas and my mood is getting better - but how about fate help me out a little and give me some good news?

"i just found out there's no such thing as the real world!"
"are you from canada or something? what's with all the "aye"'s?? "




08.15.02
well i decided to start the whole thing over. i put so much work into the last web page that it seems kind of silly for me to have done that, but i guess we all need a fresh start. im glad that i got to come home for the summer though, it seems like i myself went through a 'rebirth.' through all the fighting with my friends, making a commitment to run every night, and meeting new people, i think im becoming a better person. tomorrow i leave for dallas - again i have to move all of my stuff out only 3 months after unpacking, again i have to say goodbye to all of my friends at work, again it sucks. but everything has always worked out for me and i am fortunate, so i need not complain. anyways, thanks to all of you who are checking out my website, hope it stays interesting, don't forget to sign my guestbook, and i'll try to keep it updated as much as i can.

"find out what makes you happy and then do it!"
"this is your life. how do you want to live it?"


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