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| My middle finger uncurled pointed toward the sky screamen fuck tha world/ Watch my life become unfurled getting by, next I’m getten old/ Sit and wonder if I left my mark in life or went unnoticed/ Was never focused, only thing gonna be known for is the guy who wrote this/ I’ll be remembered as the fool that could’ve been more/ My eyez are teary and sore, dreamen nevermore of all the people and things that I adore/ Never appreciating wat I had before, until its gone/ From dusk till dawn, sit and stare at the stars I wish upon/ This is where my dreams spawn from a far, I spit this song/ Gazing at the foolish scars I can’t help but reminisce/ Remembering everything from the pain to the eternal bliss/ Thoughts go on forever, remembering that first miss, remembering that first kiss/ Remembering the first time in life when I realized that nothing really has gone amiss/ Despite all that’s happened, everything is forgotten by the bright glow of the moonlight/ I feel the might knowing I did at least some things right/ Fight after fight, I finally learned my lesson/ That the most important thing in the world is in my possession/ Its something that can’t be bought or taken away, something your mind can’t control/ Pay the toll of life and the gift in return is a heart and soul/ But its too late now, I’ve thrown away my youth/ I ain’t no super sleuth, by the time I realized the truth/ My life was already out the window, gone as far as it could be hurled/ So all I can do now is sit by myself screamen fuck the world/ |
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All alone in this unfamiliar plae/ Surrounded by strangers, each with a nameless face/ Confused to why I’m here, I’m a disgrace/ I wanted to be in the real world. Now I’ve finally got a taste/ I’m starting anew in a brand new school/ Got a clean slate, got to be good, got to keep cool/ What am I suppose to do? I’m confused, who are you?/ I tried to follow a bird out a window to my destiny, but I can’t see where it flew/ I don’t know how to fly, I’m gonna crash and burn/ I thought I could do it, I thought I could learn/ Things were suppose to be different this time/ Destiny? I thought I controlled mine/ I guess I was wrong, I’m chasing something that isn’t there/ Things just ain’t fair, I stare and glare, and I still don’t know where/ Lost in my own thoughts, buried in confusion/ Trying to dig my way out of this maze, creating mind contusions/ I’ve been blinded to my true destiny/ Born to be a failure, so don’t bother to invest in me/ All alone in this unfamiliar place/ Surrounded by strangers, each with a nameless face/ Confused to why I’m here, I’m a disgrace/ I wanted to be in the real world. Now I’ve finally got a taste/ 1 day, 1 week, 1 month goes by and I still can’t figure things out/ 1 class, 2 classes, 3 classes, 4 I still don’t know what they’re all about/ In doubt are the abilities that I thought I possessed/ My level of confidence with each hour, minute, second becomes less and less/ I get no rest, each day goes by as a blur/ Coming home thinking maybe things were better back the way they were/ My mind and body concur. My past decisions I’m no longer so sure/ My life’s a disease that has no cure/ Don’t come to close or you could catch it too/ Who knew, my responsibility shrank as my ego grew/ I sit and wonder why I’m here/ My future once looked as simple as black and white, now its not so clear/ Everything to fear, everything to lose/ I thought this is my reward, after I paid my dues/ Again, another mistake after a long list of them/ Now I think things should go back to the way they were, way back when/ All alone in this unfamiliar place/ Surrounded by strangers, each with a nameless face/ Confused to why I’m here, I’m a disgrace/ I wanted to be in the real world. Now I’ve finally got a taste/ I watch the seconds go by on the clock on the wall/ I close my eyes and dream them ticking backwards, in the sands of time I fall/ Going back faster and faster, deeper into the past/ Going back in time to when I was happy last/ Freshman year in high school after a football game I just won, sitting with friends/ Before anything else mattered, just having fun, suddenly everything ends/ *Flash* now I’m in the future, the dream extends/ Now I’m cold and alone on the streets of SF / Broke and starving, a homeless bum. Reasons to live? Ain’t none left/ Open my eyes, I’m back in the classroom/ Only 1 minutes passed and the boredom resumes/ Again lost in a sea of different nameless faces/ Surrounded by people of different age, size, and races/ Yet some how I feel like I still don’t fit in/ Its not even bad yet, the real suffering has yet to begin/ All alone in this unfamiliar place/ Surrounded by strangers, each with a nameless face/ Confused to why I’m here, I’m a disgrace/ I wanted to be in the real world. Now I’ve finally got a taste/ |
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