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My life is hell and you're to blame,
You've beaten me down to nothing but shame.
All I want is for you to care,
I wish I could know that you'd always be there.
There to catch me when I fall,
There for me in anyway at all.
You pick me up off the floor
only to treat me as though I'm your whore.
I wish that for once when you say wazxup,
That you'd really listen, just gave a fuck
I'm totally wasted, inside & out.
My life is nothing but lies and doubts.
Pop some pills, just sit back and chill.
The only harm is the gash in my arm.
I wish I could have my old self back.
Feelings fade and all is black.
Black Feelings
Black Feelings live inside of me,
There is no way to set me free,
Would you have paid the cost?
I played the game, now all is lost.
All I wanted was no pain,
If only Black Feelings I could tame.
Angel's Wings
I dreamt that I had perfect wings
That took me away from earthly thing
Human wants & Human needs
I was above the Human Creed
But with these wings there came a cost
Why didn't I realize all was lost
I was no longer on my own
I was scared and far from home
I was an angel precious & rare
Higher, higher into the air
when I felt I had no control
Then the wings had taken their toll
With these wings there came a price
Now I belong to 'The Saviour', to Christ.
A Note to Self
Don't tell any livin soul,
Yours is black, theirs is gold.
Do it quickly, let it pour
No one cares about you, whore
No one will hear you if you cry
So hurry up, bitch, just die,
Tears mix with blood and fall to the floor
Pray to god no one walks thru the door
As long as there's blood, you're still alive
Even if you're already dead inside
Do you realize who you are?
Close your eyes now, Hell isn't so far.
Remember all the things you lack,
Death is coming fast and black.
