by Nix
kirstenp@direct.ca
RATING: G.
PAIRING: Either gen or Alan/Billy slash. Take your interpretive pick.
SUMMARY: Very brief. Alan's thoughts after Billy's "death".
SPOILERS: Big ones. Huge. But you're on this list, so you expected that, right?
DISTRIBUTION: Want it? Take it. Just give me credit.
FEEDBACK: Please! I'm always nervous as all heck when I enter a new fandom. Encouragement is always welcomed and responded to. And if there's anything that you feel is off about the characterization etc., please tell me so I can improve.
DISCLAIMERS: I don't own Jurassic Park or any of the characters or concepts therein. They belong to a variety of people with far more money than me. Please don't sue - I'm a helpless Canadian student.
MORE NOTES: I've only seen the movie once at this point, so please forgive any minor dialogue or continuity errors.
DEDICATION: For kaly, of course. You just had to
drag me into this, didn't you?
You'd think that I, of all people, would understand that
nothing in life is to be taken for granted. My experiences
in Hammond's Jurassic Park taught me a lot.
Evidently not enough.
Eric is only 14 years old and he's learned more from life
than I have. The young have such flexible minds. "You
should tell her" he says.
He's almost right. Better to say I should have told him.
Billy.
How could I have said something so hurtful to him when
I knew that the odds were against both of us - hell, any of
us - making it off this island alive? Over and over I've
told myself I had time. I didn't have to rush things. Billy
was just pushing because he was impatient.
How could I let me last words to him be so cruel? Billy
only wanted to reach out and touch his dreams. He
wasn't afraid to live. Or afraid to die.
I think the wondering will haunt me for the rest of my
life. Would he have launched himself off that cliff so
quickly if he hadn't been trying to prove himself to me?
Would he have made it if I hadn't left him to the
Pteranodons? Did he believe I hated him? Does he hate
me for abandoning him?
It's my fault he's gone. I dragged him along on this
damned suicide trip. I pushed him away. I'm guilty of
that.
I've learned something here, too.
When your dream passes right in front of you, don't be
afraid to reach out and take it.
--End--